Hiraeth

❝ CALC. ❞
USERNAME | @GlisteningHobi
PASSWORD | Promise - Ateez | Tempo - EXO | Treasue - Ateez

❝ SPINNING SONG ❞
SLOT | Call you mine
FACE CLAIM | Mingi (Ateez)
BACKUP FACE CLAIM | Xiaojun (WayV)

❝ IRONY ❞
BIRTH NAME | Lee Jaemin
OTHER NAME | Jackson Lee
NICKNAMES | Jack & Jae; Shortened version of his English and Korean name | Lee; his friends in England got confused when he introduced himself with his surname first so they though Lee was his first name. | Jackson Van Gogh; he is a huge fan of art and is often drawing and canvas painting.
CODE NAME | Jack
BIRTHDATE | 21st July 1998
AGE | 21

❝ DEEP SEA GIRL ❞
NATIONALITY | Korean-English
ETHNICITY | Korean-English
BIRTHPLACE | Hackney, East London
HOMETOWN | Croydon, South London

FAMILY |
Lee Jiwon | 46 | Dead | Dentist | Mother | n/a
Harrison Lee | 50 | Alive | Neurosurgeon | Father | 0/10
Jason Lee / Lee Junghoon | 25 | Unknown| n/a | Brother | 0/10
Jasmine Lee / Lee Jiseul | 27 | Alive | Model | Sister | 5/10
LANGUAGES | Korean & English | Having both an English and Korean parent, they talked in both English and Korean around them so he picked up bits of the language. Also in school, they taught him English when he was in Nursery up until year 4.

❝ SERVANT OF EVIL ❞
HEIGHT | 183cm
WEIGHT | 75kg
BLOOD TYPE | B

❝ REGRET MESSAGE ❞
PERSONALITY |
Jaemin is definitely emotionally unstable. At the most random of times, these weird feelings would shoot through his mind and he wouldn't be able to pinpoint where they are coming from but they would be there. Usually when this happens, he has no control over his actions and does very questionable and out-of-character things. This can make him have major outbursts of rage and anger which he can't control. He is a fighter and doesn't give up easily. He can be very impulsive and often does things without properly thnking it through. If someone says he cannot do something due to his condition, he will train and practice extra hard so that next time, they have no reason to refuse him. He is extremely damaged and vulnerable, due to him having amnesia, he does not remember a significant amount of his life and so he can be easily manipulated into doing things. However, he can sometimes tell when something is wrong or feels wrong. It is like a 6th sense. He can sometimes get really confused because when things are going on too quickly, he doesn't have enough time to process it since he needs a bit more time to do so becaus eof his amnesia. He feels alone a lot of the time because he doesn't know who his family are and when he woke up from his coma, there was nobody there to see him. He felt isolated and worthless. He is quite independent because he doesn't like feeling as if he is disrupting someone with something he can easily do himself and also after, he woke from his coma, he has had to look after himself. He is extremely loyal to the Machitas due to everything that they had done for him and it is because of this that he always do what they ask him to. He feels as if he owes his life to them.

BACKGROUND |
Jaemin was born in Hackney, East London but grew up in Croydon, South London. Croydon is widely known as a very dangerous place, with stabbings and murders and thefts happening almost everyday. You wouldn't be able to leave the house without walking into some kind of situation happening. At the time, her family were involved in suspicious and incriminating business with a certain gang living in Hackney. They bought and sold drugs, trafficked women and a lot more terrible things. Jaemin's mum wanted out because she didn't believe in what they were doing and what they stood for. They were scared that she would tell the police and get them arrested so one day while Jaemin was in school, his dad and some other members of the gang planned to blow up their house because not only would they get the insurance money but also they would kill his wife inside. So while they thought he was at school, he blew the house up. Sadly, Jaemin's mum died on impact. What his dad hadn't realised was that Jaemin was actually home since school ended early that day and so when they found him, coughing and spluttering blood, in fear of him snitching, they dumped his body in the alleyway of a random pub. Luckily for him, someone found him whilst throwing some rubbish away and immediately called the ambulance where he was immediately rushed to hospital. When he got to the hospital, he fell into a coma. His coma lasted for 8 months and in those 8 months, not one person came to visit him. He woke up with no recollection of who he was, where he was or why he was there. He had nowhere to go once he was released from hospital and had no idea how to live on his own. However, the Machitas found him and took him in as their own. They trained him, fed him and gave him shelter.

