Eng At Eternity's Gate (2018)

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Subtitles by explosiveskull

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<i>I just want to be one of them.</i>

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<i>I would like to sit down
with them and have a drink,</i>

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<i>and talk about anything.</i>

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<i>I'd like for them
to give me some tobacco,</i>

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<i>a glass of wine,</i>

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<i>or even just ask me,
"How are you today?"</i>

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<i>And I would answer,
and we would talk.</i>

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<i>And from time to time,</i>

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<i>I'd make a sketch
of one of them as a gift.</i>

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<i>They would accept it maybe,
and keep it somewhere.</i>

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<i>And a woman
would smile at me and ask,</i>

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<i>"Are you hungry? Would you
like something to eat?</i>

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<i>"A piece of ham, some
cheese, or maybe a fruit?"</i>

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Look at me.

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Please.

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<i>Oui.</i>

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Some of them were
going to be in my group show.

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They let me down.

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You know him, don't you?

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Yes, I have some of
his paintings in the gallery.

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I'm Paul
Gauguin, by the way.

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I know.

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- You're Vincent.
- Yes.

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Theo's brother.

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I saw your paintings
at the cafeteria.

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You did? You must've
been the only one.

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But if you did,
it was worth it.

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There were a couple
good ones in there,

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but it was hard to see.

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It was a difficult space.
And too many works.

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My idea was a group show.

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I thought it could be
a community of artists,

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like a family.

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When the other artists
didn't participate,

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I had to do it by myself.

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I filled it with everything
I had in my studio.

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Yeah, it looked like it.

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Those people, you don't
want them to be your family.

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Who needs a family like that?

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You can't pick your family,
but you can pick your friends.

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I love my brother.

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Then you're lucky.

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But more importantly,
he loves you.

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I know
he's very good to you.

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I want to get as far away
from these people as possible.

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I'm going to Madagascar.

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Madagascar?
But what about Japan?

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No, no, Madagascar.

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It's an island. Big one.

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In between Africa and India.

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Or even further,
some remote island

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where they've never
heard about painting,

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about Paris or schools.

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Somewhere where I can
create a new vision,

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a new way of painting,

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far away from all systems
and theories.

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Real freedom.

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I'd like to be calm
and take my time,

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alone, forget about the rest
of the world, and just...

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Paint this.

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Here.

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Slowly.

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What comes to me,
nothing else.

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That sounds good.

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I hate the fog. I'm tired
of this gray light.

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I'd like to find
a new light.

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For paintings
that we haven't yet seen.

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Bright paintings,
painted in sunlight.

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Go south, Vincent.

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What are you reading today?

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The Bible?

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Uh, no, Shakespeare.

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How did you say?

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Shakespeare.
William Shakespeare.

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He's an English writer.

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Do you know him?

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No, he lived a long time ago.

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- Is he any good?
- Oh, yes.

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What does he write about?

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About everything.

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About men and women,
gods and kings,

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about love and hate.

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What are you
reading right now?

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It's a, uh, theater play
called <i>Richard III.</i>

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- Who is that, Richard?
- A king, a king of England.

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A good king?

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Oh, no, he was
considered a real bastard.

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- Did he kill people?
- Oh, yes, a lot.

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You shouldn't read
a bastard's story.

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Why not?

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- Does he write well at least?
- Oh, yes, very well.

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Some of the lines
aren't very clear, but...

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- I like that.
- Why?

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Because I like mystery,

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and Shakespeare
is more mysterious

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than any other writer.

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Well, when I read a book,

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I like to understand
what's written.

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What kind of books
do you read?

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Mmm...

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Mostly novels. Modern novels.

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And short stories
in the papers.

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Sad stories.

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I don't know why,
I like a story to be sad.

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If I had more free time,
I would...

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Wait a minute.
I'll be right back.

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- I have a book for you.
- Thank you.

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There's nothing written in
it. In fact, it's blank.

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But I thought
you could use the paper.

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Thank you.

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Excuse me, I've been
meaning to ask you...

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Is there a place,
or do you have a storeroom,

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or a room where I could paint?
It's...

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It's sometimes difficult with
this weather, the mistral.

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The yellow house next door
has been empty for months.

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Maybe he could use it?

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Yes...

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Perhaps we could make an
arrangement with your brother?

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It is a bit rundown,

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but Gaby can help you
clean it up.

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That would be
perfect for me.

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Maybe I can,

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uh, make a painting of

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you someday.

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Me?

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Yes.

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If you want, sir, thank you.

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Have you received
the money for this month?

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You still owe me
for last month.

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When it arrives,

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I'll pay you.

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Your brother,
he must be rich.

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Well, he... He's not.

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He's a merchant.
He sells paintings.

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Your paintings?

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Not yet.

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You should
wash yourself sometimes.

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At least once a week.

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Do I look dirty?

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You smell terrible.

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You're not bad looking.

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If you just
cleaned up a little,

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you might even be handsome.

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If I was clean, would
you find me attractive?

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Maybe.

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Would you stay with me here
if I gave you 50 Francs?

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You don't have 50 Francs.

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See you tomorrow, Vincent.

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Why do you paint this?

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What?

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These flowers.
Why do you paint them?

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Don't you
find them beautiful?

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Well, they are
beautiful flowers, no doubt.

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More beautiful
than what you paint.

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- You think so?
- Oh, yes.

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Maybe you're right.

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But these flowers will wither
and fade. All flowers do.

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I know, everybody knows that.

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But mine will resist.

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Are you sure?

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At least
they'll have a chance.

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You should
make a painting of me.

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Why not?

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If you paint me,

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I would stay young
forever, maybe.

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I can even
make you look younger.

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No, it wouldn't be fair.

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<i>When facing a flat landscape,</i>

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<i>I see nothing but eternity.</i>

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<i>Am I the only one to see it?</i>

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<i>Existence can't be
without reason.</i>

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Oh.

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Go away! Go away!

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Go away! Leave me alone!
Leave me alone!

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Go away!

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Go away!

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Theo.

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Theo, come here.

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They told me what happened.

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Please,

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tell me,

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how do you feel?

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I feel so well
with you next to me.

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So well...

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I'd like to die like this.

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When we were little,

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I used to climb into bed
with you, remember?

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Yes, you did.

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<i>When it was getting cold.</i>

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<i>How long will you stay?</i>

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Just today, I'm sorry.

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I have to get back to Paris.
So many things to do...

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And they told me you were in

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a hospital,
and I took the first train.

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Can't you stay any longer?

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I can't, I'm sorry.

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It took one day
and a night to get here.

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And I'm a married man now.

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I know you are.

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I'm very happy
for Jo and you.

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Vincent,

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why did they put you here?

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I have no idea, Theo.
I swear to you.

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There must be a reason.

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From time to time,

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I feel like
I'm losing my mind.

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Yes, my mind goes out of me,

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I'm telling you.
It goes out of me.

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What do you mean?

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They say that I scream
in the streets, that I cry,

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that I put black paint on
my face to scare the children.

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But I don't remember
anything.

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Anything except

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the darkness and anxiety,

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so they sent me here.

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With really insane people.

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Do you drink a lot?

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I must tell you,

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don't tell it
to the doctors...

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Theo,
sometimes I have visions.

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Who do you see?

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It's hard to say.

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Ghosts?

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I don't know.

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Flowers, sometimes,

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and also angels, human beings.

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It's confusing.

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Sometimes they talk to me.

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What do they say?

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I don't understand them.

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But it's frightening. They
aren't always very nice.

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I will talk to the doctors
and see what can be done.

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When I get like this,

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I don't know
what I'm capable of.

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Maybe I could kill

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and throw myself off a cliff.

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<i>Dear Paul,</i>

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<i>I know you've been in correspondence
with my brother Vincent,</i>

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<i>and he is very much
looking forward</i>

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<i>to your arrival in Arles,</i>

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<i>which I know has been postponed
due to financial concerns.</i>

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<i>I am prepared and committed to
sending 250 francs each month</i>

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<i>in exchange for one painting
a month of yours,</i>

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<i>at your discretion.</i>

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<i>It would benefit
Vincent greatly</i>

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<i>to see you
as soon as possible.</i>

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<i>A warm handshake.</i>

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<i>Enthusiastically,
Theo van Gogh.</i>

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<i>P.S.</i>

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<i>Looking forward
to your response</i>

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<i>and to seeing
your latest works.</i>

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Of all the miseries
that afflict humanity,

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nothing maddens me more
than the lack of money.

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But not tonight.

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Another round, <i>madame.</i>

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Gaby.

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Some days, I feel
like a beggar, but not today.

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It's so good to see you,
Vincent,

260
00:40:24,713 --> 00:40:25,912
and this fine group.

261
00:40:25,914 --> 00:40:28,280
I'm happy to see you, Paul.

