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Etyrna: IM ONLY ON
Etyrna: FOR
Etyrna: 30 MINUTES
Etyrna: CAUSE
Etyrna: MY STEPMOM
Etyrna: IS POOP
SinIncarnate: SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GIVE ME THE ATTENTION I NEED
Etyrna: *GIVES HIM ALL THE ATTENTION*
SinIncarnate: Mmkay.
SinIncarnate: Fucking damn well better.
SinIncarnate: I'm one more fucking annoyance away from dropping everything and going crazy
Etyrna: You already are crazy, dear
SinIncarnate: My tolerance for your shit right now is litterally any number less than 0.
Etyrna: ...
Etyrna: You may excuse yourself.
SinIncarnate: Now hug me.
Etyrna: No.
Etyrna: You don't deserve anything from me with that fucking attitude.
SinIncarnate: Mmkay.
Etyrna: Lose it.
SinIncarnate: I'm sorry for being pissed off. Please hug me. c:
Etyrna: Better... >_>
Etyrna: *she walks back over and wraps her arms tightly around him.*
SinIncarnate: ~He wraps his arms around her in return~ Ever fucking deny me a hug again and I will fuck you where you stand, no matter where or when. Dinner with parents? BAM. Fucked. Ball game for little Timmy? BAM. Fucked. My cousin's funeral? BAM. Fucked.
SinIncarnate: ~Licks her forehead~
Etyrna: I will deny you a hug any time I damn well PLEASE, especially if you get a fucking attitude with me for no god damn reason. I don't care if you are pissed off at every fucking little thing. I did absolutely NOTHING wrong to deserve what you gave me when I walked in. Do I make myself CRYSTAL clear?
SinIncarnate: Calling someone crazy doesn't exactly help them deal with the mental issues they're fighting with at the moment.
SinIncarnate: c:
Etyrna: <.<
Etyrna: You /are/ crazy.
Etyrna: I'm psychotic.
Etyrna: Your point?
SinIncarnate: Mmkay.
Etyrna: Kay.
SinIncarnate: Thanks for the support, dear.
SinIncarnate: Love you bunches.
Etyrna: Mhm.
Etyrna: My support is different than others.
Etyrna: As you can so kindly tell
SinIncarnate: Still waiting for an 'I love you, too"
SinIncarnate: But, alright.
Etyrna: Michael Claude Smith.
SinIncarnate: This lagg
SinIncarnate: Gonna finish where you were going with that?
Etyrna: I don't know.
Etyrna: You're lagging.
Etyrna: c:
SinIncarnate: . -.
SinIncarnate: Are you being serious right now?
SinIncarnate: Because I'm trying to calm down for your sake.
Etyrna: I started my period
Etyrna: Bite me.
SinIncarnate: I'd love to have en excuse like that.
SinIncarnate: Still waiting on a few magic words.
Etyrna: MCS
Etyrna: I love you.
Etyrna: Now shut up.
SinIncarnate: How about you not fucking tell me what to do.
Etyrna: How about you kiss my fucking ass
SinIncarnate: Fucking present.
Etyrna: Fucking future
SinIncarnate: Pre-zent. Not Pres-ent.
SinIncarnate: Faggot fuck.
Etyrna: Listen here Dipshit
Etyrna: I am your fucking QUEEN
Etyrna: You will WORSHIP me and RESPECT me
SinIncarnate: The last time I fucking worshiped someone they lied to me.
Etyrna: ...
Etyrna: Mk
Etyrna: That was the last straw
SinIncarnate: Jackie...
Etyrna: No.
Etyrna: Fuck you.
SinIncarnate: You wanna know something about me?
Etyrna: That HURT
Etyrna: It continues to HURT
Etyrna: Fuck
Etyrna: You
SinIncarnate: Jackie, my worst fear is being replaced.
SinIncarnate: Being. Fucking. Replaced.
SinIncarnate: Being useless, and then pushed aside for something better.
SinIncarnate: And you know what EVERY. FUCKING. PERSON I've dated has done?
SinIncarnate: Dumped me for someone better.
SinIncarnate: So I'm sorry if I'm a bit pissy for being afraid to lose the best one yet.
