Ushio I am •Today at 12:30 AM
u feeling ok?

Not EricToday at 12:30 AM
Uh tbh im more worried about you

Ushio I am •Today at 12:30 AM
I’m all good
:thumbsup~2:

Not EricToday at 12:31 AM
I just think you are in a place where you arent going to listen to reason
And I dont really want to cause more drama

Ushio I am •Today at 12:32 AM
:sck_think: I held a super long civil conversation with Rose. I’m unsure of why you think a conversation will cause drama or that I wouldn’t listen to reason. So, if you wish to speak we surely can.

Not EricToday at 12:34 AM
Ushi you dont even sound like yourself
Rose was in vc crying
You kicked me from the group before we could talk and then changed my name to "not admin"
Bella stepped away because you were being irrational
Well the conversation was causing stress - I cant say how he views you

Ushio I am •Today at 12:37 AM
The not admin was a joke play on your “not Eric” name, I was hoping you’d see the humor. You told me you quit, so I helped you out. Tired of false quitting threats. Me and James spoke and reasoned, we saw each other’s sides and we’re perfectly okay now.
He and I had a miscommunication.

Not EricToday at 12:37 AM
Who is typing?
You really dont sound like ushi

Ushio I am •Today at 12:37 AM
..

Not EricToday at 12:37 AM
Im not joking
Did you hack her account?
I think that you are going through a ton right now and Im unsure of how you are handling tbh
Assuming you are ushi
The entire time that I have known you, you have never acted quite this way
Like even when you get stressed you still listen to reason
Right now you just seem to be covering your ears and saying you wont listen to anyone who doesn't agree with you
And it is pushing people away

Ushio I am •Today at 12:41 AM
Firstly, can you tell me in what ways I don’t sound like myself?
/ how I sound different?

Not EricToday at 12:42 AM
You sound as if you are having a psychotic episode
But more specifically your word choice is different
Like you just dont sound like yourself

Ushio I am •Today at 12:43 AM
My word choice?

Not EricToday at 12:43 AM
Yes
Like someone is typing for you
Or telling you what to say

Ushio I am •Today at 12:43 AM
I’m Ushi, and I’m by myself right now.
Are you talking about me not listening earlier in the staff chat, or did rose tell you about our fight? She must’ve if you’re in vc.

Not EricToday at 12:44 AM
Not really
But if you had a fight i doubt it was that civil

Ushio I am •Today at 12:45 AM
I mean it was more of a discussion. No harsh words were slung, we just went back and forth about how we felt about each other and the varying situations.

Not EricToday at 12:45 AM
Dont take this the wrong way
But did you change up your meds in any way?

Ushio I am •Today at 12:46 AM
..

Not EricToday at 12:46 AM
Like im trying to rationalize this
I havent left the server because i expect the rest of the team to wake up and talk sense into you
And hopefully for you to understand whats up
Well hoping
I just dont know if you are in a place to listen to me anymore
No matter how mad you get you never just "do" things when people are speaking their minds

Ushio I am •Today at 12:48 AM
I’m hearing you, it’s a little hard when you think I’m either not me or I’ve changed meds or something odd.

You quit staff again like I said on your own volition, so please don’t blame me for kicking you from the staff server when you quit..

Not EricToday at 12:48 AM
You literally told me a week ago you stopped taking them Ushi
Or once again, are you not ushi

Ushio I am •Today at 12:49 AM
I mean you act like it’s a super sudden change. This has nothing to do with medication but rather me being fed up with being treated a certain way. Okay? I am Ushi.

Not EricToday at 12:49 AM
Ok so this is your rebellion
I get it you feel like your back is against the wall

Ushio I am •Today at 12:49 AM
Ask me something only I would know, and I’ll prove it’s me.

Not EricToday at 12:49 AM
What size are your boobs?

Ushio I am •Today at 12:49 AM
I mean I do feel cornered sometimes, yes.
UH

Not EricToday at 12:50 AM
KNEW IT
PROOF
IMPOSTER
And it is a sudden change ushi
Before your hiatus you listened to reason
You listened to the team
You came back and I suppose decided you would be a strong independent white woman who dont need no man

Ushio I am •Today at 12:51 AM
:sck_think:

Not EricToday at 12:51 AM
So I'm unsure if your cold turkey / starting meds again is whats causing this
My buddy was like schizo and ended up in a super weird place

Ushio I am •Today at 12:53 AM
It’s nothing to do with my meds.