262
00:40:28,282 --> 00:40:31,016
But really, no one around
here really likes me,

263
00:40:31,018 --> 00:40:32,818
except <i>Madame</i>
and <i>Monsieur</i> Ginoux.

264
00:40:32,820 --> 00:40:38,391
Sometimes it's days
before I speak to someone.

265
00:40:38,393 --> 00:40:40,128
I've been waiting
for this moment.

266
00:40:41,096 --> 00:40:42,961
But you were so indecisive.

267
00:40:42,963 --> 00:40:44,732
I'm glad
you made up your mind.

268
00:40:46,134 --> 00:40:48,400
Is your brother
still sending you money?

269
00:40:48,402 --> 00:40:50,737
250 francs a month.

270
00:40:50,739 --> 00:40:51,740
Not much.

271
00:40:52,641 --> 00:40:54,407
He does what he can.

272
00:40:54,409 --> 00:40:56,175
Did you make
an arrangement with him?

273
00:40:56,177 --> 00:40:57,179
Yeah.

274
00:40:58,213 --> 00:40:59,746
He pays my expenses here,

275
00:40:59,748 --> 00:41:01,313
and I send him
a canvas a month.

276
00:41:01,315 --> 00:41:03,918
- And you're happy with that?
- It's all right.

277
00:41:04,885 --> 00:41:06,351
It's acceptable.

278
00:41:06,353 --> 00:41:10,023
You have
such a compelling face.

279
00:41:10,025 --> 00:41:11,724
Maybe you'd come over
to the yellow house

280
00:41:11,726 --> 00:41:13,762
and, uh, pose for me.

281
00:41:14,695 --> 00:41:15,797
Maybe.

282
00:41:16,965 --> 00:41:18,300
I'll take that as a yes.

283
00:41:28,710 --> 00:41:31,911
Why do you always
have to paint from nature?

284
00:41:31,913 --> 00:41:34,382
I feel lost if I don't have
something to look at.

285
00:41:36,150 --> 00:41:39,120
I need something to see.
There's so much to see.

286
00:41:39,887 --> 00:41:41,220
Every time I look,

287
00:41:41,222 --> 00:41:43,789
I see something
I've never seen before.

288
00:41:43,791 --> 00:41:46,327
Yes, but what you paint,
what you do belongs to you.

289
00:41:47,461 --> 00:41:49,061
You don't need to
copy anything.

290
00:41:49,063 --> 00:41:50,262
I don't copy.

291
00:41:50,264 --> 00:41:51,363
I know,

292
00:41:51,365 --> 00:41:53,700
but why don't you paint
just what's in your mind?

293
00:41:53,702 --> 00:41:55,767
What your brain sees?

294
00:41:55,769 --> 00:41:58,273
Because the essence
of nature is beauty.

295
00:41:59,074 --> 00:42:00,840
What do you mean?

296
00:42:00,842 --> 00:42:02,008
What do you mean
what do I mean?

297
00:42:02,010 --> 00:42:03,909
Why did you want to
go to Madagascar?

298
00:42:03,911 --> 00:42:06,244
To get away from society,
from people.

299
00:42:06,246 --> 00:42:07,746
That may have
been part of it,

300
00:42:07,748 --> 00:42:09,715
but you went there
in search of beauty,

301
00:42:09,717 --> 00:42:11,851
and nature
was definitely there.

302
00:42:11,853 --> 00:42:14,320
And it was different
than what you knew before,

303
00:42:14,322 --> 00:42:17,092
and it made your paintings
look different.

304
00:42:18,259 --> 00:42:19,827
When I look at nature,

305
00:42:20,728 --> 00:42:22,397
I see more clearly,

306
00:42:23,498 --> 00:42:25,800
the tie that unites us all.

307
00:42:27,068 --> 00:42:28,903
A vibrating energy,

308
00:42:30,204 --> 00:42:31,804
speaking in God's voice.

309
00:42:31,806 --> 00:42:34,273
Sometimes it's so intense,
I lose consciousness.

310
00:42:34,275 --> 00:42:36,508
- Come on.
- I swear to you.

311
00:42:36,510 --> 00:42:37,744
After a while,

312
00:42:37,746 --> 00:42:41,748
I wake up and I don't know
where I am or what I'm doing.

313
00:42:41,750 --> 00:42:45,918
It takes me some minutes
to even remember my name.

314
00:42:45,920 --> 00:42:47,452
Listen, Vincent,
the time is coming

315
00:42:47,454 --> 00:42:49,222
when painters
won't need anymore

316
00:42:49,224 --> 00:42:51,456
to look at models and sit down
in front of nature.

317
00:42:51,458 --> 00:42:52,958
You know why?

318
00:42:52,960 --> 00:42:55,762
Because nature is what
we see here in our heads.

319
00:42:55,764 --> 00:42:56,630
Nothing else!

320
00:42:56,632 --> 00:42:58,831
Without our eyes,
there's no nature.

321
00:42:58,833 --> 00:43:00,999
And none of us sees the world
around us the same way.

322
00:43:01,001 --> 00:43:02,101
We sit, you and I,

323
00:43:02,103 --> 00:43:03,436
in front of
the same landscape,

324
00:43:03,438 --> 00:43:06,204
we don't see the same
mountains, the same trees.

325
00:43:06,206 --> 00:43:07,273
Well, that's
what I'm saying.

326
00:43:07,275 --> 00:43:09,075
The trees that I paint
are mine.

327
00:43:09,077 --> 00:43:12,177
Even the faces you paint
are yours.

328
00:43:12,179 --> 00:43:14,246
And they'll stay
because of you.

329
00:43:14,248 --> 00:43:16,414
People will be known
because you painted them

330
00:43:16,416 --> 00:43:19,251
and how you painted them,
not because of who they are.

331
00:43:19,253 --> 00:43:20,487
That's good.

332
00:43:20,489 --> 00:43:22,320
And people will go to museums
to see paintings of people,

333
00:43:22,322 --> 00:43:24,023
not to see people
who were painted.

334
00:43:24,025 --> 00:43:25,525
You know,
people don't always like

335
00:43:25,527 --> 00:43:27,195
the way they look
in my paintings.

336
00:43:28,963 --> 00:43:31,264
We have to start a revolution.
Do you understand?

337
00:43:31,266 --> 00:43:33,266
Yes, we do.

338
00:43:33,268 --> 00:43:34,967
Us, our generation.

339
00:43:34,969 --> 00:43:36,969
We have to change entirely

340
00:43:36,971 --> 00:43:41,240
the relation between painting
and what you call nature.

341
00:43:41,242 --> 00:43:44,209
Between painting and reality

342
00:43:44,211 --> 00:43:46,148
because painted reality
is its own reality.

343
00:43:47,981 --> 00:43:49,248
You're right about that.

344
00:43:49,250 --> 00:43:51,983
The impressionists,

345
00:43:51,985 --> 00:43:54,086
they're out of it,
do you agree?

346
00:43:54,088 --> 00:43:56,389
- Uh...
- Come on.

347
00:43:56,391 --> 00:43:58,191
They only paint their
babies in their gardens.

348
00:43:58,193 --> 00:43:59,428
They'll never
go any further.

349
00:44:01,094 --> 00:44:03,595
Seurat confounds
painting with science.

350
00:44:03,597 --> 00:44:06,300
He's lost himself
in optical experiments.

351
00:44:07,501 --> 00:44:09,901
There's nothing more
to expect

352
00:44:09,903 --> 00:44:12,104
from Renoir, Degas, Monet...

353
00:44:12,106 --> 00:44:12,972
They repeat themselves.

354
00:44:12,974 --> 00:44:14,407
They've given everything
they could give.

355
00:44:14,409 --> 00:44:16,008
You don't mean that.

356
00:44:16,010 --> 00:44:17,212
You like Degas.

357
00:44:19,047 --> 00:44:21,516
You have to say thank you
for the paintings you like.

358
00:44:22,483 --> 00:44:23,916
Monet's pretty good.

359
00:44:23,918 --> 00:44:24,920
It's our turn.

360
00:44:25,853 --> 00:44:28,253
We have a huge responsibility.

361
00:44:28,255 --> 00:44:30,158
I still think
Monet's pretty good.

362
00:44:34,061 --> 00:44:35,429
You want to go to Martinique?

363
00:45:00,922 --> 00:45:02,157
It's good to have you here.

364
00:46:23,471 --> 00:46:25,373
Could you put your hand
back how it was?

365
00:47:00,775 --> 00:47:02,041
Thank you.

366
00:47:02,043 --> 00:47:03,378
- Can I go?
- You can go.

367
00:47:24,097 --> 00:47:26,400
You have to plan
your paintings slowly.

368
00:47:28,202 --> 00:47:29,237
What's the rush?

369
00:47:30,405 --> 00:47:31,737
Work calmly, slowly.

