New Years Thoughts

This paste will be about what I think of 2018 for me personally, what I want for 2019, and just rambling.

Overall I feel like 2018 was pretty mediocre. In terms of measurable things, it was actually probably one of the best years of my life, although I feel like I didn't try hard enough. Speedrunning was also pretty bad for me, I still had some good runs but not as great as 2017 was(although tbh it was kinda hard to beat 2017 in terms of speedrunning anyway). I didn't stream as much as last year, and I feel like I just wasted a lot more time. Overall just becoming a much lazier person. It wasn't a terrible year, like I said I was still semi-successful in some areas even without putting in much work. I just don't like the person I'm becoming, and want to work harder next year. I do feel like I learned a lot about life/myself this year though, I spent a lot of time thinking.

So for 2019, I already wrote down some goals for myself and I'm going to try my best to accomplish them. One thing I learned this year is how habits work, and the seemingly most effective way to build one. I'm also really looking forward to starting the year with AGDQ and KH3 right after. I'll get to meet some people I've been wanting to meet, and I'm not as anxious about it as I was my first GDQ. As far as speedrunning goes, I'm hoping KH3 will hook me like I was hooked on 1.5+2.5 when it first released. I've been in kind of a slump for 2fm I feel, and I'm really hoping I can at least get a 3:04 in lvl 1 before kh3. Regardless if I do or don't though, It'll be fine because KH3 should be refreshing. Hopefully I'll also stream a ton more in 2019, since that's one thing I'm really down on myself for in 2018.

So yea, just random thoughts I've been having. Thank you anyone who took the time to read this and anyone who's supported me at all this year. I seriously can't believe how much support I got regardless of not being my best this year, I'm ridiculously blessed to have this in my life. Hope you all have a great 2019 <3