"as a CH reader and Trump Train rider"

"I am not a careerist, and I can honestly say I really wanted a family "

That alone tells me that you are a good female and i wish you the best. I'm sorry for your problems, i feel that you did not deserve that. I hope that you will find happiness in your life.

Network with like minded people. Concentrate on improving yourself and your life, and finding help, advice and assistance for your problems. Also you could still try to adopt a child, especially one that looks like you - which could indicate similar genetics. This will still benefit white people - your people -  those who are with the most similar genetics as you. If you see whites as brothers and sisters, this could help you to see adopting a white child as a worthy deed  - as helping your people survive and thrive. Maybe if you helped your people - white people - your racial family, who need help because they are under attack and on the decline, then this would not count as a fail.

Btw about the virgin part, stats say that virgins have the most stable marriages.