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12:10oak0: I'm 4.3k and I'd say you play a better safe laner
12:10aDotaHero: is hurting me more than helping me
12:10aDotaHero: and i dont care, at all, if anyone disagrees
12:10aDotaHero: no offense, to anyone.
12:10kneidphang: Not really that offensive to be fair.
12:11aDotaHero: i mean im not an idiot, is there a small chance that im about to break ego wise? that im just trying to inflate myself up cuz i feel like shit or some shit
12:11aDotaHero: sure there is
12:11aDotaHero: but i really dont think so
12:11aDotaHero: taht shit is so harmful
12:11aDotaHero: so unbelievably harmful and limiting
12:11kneidphang: what is harmful and limiting?
12:11aDotaHero: to believe someone is where they should be if they dont believe it
12:11aDotaHero: and tell them that
12:12aDotaHero: one might think
12:12kneidphang: LULW
12:12aDotaHero: the only problem is that i think im better than i am. it's so much more than that
12:12kneidphang: Do you know the difference between accepting where one should be and acknowledging one has the potential to be better?
12:12aDotaHero: so,
12:12aDotaHero: let's say im right. just for shits and giggles
12:13aDotaHero: would it be harmful to think i am 3.5k and the same as the idiots in my games if i was really actually 3.8k without my mentality issues... game decision/conceptual kinda stuff wise
12:13aDotaHero: absolutely it would be
12:13aDotaHero: is it healthy to realize that there is that gap
12:13aDotaHero: cuz
12:13aDotaHero: im a fucking spaz stressful angry mother fucker
12:13aDotaHero: of course it is
12:13aDotaHero: or would it be healthy to think im 4.5k if i could be 3.8k and im currently 3.5k
12:14aDotaHero: of course it's unhealthy
12:14aDotaHero: it's just not something anyone else but me can be responsible for
12:14aDotaHero: i honestly shouldnt care
12:14aDotaHero: and that's where im headed
12:14aDotaHero: i think
12:14kneidphang: Do you know the difference between accepting where one should be and acknowledging one has the potential to be better?
12:14aDotaHero: to not give a fuck what others think i am in skill
12:14aDotaHero: and just do it
12:15aDotaHero: uhm
12:15kneidphang: Can you do both at the same time is my question
12:15StreamElements: Thank you for following 3kafter12kmatches :)
12:15aDotaHero: ive accepted i am where i am supposed to be 100%. because im rational.
12:15aDotaHero: so this question i dont get it
12:16kneidphang: You literally telling me you 3.8k...
12:16aDotaHero: so
12:16kneidphang: Or some shit
12:16aDotaHero: no
12:16kneidphang: When you're not
12:16aDotaHero: rofl
12:16aDotaHero: u dont know the difference between 3.5k and 3.8k actually
12:16kneidphang: Yea I don't
12:16aDotaHero: cuz ur way higher
12:16kneidphang: the mmr system does
12:16aDotaHero: and u dont play these games
12:16aDotaHero: so the point is
12:16kneidphang: I literally play these games..
12:16aDotaHero: i am 100% accepting that i am 3.5k
12:16aDotaHero: knowing
12:16aDotaHero: that on a scale of like 0 to 10 mentality
12:16aDotaHero: and for me
12:17aDotaHero: that entails a lot of things
12:17aDotaHero: if 5 is the average player for all the following
12:17Saqib_Ali: what he means to say that his mmr will increase if he improves his mentality
12:17aDotaHero: im 8-9/10 anxiety
12:17kneidphang: What's your point?