Etyrna: ...
Etyrna: If I'm the best, treat me like it.
Etyrna: Stop making me feel like utter shit because of what I did
SinIncarnate: It's just a little fucking hard to accept that you could need me for anything but a step stool to get to someone better.
Etyrna: The thing I fucking REGRET with everything I have
Etyrna: Cause every god damn time you bring it u
Etyrna: p
Etyrna: Ever god damn time you do....I collapse on myself
Etyrna: Why?
Etyrna: Cause the memories flood me
Etyrna: The pain
Etyrna: Agony
Etyrna: It all
Etyrna: Floods me
Etyrna: It RUINS the happiness I have
Etyrna: THe happiness Ihave gained from being with YOU
Etyrna: So quit bringing the past bullshit up
Etyrna: Or so help me
Etyrna: I will bring damage upon myself
Etyrna: And the girl you know now?
Etyrna: She'll be but a memory just like I want that bullshit to be.
Etyrna: You are NOT a step stool to me.
Etyrna: Don't you fucking DARE think that low of me
Etyrna: Do I make myself clear on THIS matter?
SinIncarnate: How about this.
SinIncarnate: I have needs to.
SinIncarnate: I'll drop the past.
SinIncarnate: But make me feel needed.
SinIncarnate: > >
Etyrna: If you weren't needed, I wouldn't talk to you.
SinIncarnate: Even a pawn gets conversation, dear.
Etyrna: Pawns get pushed to the side.
Etyrna: And I don't play chess.
Etyrna: Everyone in my life has a reason to be here.
Etyrna: Everyone has some place in my heart.
Etyrna: Unless they prove me wrong.
Etyrna: I.E. Sky and Jon
Etyrna: And that was THEIR doing.
Etyrna: Capeesh?
SinIncarnate: No.
SinIncarnate: Your reasoning isn't helping my depression and fear.
Etyrna: Mm.
SinIncarnate: But it's a start.
SinIncarnate: :I
Etyrna: I could call people in here so quick
Etyrna: To prove my point
Etyrna: But.
SinIncarnate: ...?
Etyrna: Let me say this:
Etyrna: If I wanted you replaced?
Etyrna: I would've already done so.
SinIncarnate: . -.
Etyrna: Several people wanted me as their sub, slave, bbg, etc.
Etyrna: I told them to fuck off.
SinIncarnate: Oh.
Etyrna: Yeah. Oh.
SinIncarnate: Mmkay.
SinIncarnate: No.
SinIncarnate: Oh as in.
SinIncarnate: "Oh, glad I wasn't informed of the matter so I didn't go snap necks."
Etyrna: That's why I didn't inform you
Etyrna: Cause if I told you?
Etyrna: Your anger would spike c:
SinIncarnate: Meh.
Etyrna: You're.
Etyrna: Fucking.
Etyrna: Welcome.
SinIncarnate: I'm calm now.
Etyrna: Good.
SinIncarnate: So you better too.
SinIncarnate: Or I'll eat your vagina like it was a part of a balanced breakfast.
Etyrna: Mm..
SinIncarnate: when we have a house I want to wake up to you on the table. As I come around the corner asking "Hunnie, what's for breakfast" I want you to reply with "Me."
Etyrna: Ha.
SinIncarnate: Fucking laugh it up.
Etyrna: Darling.
SinIncarnate: All fun and games until I cum in your eye.
Etyrna: Do you know what I was a few years ago?
SinIncarnate: Not fucking particularly.
Etyrna: xMaliceReturnsx: Listen here. You're sitting there feeling sorry for your damn self and if you continue, sorrow and pain will be the only thing you can ever express again. You are seeking attention by sitting there not trying to do anything with your life. By just sitting there to slowly rot away. You do realize that I sat in my room for hours on end, drawing and carving things into my skin with a blade right? I refused to eat. I nearly died because I thought of myself to be a girl who shouldn't live because she was scum. Because she wouldn't get too far in live anyway. She deserved to die. She deserved to let the people around her lose her, because she was not worth their time. Every day I went to school with a fake smile until I couldn't fake it anymore. I broke down in the middle of class, watching everyone stare at me as if I was a huge disappointment. I tried talking to my mother about wanting to commit suicide and she laughed in my face and said "Do it." So don't you dare fucking tell me that I am judging you. Don't sit there and think you are the only one who has it hard. I lost my grandmother, the person who kept me alive since birth, before I hit puberty. All my dreams were crushed. Everything. I have been homeless, beaten, neglected, abused, ridiculed, stomped on, and abandoned. So don't you DARE sit there and continue to feel this way. I was literally near death and I recovered. Did I mention that I am not even 19 years old? Pull your shit together, Drac.
