Fin

Fuck I'm worse than LL now

I get that considering the number of times I've quit already, this might seem like a meme by now. But fear not OU discord, rejoice, for the terror of the land is leaving you!

But yeah, quitting has been a long time coming. I was gonna stay around and finish Arcanine but today I decided it'd be best to just quit now and drop it. I've become downright toxic in OU, and well, Smogon in general is taking its toll on me. I really do sound a lot like LL but at this point a lot of what he said is going on with me. I've devolved into essentially staying in my room 24/7, with a fuck ton of the time being on Smogon, and when I'm out I'm always using my phone for it. I tried the "don't log on" kind of trick, but it's not helped in the least. The few relationships I still have decently strong irl - most of them are much weaker due to non-Smogon reasons - are strained immensely by my addiction to my laptop. I've always become lazy and irresponsible, with my grades falling, me not studying as much anymore and actually going on Smogon during class when I honestly should have been actually working instead of putting it off to do at home. This all has honestly just added to my depression, which is the main reason I'm quitting. I've been super depressed since around August because a fuck ton that was meant to have gone right went wrong in my life over the time period (btw in case people were wondering, being called BPGnigga did not help). I've been hooked on my laptop but I get that it's a shit way of dealing with my problems so I'm taking the initiative and quitting a lot of the shit I do online. I'll still be around on discord (Lux#1412), though not in any of the smogon servers, and also not online that often because even outside of the smogon servers Discord is the second biggest thing I have to tone down. This isn't necessarily permanent - I might be around a tad bit during the holiday season as I'll have off of school - but if I'm not back after Christmas then yeah I'm out permanently.

I didn't want to quit without some shoutouts:

Blitzamirin: Always a super nice and positive guy. Definitely one of the main reasons I enjoy OI so much. :eggplant: :peach:

BladeOfFriendship: You were always super nice to me. Sorry if my asian jokes offended you.

Mova: Perhaps the person I've talked to the most on my time on Smogon. Also the nicest, and the person I've gotten the closest too. I'll still be in touch :).

Elec: Is it 11 months behind the YUH yet? I'm gonna be like 100000 months behind lol.

LL: stfu lil lil nigga lol. but yeah, even if you were a headass sometimes it was actually nice with you in the ou chat.

ESouAFazenda: The nicest person to me during the Firebot days. For god's sake please don't use Healing Wish Audino in OU. And also, I consider it more of a blessing to be firebanned than a curse.

The OI community: Definitely chill af, not so stressful like the competitive communities and definitely nowhere near as toxic.

The UU Community: In general the least toxic community I've been in other than OI, everyone here was super nice and actually had some good discussion on the tier. don't ban scizor pls.

For the communities I was a bitch in, I'm sorry it had to be that way. I get that I really could be annoying af sometimes and oftentimes I wasn't clear enough when I was being sarcastic so you guys legit thought I was cringe. I was pretty cringe tbh.

Smogon has honestly been there during the best parts of my life and the worst, and I do recognize that I have to move on eventually as my life becomes harder. I'll always love Pokémon and it's incredibly how it brings us all together. I'm sounding like LL more and more by the minute but yeah I'm actually crying typing this up as Smogon is one of the last connections to mons that I have left and quitting mons in general is one of the worst things that I can imagine. The sheer thought of it sends shivers down my spine. It really sucks that I have to quit (well, not for the OU community I can imagine) but yeah, I'm out.

Adieu,

Aldertz/BPGXMG