12:17aDotaHero: im 7-8/10 negative about the games
12:17kneidphang: You and you are attitude are inextricably tied together
12:17aDotaHero: im 9/10 focus on others than myself
12:17aDotaHero: i know that
12:17aDotaHero: but im saying
12:17kneidphang: Your argument is like saying I would be higher mmr if I had rtz's brain
12:17aDotaHero: if all those things i listed and many more t
12:17kneidphang: I would be higher mmr if I had rtz's attitude
12:17aDotaHero: that encompass mentality
12:17aDotaHero: were all 5
12:18aDotaHero: id be 300-500 mmr higher, without improving within that 5
12:18aDotaHero: how much id improve fast would be another Increment
12:18aDotaHero: over said time
12:18kneidphang: I don't even think that's true
12:18aDotaHero: all im saying is
12:18kneidphang: I just watched you yesterday get fucked by arcane curse
12:18aDotaHero: i do. and that's all tha tmatters
12:18aDotaHero: is what im saying
12:18kneidphang: Like it was the first day of dota for you
12:18aDotaHero: i had been up for like 16 hours and pissed at over 5-7 dota games
12:18kneidphang: If I saw that shit I would be like 0k mmr
12:18aDotaHero: is exactly what im saying
12:18aDotaHero: i know that
12:18aDotaHero: i know 100%
12:18aDotaHero: that stupid little fucking thing
12:18aDotaHero: but i was so
12:19aDotaHero: tired and anxious and tilted
12:19kneidphang: I see tons of it
12:19aDotaHero: that i didnt even see it
12:19aDotaHero: so fucking what
12:19kneidphang: You can't see your mistakes cause you don't even know what is the right thing
12:19aDotaHero: u see tons of that shit
12:19aDotaHero: on people are not anxious
12:19aDotaHero: at even higher mmrs
12:19aDotaHero: drow who hits fucking timber
12:19aDotaHero: all fight
12:19kneidphang: Who the fuck cares
12:19Bigglesjr: yo ive been fucked by arcane curse, didnt notice it and i was playing veno and kept plopping down plague wards
12:19aDotaHero: every fight
12:19aDotaHero: it goes along with the point
12:19aDotaHero: that u see this shit
12:19aDotaHero: she's ancient 1
12:19kneidphang: Yea cause she spams drow
12:19kneidphang: Why is that such a mystery?
12:19kneidphang: 2k drow games.. seem right
12:19aDotaHero: i considered that
12:19kneidphang: That hero has an aura super powerful
12:193kafter12kmatches: @saqib_ali his mmr will never increase, i stopped trolling him becouse his peak is around 3.5 and he wont move from there in centurys...he is just not capable of gettin higher.
12:20Saqib_Ali: dude all you can do is work on your mentality theres no point in arguing with people :)
12:20kneidphang: Ddon't you know a 2k CM spammer who also is Ancient because of aura?
12:20kneidphang: What is so confusing?
12:20kneidphang: This is envy talking now
12:20aDotaHero: next?
12:20Saqib_Ali: @3kafter12kmatches monkaS
12:20kzoom14: fascist PepeMods
12:20aDotaHero: okay
12:20kneidphang: Sure I guess but I'm telling you at this pace you are going
12:20aDotaHero: ill be back with ancient 1 in 2 days
12:20kneidphang: You're looking at 4k in 20k games
12:21aDotaHero: and that will be without even improving my mentality
12:21Saqib_Ali: that comment was actually funny OMEGALUL
12:21aDotaHero: just not listening to all this shit
12:21aDotaHero: will hit ancient 1
12:21aDotaHero: fix my m entality
12:21aDotaHero: probably 4.3k
12:21aDotaHero: if i am capable of fixing it
12:21aDotaHero: okay, later
12:21Saqib_Ali: bye HeyGuys
12:21aDotaHero: not coming back til im ancient I
12:21aDotaHero: let's see how fast i can do it
12:22aDotaHero: im just sick of this shit
12:22kneidphang: see you in 20k games
12:22kzoom14: lol
12:22Saqib_Ali: @3kafter12kmatches this guy just created a new account OMEGALUL
12:23aDotaHero: actually im going to just stream with a delay for anyone who actually wants to watch. im really not giving a fuck
12:23aDotaHero: sorry for anyone who i actually did offend
12:23kneidphang: Yeah punish us cause it's our fault
12:23aDotaHero: if i did
12:24aDotaHero: not punishing anyone i just cant do it with people who dont believe in what im saying telling me this
12:24kneidphang: Stream's fault, teammates fault, everyone else's fault but mine that I'm 3k
12:24kneidphang: You see it's our fault for not believing you
12:24kneidphang: Why don't you give us something to believe in
12:25kneidphang: We can't even believe you when you say you won't delete VODs and you get offended at us for not believing you will hit Ancient??
12:25aD3viL: Wth
12:25kneidphang: Guess chat is at fault again
12:25kzoom14: kneid youre right
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