370
00:47:31,739 --> 00:47:36,541
You're indoors, you're not
outside in the wind and the noise.

371
00:47:36,543 --> 00:47:39,647
Paintings have to be done
in one clear gesture.

372
00:47:48,155 --> 00:47:50,088
Think about the surface
that you're painting on

373
00:47:50,090 --> 00:47:51,557
and how the paint
will sit on it.

374
00:47:51,559 --> 00:47:53,758
You're changing things
so fast,

375
00:47:53,760 --> 00:47:55,329
you can't even see
what you've done.

376
00:47:57,130 --> 00:47:58,632
Paintings have to be
painted fast.

377
00:48:39,172 --> 00:48:40,341
<i>Painters I look at...</i>

378
00:48:44,545 --> 00:48:45,680
<i>Frans Hals,</i>

379
00:48:53,387 --> 00:48:54,389
<i>Goya,</i>

380
00:49:02,496 --> 00:49:03,565
<i>Velazquez,</i>

381
00:49:08,436 --> 00:49:09,538
<i>Veronese,</i>

382
00:49:18,846 --> 00:49:20,114
<i>Delacroix.</i>

383
00:49:26,521 --> 00:49:30,392
<i>The painters I like all paint
fast in one clear gesture,</i>

384
00:49:31,159 --> 00:49:32,160
<i>each stroke.</i>

385
00:49:33,927 --> 00:49:35,860
You've heard of
"a stroke of genius"?

386
00:49:35,862 --> 00:49:37,264
Well, that's what it means.

387
00:49:38,865 --> 00:49:40,733
You don't even
paint that way.

388
00:49:40,735 --> 00:49:43,334
You paint fast
and you overpaint.

389
00:49:43,336 --> 00:49:46,171
Your surface looks
like it's made out of clay.

390
00:49:46,173 --> 00:49:48,309
It's more like sculpture
than painting.

391
00:50:00,788 --> 00:50:02,921
<i>You don't even
paint like that.</i>

392
00:50:02,923 --> 00:50:05,224
<i>You paint fast
and then you overpaint.</i>

393
00:50:05,226 --> 00:50:07,262
<i>Your surface looks
like it's made out of clay.</i>

394
00:50:08,663 --> 00:50:10,662
<i>It's more like sculpture
than painting.</i>

395
00:50:44,965 --> 00:50:47,268
I'm telling you,
you have to look inside.

396
00:50:48,501 --> 00:50:51,503
You keep saying "look
inside." I get it, I do.

397
00:50:51,505 --> 00:50:53,608
You keep repeating yourself.

398
00:50:54,742 --> 00:50:56,675
What do you think
I'm doing?

399
00:50:56,677 --> 00:50:59,677
I don't invent the picture.

400
00:50:59,679 --> 00:51:02,313
I don't need
to invent the picture.

401
00:51:02,315 --> 00:51:06,584
I find it already in nature.
I just have to free it.

402
00:51:06,586 --> 00:51:09,354
All right, I'm just saying,
first think about your surface

403
00:51:09,356 --> 00:51:11,490
and how the paint
will sit on it.

404
00:51:11,492 --> 00:51:14,425
Get control
over what you're doing.

405
00:51:14,427 --> 00:51:15,963
Maybe you should
work inside more.

406
00:51:17,364 --> 00:51:21,400
I've spent all my life
alone, in a room.

407
00:51:21,402 --> 00:51:26,938
I need to go out
and work to forget myself.

408
00:51:26,940 --> 00:51:28,074
I want to be out of control.

409
00:51:28,076 --> 00:51:31,276
I need to be in a feverish state.

410
00:51:31,278 --> 00:51:33,345
It's called the act
of painting for a reason.

411
00:51:33,347 --> 00:51:34,682
All right, calm down.

412
00:51:35,483 --> 00:51:37,016
I don't want to calm down.

413
00:51:37,018 --> 00:51:39,385
The faster I paint,
the better I feel.

414
00:51:39,387 --> 00:51:41,423
I can't stay here,
Vincent.

415
00:51:42,389 --> 00:51:43,592
What are you saying?

416
00:51:46,726 --> 00:51:48,329
I can't stay in Arles.

417
00:51:49,597 --> 00:51:50,832
I'll go soon.

418
00:51:54,835 --> 00:51:55,900
What?

419
00:51:55,902 --> 00:51:57,503
I've sold
some paintings lately.

420
00:51:57,505 --> 00:51:58,871
Maybe your brother told you?

421
00:51:58,873 --> 00:52:00,342
And I have to
get back to Paris.

422
00:52:06,880 --> 00:52:07,949
Where are you going?

423
00:52:11,418 --> 00:52:12,453
Vincent!

424
00:52:20,460 --> 00:52:24,429
<i>I've spent
all my life alone, in a room.</i>

425
00:52:24,431 --> 00:52:27,800
- <i>I need to go out and work...</i>
- What are you doing?

426
00:52:27,802 --> 00:52:29,967
<i>...to forget myself.</i>

427
00:52:29,969 --> 00:52:31,103
- <i>I want to be out of control.</i>
- What?

428
00:52:31,105 --> 00:52:34,106
<i>I need to be
in a feverish state.</i>

429
00:52:34,108 --> 00:52:36,108
<i>It's called the act
of painting for a reason.</i>

430
00:52:36,110 --> 00:52:38,443
<i>All right, calm down.</i>

431
00:52:38,445 --> 00:52:40,079
<i>I don't want to calm down.</i>

432
00:52:40,081 --> 00:52:42,046
<i>The faster I paint,
the better I feel.</i>

433
00:52:46,353 --> 00:52:47,588
Why are you crying?

434
00:52:50,358 --> 00:52:52,360
What did I do?
Where did I go wrong?

435
00:52:52,760 --> 00:52:53,726
Nothing.

436
00:52:53,728 --> 00:52:56,364
You have nothing to do
with this decision.

437
00:52:58,632 --> 00:53:01,367
Vincent,
we can't live side by side.

438
00:53:01,369 --> 00:53:02,668
Our temperaments
are incompatible,

439
00:53:02,670 --> 00:53:03,872
you must admit that.

440
00:53:06,440 --> 00:53:08,807
And you have to understand

441
00:53:08,809 --> 00:53:11,709
my reputation
is established now.

442
00:53:11,711 --> 00:53:13,981
I can't live
in a country town anymore.

443
00:53:15,583 --> 00:53:18,117
I have to be around people,
for now.

444
00:53:21,389 --> 00:53:23,988
Besides,
I don't like it here.

445
00:53:23,990 --> 00:53:28,496
You're surrounded by
stupid, wicked, ignorant people.

446
00:53:31,798 --> 00:53:33,634
Come on, why are you
being so dramatic?

447
00:54:00,527 --> 00:54:01,762
Please don't go.

448
00:54:03,030 --> 00:54:04,566
It's great having you here.

449
00:54:05,766 --> 00:54:07,166
<i>I've sold
some paintings lately.</i>

450
00:54:07,168 --> 00:54:08,733
<i>Maybe your brother told you?</i>

451
00:54:08,735 --> 00:54:11,836
Don't do it to me!
I beg you.

452
00:54:11,838 --> 00:54:13,938
- No!
- <i>Nothing.</i>

453
00:54:13,940 --> 00:54:16,842
<i>You have nothing to do
with this decision.</i>

454
00:54:16,844 --> 00:54:18,844
<i>Where are you going?</i>

455
00:54:18,846 --> 00:54:20,813
<i>Vincent, we can't live
side by side.</i>

456
00:54:20,815 --> 00:54:21,847
<i>Vincent!</i>

457
00:54:21,849 --> 00:54:23,048
<i>Our temperaments
are incompatible,</i>

458
00:54:23,050 --> 00:54:24,682
<i>you must admit that.</i>

459
00:54:26,586 --> 00:54:28,920
<i>And you have to understand</i>

460
00:54:28,922 --> 00:54:31,824
<i>my reputation
is established now.</i>

461
00:54:31,826 --> 00:54:34,028
<i>I can't live
in a country town anymore.</i>

462
00:54:35,728 --> 00:54:38,599
<i>I have to be around people,
for now.</i>

463
00:54:40,099 --> 00:54:41,499
<i>What?</i>

464
00:54:41,501 --> 00:54:44,101
<i>Besides,
I don't like it here.</i>

465
00:54:44,103 --> 00:54:48,576
<i>You're surrounded by stupid,
wicked, ignorant people.</i>

466
00:54:51,846 --> 00:54:53,715
<i>Come on,
why are you being so dramatic?</i>

467
00:55:01,588 --> 00:55:02,623
<i>What are you saying?</i>

468
00:55:05,960 --> 00:55:07,693
<i>I can't stay in Arles.</i>

469
00:55:11,865 --> 00:55:13,701
<i>There's something
strange about me.</i>

470
00:55:14,702 --> 00:55:17,235
<i>Sometimes I don't know</i>

471
00:55:17,237 --> 00:55:19,640
<i>what I've done
or what I've said.</i>

472
00:55:20,907 --> 00:55:23,742
<i>About Gauguin, for instance,</i>

473
00:55:23,744 --> 00:55:25,747
<i>what happened
right before he left.</i>

474
00:55:26,981 --> 00:55:28,716
<i>We had some fights...</i>

475
00:55:29,750 --> 00:55:31,816
<i>I...</i>

476
00:55:31,818 --> 00:55:35,722
<i>Maybe I hurt him.
I don't know how.</i>

477
00:55:36,757 --> 00:55:37,959
<i>I do know</i>

478
00:55:39,527 --> 00:55:42,293
<i>that I took a razor</i>

479
00:55:42,295 --> 00:55:45,264
<i>and I cut off
one of my ears, yes.</i>

480
00:55:45,266 --> 00:55:48,766
<i>I cut it off, one of my ears.
Blood all over the place.</i>

481
00:55:48,768 --> 00:55:50,604
<i>No one else did it, I did it.</i>

482
00:55:52,139 --> 00:55:56,510
I wanted to give it to Gauguin
with my apologies.

