This ain’t no poem or anything.
This is just how I feel
It’s not often I do this
I can’t say it
I wish I would but I can’t say it
I’m not ready
Even now I don’t want to do this
But there’s someone who’s willing to help
I think they deserve to know

Tonight I wanted to die
Everynight I want to die
I don’t know why
But I just don’t feel like I deserve to live
I have no place among the living
There are people who are happy
They deserve to be here
Not me
I don’t cry often
But tonight I cried
People may like me
People may care for me
But I’ve never known anyone who loves me
I sound like an idiot
I am an idiot
I want to die
I really still do
I’m not strong
I don’t understand why people like me
I’m a  fat, ugly, dumbass
I have no talent
I’m not funny
I am nothing
I will never be anything
I can’t even tell someone how I feel
I shouldn’t have lived this long
I write to not cry
But this only makes it harder
Nothing is right anymore
As a kid I had dreams
I thought I was going to be something
I’m nothing
I wanted to help people
I think that is funny cause even now I can’t help myself
I know people want to help
I just don’t want them to judge me
I don’t want them to think I need their help
I don’t want their fucking pity
I want to kill someone
That way at least I’ll know someone hates me
At least I will still know I’m human
I would have affected somebody
I’m probably just talking shit but
Does it really matter
I know I don’t matter
Haha when did I ever really matter
There were too many great people before me
I am nothing compared to them
They have a trophy case full of trophies
With no room for anything new
Even they know I am not going to do anything
They know I’m an idiot
Fucking kill me
I love a girl and I can’t even say the word love
I don’t think I feel right
I hope she hates me
I think that would be better
Actually I know it would be better
At least I wouldn’t have to cry then
Fuck this
I’m gonna die one day
So I guess that’s something to look forward to