The Sad Tale of Dee Dee Poodlenoodle, an autistic boy's toon

It's a long story as to why, but... I get very emotional telling it
Let's just say... This toon mean't a lot to me the 5 years I've played
Ok...
Well, It all started near the end of summer of 2008
I was on Nickelodeon back at the time when I saw a Toontown add
I clicked it and was taken to the website
There, I made an account
The first toon I made was a blue mouse. I do not remember what his name was, but I remember he was tall
But, at the time, since I was so messed up. I thought the boys looked ugly
So I made a girl Toon. She was a lavender mouse named Dee Dee Poodlenoodle. She was a bit shorter then him
Now what's funny was too, I didn't realize I made a girl till I realized I could buy skirts in the cattlelog
That was the toon I played for the past 5 years. I've always tried to tell people about Toontown and what it's about, and get them to try it, but they never listened
They just said what I said was stupid and that I should go kill myself.
But I never listened
That toon was able to help me overcome those douchebags at school, and let me be happy. Considering my sister is a big jerk
Then when Toontown closed, right when I was in 7th period. My emotions let out, and I was just sitting there, crying, with a drawing of my toon staring at me
So that's the story. Like I said, it's emotional
Ever since, I refused to replace her if a private server came