Chatlog between radelgrill and themindgamer@gmail.com on Saturday, July 10, 2010 at 00:15:12
[00:15] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Hey. Stop crying.
[00:15] radelgrill: Then put in some effort
[00:15] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: ...I am.
[00:15] radelgrill: No you aren't
[00:15] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Yes I am.
[00:15] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: If I wasn't, I wouldn't be leaving the chats.
[00:16] radelgrill: But what do you do when you leave
[00:16] radelgrill: "~_~"
[00:16] radelgrill: "Ugh"
[00:16] radelgrill: You know how much that hurts?
[00:16] radelgrill: I don't do that when I see you
[00:17] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: You might as well have used to.
[00:17] radelgrill: Sigh
[00:17] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I can't exactly control my current temperment.
[00:17] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I can try, but it's not working.
[00:18] radelgrill: I can relate
[00:18] radelgrill: And I don't blame you for acting that way
[00:18] radelgrill: But I don't know
[00:18] radelgrill: I truly have been making an effort
[00:18] radelgrill: I can't say that enough
[00:19] radelgrill: And if you won't tell me what I need to do, then I can't do anything
[00:19] radelgrill: If it's to disappear, then you'll have that on Sunday
[00:20] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Look how long consistant poor treatment took to make me this way.
[00:20] radelgrill: I'm sorry
[00:20] radelgrill: But I can' t take that back
[00:20] radelgrill: I would if I could
[00:20] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: The only way you're gonna get me back to normal is to just stay nice.
[00:20] radelgrill: But I can't
[00:21] radelgrill: Okay
[00:21] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I don't want to be aggressive.
[00:21] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: That's why I leave.
[00:21] radelgrill: Don't make those little negative emotes and comments when you leave
[00:21] radelgrill: If nothing else
[00:21] radelgrill: Just say bye and go
[00:21] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I can try.
[00:21] radelgrill: That's all I'll ask for now
[00:22] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: You won't be satsfied, though. >_>
[00:22] radelgrill: No
[00:22] radelgrill: But what else can I do
[00:22] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: You'll just get mad.
[00:22] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: And attack me for something.
[00:22] radelgrill: I try not too
[00:23] radelgrill: And you usually start it, if anything
[00:23] radelgrill: By saying something negative
[00:23] radelgrill: Unless I'm crazy
[00:23] radelgrill: I've been holding back a lot
[00:23] radelgrill: My anger yesterday was more caused by RPG than you
[00:24] radelgrill: If that counts for anything
[00:25] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I don't even remember yesterday...
[00:25] radelgrill: The WGC thing
[00:25] radelgrill: About letting people in who weren't active
[00:25] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: What did I do?
[00:26] radelgrill: I don't know
[00:26] radelgrill: We argued for a bit, and then you said
[00:26] radelgrill: "Radel's mad, I better go."
[00:26] radelgrill: Or something like that
[00:27] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Oh. I think I was actually relatively calm, but it started to look like you were getting mad at me for arguing with you, so I left.
[00:28] radelgrill: I wasn't getting mad at you though
[00:28] radelgrill: Just the choice that you and RPG made
[00:29] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: You're always mad at me, though.
[00:29] radelgrill: Not anymore
[00:29] radelgrill: I'm usually neutral now
[00:30] radelgrill: And then you say something passive aggressive that sets me off
[00:30] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I'm only passive aggressive because I'm restraining regular aggression.
[00:30] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: But... why are you "neutral"?
[00:30] radelgrill: Because it's one thing when it's you and me fighting
[00:31] radelgrill: But now it's starting to noticeably effect the board
[00:31] radelgrill: So I decided getting mad at your sight was excessive
[00:31] radelgrill: So I worked to restrain myself as best I could
[00:32] radelgrill: And eventually I just lost most of my inclination to call you out or insult you
[00:33] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I just up and started avoiding you a while back.
[00:33] radelgrill: I know
[00:33] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Cause you make me uncomfortable.
[00:33] radelgrill: Yes
[00:34] radelgrill: But I can't do anything about that
[00:34] radelgrill: Why do you think I was masquerading as someone else the other night?
[00:35] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I don't know. So you could laugh at me not knowing. Or attack me without fear of me getting as mad.
[00:35] radelgrill: Those are totally wrong
[00:35] radelgrill: I did it because I didn't want you to leave chat on my accord
[00:36] radelgrill: And other people didn't want you to
[00:36] radelgrill: It wasn't even my idea at first
[00:36] radelgrill: I think Kain asked me to do it
[00:36] radelgrill: But I figured that would be a good solution
[00:36] radelgrill: Until Hell spilled the beans
[00:37] radelgrill: I wasn't planning to attack you
[00:37] radelgrill: I never plan to attack you
[00:38] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Yeah. That's a bit weird. Those types of things just happen.
[00:38] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: It wasn't until you slipped up with your speech patterns that I recognized you, though.
[00:39] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: He never told me who you were.