483
00:55:57,710 --> 00:55:58,779
Why?

484
00:56:00,681 --> 00:56:01,816
God knows.

485
00:56:03,717 --> 00:56:05,182
And I thought,

486
00:56:05,184 --> 00:56:06,751
she would know where Paul was,

487
00:56:06,753 --> 00:56:09,954
so I gave my ear to the girl
at the bar, to Gaby.

488
00:56:09,956 --> 00:56:11,789
She was scared,
all the blood...

489
00:56:11,791 --> 00:56:14,959
I think she thought
I was going to kill her.

490
00:56:14,961 --> 00:56:18,766
So, she called the police
and they put me here.

491
00:56:21,168 --> 00:56:23,872
And what would you have done,
as a police officer?

492
00:56:25,271 --> 00:56:27,608
You can leave. It's all right.

493
00:56:34,347 --> 00:56:35,717
I...

494
00:56:38,152 --> 00:56:39,717
This is a small town, Vincent.

495
00:56:39,719 --> 00:56:41,320
Everybody's watching
what you're doing,

496
00:56:41,322 --> 00:56:42,891
even more in a small town.

497
00:56:43,791 --> 00:56:45,093
You're a stranger here.

498
00:56:46,693 --> 00:56:48,630
You drink too much.
Much too much.

499
00:56:50,130 --> 00:56:52,229
Then you get hysterical,
out of control,

500
00:56:52,231 --> 00:56:55,068
and yes, one night you cut off
one of your ears.

501
00:56:56,704 --> 00:56:57,906
Can you tell me why?

502
00:57:00,007 --> 00:57:02,076
My friend was
about to leave me.

503
00:57:03,277 --> 00:57:04,913
He was about to leave.

504
00:57:06,079 --> 00:57:07,311
And cutting one
of your ears

505
00:57:07,313 --> 00:57:09,016
was a way to keep him
next to you?

506
00:57:10,951 --> 00:57:12,186
That doesn't make sense.

507
00:57:17,291 --> 00:57:20,028
Was it a kind of gift
or a sacrifice or what?

508
00:57:22,161 --> 00:57:24,028
What were you trying
to achieve?

509
00:57:24,030 --> 00:57:25,099
I don't know.

510
00:57:26,800 --> 00:57:28,202
It might help
to talk about it.

511
00:57:29,402 --> 00:57:30,904
Try to tell me. I...

512
00:57:32,373 --> 00:57:34,208
I've never seen
anything like this before.

513
00:57:36,043 --> 00:57:37,711
But I'd like to help you.

514
00:57:39,746 --> 00:57:42,015
There's something inside me.
I don't know what it is.

515
00:57:47,788 --> 00:57:50,354
What I see, nobody else sees
and sometimes it frightens me.

516
00:57:50,356 --> 00:57:52,356
I think I'm losing my mind.

517
00:57:52,358 --> 00:57:55,896
But then I say to myself,

518
00:57:57,898 --> 00:58:00,231
"I'll show what I see

519
00:58:00,233 --> 00:58:02,867
"to my human brothers
who can't see it."

520
00:58:02,869 --> 00:58:04,403
It's a privilege.

521
00:58:04,405 --> 00:58:06,307
I can give them hope
and consolation.

522
00:58:09,242 --> 00:58:11,208
You're confusing people.

523
00:58:11,210 --> 00:58:13,914
You're confusing yourself
with your paintings.

524
00:58:15,282 --> 00:58:16,851
I am my paintings.

525
00:58:20,253 --> 00:58:22,656
What do you mean
by consolation and hope?

526
00:58:24,891 --> 00:58:26,858
You might be asking
too much of people.

527
00:58:26,860 --> 00:58:28,959
I'd like to share
my vision with people

528
00:58:28,961 --> 00:58:31,032
who can't see what I see
the way I see.

529
00:58:31,764 --> 00:58:32,933
Yes, but why?

530
00:58:34,902 --> 00:58:39,336
Because my vision is closer
to the reality of the world.

531
00:58:39,338 --> 00:58:44,077
I can make people feel
what it's like to be alive.

532
00:58:45,945 --> 00:58:48,280
Do you feel like
they don't feel alive?

533
00:58:48,282 --> 00:58:49,784
Yes, I do.

534
00:58:54,088 --> 00:58:55,487
And you think
you can make them

535
00:58:55,489 --> 00:58:56,954
feel that through painting?

536
00:58:56,956 --> 00:59:00,260
Yes. Yes, absolutely.

537
00:59:01,494 --> 00:59:02,829
Yes.

538
00:59:05,231 --> 00:59:10,034
Gaby said your ear
was wrapped in this,

539
00:59:10,036 --> 00:59:12,406
and she was supposed to
give it to Paul.

540
00:59:14,440 --> 00:59:16,974
"Remember me,"
what did you mean by that?

541
00:59:22,882 --> 00:59:24,182
Maybe you were trying
to show him

542
00:59:24,184 --> 00:59:25,450
what he meant to you
through that act,

543
00:59:25,452 --> 00:59:27,855
but that was something
you couldn't see.

544
00:59:31,190 --> 00:59:33,023
I didn't want him to leave.

545
00:59:33,025 --> 00:59:36,193
It was a way to get him back.

546
00:59:36,195 --> 00:59:39,733
Jesus said, "If thy hand
offend thee, cut it off."

547
00:59:40,934 --> 00:59:42,133
So you cut off your ear

548
00:59:42,135 --> 00:59:46,137
because you couldn't bear
to hear what Paul was saying?

549
00:59:46,139 --> 00:59:49,409
I believe I have
a menacing spirit around me.

550
00:59:50,409 --> 00:59:52,045
An invisible being.

551
00:59:54,815 --> 00:59:56,818
I feel it, I don't see it.

552
00:59:58,117 --> 01:00:00,552
He speaks to me
and threatens me.

553
01:00:00,554 --> 01:00:04,389
And all he wants to do is
plunge a knife into my heart.

554
01:00:04,391 --> 01:00:08,159
I saw him and I tried to
cut him out of myself.

555
01:00:08,161 --> 01:00:11,061
So that's the reason
why you cut off your ear.

556
01:00:15,501 --> 01:00:17,302
Your vision of the world,
as you say,

557
01:00:17,304 --> 01:00:18,740
is quite frightening.

558
01:00:19,306 --> 01:00:20,340
Isn't it?

559
01:00:20,940 --> 01:00:23,008
Yes.

560
01:00:23,010 --> 01:00:25,379
I'm terrified he'll
come back.

561
01:00:26,980 --> 01:00:27,981
I see.

562
01:00:32,018 --> 01:00:33,286
So, listen to me.

563
01:00:34,320 --> 01:00:36,387
We'll send you to
Saint-Remy.

564
01:00:36,389 --> 01:00:38,423
- Where?
- Saint-Remy.

565
01:00:38,425 --> 01:00:41,092
A very nice place.

566
01:00:41,094 --> 01:00:44,362
The best we have around here.
You'll be very well-treated.

567
01:00:44,364 --> 01:00:47,132
- Is it a jail?
- No, not at all.

568
01:00:47,134 --> 01:00:48,436
It's a voluntary asylum.

569
01:00:49,869 --> 01:00:51,269
It's your choice,

570
01:00:51,271 --> 01:00:52,336
but you'll be subjected

571
01:00:52,338 --> 01:00:54,107
to their rules
and methods of care.

572
01:00:55,576 --> 01:00:57,778
I do think you can find
some peace there.

573
01:00:59,045 --> 01:01:00,311
And when you're
less overexcited,

574
01:01:00,313 --> 01:01:02,414
you can even paint there.

