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- Anyways.
- SIaughterz: I told Jude what happened. I was doing it to drag him into the drama.
- SIaughterz: But he thought of it as that.
- SIaughterz: Robyn was in his messages saying
- SIaughterz: "get ur gf she needs to stop"
- SIaughterz: apparently I was harassing her.
- SIaughterz rolls ma eyes
- SIaughterz: but anyways.
- SIaughterz: Like I said
- SIaughterz: we argued from
- SIaughterz: 250-1030
- SIaughterz: In the middle of that.
- SIaughterz: I started feeling super depressed.
- SIaughterz: Like more then usual.
- SIaughterz: I tried like keeping that shit in
- SIaughterz: bc I didn't want to come off as an attention seeking whore for trying to be like
- SIaughterz: those girls who say omg imma kms and never do it.
- SIaughterz: But like
- SIaughterz: I felt so down.
- SIaughterz: I didn't even move.
- SIaughterz: and I was supposed to go pick up my momma
- SIaughterz: and I couldnt
- SIaughterz: bc I was being a baby
- SIaughterz: balling my eyes.
- SIaughterz: and and
- SIaughterz: So I texted Jay
- SIaughterz: which like idk if was a good idea bc he's a work
- SIaughterz: but ig he listened
- SIaughterz: and I didn't tell him who or why
- SIaughterz: and stuff
- SIaughterz: just how I felt
- SIaughterz: and like i went from -100 to a good +75 afterwards
- SIaughterz: I mean I stopped crying.
- SIaughterz: and like
- AFKDinner: this jay guy sounds liek a fag
- SIaughterz: >_>
- SIaughterz: LMFAOI
- SIaughterz: he is
- SIaughterz: anywho
- SIaughterz sip tea
- AFKDinner: ;]
- SIaughterz: He honestly opened my eyes to my bipolar disorder a lot more.
- SIaughterz: I always felt like people saw it as an excuse.
- SIaughterz: When geninuely. I can't control it.
- SIaughterz: I'll try.
- SIaughterz: But like it just makes that emotion int hat time
- SIaughterz: rage even more.
- SIaughterz: bc I'm not going off
- SIaughterz: or taking a deep breath.
- SIaughterz: Apparently.
- Chisu firmly strokes daddi's chest
- SIaughterz: To Aughtry I'm a miserable ass btich who uses it as an excuse.
- SIaughterz: Which is dumb.
- SIaughterz: I improved so much
- SIaughterz: for that week
- SIaughterz: that I hung with u guys
- SIaughterz: and jude and aug
- SIaughterz: wasnt in my life.
- SIaughterz: and yet
- SIaughterz: they belittled my improvement.
- SIaughterz: but Jude apoligized Aug didn't
- SIaughterz: he just kept making me feel shittier and shittier.
- SIaughterz: and which
- SIaughterz: we broke up because
- SIaughterz: he got upset that I didn't listen to Jude
- SIaughterz: and bc
- SIaughterz: "I'm to embarassed to be with him"
- SIaughterz: bc everyone hates when we get back together.
- SIaughterz: and everyone who used to come to myr oom everyday
- SIaughterz: hate him.
- Instrument: then
- Instrument: That
- Instrument: s a sign
- Instrument: But continue
- SIaughterz: Yeah but like
- SIaughterz: They were just mad that he kept
- SIaughterz: manipulating me
- SIaughterz: but I didnt think of it as that.
- SIaughterz: We got back together every 2 days.
- AFKDinner: Love blinds you.
- AFKDinner: its ass
- SIaughterz: it sucks too.
- SIaughterz: bc
- SIaughterz: now that
- SIaughterz: I no longer want him in my life right now so i can better myself.
- SIaughterz: and not let my disorder consume my actions
- SIaughterz: he thinks of me as a
- SIaughterz: egotistical slut
- SIaughterz: and
- SIaughterz: pathetic and hopeless from Jude
- SIaughterz: and
- SIaughterz: A ragin bitch from aug
- SIaughterz: I get I have a disorder but I'm not mentally ill need to go to the hospital.
- SIaughterz: I get I have a disorder but I'm not mentally ill need to go to the hospital.
- SIaughterz: it's only in arguements
- SIaughterz: or someone triggers 'it'
- SIaughterz: not like
- SIaughterz: an everday thing
- SIaughterz: Like I'm happy one second then angry and then jealous and then scared.
- SIaughterz: It's just triggered.
- SIaughterz: Like I'll feel all emotions from someone saying soemthing
- SIaughterz: Jealousy/Anger/Saddness/Happiness/Elated/Depressed/Nonchalant
- SIaughterz: idfk
- SIaughterz: But anyways
- SIaughterz: They both blamed it on me.
- SIaughterz: They blame everything on me.
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