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- I'm cleaning my boyfriend's pistol when he says something that pisses me off
- (again).
- Perhaps it was trans rights, socialism, or homelessness -
- about the only thing we agree on is gun ownership.
- So when I say pistol, I'm not joking, see, I mean it literally.
- In my lap sits a Magnum Revolver, a field-stripped
- Smith & Wesson 686 .357
- Off to one side, a pair of loaded Sig Sauers are lying
- patiently waiting as I scour away.
- Proper firearm safety dictates I point the barrel safely aside,
- no matter how much he's angering me
- or how empty the chamber seems
- so I raise only my voice, not my hands.
- Nonetheless, his stance becomes a little defensive,
- and he tells me about this time a friend went ballistic,
- so he locked him in a shed to avoid a more literal incident,
- possibly involving... ballistic forensics.
- And I think to myself... god!
- Dating dudes sucks!
- Cuz Twenty One Pilots and my ex girlfriend both underestimated us,
- it's not just our hands, it's our tongues!
- If I said "domestic" ----
- and let if hang in the air, what springs to mind?
- Does it rhyme with ----
- "silence", the same that stymies solving the crime?
- Now I'm tryna explain all this to him,
- and I feel some kinship with my ex cuz when I was filled with ignorance
- she had to redefine and justify
- but then,
- she'd probably feel much more like him
- to see me lose my temper again
- blast off thoughts I ought to lock within
- what can I say - I'm obstinate?
- Would ya pass the cleaning kit?
- On one hand, I know I would never
- unload on him like my brother
- explode as if he's my mother
- deride him or throw a fist, cuz
- inside I now police my mind.
- But on the other hand...
- I'm clutching a fucking gun
- and doing a good impersonation
- of a bad person.
- But it's ok, I promised I'd never shoot him and we're still friends.
- He apologized for being douchey, at least in my head.
- When I shared news of what I'd penned,
- he asked if I referenced, within
- the moment I recollected, back then
- a time scars on my arms marked my record
- before requesting a loaded weapon (from him) but,
- honestly I don't remember.
- I've held my life in my hands more times than a gun
- the former is boring, but the latter is fun, and
- when all's said and done, he gave me the gun...
- then left me with one.
- The next morning.
- he left early for work,
- me curled in the mid-morning sun
- to awaken incredulous - he was content
- with just two guns from under the pillowcase.
- And I wonder which would make her more uncomfortable -
- being alone with me, or leaving me with even one slug.
- But, as crazy as it sounds, I'm doing better.
- So, for just a moment, I hold it in my grip,
- but not between my lips.
- That isn't how you clean a pistol.
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