575
01:01:02,416 --> 01:01:04,018
Without painting,
I can't live.

576
01:01:05,152 --> 01:01:06,320
I believe you.

577
01:01:10,590 --> 01:01:15,260
Will you come and see me?

578
01:01:15,262 --> 01:01:18,563
Of course.
At least once a week.

579
01:01:18,565 --> 01:01:20,231
And you're sure that, um,

580
01:01:20,233 --> 01:01:22,235
I'll be allowed to paint
there? You're sure?

581
01:01:22,969 --> 01:01:24,070
Yes.

582
01:01:25,137 --> 01:01:26,336
But first, when you get there,

583
01:01:26,338 --> 01:01:28,509
you'll have to stop drinking
and take some medicine.

584
01:01:31,878 --> 01:01:32,880
For how long?

585
01:01:33,914 --> 01:01:35,182
That will depend on you.

586
01:01:38,452 --> 01:01:40,488
Will you do as I say?
May I count on you?

587
01:01:44,992 --> 01:01:46,057
Can you stay for a minute?

588
01:01:46,059 --> 01:01:47,025
I promised your brother

589
01:01:47,027 --> 01:01:48,563
I'd send him a drawing
of what you've done.

590
01:01:50,530 --> 01:01:52,329
Don't move, please. I'm going
to take your bandage off.

591
01:01:52,331 --> 01:01:53,967
No, I can do it.

592
01:03:15,382 --> 01:03:18,016
<i>Beneath skies
that sometimes dazzle</i>

593
01:03:18,018 --> 01:03:21,219
<i>like faceted sapphires
or turquoises,</i>

594
01:03:21,221 --> 01:03:23,688
<i>beneath the incessant
and formidable streaming</i>

595
01:03:23,690 --> 01:03:26,324
<i>of every conceivable effect
of light.</i>

596
01:03:26,326 --> 01:03:29,059
<i>In heavy, flaming,
burning atmospheres,</i>

597
01:03:29,061 --> 01:03:30,128
<i>there is the disquieting</i>

598
01:03:30,130 --> 01:03:32,697
<i>and disturbing display
of strange nature</i>

599
01:03:32,699 --> 01:03:35,333
<i>that is
at once entirely realistic</i>

600
01:03:35,335 --> 01:03:37,302
<i>and yet almost supernatural.</i>

601
01:03:37,304 --> 01:03:40,572
<i>Often excessive nature
where everything,</i>

602
01:03:40,574 --> 01:03:44,075
<i>beings and things, shadows
and lights, forms and colors,</i>

603
01:03:44,077 --> 01:03:46,510
<i>rears and rises up
with a raging will</i>

604
01:03:46,512 --> 01:03:49,146
<i>to howl its own essential song</i>

605
01:03:49,148 --> 01:03:50,548
<i>in the most intense</i>

606
01:03:50,550 --> 01:03:53,450
<i>and fiercely
high-pitched timbre.</i>

607
01:03:53,452 --> 01:03:55,420
<i>It is matter
and all of nature,</i>

608
01:03:55,422 --> 01:03:57,088
<i>frenetically contorted.</i>

609
01:03:57,090 --> 01:04:00,758
<i>It is form becoming nightmare,
color becoming flames,</i>

610
01:04:00,760 --> 01:04:03,394
<i>light turning
into conflagration,</i>

611
01:04:03,396 --> 01:04:06,130
<i>life into burning fever.</i>

612
01:04:06,132 --> 01:04:08,766
<i>Such is the impression
left upon the retina</i>

613
01:04:08,768 --> 01:04:11,302
<i>when it first views
the strange, intense</i>

614
01:04:11,304 --> 01:04:14,271
<i>and feverish work
of Vincent van Gogh.</i>

615
01:04:14,273 --> 01:04:16,240
<i>How far are we, are we not,</i>

616
01:04:16,242 --> 01:04:19,209
<i>from the beautiful,
great tradition of art?</i>

617
01:04:19,211 --> 01:04:20,644
<i>Never has there been a painter</i>

618
01:04:20,646 --> 01:04:23,280
<i>whose art appeals so directly
to the senses,</i>

619
01:04:23,282 --> 01:04:27,217
<i>from the indefinable aroma
of his sincerity to flesh</i>

620
01:04:27,219 --> 01:04:29,354
<i>and the matter of his paint.</i>

621
01:04:29,356 --> 01:04:32,356
<i>This robust and true artist,
Vincent van Gogh,</i>

622
01:04:32,358 --> 01:04:33,760
<i>towers above the rest.</i>

623
01:04:35,128 --> 01:04:37,231
Cafe. Cafe.

624
01:04:40,400 --> 01:04:42,269
- Cafe.
- Put water on him!

625
01:04:51,244 --> 01:04:52,579
You are the painter?

626
01:04:54,547 --> 01:04:55,782
Uh, yes.

627
01:04:57,349 --> 01:04:58,752
Cafe. Cafe.

628
01:04:59,820 --> 01:05:02,854
- Are all the painters crazy?
- Cafe.

629
01:05:02,856 --> 01:05:06,193
Maybe just the good ones.
I really don't know.

630
01:05:08,527 --> 01:05:11,229
- Hmm.
- Cafe.

631
01:05:11,231 --> 01:05:14,666
I'm an army man.
I was a soldier.

632
01:05:14,668 --> 01:05:17,235
Are all soldiers crazy?

633
01:05:17,237 --> 01:05:21,238
Oh, no, soldiers are
not crazy, but officers are.

634
01:05:21,240 --> 01:05:24,277
All the officers are insane.

635
01:05:27,014 --> 01:05:32,217
When they made me a sergeant,
I started to feel different.

636
01:05:32,219 --> 01:05:35,253
Cafe. Cafe. Cafe.

637
01:05:35,255 --> 01:05:38,356
And when I became secretary
to the general,

638
01:05:38,358 --> 01:05:39,757
I had all the keys.

639
01:05:39,759 --> 01:05:41,327
Can you see it?

640
01:05:42,394 --> 01:05:43,760
The keys.

641
01:05:43,762 --> 01:05:45,262
Yes.

642
01:05:45,264 --> 01:05:48,701
The keys to all the dossiers
of all the officers.

643
01:05:49,768 --> 01:05:52,737
And I can tell you
they are all crazy.

644
01:05:52,739 --> 01:05:57,711
They've all killed,
tortured, mutilated, raped.

645
01:05:59,146 --> 01:06:03,581
Cafe. Cafe. Cafe.

646
01:06:03,583 --> 01:06:05,617
Where were you stationed?

647
01:06:05,619 --> 01:06:08,586
Oh, it's a faraway place.

648
01:06:08,588 --> 01:06:10,255
It's called Tonkin.

649
01:06:12,525 --> 01:06:15,228
And years ago, during the war,

650
01:06:17,898 --> 01:06:21,869
there were many,
many tunnels were dug.

651
01:06:25,338 --> 01:06:29,376
And I knew a Tonkinese girl
who was born in a tunnel.

652
01:06:29,842 --> 01:06:32,276
Cafe. Cafe.

653
01:06:32,278 --> 01:06:34,244
She didn't see the daylight

654
01:06:34,246 --> 01:06:37,182
for the first 12 years
of her life.

655
01:06:37,184 --> 01:06:39,586
Twelve years, gone.

656
01:06:47,494 --> 01:06:50,297
Can you imagine
that you were a painter,

657
01:06:52,632 --> 01:06:54,568
not seeing the snow,

658
01:06:56,503 --> 01:07:00,207
not knowing what it was,
what it meant?

659
01:07:00,673 --> 01:07:01,842
Twelve years.

660
01:07:02,943 --> 01:07:06,276
Cafe. Cafe. Cafe.

661
01:07:06,278 --> 01:07:07,778
Oh...

662
01:07:07,780 --> 01:07:10,851
Hey, shut up, shut up.
Shut up!

663
01:07:14,554 --> 01:07:15,923
What do you paint?

664
01:07:18,625 --> 01:07:19,793
Sunlight.

665
01:10:42,561 --> 01:10:43,663
Look at me.

666
01:10:44,930 --> 01:10:46,129
Please.

667
01:10:58,877 --> 01:10:59,880
<i>Oui.</i>

668
01:11:25,771 --> 01:11:26,774
<i>Oui.</i>

669
01:11:48,560 --> 01:11:49,762
No...

