Woona - Today at 5:20 PM
gut reaction is I'm hurt
in my head I'm like it's online lewd shit who cares
just kinda processing it
Polynya - Today at 5:21 PM
:shrug:
Woona - Today at 5:21 PM
I'm going to steal your word
that's wack
Polynya - Today at 5:22 PM
idk what to say, i have never felt that
so
:shrug: intensifies
Woona - Today at 5:22 PM
so
I didn't go into it
but I what we had talked about was that I was comfortable doing stuff together
and after the 4 way call, I was like yeah, maybe alone stuff wouldn't be so cool
Polynya - Today at 5:25 PM
>maybe alone stuff wouldn't be so cool
this has multiple interpretations
please be more specific
Woona - Today at 5:25 PM
swinging was kind of nice
and it's fun to be lewd with people at times
but like
ongoing whatever solo with someone is a whole other thing
and I'm just trying to process it and think it out
Polynya - Today at 5:26 PM
ok
Woona - Today at 5:26 PM
honestly just going to talk it out with sugar
Polynya - Today at 5:27 PM
?
okay what is with you and deleting shit immediately(edited)
Woona - Today at 5:27 PM
regretted saying it
Polynya - Today at 5:27 PM
i read it anyway
Woona - Today at 5:27 PM
because it was phrased badly
Polynya - Today at 5:27 PM
sure
Woona - Today at 5:29 PM
I just wish he asked or told me I guess
I don't know where I'm at poly
Polynya - Today at 5:29 PM
from what it sounds like, he thought he did
like
Woona - Today at 5:29 PM
all I ever heard was him asking if it was okay to RP with people
Polynya - Today at 5:29 PM
when you were going the fuck off
in dms
he was super confused
and disoriented
and like "yo wtf"
Woona - Today at 5:30 PM
and I talked to him about it, and I went back through all our logs
neither of us can think of anything said in person
Polynya - Today at 5:30 PM
they said they might have said it on call
idk
Woona - Today at 5:30 PM
and there's no text ever about any of it
like
trust me, if anything about doing anything lewd would have come up, I would've remembered it
Polynya - Today at 5:31 PM
im going to have an incredibly hard trusting you for anything, just saying
but okay
Woona - Today at 5:31 PM
I just don't know what the hell happened
and just have to believe it's an honest mistake somehow
and that's the worst part
like
I'm going for 100% honesty and communication
and that's all I asked from him
Polynya - Today at 5:33 PM
like
i cannot help you with that
that's between y'all
Woona - Today at 5:33 PM
then why say it?
Polynya - Today at 5:33 PM
why say what?
Woona - Today at 5:33 PM
you don't trust me
what have I ever done?
Polynya - Today at 5:33 PM
because you lied to me to hurt my feelings and im still pissed at you about it
like, if you dont think they ever said anything, okay
i can't really do anything besides say that they told me they did tell you
and i asked multiple times
to make sure i wasnt overstepping
so idk
or, im pretty sure i did
idk
i think so
Woona - Today at 5:35 PM
they said you asked
Polynya - Today at 5:35 PM
okay
yeah, im pretty sure i did
Woona - Today at 5:36 PM
My problem is that I was serious, Sugar has been talking about how bad his hallucinations and migraines and depression are getting
and I believe he thought I said yes somehow(edited)
but the honest to god truth is it wasn't communicated and I'm trying to work everything out without saying no, fuck you he's mine
but like
yeah, the trust is kind of gone
and I'm trying to work on it
I don't even know what I'm getting at other than this whole thing is hella uncomfortable and I'm trying more than I think most people would
and don't say this to sugar because they already doubt themselves and feel bad about everything
but I'm just kind of scared what else he might just 'okay'
baby steps
Polynya - Today at 5:40 PM
im going to be honest, if i was dating someone and they said what you said, i would never talk to them again(edited)
sugar is being incredibly generous
but yes, it is really shitty that this situation is a thing
"hella uncomfortable" is the only description i can think of
i haven't said any of this conversation to sugar, i just said that we were talking and that you apologized
and that it was "going okay", which, comparatively, i believe is accurate
Woona - Today at 5:42 PM
word
I'm half venting, half explaining
Polynya - Today at 5:42 PM
yup
Woona - Today at 5:43 PM
can you at least stop the IRL stuff while we figure things out?
RP I couldn't care less about
Polynya - Today at 5:45 PM
part of me wants to tell you to just fuck off
but
fine.
Woona - Today at 5:45 PM
part of me wants to tell you it's my relationship.
and I'm bending over backwards to please everyone but myself
Polynya - Today at 5:46 PM
k.
im done, enjoy your evening.