Joy:( wow I wish I could ever come to you with joy and happiness but I’m coming to you with a heavy broken heart. Joshy has gone so far into darkness that we can’t pull him out. We had to tell him to leave and not come back, he moved out awhile back but was here for a reason and got into it with us and it got so horrible and violent that Dave has to tell him not to come back. We have talked once since then but it didn’t go good. He won’t see the truth. Truth is this has been going on for years but I kept putting up with it. Anyway, I don’t think he’s doing heavy drugs? Not sure. He is smoking pot. But his mind is the problem. He blames us for all kinds of crap, he says he was abused his whole life, he says I was a horrible mother. I mean horrible mean heartbreaking crap over and over. He yells cusses is out, then needs money and kinda acts nice but totally disrespectful for years now. Well that’s one thing....ok maybe we are horrible parents? Wait....nope. Not true. But the worse thing is I have heard him yelling cussing screaming at his gf just sickening monsterous abusive things. I’m afraid for her and she is not a “good” girl for him but nobody should ever be talked to like that. Ok that’s the short story, basically he has walked away from God and his family and is being tormented by it. I love him so much it hurts but I can’t take the abuse anymore and it just enables him to continue down this dark path. Please pray for him! You are my only person and hate to drag you down but I know where your strength comes from;) I love you joy and I’m so grateful for you! I know, it’s so sad! What the world??? But josh sort of developed a persona when we moved here as a tough hardened kid who had been around the block....well we all know he hadn’t! Ever since then he changed but a couple years ago he got really really yucky, mean, anti everything we stood for, anti God, anti White man, you know like I told y’all before, just stupid like the idiots walking around with vaginas on their heads stomping around Washington. He began looking down on us like we were horrible people. Also going to school and taking all the psychology classes taught him a bunch of bs basically saying that we abused him and he swallowed it up as truth, plus all of his friends are anti parent people too. So he has treated us like we were stupid ignorant kkk members but since he still needed money on occasion he would be nice sometimes. Anyway it has been a mess for awhile but the last straw happened when we did something he didn’t agree with and he came over here yelling and freaking out cussing us out, I had to lock my bedroom door to keep him out, him and Dave got into and he threatened to “throw him on the ground” well that did it! When we are scared of what our own son could do to us we had to send him away. Now he says that Dave threatened him first but I do not believe that and either way that’s your freaking father!!!!!!! Dave is so frail anymore that all it would take is a little push and he’d be crippled up. I can not believe that our sweet little soft hearted golden hearted boy has turned into this monster!