670
01:13:03,101 --> 01:13:04,604
<i>My dear Vincent,</i>

671
01:13:05,604 --> 01:13:06,970
<i>I've looked most
attentively</i>

672
01:13:06,972 --> 01:13:09,106
<i>at your works
since we parted.</i>

673
01:13:09,108 --> 01:13:10,174
<i>First at your
brother's place</i>

674
01:13:10,176 --> 01:13:13,311
<i>and then
at Independence Exhibition.</i>

675
01:13:13,313 --> 01:13:15,580
<i>It's above all
at this latter place</i>

676
01:13:15,582 --> 01:13:18,214
<i>that one can properly judge
what you do.</i>

677
01:13:18,216 --> 01:13:21,619
<i>Either because of things
positioned beside each other,</i>

678
01:13:21,621 --> 01:13:23,257
<i>or because of
neighboring works.</i>

679
01:13:25,057 --> 01:13:27,959
<i>I offer you
my sincere compliments.</i>

680
01:13:27,961 --> 01:13:29,193
<i>And for many artists,</i>

681
01:13:29,195 --> 01:13:31,664
<i>you are the most remarkable
in the exhibition.</i>

682
01:13:32,931 --> 01:13:34,031
<i>With things from nature,</i>

683
01:13:34,033 --> 01:13:35,536
<i>you're the only one there
who thinks.</i>

684
01:13:37,203 --> 01:13:38,602
<i>I've talked about it
with your brother,</i>

685
01:13:38,604 --> 01:13:40,937
<i>and there's one that I would
like to exchange with you</i>

686
01:13:40,939 --> 01:13:42,275
<i>for one thing of your choice.</i>

687
01:13:44,310 --> 01:13:46,143
<i>I hesitated greatly
to write to you</i>

688
01:13:46,145 --> 01:13:48,682
<i>knowing that you had just had
a rather long crisis.</i>

689
01:13:49,615 --> 01:13:50,615
<i>So, please don't reply
to me</i>

690
01:13:50,617 --> 01:13:52,950
<i>until you feel
completely strong.</i>

691
01:13:52,952 --> 01:13:55,251
<i>Let's hope that, with the
warm weather that will return,</i>

692
01:13:55,253 --> 01:13:57,254
<i>you're going to get well
at last.</i>

693
01:13:57,256 --> 01:13:59,126
"The winter
is always dangerous to you.

694
01:14:00,859 --> 01:14:04,063
"Cordially, ever yours,
Paul Gauguin."

695
01:15:07,060 --> 01:15:08,228
Van Gogh!

696
01:15:09,194 --> 01:15:10,296
Van Gogh!

697
01:15:12,731 --> 01:15:14,001
Not here, there.

698
01:15:15,333 --> 01:15:16,836
There. There.

699
01:15:38,457 --> 01:15:39,826
Follow me.

700
01:16:18,497 --> 01:16:20,099
- Here he is.
- Thank you.

701
01:16:21,833 --> 01:16:23,103
Please help me take it off.

702
01:16:38,518 --> 01:16:39,853
Thank you.

703
01:16:42,188 --> 01:16:44,021
- Better?
- Yes.

704
01:16:44,023 --> 01:16:46,159
Come, sit with me. Talk to me.

705
01:16:47,460 --> 01:16:48,994
Please.

706
01:16:57,869 --> 01:16:59,405
I suppose you know
why you're here.

707
01:17:02,240 --> 01:17:04,744
Talking to you now?

708
01:17:07,012 --> 01:17:09,312
To get better.

709
01:17:09,314 --> 01:17:12,085
Or because I walked out
of the asylum.

710
01:17:14,086 --> 01:17:15,989
What happened
on the road to Arles?

711
01:17:17,256 --> 01:17:18,525
I don't remember.

712
01:17:20,025 --> 01:17:21,461
You did walk out
of the asylum.

713
01:17:23,496 --> 01:17:25,265
I wanted to go out.

714
01:17:30,469 --> 01:17:33,236
The townspeople of Arles have
signed a petition against you.

715
01:17:33,238 --> 01:17:35,104
They don't want you
to come back there.

716
01:17:35,106 --> 01:17:36,542
Yes, I know.

717
01:17:42,480 --> 01:17:44,951
- Did you ever molest a child?
- No. Never.

718
01:17:50,021 --> 01:17:51,354
Did you cut off
one of your ears

719
01:17:51,356 --> 01:17:52,555
to give it to a prostitute?

720
01:17:52,557 --> 01:17:54,625
Is that true?

721
01:17:54,627 --> 01:17:57,497
Yes, I did. But Gaby's
not a prostitute.

722
01:17:58,631 --> 01:18:00,865
Why did you do that?

723
01:18:00,867 --> 01:18:04,237
I wanted her to
give it to a friend of mine.

724
01:18:05,404 --> 01:18:06,573
And she did?

725
01:18:08,073 --> 01:18:09,308
I don't know.

726
01:18:12,278 --> 01:18:14,181
And that was a strange offer,
wasn't it?

727
01:18:17,182 --> 01:18:18,585
Do you feel angry sometimes?

728
01:18:22,889 --> 01:18:24,257
Yes.

729
01:18:26,591 --> 01:18:28,194
And what do you do then?

730
01:18:29,328 --> 01:18:31,094
I go out,

731
01:18:31,096 --> 01:18:35,165
look at a blade of grass
or a branch of a fig tree

732
01:18:35,167 --> 01:18:36,570
in order to calm down.

733
01:18:37,936 --> 01:18:38,939
And it works?

734
01:18:39,604 --> 01:18:42,071
Yes.

735
01:18:42,073 --> 01:18:45,845
I feel God is nature
and nature is beauty.

736
01:18:53,152 --> 01:18:55,055
I've seen you
in the garden, painting.

737
01:18:56,354 --> 01:18:57,420
And I've heard from others

738
01:18:57,422 --> 01:18:58,625
that you say
you were a painter.

739
01:19:00,993 --> 01:19:02,329
Yes, that's what I am.

740
01:19:04,630 --> 01:19:06,065
Why do you say that?

741
01:19:07,332 --> 01:19:08,464
Do you have a gift
for painting?

742
01:19:08,466 --> 01:19:09,536
Yes.

743
01:19:11,569 --> 01:19:13,472
Where does this gift
come from?

744
01:19:15,307 --> 01:19:16,941
Would you say that

745
01:19:16,943 --> 01:19:18,442
God gave you
the gift of painting?

746
01:19:18,444 --> 01:19:21,047
Yes, He did. It's the only
gift He gave me.

747
01:19:33,158 --> 01:19:34,360
Did you paint this?

748
01:19:35,194 --> 01:19:36,563
Yes, I did.

749
01:19:38,163 --> 01:19:39,729
And you call it
a painting?

750
01:19:39,731 --> 01:19:41,598
Yes, of course.

751
01:19:41,600 --> 01:19:43,733
Tell me frankly because
I'd like to understand.

752
01:19:43,735 --> 01:19:45,372
Why do you say
you're a painter?

753
01:19:46,137 --> 01:19:47,306
Because I paint.

754
01:19:48,407 --> 01:19:50,240
I love painting.
I have to paint.

755
01:19:50,242 --> 01:19:52,142
I've always been a painter.

756
01:19:52,144 --> 01:19:53,313
That, I know.

757
01:19:54,313 --> 01:19:55,347
A born painter?

758
01:19:56,716 --> 01:19:58,051
Yes.

759
01:19:59,118 --> 01:20:00,153
How do you know?

760
01:20:03,021 --> 01:20:04,722
Because I can't do
anything else.

761
01:20:04,724 --> 01:20:06,092
And believe me, I've tried.

762
01:20:14,300 --> 01:20:15,566
So, God gave you a gift

763
01:20:15,568 --> 01:20:16,970
so you could paint this?

764
01:20:18,503 --> 01:20:19,939
Yes.

765
01:20:23,074 --> 01:20:25,545
But don't you see...

766
01:20:26,578 --> 01:20:29,114
Now look, carefully. Please.

767
01:20:31,082 --> 01:20:33,384
I don't want to
hurt your feelings,

768
01:20:33,386 --> 01:20:35,155
but don't you see
that this painting is...

769
01:20:37,256 --> 01:20:39,259
How can I say...

770
01:20:41,426 --> 01:20:42,695
Unpleasant.

771
01:20:43,261 --> 01:20:44,463
It's ugly.

772
01:20:46,131 --> 01:20:47,764
Why would God give me a gift

773
01:20:47,766 --> 01:20:50,470
to paint
ugly and disturbing things?

774
01:20:55,140 --> 01:20:56,308
Sometimes I...

775
01:20:58,543 --> 01:21:00,613
Feel so far away
from everything.

776
01:21:06,118 --> 01:21:07,754
Does anybody
buy your paintings?

777
01:21:08,421 --> 01:21:09,486
No.

778
01:21:09,488 --> 01:21:12,192
- So, you're poor?
- Yes, rather poor.

779
01:21:14,560 --> 01:21:16,029
How do you live?

780
01:21:17,630 --> 01:21:21,764
Well, my brother, Theo,
pays for me to be here.

781
01:21:21,766 --> 01:21:24,104
But he's not
a rich man either.

