Saturday, September 08, 2012
11:20 PM - Cicadus: Vivo, it's not because I'm wanting to escort Celestia around. (ANd yes, I know why you are using that comparison)  It's because it's people going over my head with my own arc.  The original vision I had for it?  Burned to ash.  Just like my IRL D&D campaigns because I gave my players to much patience and freedom that they didn't reciprocate
11:22 PM - Vivo™: Yes, you're excused and allowed to put me down as much as you like because of that.
11:23 PM - Cicadus: why would I put you down?  YOu have nothing to do with it.  The only put down made was you making me seem childish with such a reason as that.
11:24 PM - Cicadus: the hurr durr was a joke, because I had no clue what the voice could be, and knowing now that it was your own, I could see why you'd be insulted, but it was a joke made by someone just throwing something out that he thought would be funny
11:24 PM - Vivo™: Calling any aspect of someone's character "Hurr Durr" is down right insulting.
11:27 PM - Cicadus: well, now at least you know what I had to put up with all the time. "lolol feminine colt" SOrry if you think I'm taking it out on you.
11:28 PM - Vivo™ shakes his head, "All I'm seeing from you right now is excuses or reasons who you believe what you did was acceptable."
11:29 PM - Vivo™: If all you're here to do is to try and prove to me that you've had it so bad and that justifies your behavior or minimalizes my feelings than you can just find something else to do because I'd rather not hear it.
11:30 PM - Cicadus: fine... but I don't know what the fuck else to do.  Every time I try to open up to somebody, even when I did it in a nice way, they had nothing for me.
11:31 PM - Cicadus: some of them people who I have helped extensively
11:33 PM - Cicadus: I used to give so much and get so little in return.  It's why I stopped making threads for people all the time when they would be talking about boredom.
11:33 PM - Cicadus: and then there was the recent incident with sarge jumping the gun on me, after I had waited for so long for him to post in other things.
11:34 PM - Cicadus: the one time I needed him to wait on me, I don't get it
11:35 PM - Cicadus: and you probalby think I'm just giving more excuses... I'm sorry.
11:36 PM - Cicadus: What can I do to have you not stay angry at me?
11:38 PM - Vivo™: Whys it matter?
11:40 PM - Cicadus: cuz I still want to have fun with you, and I just can't stand the thought of it.  I'm paranoid that if anyone is upset with me that they're going to start turning others against me and everything goes bad from there.  I have white-christian-straight-male syndrome.  I am the perfect target for just about anything.
11:41 PM - Vivo™: So you're just trying to make yourself feel better
11:41 PM - Vivo™: ?
11:42 PM - Cicadus: welll... yes...
11:42 PM - Vivo™: Then you're not here to apologize, you just want to not feel guilt.
11:43 PM - Cicadus: yes
11:43 PM - Cicadus: well, not... ugh... sort of
11:44 PM - Cicadus: I did want to appoloogize because I had no clue you did the voice of Vivo, thnking that maybe you used some silly actor's voice
11:44 PM - Cicadus: I also don't want to feel as guilty for it, yes
11:45 PM - Vivo™: So if I wasn't the voice it'd be okay to call Vivo's voice hurp durp
11:45 PM - Vivo™: ?
11:45 PM - Cicadus: no, it wouldn't be.
11:47 PM - Cicadus: I dont want the guilt to go away because then nothing would have been learned.
11:47 PM - Cicadus: go away completely* that is
11:49 PM - Cicadus: I just mostly want you to know where I was coming from when I made the (bad) joke
11:52 PM - Cicadus: so... yeah
11:53 PM - Cicadus: and to be fair, you used the Celestia thing because you knew it would rub me the wrong way, given what I've told you before
11:55 PM - Cicadus: which frankly insults me just as much, given that I opened up to you about something and you used it against me.
11:56 PM - Vivo™: Just stop talking to me
11:57 PM - Vivo™: I have no idea what you're talking about "Used against you". It's public knowledge your mad that Celestia did that thread without you.
11:57 PM - Vivo™: And just over and over again you can't just be sorry can you? You have a reason for everything. You can't just say "Vivo, I'm sorry I hurt your feelings, that was uncalled for." That's all you needed to say
11:57 PM - Vivo™: But no
11:57 PM - Vivo™: You look for reasons
11:57 PM - Vivo™: Why it was acceptable
11:57 PM - Vivo™: How hard things have been
11:57 PM - Vivo™: What I've done wrong
11:58 PM - Vivo™: All you needed to do to make me not pissed at you, was one genuine apology
11:58 PM - Vivo™: And you can't even do that
11:58 PM - Vivo™: So just stop talking to me and have a lovely evening.
Sunday, September 09, 2012
12:03 AM - Vivo™: I asked you to stop talking to me for the evening and I see you're typing so to take away that temptation of more reasoning on your end I'm cutting communications for now.