I know experiencers can come off as having a mental illness, I believe its because the experiences have been so profound and just fully changed our perspective of life and being that it is hard to quantify in writing to explain all of it, but I feel it comes from starting to see patterns, looking for an answer, finding others, and more often then not that person will still with that "hypothesis" aka what is this "all". I worte the below in my own words, but asked LLM to present it clearer because (speaking for myself), im working backwards from where Im at now, versus what we normally experience which is working forwards from a defining moment or past memories. But it feels more like an ahah! moment then something that starts in the past and you move forward from. It also is missing a likely books worth of other weird shit, but I wanted to provide some brevity to a post no one will likely ready through. Below is that narrative.

From my own experience (and I don't claim to summon this stuff), these lights and 'experiences' have been in my life for a while. I'm on an alt account, not claiming to be a whistleblower - I can't build credibility on a random forum. I'm well-to-do, extremely blessed with my life, and if you saw me, you'd think 'a little unorthodox but highly respected in their field - why are they talking about weird lights in the sky?' That's the reaction I typically get.

I've seen this stuff my entire life. I'm in my 30s and have always looked up. Nothing super traumatic in my life - good parents, dad was a preacher but never forced me one way or another. Science comes first; in fact, it's part of what I do for work. I've seen orbs/lights and had interactions with beings, but never told many people. Some friends are like 'cool, that's awesome' while others say 'haha, my wife's a doctor, and she thinks you might need help.'

The funny thing is it's also affected those around me. I'm going through a spicy divorce with a super religious woman (I'm spiritual but never claimed a religion). She started being harassed by lights since we met, after I opened up about it.

My brother, who had the same great father and from his perspective (different mother) still non-traumatic upbringing, but chose a more self-destructive path, came back into my life. He's also had experiences since living with me, including telepathic conversations, seeing craft, and weird lights approaching our house.

A telling incident happened with my best friend (the one with the doctor wife). Two weeks after visiting their northern Maine home, where I opened up about my experiences around a campfire without seeing anything that night, he reached out with an unexpected phone call. We usually stick to texting and Discord, with occasional long calls to catch up. He explained that his wife's office partner and their husband had pointed out two bright lights above my friends house while outside around the campfire - they saw these things dancing around. Doing things he has never seen (hes pretty grounded nonsensical dude) He said they became more receptive after being open to the idea,

Recently, my father opened up about his own experience (his perspective, like Chris's, is that these are religious experiences) this was after I opened up about my own, again dad was blue collar, warehouse guy, retired, on fixed income now with my mother. When my oldest brother was an infant, he woke up - could have been sleep paralysis, which I've experienced myself - and saw a bluish human-like figure standing over my brother. The figure told my father (I assume telepathically, based on his description) that "we will protect your son, and your future son." This happened decades before I was born, during his previous marriage.

I've had meaningful conversations with religious leaders about these experiences. One was a landlord I randomly ended up with, thousands of miles away. When I arrived at his home, I found he had books about orbs, lights, and other spectrums we can't see. He was paid to travel and discuss these phenomena, though he was somewhat standoffish when I shared my own experiences. Two other religious leaders - one Oxford-educated with multiple graduate degrees including theology, and another from an American Church of Science (not Scientology) - helped me understand my near-death experience (NDE) and out-of-body experience (OBE).

I've had two significant experiences myself. The first happened when I was young, falling off a bridge while swimming. I felt like I died, sank, and went to what felt like a waiting room where I was told "you're here too early." The second OBE occurred shortly after basic training, while home on leave - no drugs or alcohol involved. It started with sleep paralysis, which I believe was stress-induced. I'd start to slip into sleep, open my eyes, and couldn't move. I'd hear something breathing, feel pressure, and see weird shadows. After researching it and learning to stay calm, I found I could rock back and forth with my mind while physically immobile. Eventually, I rolled out and saw myself sleeping, hearing my muffled snoring. I realized the pressure I'd felt was just my fully relaxed body.

Things quieted down for a while until the recent experiences with my wife and friends. I've been shown what I'd call "doomsday" stuff, but also completely peaceful things. I don't see it as prophecy, but I can relate to Chris's experiences. Since capturing my first evidence (which was published and I profited from), I haven't felt the need to prove anything to anyone. I've noticed that whenever someone becomes open to these experiences, they seem to invite them in. What I've been shown ranges from fear to bliss, from excitement to chaos. While I don't share Chris's exact hypothesis, I feel that's the point. I do believe its trying to say "youll survive this, but these are the paths we can choose and you as a conscious being are the path chooser" (my take of course).