[00:39] radelgrill: But when he referred to me as Ray, I figured it was all over
[00:40] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: When was that. I think I missed it.
[00:40] radelgrill: I don't know
[00:40] radelgrill: But at the point right before my speech pattern changed, he called me Ray in chat
[00:41] radelgrill: I figured there was a slight chance that you didn't notice what he said
[00:41] radelgrill: But I decided the gig was up
[00:41] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I don't recall if I noticed.
[00:41] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I was looking for speech patterns.
[00:41] radelgrill: But that's what happened
[00:42] radelgrill: If you recognized sometime before I changed back to the way I normally talk, then I don't know
[00:42] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I may have.
[00:42] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: That would explain why I don't remember "Ray" being a tipoff.
[00:43] radelgrill: That's besides the point though
[00:43] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I guess...
[00:43] radelgrill: So does that not matter at all?
[00:43] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: What?
[00:44] radelgrill: That little effort there?
[00:44] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: A little. If its genuine.
[00:44] radelgrill: It is
[00:44] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: But it won't be enough.
[00:44] radelgrill: I know
[00:45] radelgrill: Nothing was ever enough in the first place
[00:45] radelgrill: But also
[00:45] radelgrill: I know my feelings don't matter in this
[00:45] radelgrill: But think of everyone else
[00:45] radelgrill: The people in chat
[00:45] radelgrill: If anything, do it from them
[00:46] radelgrill: They don't like seeing you this way
[00:46] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I'm not sure how wise this is to say, but, hell, your feelings do still matter some.
[00:47] radelgrill: Go ahead
[00:48] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: What?
[00:48] radelgrill: You were typing something
[00:48] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I've forgotten.
[00:49] radelgrill: Then I'm just going to reiterate
[00:49] radelgrill: If not for me, do something for everyone else
[00:49] radelgrill: Don't let me change how you treat others
[00:49] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I don't like being mean.
[00:50] radelgrill: I know you don't
[00:50] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: ._.
[00:50] radelgrill: It's against everything that is you
[00:50] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Sigh...
[00:50] radelgrill: But that's all I have to say
[00:52] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Just be patient.
[00:53] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: If you mean what you say, I'll come around.
[00:53] radelgrill: Okay
[00:53] radelgrill: And as everyone says now
[00:53] radelgrill: 3 weeks will hopefully do the both of us good
[00:54] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Don't worry. The ice witch will keep me plenty stressed in your absense.
[00:54] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: *absence
[00:54] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: <_<
[00:54] radelgrill: Oh good
[00:55] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: >_>
[00:55] radelgrill: Hm?
[00:57] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Nothing, I guess.
[00:57] radelgrill: Ah, okay
[00:57] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Wish Casey was around more...
[00:57] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Meh.
[00:58] radelgrill: But you've got people to keep you buzy
[00:58] radelgrill: busy
[00:58] radelgrill: That always helps
[00:59] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: The calming ones aren't on enough.
[00:59] radelgrill: Tell them to be one more
[00:59] radelgrill: on rather
[01:00] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Most of them can't.
[01:00] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Casey. Pig. Zeph.
[01:00] radelgrill: Ah
[01:00] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Sawbone
[01:00] radelgrill: What about RPG?
[01:01] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: He's around fairly often, but too much RPG can be a little taxing too.
[01:01] radelgrill: Yeah
[01:01] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Though not nearly as much as it used to.
[01:01] radelgrill: He was sort of unbearable yesterday
[01:02] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: ?
[01:02] radelgrill: We were talking about life
[01:02] radelgrill: And he was saying how great it would be to live forever
[01:02] radelgrill: And something said something about opinions that really pissed off Kedith
[01:02] radelgrill: Because they got into a fight over it
[01:03] radelgrill: And then me and RPG were arguing about life pretty much
[01:03] radelgrill: And whether or not it would be great to live forever
[01:03] radelgrill: And it was just stupid
[01:04] radelgrill: Like, I just don't care if he thinks life is great and never gets boring and all
[01:04] radelgrill: But I don't want to live 500 years
[01:04] radelgrill: 90 is plenty enough for me
[01:04] radelgrill: And the prospect of no longer existing doesn't bug me in the least
[01:04] radelgrill: Because I won't care after I'm dead
[01:04] radelgrill: Because I won't be able to think due to not existing
[01:06] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: I see where you're both coming from.
[01:06] radelgrill: But still
[01:06] radelgrill: It's not really something you can argue about
[01:06] radelgrill: I see life one way, he sees it another
[01:07] radelgrill: I understood him, but that's just not my perspective
[01:08] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Personally, it doesn't matter to me either way.
[01:08] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Life and death aren't worth the effort to switch between.
[01:08] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: It's usually painful, too.
[01:09] radelgrill: I think I'll be off to bed
[01:09] TheMindGamer@gmail.com: Alright. Sleep well.
[01:09] radelgrill: Early morning tomorrow
[01:09] radelgrill: Bye bye