Updates (12/10/2022)

Hey, I just wanted to let everyone know that I obviously haven't been dead as I've basically just been posting Shiny Pokemons and Horizontal Slash Berserk Charge Terra in First Person View on Twitter. I do have a few updates as I am typing this Pastebin since I don't know what I want to do at the moment.

- Computer
Before I moved on November 15th, my computer was basically working just fine. Once I moved though and got my computer set up, it was having trouble booting up until I removed my main hard drive. Basically what happened I guess was that my hard drive somehow got Malware on it while the motherboard was failing. Got it taken into a Computer Medic the next day so that he can figure out the issue, then did a Data Transfer with the portable 2 TB hard drive I bought once the issues were found. The Data Transfer partially went through up until where it was just stuck (might have been because it wasn't a 3.0 USB), had to buy another and bigger portable hard drive, then the 1st part of the Data Transfer fully finished. From there, we basically had to buy a new computer since it would probably just be better considering my computer was built around October 2016.

Once Black Friday/Cyber Monday sales came around, my mom and I bought myself a new computer from Newegg. Unfortunately it was from a seller with bad reviews and bad ratings, so the computer basically never shipped and got the order canceled shortly after they kept changing when they said they would ship the computer out. We found another computer from IBuyPower and it arrived within a few days of ordering it. When it arrived yesterday, we took it to the Computer Medic immediately to finish the 2nd part of the Data Transfer and it should be done either tomorrow or Monday.

- Stream Stuff
The last time I've streamed was for my KH2FM Rando Tourney race with Ragnoth on November 19th with a super scuffed setup on my laptop. I did lose that race mostly due to my laptop not being able to play KH2FM Rando and stream at the same time, so it caused a lot of slowdowns. Although I am glad that I lost so that I wouldn't have to deal with the slowdowns again, it does suck a lot that it made me realized that I couldn't really stream KH2FM Rando at all on my laptop even if I was excited to stream more with the new Fiber internet and was able to stream at 6k Bitrate without dropping a single frame. I probably could have streamed other stuff like maybe Pokemon Scarlet, but wanted to wait for my computer since my Laptop has 8 GB of RAM while my Computer has 32 GB of RAM.

When I do get my new computer back with the Data Transfer being completely done either tomorrow or Monday, I'm probably gonna take a day to get it set up, then get back to streaming the next day with either KH2FM Rando, chill with Crisis Core Reunion, or both maybe. I will also need help with what my new stream settings will be like considering I now have Fiber internet, so I can easily push the Bitrate to 6,000 and stream at 1080p, 60 FPS. Stream-wise, I am excited to make use of Fiber internet.

- Personal Stuff/How I've Been Feeling
I've basically been almost an entire month without my computer at this point, which it has affected me mentally a lot as of recently. Since my computer has been with the Computer Medic, I've just been using my laptop while waiting. I bought Pokemon Scarlet the day it came out so that I have something to play and something to do along with hopefully be able to help one of my best friends with Scarlet exclusives since she bought Violet. At this point for Pokemon Scarlet, I got the Pokedex to 100% 2 and a half weeks ago and basically just been hunting Shiny Pokemon by myself. While hunting Shiny Pokemon, I rewatched all of Bleach without fillers (skipped all filler episodes) along with the 4 movies due to being excited about the Thousand Year Blood War since I haven't seen Bleach in years. By the time I was done rewatching Bleach, my 2nd new computer (from IBuyPower) has already been shipped and I was getting bored of hunting Shiny Pokemon by myself.

Recently I've been wanting to lay down in bed a lot more and unfortunately been thinking of myself in a negative way like self-hating myself, feeling like I can't do almost anything considering I just have my laptop which can't really run FFXIV at all and can't stream KH2FM Rando, and being afraid to reach out and talk to my friends due to having a lot of anxiety no matter what if they tell me that I can reach out to them whenever. I've also been feeling like I have no idea what to do at all especially for what to do on my Birthday in about 9 days from now on the 19th. I wish I was able to just hang out and do stuff with my friends more since I really enjoy doing stuff with my friends rather than just being alone by myself. I have also considered maybe getting into a relationship, except that unfortunately clashes with how I think about relationships ending up being bad or not lasting long regardless. Although I think that is pretty much because of being with my dad for so long and seeing that all of his relationships ended very badly. Basically I just hate being alone and by myself.

- Ending
Once I get my new computer back from finalizing the Data Transfer tomorrow or Monday, I should hopefully be happier since I won't be stuck using my Laptop anymore and I'll be able to do stuff that I used to be able to do like streaming KH2FM Rando and play FFXIV. I might have a idea what to do for my Birthday stream, but still unsure at the moment. Thanks for reading if you got this far into the Pastebin.