what makes you people think its ok to treat me like this? i always stop myself from being mean and insensitive because of the you know umm "~~^**~golden rule~~^**~" ..... but that doesn't work here or well i guess it doesnt apply to unattractive untalented unfunny uncool people. but i am cool. i'm not the coolest person in the world by any means and im absolutely talentless but i definitely hit the cool mark - at least in terms of film and music and online humor or whatevr... but i'm still ugly so that cancels out the coolness...... but back to my initial question: why is it ok to treat someone who has been nothing but nice, who often gives her whole entire heart and soul to people and things, like she's bottom of the barrel garbage? it makes me so much more disillusioned with people and with the universe in general. do i become mean to accompany the release of my vindictive feelings, resent and vengeance ? im bitter. i am really really bitter and it's already hard enough to hide it but whats the point in that now...?????? but then what if -- knowing my chronic bad luck -- karma is suddenly applied to me again? its risky but im at rock bottom so maybe its time to take that risk. but then it might as well be time to put the bullet in my head. and it _is_ that time! nobody gets to pretend to feel bad. all i want is for everyone to admit that they treat ugly people like third class citizens , that they base peoples worth on how they look and how much money/clout they have , and nothing else!!!! "it's the personality that counts!" is this world's Biggest lie and i am tired of hearing it.. so to conclude : people treat me this way over something i have zero control over , _even_ though i'm kind and good-hearted ......... and im expected to just accept that and live that way ha ha ha ha !!!!!!!!!! no thank you. my options are as stated above (become inconsiderate and vengeful or just k*ll myself) and i am in favor of not living period so you know what that means