Not EricToday at 12:54 AM
But like how can you be certain?

Ushio I am •Today at 12:54 AM
I..
I just am!

Not EricToday at 12:54 AM
That doesn't seem like a good reason

Ushio I am •Today at 12:54 AM
I’m sorry..

Not EricToday at 12:55 AM
Like please
Chill
I am not trying to attack you
Nor make you doubt yourself or manipulate you
The facts are simply that:
You got mad
Deleted the staff chat apparently?
Doesnt seem like something ushi would do

Ushio I am •Today at 12:55 AM
I just wanted it to be clean.

Not EricToday at 12:55 AM
Trying to find new staff

Ushio I am •Today at 12:55 AM
I am ushi..

Not EricToday at 12:56 AM
You are ushi but you are in a bit of a weird place
Ive never seen you argue with james
You were before
So like even if its not the meds
Something is up

Ushio I am •Today at 12:57 AM
Me and James had a small miscommunication, it was an easy solve once we stepped away and talked.

Not EricToday at 12:57 AM
Yes, but I have never seen you argue with him before

Ushio I am •Today at 12:57 AM
Arguments happen, it’s how we handle them that matters

Not EricToday at 12:57 AM
Normally its cuddly master garbage
Not you ignoring him
"Arguments happen, it’s how we handle them that matters"
That doesn't sound like you either
Although you arent wrong haha
Are you able to call then?

Ushio I am •Today at 12:58 AM
I’m in bed

Not EricToday at 12:59 AM
I imagine you have been in bed before yes haha

Ushio I am •Today at 12:59 AM
I can’t call
It’s too late no headphones

Not EricToday at 12:59 AM
Once again not sounding like Ushi
Its just not things you say
But I get you may feel that you are being more assertive now
So it makes sense, I'm just unsure if this is all brought on by meds or something
But at the end of the day ushi, the server was running great
Because of the team
We all worked together
How we all communicated worked

Ushio I am •Today at 1:00 AM
It’s still a great server. This isn’t a meds issue. This isn’t a James issue.

Not EricToday at 1:01 AM
Didnt rose say not to become someone or something when you went off of the meds?
Was she talking about a situation like this?

Ushio I am •Today at 1:01 AM
What.. I’m not anyone different I’m still me.

Not EricToday at 1:01 AM
But I worry that mentally you are in turmoil
Take a sec and think how the ushi from like a few weeks ago would have handled this situation
Do you think she would have done the same things?
Or spoken the same way?

Ushio I am •Today at 1:02 AM
No because she didn’t stand up for herself..

Not EricToday at 1:02 AM
Yea exactly so you have decided to do that
So since you have decided to stand up for yourself - you have pushed me out, made bella step away, made rose cry

Ushio I am •Today at 1:03 AM
Stop.. Bella didn’t step away and and

Not EricToday at 1:03 AM
He did

Ushio I am •Today at 1:03 AM
I didn’t mean to make rose cry

Not EricToday at 1:03 AM
He literally said he needs to step away
I stand up for myself as well
But there is a line
Just because I am the most vocal doesn't mean that others dont feel the same

Ushio I am •Today at 1:04 AM
Me and James fixed it.
He doesn’t need to go away anymore...

Not EricToday at 1:05 AM
Great. You and I argue and we fix it
Generally haha
And thats fine
But we also always argue
You and james never argue

Ushio I am •Today at 1:05 AM
so..

Not EricToday at 1:06 AM
So Im just trying to help you understand that things are different
And like it's cool if that is your decision
You are trying to be more assertive
Im just unsure if this radical change was brought on by the meds or what
But regardless of that
I just want to make sure you are good

Ushio I am •Today at 1:14 AM
:blushie:
I’m good.

Not EricToday at 1:15 AM
Like I said, I'm just hoping that in the morning people discuss this with you
And hopefully you hear them out
Ignoring everyone doesn't make you assertive

Ushio I am •Today at 1:15 AM
I haven’t ignored a soul.

Not EricToday at 1:16 AM
Ushi I left because you were ignoring everyone
There's no point in having this discussion
I think I've gotten you to atleast consider that you may be thinking a bit weirdly
That's all I can really do at this point

Ushio I am •Today at 1:18 AM
I’m not thinking weirdly.