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11:02 AM] Sarah: I feel frustrated.
[11:03 AM] iHerbal: Oh?
[11:03 AM] Sarah: I need to bitch .-.
[11:03 AM] iHerbal: Do itt
[11:04 AM] Sarah: I'm just fucked off
[11:04 AM] Sarah: So emroidz bought ladyship for me without me asking and was like oh you can have all the art etc just pay me back as and when. I was like um ok I didn't ask you to get her for me but ok???
[11:06 AM] Sarah: After a month I'd paid like 35 dollars out of 80 and I got a reminder from PayPal from em. I threw 10 dollars in. Next day I get a formal message from em basically saying she feels used and stuff as I've spent my money on other things instead of paying her back (the spiders which Andrew paid for and yes a couple bits of cheap art)
[11:06 AM] Sarah: The week before I had apologised about being slow to pay and she said to take my time. Now I was being told that she was putting a limit on it and I had a month to pay. I ended up just giving her the money out of some other savings I had just to be done with it b
[11:07 AM] Sarah: We haven't spoken since and now she's rammed herself up Aub's ass and I'm just like ugh
[11:07 AM] Sarah: Like her and lune are suddenly bff's with Aub. Getting art and stuff all the time.
[11:07 AM] Sarah: And I'm a bit like. Stung I guess
[11:07 AM] iHerbal: Of course
[11:08 AM] Sarah: Also Aub called off our rp as she wasn't feeling our chars around the same time they all started hanging out
[11:08 AM] Sarah: So it's like. Oh
[11:08 AM] Sarah: And idk. It feels like this was the start of my wall hitting
[11:08 AM] Sarah: And I just need a friend to just talk to and cry on and I feel fucking alone
[11:08 AM] iHerbal: hug,
[11:09 AM] Sarah: Am I being stupid?
[11:09 AM] iHerbal: Hemoriodz is a bitch
[11:09 AM] Sarah: Like. I didn't ask her to buy the design.
[11:09 AM] Sarah: She just did
[11:09 AM] iHerbal: Why?
[11:09 AM] Sarah: She knew I wanted it and she wanted to plot so she bought a second design which we were gonna rp and then we never did.
[11:10 AM] Sarah: But like I said, she just bought the design and was like now u can pay me back
[11:10 AM] iHerbal: Thats so dumb
[11:10 AM] Sarah: Idk I'm struggling with my chars so bad rn
[11:10 AM] Sarah: I keep buying new ones and then realising I don't want them or I can't connect.
[11:11 AM] Sarah: I have Charles whining for rp BC he's decided to lodge himself up my ass now
[11:11 AM] iHerbal: Maybe you need a break
[11:11 AM] Sarah: Well with the new job I'm gonna have to lol
[11:11 AM] iHerbal: I think itll be good for you
[11:11 AM] Sarah: I'm just frustrated.
[11:12 AM] iHerbal: Yeah
[11:13 AM] Sarah: Like I deleted a few chars last night BC I was just freaking out. I know I have a reputation for buying and selling now.
[11:13 AM] Sarah: I'm 98% sure no one likes me ahaha
[11:13 AM] iHerbal: You should have told hemorids that if you could afford the design to begin with, yiu would have,
[11:13 AM] iHerbal: Aww
[11:14 AM] Sarah: So yeah
[11:14 AM] iHerbal: hug
[11:15 AM] Sarah: I'm just annoyed that once again, Em drops me and I fucking knew she would
[11:15 AM] Sarah: She always does.
[11:16 AM] iHerbal: She drops everyone that isnt lune
[11:16 AM] Sarah: Bc lune has money to sink into art.
[11:20 AM] Sarah: Idk. I just miss having good friends.
[11:21 AM] iHerbal: Gee, thanks
[11:21 AM] Sarah: I just feel alone a lot of the time.
[11:22 AM] Sarah: Like. I know I do it myself
[11:22 AM] Sarah: Idk
[11:22 AM] Sarah: Ugh I'm too in my head again.
