BelaToday at 02:27
but seriously, we haven't had a real substantive discussion in quite a while
since I "stepped down" in fact
I've wanted to really talk to you for a while
if you think I'm obsessed with you
I'm not sure that's quite accurate
TetraToday at 02:28
You seem to remember a lot of stuff specifically about me :thinking:
BelaToday at 02:29
I have mentioned you before in discussions with the RHH server
TetraToday at 02:29
I don't know, it makes me uncomfortable
BelaToday at 02:29
I don't really remember the details anymore though to be honest
but if you're asking me to detail what my criticisms or suggestions for improvement are, I think they would boil down to
listening to others, taking advice, not being impulsive
really the same kind of advice I'd give anyone
TetraToday at 02:31
Sure, but I think we already know that
That's common sense on how to handle a community lol
BelaToday at 02:31
yeah I'd hope so
TetraToday at 02:32
Are you trying to say we're not doing that
BelaToday at 02:32
that's what I've identified in the past were problems for you though
I don't think they're issues right now though
TetraToday at 02:32
The fact that you keep bringing those up makes me think you still have a problem with me being in this position
Have you talked to anyone else about this
BelaToday at 02:32
I think you have a problem with me, is actually what I think
TetraToday at 02:32
I'm curious
BelaToday at 02:33
I think you don't like me, and won't tell me that
TetraToday at 02:33
Why are you so bothered about what I think of you
BelaToday at 02:33
and I think that would explain why we haven't talked in over a month
TetraToday at 02:34
Maybe I'm getting the feeling that you talk about me behind my back
BelaToday at 02:34
well, I like you
I'm very direct about what I think Tetra
I don't hide things from people
but I do get the sense that you and others do
we're not the same people and don't seem to have the same values
I'm very open
I'm very honest
TetraToday at 02:35
the vibe that you're getting from me, everyone can tell that i'm giving you that vibe
i haven't told them anything else
I may not like you but I'm going to keep it civil, it's as simple as that
BelaToday at 02:36
is there any chance you'll explain why
or do you want to keep that a mystery from me
TetraToday at 02:36
It's not really a mystery
BelaToday at 02:36
I don't know what it is
what did I do to you
TetraToday at 02:38
I'm not going to bother explaining to you, think about all the reasons that I might have gotten annoyed at you
BelaToday at 02:38
well that sounds like a dodge to me
if I had problems with someone I would want to tell them
and I have
you can attest to that
TetraToday at 02:38
I've told you my problems several times before
But you just dodged them too
Which is why I've started avoiding you
BelaToday at 02:39
I don't think that's true
TetraToday at 02:40
Your mentality towards the problems I had when I brought them off was dismissive, and so I got what I needed from those interactions
You acted as if they were minor
BelaToday at 02:41
I think you're making this up
TetraToday at 02:41
I'm not happy with the things you said about me, simple as
BelaToday at 02:41
the only time we ever had a conversation about something being wrong was you wanting to not be an admin on that server
TetraToday at 02:41
The fact that you're still not realising this is why I'm avoiding you
BelaToday at 02:41
and you don't want to bring clarity to this
because when asked now, you won't give specifics
so that's fine, I think that does signal where your feelings lie
TetraToday at 02:42
You talked behind my back and said some shitty stuff when I had personal issues and decided to take a break from a server
You constantly bring up old things when they happened a year ago and are not relevant anymore
BelaToday at 02:43
you've also done this by the way
back when I said I was depressed and then you attacked me thinking somebody else had said that
at the bottom of all this
TetraToday at 02:43
what?
BelaToday at 02:43
what saddens me is that I like you and want to be your friend
but you clearly don't want that
TetraToday at 02:44
I don't like how you treated me, simple as
Don't expect me to be friendly when you keep bringing up someone's past problems
BelaToday at 02:44
I'm sorry for how I treated you
I was harsh on you for some things you said and did
TetraToday at 02:44
I'm not looking for apologies
BelaToday at 02:44
but don't expect this to be a full recant
because I know some of the things you said and did should have come with an apology of your own and I'm not sure that ever happened
TetraToday at 02:45
I've apologized for the things I did in the past, if that's what you wanted
You know I have
BelaToday at 02:45
did you apologize to Bliz
TetraToday at 02:45
Me and Bliz are close friends
We don't have any problems anymore
BelaToday at 02:46
that's good to hear
I remember you saying, back then, that you were stressed out or that it was a strain to be an admin
I didn't understand that
if that was me dismissing your problems, I'm really sorry
it doesn't matter anymore I guess but I don't like hurting people, and if that was somehow me doing that I never would have wanted that
TetraToday at 02:48
As I said earlier, I'm not looking for apologies anymore
BelaToday at 02:48
I don't hold grudges Tetra
I really hope you don't either
but all I've sensed from you is this spitefulness
and really, even if it's just for your sake
you have to let go of that
I'm not God
TetraToday at 02:49
I don't hate you, I just dislike you and would rather avoid you because I don't think we're compatible
BelaToday at 02:49
I'm just a human like anyone else
TetraToday at 02:49
It's simple
BelaToday at 02:49
if I fucked up in some way, why would you hold that against me forever
TetraToday at 02:49
I'm sorry but not everyone will get along, and I can't see myself getting along with you
What do you want me to do other than what I have been doing
BelaToday at 02:50
I guess nothing different then
we'll just be indifferent beings present here