00:32	weryllium	maybe it's due to all the time you spend around depressed composers
00:32	weryllium	but i sincerely think that if you focus less on your 'prestige' or 'renown'
00:33	weryllium	and commit yourself to bettering yourself, and your craft, for you and you alone primarily
00:33	weryllium	then things will start to work themselves out
00:34	weryllium	if i may be frank
00:35	Mendelssohn	Mhm
00:36	weryllium	you seem to be, whether subconsciously or intentionally, painting yourself in your head as some kind of romantic 'tragic genius' archetype, like your composers
00:36	weryllium	i will tell you right now
00:36	weryllium	if you are only doing this in a quest to become a 'well-respected' artist, i dare say you may be doing this for the wrong reasons
00:37	weryllium	if you truly love art, and making it, and sharing it, and i sense that you do
00:38	weryllium	then i really suggest you take a little step back, a deep breath, and reflect on /why/ you art. Focus on what drives you. and then come back and do your thing
00:38	weryllium	and with time, the passion that you bring to your work, the thing that no one can take away from you, will shine through.
00:40	Mendelssohn	you're not entirely wrong
00:40	Mendelssohn	granted, i tend to use historical figures as emotional crutches
00:40	Mendelssohn	so that happens
00:41	weryllium	i think you need to try to distance yourself from them, a little
00:41	weryllium	their life stories aren't yours. their struggles aren't yours. not 100%.
00:45	Mendelssohn	Mmhm
00:46	weryllium	i consider you a friend, and it really does pain me to see you go through all of this. i know it's hard, but i just want to help you.