I had these experiences years before finding this literature and fucking rabbit hole. Sometimes I've asked for a sign that I'm not crazy, and it comes in both prosaic and extraordinary ways - like seeing the ISS pass overhead right as I open my eyes after having these internal monologues with myself or witnessing a meteor streak across the sky just after discussing a recent experience with in a second of finishing, or having a deep conversation with my brother only to step outside and see what I presume was a fireball fly directly over the house and appear to continue on beyond our field of view (which im on a mountain top facing lower altitude mountains and can see as far as the haze will allow) with my nodes further.

As a computer guy, I try to attribute this to chance, luck, and coincidence. But at some point, the patterns become overwhelming for the experiencer, forcing us to have these conversations with others to back up what we are seeing/feeling/hearing whatever, The weird thing is, the more people I tell (online and off), the more I encounter others with similar experiences. But no one can quite quantify the meaning or reason behind it all. That's why I don't focus on tracking specific dates or trying to predict events.While it surely isnt everyone, and even after some of the more prophetic shared experiences will be skeptical but its only of themselves and what they have been taught (understandable).

This is why people like Avi and others are trying to back the very real optical data and other things reported coming from these things, so science can catch up.

This was long and doenst even scratch the surface. This has happened across homes, ive been tested for sleep apenea (dont have it), its happened outside, inside, its happened to others without me being there and me being there. Some experiences I think become skeptics of others because its not quantifiable, the only known things I have are autism and adhd, severe adhd since I was a child hooked up to monitors and did lots of the testing alone away from my parents, I was never "school" talented but blossomed out of school with my own education in doing what I wanted, in the military I was pulled aside during basic and given clearance, was pulled on the last day of basic (well day before graduation), into a side office along with a few others (individually) asked about my past, general interests, and then told my old record (I had a felony as a child for a computer crimes thing (hacked a state level system to change serial numbers on the schools laptop program, football players were stealing them and I was selling them), the thing is I never mentioned that and was stilll allowed to sign (not a proud moment, but eye opening at how much the fbi can get on you (they were at my parents house had all the screenshots and messages and console pictures, funny enough my parents called a friends home phone (pre everyone having cell phones) and my mom said "you need to come home now the police are here!" by dad very loudly said "and never swears" "its the fucking fbi paula".

Ever since then ive made the right choices and much like Chris, the government got back in my life again on this topic but more so on the technology side of it. (basically helping scientists get quality data on this shit much like avi loeb is working to do). I dont claim its related but havent opened up to them about these things to them about it (unless they were tracking), but I wish I could elaborate on theses pieces but its not really exciting to anyone in the subject just another pattern that randomly introduce it self into my life.

One of my captures, is being quantified by the government, supposedly going into congress (specifically AARO after investigation is done). But that same optical data I captured has been out in the media what youd call "mainstream" and the "alt media", with something going out later in the year that is from a scientific publication standpoint and on what we would coin "cable". All with the government allowing me to back the capture and take these interviews. (I dont get into the woo).

The NDA game is real, and im not a contractor nor am I an employee of anything related to the government, ive for sure worked massive scale projects that the dod/government have worked on but it was never "hush hush", I only wont say here because its reddit but its public on my linkedin and resume I was invited after some of my work was broadcasted at one of our National Labs to scientists and the like to talk about my work, and since that moment ive been invited to more meetings and introduced to a lot of the people (more sane, those that are fact based, and military/ic) that we see on some of the pod cast circles and some big science.

Its been a fucking weird journey, and I hope this post is low viewership, I dont think I need to quantify my experience with anyone, but I do see the same patterns ALOT of folks are talking in the more public realm.


Again you dont know me from jack, and I am not here to change your perspective, but I can see why the ISS thing jumped out to him, but we can rule that under statistically anomaly over true UAP experience if you are coming in this without your own experiences.

Ive tried to read (I have about 300-400 hours a year reading/listening) since the Grusch hearing (which kicked of this new phase of my experience) on this subject, history, self help, everything but I have covered a ton of theses and consciousness, and I swear I didnt come to these conclusions post reading, but a lot of these books and the reverse hypno stuff (which I cant say I see a science based fact there) just is so similar in my own that it resonates. I think it does to a lot of folks.

Well that wasnt fucking short, I didnt become a born again, I do feel more spiritual, I do believe the creator, i dont subscribe to hard dates or this being one way or the other, fuck it could be a psyop, alien or prosaic, but if any one of those things is true or its something in the food, any out come is massive for humanity, or americans.