LIKES |
+ Helping people
+ Painting (brush and spray painting) and drawing
+ Going on late night walks
+ Wearing snapbacks
+ Exercising
+ Boxing because it is a good way to let off steam
+ Bucket hats
+ Good listeners
+ Swimming

DISLIKES |
+ Unecessary hatred towards people
+ Chocolate (especially hot chocolate)
+ When people have no respect
+ Cheese
+ Being seen as broken
+ Being pitied
+ When people ask about his past
+ Insects

TRIVIA |
+ He got into art when he was 16. He was often drawing depictions of life around him often accentuating certain parts for affect. He often had flashbacks of random things and instead of questioning them, he would draw what he could remember of them.
+ He is very knowledgeable in the field of combat styles and it is as if it comes naturally to him. Whenever people ask him where he learnt all of these combat styles, he can never give an answer because he never knows.
+ He has amnesia and has had it since he was 15 years old due to an "accident" he was involved in when he was younger.
+ He had never had a proper birthday.
+ He has a high metabolism
+ He has a scar on his upper arm and the side of his torso due to the accident he was in.
+ He feels like he sometimes holds the team back due to them having to slow down in certain classes so he can catch up and he feels truly sorry for that.
+ Before his accident, he was top of the class in many of his subjects including maths, history and science. However, his favourite lesson was art and physical education.
+ He has an infrequent nightmare about him being trapped in an exploding building but he doesn't know why it comes and goes and why he has the dream in the first place.

HOBBIES |
+ Learning combat styles
+ Art

HABITS |
+ Licking his lips
+ Clicking his neck, back and knuckles
+ Running his fingers through his hair
+ When he is stressed out, he constantly chews gum and one time he finished a jumbo pack of gum in 3 days.
+ Blinking a lot

❝ LOST ONE'S WEEPING ❞
STRENGTH(S) |
+ His wide knowledge of combat skills
+ His loyalty
+ Bravery
+ His dedication

WEAKNESS(ES) |
+ His memory
+ His loyalty
+ Impulsiveness
+ His out-of-control emotions

FEAR(S) |
+ Never being able to gain his memory
+ Never being able to fight

WEAPON |
+ Uzi submachine gun / Mini uzi
+ Semiautomatic pistol
+ Assortment of throwing knives
+ Very skilled with his hands

COMBAT STYLE |
+ Muay Thai
+ Judo
+ Sanda
+ Hapkido
+ Krav maga

❝ SOLEIL ❞
RATINGS |
— STAMINA | 10/10
— ENDURANCE | 9/10
— SPEED | 7/10
— ADAPTABILITY | 10/10
— AWARENESS | 4/10

❝ IKANAIDE ❞
THOUGHTS ON THE OPPOSING SIDES | Anyone that is against his side is his enemy, he is extremely loyal to his side and wouldn't let anything or anyone hurt his team. He hates what they believe in and how callous they are.

THOUGHTS ON YOUR OWN SIDE | He is always very grateful for them being there because if it wasn't for them, he would definitely be dead. They saved his life and took him in and provided for him when nobody else could. They are like his family and he forever grateful to them.

THOUGHTS ON YOUR TEAM | They are like his brothers and sisters and will always stand by their side. He would do anything for them and would go as far as putting his life on the line for them.

QUOTES |
+ "Let's avenge all our fallen soldiers!"
+ "These strange feelings just come and go and it is like they are eating away at me from the inside out. How do I control it?"
THEME SONG(S) | Body - Mino OR Bullshit - G-Dragon

REQUESTED SCENES |
+ Having a strange flashback about an exploding building but not knowing where it was from. He gets really distressed and startes experiencing a headache and so he finds a place to rest while it is happening. He decides to go and find someone to spar with to release some stress.
+ Finding out something about his past by accidentally overhearing something he wasn't supposed to. He goes to find someone and end up finding THE NIGHTS and breaks down in front of her and she comforts him. In a moment of loneliness and vulnerability, he leaned in and kissed her. She kisses back and they get a bit carried away until they realise what they are doing and both pull away and he quickly leaves the room.

❝ SOLITARY ENVY ❞
MESSAGE TO THE OPPOSING SIDE | Be careful because once we are in, there is no hiding. We can and we will destroy you so give us your best shot.
MESSAGE TO YOUR SIDE | Thank you so much for everything you have done for me. I will stand by you forever and I hope you can always see the good in me even when I am not in the best way.
MESSAGE TO YOUR TEAM | I love you guys! You have seen me at my worst and hopefully you will see me at my best. I just wanted to let you know I love all of you and I appreciate you guys being so patient and calm with me.
MESSAGE TO ME | I came across this apply fic by accident but I am happy about it. I hope this af does really well. Don't overwork yourself.
EXTRA | nope, nothing that I can think of