782
01:21:27,605 --> 01:21:31,174
So, you believe
that God gave you this gift

783
01:21:31,176 --> 01:21:32,746
because He wants
to keep you in misery?

784
01:21:34,412 --> 01:21:35,581
Huh.

785
01:21:36,815 --> 01:21:38,617
I never thought about it
that way.

786
01:21:40,252 --> 01:21:41,621
And which way do you think?

787
01:21:44,256 --> 01:21:46,159
Sometimes I think...

788
01:21:46,792 --> 01:21:48,224
Yes?

789
01:21:48,226 --> 01:21:49,729
Maybe, maybe...

790
01:21:51,396 --> 01:21:52,495
Go on.

791
01:21:52,497 --> 01:21:54,666
Maybe He chose the wrong time.

792
01:21:57,336 --> 01:21:58,568
What do you mean
the wrong time?

793
01:21:58,570 --> 01:22:00,504
Maybe God made me a painter

794
01:22:00,506 --> 01:22:02,242
for people
who aren't born yet.

795
01:22:05,778 --> 01:22:07,577
Possibly.

796
01:22:07,579 --> 01:22:09,513
It is said,
"Life is for sowing.

797
01:22:09,515 --> 01:22:11,251
"The harvest
is not here."

798
01:22:15,354 --> 01:22:18,258
I paint with my qualities
and faults.

799
01:22:27,533 --> 01:22:29,436
So, you think
God could've been mistaken?

800
01:22:33,238 --> 01:22:38,477
I think of myself as an exile,
a pilgrim on this earth.

801
01:22:40,145 --> 01:22:42,912
Jesus said, "Turn your
heart away from things visible

802
01:22:42,914 --> 01:22:46,351
"and turn yourself
to things invisible."

803
01:22:48,720 --> 01:22:51,687
- Indeed. But...
- And Jesus also

804
01:22:51,689 --> 01:22:54,827
was totally unknown
when he was alive.

805
01:22:57,829 --> 01:22:58,896
How do you know that?

806
01:22:58,898 --> 01:23:00,496
My father was a pastor.

807
01:23:00,498 --> 01:23:02,434
I've been around religion
all my life.

808
01:23:04,435 --> 01:23:06,269
Really? A pastor?

809
01:23:06,271 --> 01:23:10,376
Yes, and before I realized
I was a painter,

810
01:23:11,409 --> 01:23:14,911
I tried myself
to be a man of God.

811
01:23:14,913 --> 01:23:16,849
So, I learned quite a bit
about the topic.

812
01:23:18,449 --> 01:23:19,816
So you know the gospels?

813
01:23:19,818 --> 01:23:21,751
Not only the gospels,

814
01:23:21,753 --> 01:23:25,254
I can tell you that Jesus
wasn't discovered

815
01:23:25,256 --> 01:23:28,291
until 30 or 40 years
after he died.

816
01:23:28,293 --> 01:23:31,260
When he was alive,
nobody talked about him.

817
01:23:31,262 --> 01:23:33,229
There's not even a letter

818
01:23:33,231 --> 01:23:36,633
from a Roman centurion
to his wife in Rome

819
01:23:36,635 --> 01:23:39,736
saying that a man named Jeshua

820
01:23:39,738 --> 01:23:42,472
was crucified in Jerusalem
with some other criminals.

821
01:23:42,474 --> 01:23:44,177
Not a word, nothing.

822
01:23:52,751 --> 01:23:54,985
You know,
this is my job to decide

823
01:23:54,987 --> 01:23:56,788
if you're well enough
to leave this place.

824
01:24:05,663 --> 01:24:08,400
This reminds me of Jesus
on the terrace.

825
01:24:09,801 --> 01:24:11,468
Which terrace?

826
01:24:11,470 --> 01:24:13,503
Speaking to Pilate,

827
01:24:13,505 --> 01:24:17,007
who definitively, if you
believe what was written,

828
01:24:17,009 --> 01:24:19,543
didn't want to crucify him.

829
01:24:19,545 --> 01:24:21,245
It was the people.

830
01:24:21,247 --> 01:24:23,347
Yes. We could have
a real discussion

831
01:24:23,349 --> 01:24:25,781
about this theory
some other time.

832
01:24:25,783 --> 01:24:28,418
Pilate didn't want
to crucify Jesus,

833
01:24:28,420 --> 01:24:32,524
but everything Christ said
incriminated him, so...

834
01:24:35,894 --> 01:24:36,930
I, too,

835
01:24:39,030 --> 01:24:42,501
have to be careful
with what I say to you.

836
01:24:46,271 --> 01:24:47,539
I can understand that.

837
01:24:51,676 --> 01:24:53,809
Listen,

838
01:24:53,811 --> 01:24:55,448
come see me again
if you feel like.

839
01:24:56,649 --> 01:24:58,551
And share some other ideas
with me.

840
01:25:01,552 --> 01:25:04,356
In the meantime, Dr. Rey
is here waiting for you.

841
01:25:04,989 --> 01:25:05,992
He came to take you home.

842
01:25:06,759 --> 01:25:07,827
I'm free to go?

843
01:25:11,896 --> 01:25:13,565
I think we've done all we
can for you here.

844
01:25:19,037 --> 01:25:20,405
I hope I'm ready.

845
01:25:22,608 --> 01:25:23,842
I hope so, too.

846
01:25:56,375 --> 01:25:58,741
Please return these things

847
01:25:58,743 --> 01:26:00,712
to <i>Madame</i> and <i>Monsieur</i> Ginoux.

848
01:26:01,579 --> 01:26:03,379
They've been real friends.

849
01:26:03,381 --> 01:26:04,315
Sure, I will.

850
01:26:04,317 --> 01:26:06,452
And give them that book.
Tell them thank you.

851
01:26:44,021 --> 01:26:45,625
- Hello.
- <i>Bonjour.</i>

852
01:26:48,560 --> 01:26:49,625
This is very important.

853
01:26:49,627 --> 01:26:51,727
Make sure
<i>Madame</i> Ginoux receives it.

854
01:26:51,729 --> 01:26:53,763
It is from the painter
Vincent van Gogh.

855
01:26:53,765 --> 01:26:54,933
He apologizes for the delay.

856
01:27:06,511 --> 01:27:08,778
A bundle of towels,

857
01:27:08,780 --> 01:27:12,885
a ledger,
and two empty olive boxes.

858
01:28:24,489 --> 01:28:25,789
My work's all here.

859
01:28:25,791 --> 01:28:27,624
You didn't sell anything.

860
01:28:27,626 --> 01:28:29,492
Not yet, but Aurier's
review

861
01:28:29,494 --> 01:28:31,126
was excellent,
really wonderful.

862
01:28:31,128 --> 01:28:32,629
That review was absurd.

863
01:28:32,631 --> 01:28:34,865
I don't deserve
anything that man said.

864
01:28:34,867 --> 01:28:37,099
- Far from it.
- Yes, you do.

865
01:28:37,101 --> 01:28:38,703
The review will help.

866
01:28:42,106 --> 01:28:43,475
I think...

867
01:28:45,243 --> 01:28:48,014
I'm beyond caring

868
01:28:48,881 --> 01:28:50,716
what anyone thinks, but...

869
01:28:52,518 --> 01:28:54,153
I care what you think, Theo.

870
01:28:55,654 --> 01:28:57,223
Tell me,
I want to know the truth.

871
01:28:58,189 --> 01:28:59,889
Am I a good painter?

872
01:28:59,891 --> 01:29:01,625
You're not a good painter,

873
01:29:01,627 --> 01:29:02,959
Vincent.
You're a great painter.

874
01:29:02,961 --> 01:29:03,960
Are you sure?

875
01:29:03,962 --> 01:29:06,062
Of course, I'm sure.
Why would I lie to you?

876
01:29:06,064 --> 01:29:09,266
I mean, you're my brother.
You're my brother.

877
01:29:09,268 --> 01:29:11,170
Just to please me.

878
01:29:12,938 --> 01:29:14,670
I wouldn't do that.

879
01:29:14,672 --> 01:29:16,108
No,
Theo would never do that.

880
01:29:17,775 --> 01:29:20,843
People say that

881
01:29:20,845 --> 01:29:23,146
I don't know how to draw,
how to paint.

882
01:29:23,148 --> 01:29:28,751
They say my paintings
are clumsy, ugly.

883
01:29:28,753 --> 01:29:31,787
I used to care
what people thought.

884
01:29:31,789 --> 01:29:33,857
But not anymore.

885
01:29:33,859 --> 01:29:36,226
I have no choice.

886
01:29:36,228 --> 01:29:39,963
If I couldn't paint,
I would murder someone.

887
01:29:39,965 --> 01:29:42,132
That's why I send you
money for your paintings

888
01:29:42,134 --> 01:29:44,701
because I really believe
you are a great painter.

