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All the words you've said to me trough these years with disgust in your lips hit me like a punch
It's me I hate, not you at all, 'cause I've been torturing myself all this time because of my own insanity
My tears now reach the ground and I can't feel regret for anything

Pull the gun out of your pocket, cock it, point at my head and pop it
I'll stare at the moon and wait until it's done
Don't open your mouth until I'm dead, don't you dare say you love me again
Put that gun on my head again, pull the trigger for once
Don't you dare say that you love me one more time
Pull the trigger and give me the freedom you promised to me

I heard you crying once alone in the darkness and I just fell on my own trying to solve all the puzzles

I don't care about how many times I've tried, I care about when will it work
I choose not to hear what you said to me so many times, instead I walked by my own in a path of pain that I've made myself
Forget the words I said 'cause I'd never let you go even if I wanted to

Would it be my fault that you never loved me in any way but said it anyway?

Pick the gun off the ground and put it against my neck again, scream one last time
Don't breath before you shoot or it will feel like you're alive
Don't breath until I'm dead and don't die while I'm breathing
After all this time you still look at me me with pity on your eyes, I don't deserve it
Don't treat me like that anymore 'cause I'm already dead

Shoot my head and set me free from the nightmare that is my existence
Pull the trigger just one time and watch all the world we've made be happy from the first time
Get me my medicines one last time while you keep saying that you love me

I'll make all the pain go away from the last time and wait for the best
Pull the trigger, it's just one time, pull it and be happy on the world we've made
Times have passed since the last time, my hand is still on my throat
It's been a while but you keep trying to stop my destiny, death
I can still hear from your lips that you don't care about me at all
All while you're saying that you love me

I can still hear on my mind you saying that you don't love me at all
Put the gun on my mouth, pull the trigger

You don't love me anymore, but you never loved me at all
You don't care about me anymore, but you never did
You now look at me with pity on your eyes, but you always did

Rise up that gun and pull the trigger

I don't feel safe, fading away, I'll go without knowing my place
Once the time comes will you dig me up from my unmarked?