SinIncarnate: You've shown me this five fucking times.
Etyrna: Then imbed it in your brai.
Etyrna: brain*
Etyrna: embed*
SinIncarnate: I don't fucking need it.
Etyrna: Hush
SinIncarnate: > >
Etyrna: I wasn't done.
SinIncarnate: What o you think I am, some kinda pussy ass bitch?
Etyrna: Embed it in your brain, Michael.
Etyrna: I love you.
Etyrna: And I want nothing more than to dance around the dinner table at night in nothing but one of your T-shirts.
Etyrna: I want nothing more that to wake up one morning to a crying baby, one we made.
Etyrna: And I want nothing more than to watch him/her grow.
Etyrna: Together.
Etyrna: Not separate.
Etyrna: Is it embedded yet?
SinIncarnate: Mmm...
SinIncarnate: Prove it.
SinIncarnate: Don't just say it.
SinIncarnate: Plenty have said it.
Etyrna: What do you fucking think I'm trying to do, Dipshit?!
SinIncarnate: PROVE it to me, Jackie.
SinIncarnate: . -.
SinIncarnate: See that.
SinIncarnate: That right there.
SinIncarnate: Is being counterproductive.
Etyrna: No.
Etyrna: That right there is emotion
Etyrna: You have NO idea how scared I am of losing you
Etyrna: Fuck, I'm CRYING right now at the damn thought
Etyrna: Don't.
Etyrna: Don't say a FUCKING word
Etyrna: You have fears of being replaced..
Etyrna: I have fears of abandonment.
Etyrna: And I have been abandoned so many times, just as you've been replaced.
Etyrna: So why the fuck would I, someone who KNOWS how you are feeling, put you through that bullshit?
Etyrna: That's hypocritical.
Etyrna: Yes, I made the god damn mistake with Cheshire.
Etyrna: I don't even TALK to him anymore.
Etyrna: He might as well get off my friend's list.
Etyrna: That goes for both Facebook, Skype, AND IMVU
SinIncarnate: Lass.
Etyrna: I've dropped..
SinIncarnate: It's not Chesh.
Etyrna: So many things for you.
Etyrna: No, Michael.
SinIncarnate: It's the fact I'm afraid that since you did it once, you'd do it again.
Etyrna: No.
Etyrna: I wouldn't
Etyrna: They only people I act flirty with is all my female friends.
Etyrna: WHICH ARE EITHER STRAIGHT OR NO I WILL NEVER GO AFTER THEM
Etyrna: And Ryan.
Etyrna: And Ryan damn well knows I won't do jack SHIT with him while being with you.
Etyrna: Ryan has seen me sob
Etyrna: My fucking
Etyrna: Eyes out
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Etyrna: Ryan has seen me sit there...on cam....LITERALLY CRYING TO THE POINT I CANT BREATHE
Etyrna: Over some stupid bitch
Etyrna: Who DROPPED ME
Etyrna: For some other bitch.
Etyrna: I was with her...for four years.
Etyrna: FOUR
SinIncarnate: Mmkay.
Etyrna: Again.
Etyrna: I know where you've been.
Etyrna: I've been in your bloody shoes.
SinIncarnate: Drop the subject.
Desecrates: ?
Etyrna: Why?
Desecrates: You alright Jackie?
SinIncarnate: Because I said. Please.
Etyrna: ...
Etyrna: Not until you say it.
Etyrna: Not until you ACKNOWLEDGE
Etyrna: That I know where the fuck you've been.
SinIncarnate: I acknowledge the fact you've been in my shoes.
Etyrna: *drops*