889
01:29:44,703 --> 01:29:46,236
And I'm a businessman.

890
01:29:46,238 --> 01:29:47,937
I'm a business man
after all.

891
01:29:47,939 --> 01:29:50,839
So, you paint,
and leave the rest to us.

892
01:29:50,841 --> 01:29:53,209
<i>You paint
and let us do the rest.</i>

893
01:29:53,211 --> 01:29:55,579
Gauguin sent me this letter.

894
01:29:55,581 --> 01:29:57,213
- Yes, I knew he wrote to you.
- Did you see him?

895
01:29:57,215 --> 01:29:58,113
No.

896
01:29:58,115 --> 01:29:59,915
- <i>Gauguin...</i>
- He hasn't asked for me?

897
01:29:59,917 --> 01:30:01,017
<i>...sent me this letter.</i>

898
01:30:01,019 --> 01:30:02,085
Is he here?

899
01:30:02,087 --> 01:30:03,753
I really don't know.
Yes, I knew he wrote to you.

900
01:30:03,755 --> 01:30:06,656
What about Aurier
or Bernard?

901
01:30:06,658 --> 01:30:08,961
Do you want to see them?
I know they're in town.

902
01:30:10,662 --> 01:30:12,227
<i>He hasn't asked
for me? Is he here?</i>

903
01:30:12,229 --> 01:30:13,362
I...

904
01:30:13,364 --> 01:30:14,697
Anywhere. Out of Paris.

905
01:30:14,699 --> 01:30:15,633
I want to go somewhere.

906
01:30:15,635 --> 01:30:18,000
I can't stand it here.
It's not my place.

907
01:30:18,002 --> 01:30:20,773
I find everything
too complicated.

908
01:30:21,273 --> 01:30:22,339
I can't see anybody.

909
01:30:22,341 --> 01:30:24,074
<i>I can't stand it here.
It's not my place.</i>

910
01:30:24,076 --> 01:30:26,112
It's worse
since Aurier's article.

911
01:30:27,679 --> 01:30:29,678
<i>Anywhere. Out of Paris.
I can't stand it here.</i>

912
01:30:29,680 --> 01:30:31,113
A little village.

913
01:30:31,115 --> 01:30:34,116
There's a lovely little inn
in Auvers-sur-Oise.

914
01:30:34,118 --> 01:30:37,754
Pissarro knows a doctor there
who knows your work, loves art

915
01:30:37,756 --> 01:30:41,891
and maybe he can help you
without getting in the way.

916
01:30:41,893 --> 01:30:42,992
And we could come
and see you.

917
01:30:42,994 --> 01:30:43,996
I'll go there tomorrow?

918
01:30:44,762 --> 01:30:46,696
Let me look into it.

919
01:30:46,698 --> 01:30:50,000
- <i>Pissarro...</i>
- I need to go, Theo.

920
01:30:50,002 --> 01:30:53,039
- I need to go.
- I'll take care of it.

921
01:31:04,949 --> 01:31:06,116
May I talk?

922
01:31:06,118 --> 01:31:07,920
Yes, but don't
move too much.

923
01:31:13,425 --> 01:31:14,659
Why do you paint?

924
01:31:18,195 --> 01:31:19,198
I paint,

925
01:31:24,069 --> 01:31:26,372
as a matter of fact,
to stop thinking.

926
01:31:28,840 --> 01:31:31,344
A sort of meditation.

927
01:31:33,377 --> 01:31:36,081
When I paint, I stop thinking.

928
01:31:36,782 --> 01:31:38,050
About what?

929
01:31:40,385 --> 01:31:41,753
I stop thinking,

930
01:31:43,055 --> 01:31:44,090
and I feel

931
01:31:45,323 --> 01:31:47,389
that I'm a part of

932
01:31:47,391 --> 01:31:51,130
everything outside
and inside of me.

933
01:31:59,304 --> 01:32:00,338
I wanted

934
01:32:01,707 --> 01:32:03,709
so much to share what I see.

935
01:32:05,409 --> 01:32:06,645
An artist...

936
01:32:09,780 --> 01:32:10,815
Yes?

937
01:32:13,217 --> 01:32:15,988
I thought an artist

938
01:32:18,055 --> 01:32:20,022
had to teach
how to look at the world.

939
01:32:20,024 --> 01:32:21,793
But I don't
think that anymore.

940
01:32:23,862 --> 01:32:26,931
Now I just think about
my relationship to eternity.

941
01:32:29,000 --> 01:32:31,002
What do you call eternity?

942
01:32:32,369 --> 01:32:33,672
Time to come.

943
01:32:35,106 --> 01:32:36,242
Hmm.

944
01:32:37,908 --> 01:32:39,442
Maybe what you are
saying is that

945
01:32:39,444 --> 01:32:42,077
your gift to the world
is painting.

946
01:32:43,347 --> 01:32:45,818
If not,

947
01:32:46,484 --> 01:32:47,819
what good is an artist?

948
01:32:49,054 --> 01:32:50,456
You're happy
when you're painting?

949
01:32:51,489 --> 01:32:53,156
Most of the time,

950
01:32:53,158 --> 01:32:54,360
except when I fail.

951
01:32:56,293 --> 01:32:58,264
You look sad sometimes.

952
01:33:00,798 --> 01:33:03,933
There's a lot of
destruction and failure

953
01:33:03,935 --> 01:33:06,472
at the door
of a successful picture.

954
01:33:14,880 --> 01:33:17,446
I find joy in sorrow.

955
01:33:17,448 --> 01:33:19,350
And sorrow is greater
than laughter.

956
01:33:20,085 --> 01:33:21,186
You know,

957
01:33:22,921 --> 01:33:26,826
an angel is not far
from those who are sad,

958
01:33:27,926 --> 01:33:30,763
and illness
can sometimes heal us.

959
01:33:36,301 --> 01:33:37,403
It's the normal state

960
01:33:39,371 --> 01:33:40,840
that gives birth to painting.

961
01:33:43,207 --> 01:33:44,175
You feel that way?

962
01:33:46,211 --> 01:33:50,079
Sometimes I hate the idea
of regaining my health.

963
01:33:50,081 --> 01:33:53,016
In that case,
you don't need a doctor.

964
01:33:53,018 --> 01:33:54,183
Stop laughing.

965
01:33:54,185 --> 01:33:56,152
Stop smiling.

966
01:33:56,154 --> 01:33:57,387
- Please.
- Excuse me.

967
01:33:57,389 --> 01:33:59,091
Go back to your pose.

968
01:34:02,027 --> 01:34:03,326
Excuse me.

969
01:34:03,328 --> 01:34:04,363
It's all right.

970
01:34:13,904 --> 01:34:15,840
Sometimes they say I'm mad,

971
01:34:18,042 --> 01:34:20,410
but a grain of madness
is the best of art.

972
01:34:20,412 --> 01:34:21,981
You're not a mad man.

973
01:34:30,055 --> 01:34:31,990
It's good to have a doctor
as a friend.

974
01:34:36,627 --> 01:34:38,831
<i>I feel a pain in my stomach.</i>

975
01:34:44,869 --> 01:34:46,838
<i>He was dressed
like Buffalo Bill.</i>

976
01:34:50,375 --> 01:34:51,409
Hey, Vincent!

977
01:35:06,658 --> 01:35:08,394
<i>One of them was nicer.</i>

978
01:35:19,604 --> 01:35:22,474
<i>Please!
Don't tell our parents.</i>

979
01:37:04,475 --> 01:37:05,510
<i>What happened?</i>

980
01:37:06,444 --> 01:37:07,479
What did you do?

981
01:37:12,350 --> 01:37:14,453
You have a bullet hole
in your stomach.

982
01:37:16,520 --> 01:37:17,555
I don't know.

983
01:37:20,425 --> 01:37:21,659
Did you shoot yourself?

984
01:37:23,194 --> 01:37:24,229
Maybe.

985
01:37:26,730 --> 01:37:28,132
I don't remember.

986
01:37:28,699 --> 01:37:31,470
Don't blame anyone.

987
01:37:33,337 --> 01:37:36,240
Don't blame anyone.

988
01:37:37,307 --> 01:37:38,409
Do you have a gun?

989
01:37:39,210 --> 01:37:40,212
No.

990
01:37:40,545 --> 01:37:41,547
Never.

991
01:37:42,613 --> 01:37:44,115
So how did you do that?

992
01:37:48,685 --> 01:37:49,721
I don't know.

993
01:37:54,826 --> 01:37:56,028
Tell...

994
01:38:00,664 --> 01:38:02,197
Tell my brother to come.

995
01:38:02,199 --> 01:38:04,569
Oh, I did.
He'll be here soon.

996
01:39:15,907 --> 01:39:19,110
<i>Oh, God,
will you receive your son?</i>

997
01:45:07,721 --> 01:45:12,721
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