[11:22 AM] iHerbal: Itsxwhy yiu need a break
[11:23 AM] Sarah: You know I adore you but I always feel like I'm annoying you ;3;
[11:23 AM] iHerbal: Noo
[11:23 AM] iHerbal: Its just that
[11:23 AM] iHerbal: Sometimes you dont listen
[11:26 AM] Sarah: I'm sorry ):
[11:26 AM] iHerbal: <3
[11:27 AM] iHerbal: I was exactly were you are
[11:27 AM] iHerbal: Buying and creating new characters so often
[11:27 AM] iHerbal: Never connecting
[11:27 AM] iHerbal: With them
[11:27 AM] iHerbal: Desperate to fit in and get friends
[11:28 AM] Sarah: Yep
[11:28 AM] iHerbal: And I took a step back
[11:28 AM] iHerbal: It wasnt easy
[11:29 AM] Sarah: It just sucks
[11:29 AM] Sarah: Like I know I'm gonna have to clean house and sell chars
[11:30 AM] iHerbal: Yeah
[11:30 AM] Sarah: And I wanna hoard everyone lol
[11:32 AM] iHerbal: Well, you can do that
[11:32 AM] iHerbal: Nobody tells you to sell them
[11:33 AM] Sarah: Lol see I just see them sitting there as a waste
[11:33 AM] Sarah: Idk i like only having active chars
[12:16 PM] iHerbal: I love u
[12:17 PM] Sarah: Love you too
[12:18 PM] iHerbal: but yeah
[12:18 PM] iHerbal: withall your characters you buy
[12:18 PM] iHerbal: then resell
[12:18 PM] iHerbal: you come off as a bit flakey
[12:18 PM] iHerbal: and I understand that people are hesitant to plot with you sometimes
[12:19 PM] iHerbal: But you need to do what is best for yourself
[12:19 PM] iHerbal: maybe it's not wise for you to buy the characters you randomly want all the time, because it sometimes looks like  a whim
[12:20 PM] iHerbal: but I know buying stuff is "good" therapy, IDK about you, but it makes me feel a bit better for a few minutes, then I'm like "omg, what did I just buy"
[12:22 PM] Sarah: Just sucks because I do want plot but no one ever wants to stick with me
[12:22 PM] iHerbal: Can you blame them?
[12:23 PM] iHerbal: I'msorry, it sounds harsh
[12:23 PM] iHerbal: but with your constant buying new characters then resell them the next moment? It's
[12:23 PM] iHerbal: it's scary to try and plot with you, because it feels like you can drop the character without warning
[12:24 PM] Sarah: I only drop them when people drop me
[12:24 PM] Sarah: Like I still have my original three but no one wants to play with them
[12:24 PM] iHerbal: (also, show me Ladyship)
[12:24 PM] Sarah: https://www.rprepository.com/c/ladyship

[12:25 PM] iHerbal: oooh
[12:25 PM] Sarah: Yeah.
[12:26 PM] Sarah: My issue is I hate seeing inactive chars on my rpr
[12:26 PM] Sarah: So I sell them off
[12:26 PM] Sarah: I don't get to get on client as much anymore which hinders a lot of my rp
[12:27 PM] Sarah: Sometimes I just makes me think I should sell them all BC I don't get in client.
[12:27 PM] iHerbal: but you like to rp?
[12:30 PM] Sarah: I do but it sucks when no one wants to plot ideas
[12:30 PM] Sarah: Or they say they do and then suddenly move on
[12:41 PM] iHerbal: hm
[12:41 PM] iHerbal: also
[12:41 PM] iHerbal: I'm still pissed at
[12:41 PM] iHerbal: hemoriodz
[12:42 PM] Sarah: Yeah?
[12:42 PM] iHerbal: it's not really ok
[12:42 PM] iHerbal: to buy you a design
[12:42 PM] iHerbal: then
[12:42 PM] iHerbal: "you gotta pay me back"
[12:42 PM] Sarah: Like I've done it before where I've agreed with friends
[12:43 PM] Sarah: But there was no discussion beforehand.
[12:43 PM] iHerbal: yeah
[12:43 PM] Sarah: I'm sure it was supposed to be a nice gesture
[12:43 PM] Sarah: But idk man
[12:43 PM] Sarah: I feel like our friendship is now tainted.
[12:44 PM] iHerbal: yeah
[12:44 PM] iHerbal: it was to beginw ith
[12:44 PM] iHerbal: since she ditched you once >>
[12:44 PM] Sarah: Yeah. And she's done the same again. Like I could tell her interest in whit and Ellie was waning
[12:44 PM] Sarah: And again, it's one of the few couples she has with like. One piece of couple art
[12:44 PM] Sarah: Unlike all hers with Lune
[12:53 PM] iHerbal: :\
[12:56 PM] iHerbal: But do you need couples art?
[12:57 PM] Sarah: No but it's like. Idk
[12:57 PM] Sarah: Validation isn't it