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- jake - Today at 6:41 PM
- i can’t do this man i can’t talk to them about this shit it’s too much i want them to know what I’ve been through and I know Amber has her stories about how people have abandoned her in the past because of how she told people about her feelings but man I will sound like I’m fucking insane
- it’s just too much
- i can’t do this
- ive been sitting here thinking all day and my mind is just fucking racing and I feel like I’m going to die
- im sorry
- tib - Today at 6:44 PM
- dude dont be sorry
- its okay
- why do you think you'll sound insane?
- have we talked about the topic you want to bring up?
- jake - Today at 6:44 PM
- because the past 5 years of my life have been fucking torture man
- im useless
- tib - Today at 6:45 PM
- youre not useless
- jake - Today at 6:46 PM
- i am dude I almost failed high school because I let anxiety fuck my life up from sophomore year to senior year
- i graduated in engineering and I can’t remember the first thing about it
- i had something going for me and it’s gone
- i work in fucking coffee
- I’m so fucking dumb I filled out the wrong god damn fafsa when applying for college so i can’t even start until the fall
- i got rid of this shit man
- this fucking anxiety
- and it’s coming back
- i had to wonk my brain out on those fucking meds and it doesn’t even matter in the end(edited)
- tib - Today at 6:48 PM
- im so sorry you have to deal with this shit dude
- i mean, i can relate. our stories are different but the whole thing about letting anxiety fuck my life up, i feel that dude
- it does matter
- you can work on this
- maybe you shoudl do therapy dude
- jake - Today at 6:49 PM
- do you think I didn’t?
- i tried man
- for months back then
- it just didn’t work for me
- tib - Today at 6:50 PM
- it isnt for everyone
- fuck
- you can move forward
- the source of your anxiety rn
- is it amber?
- jake - Today at 6:50 PM
- no
- tib - Today at 6:50 PM
- or is it like
- everything
- jake - Today at 6:50 PM
- i thought it was but she’s not
- tib - Today at 6:51 PM
- you can tell me whatever it is
- jake - Today at 6:51 PM
- i thought I could rely on them but I can’t
- it’s too late
- they have each other
- they tell each other everything
- i think I just need to like fucking disappear for a while idk man
- you’ve seen yourself the extent of the kind of messages I send to her
- there’s no substance in them
- i try to ask her how her day goes but I feel like she shuts me out
- she literally told me and you can find it back in the convos I sent you that I don’t have to always respond to someone’s messages
- but man
- i can’t not I need people to talk to
- she cried when I disappeared that one night but why?
- she barely knows me and she doesn’t try to
- she tried to tell me she wasn’t going anywhere but when I’m the one that initiates conversation and she doesn’t send me a message for half the day when I don’t respond I start to doubt that
- i feel like a third wheel in a way
- she doesn’t need to talk to me about her emotions when she has Christian and when they listen to me they listen for the sake of making me feel better not because they want to build trust and their relationship with me
- tib - Today at 6:59 PM
- sorry for not responding, im here, i just didnt want to reply until you let everything out
- jake - Today at 7:01 PM
- you can reply if you want it’s alright
- tib - Today at 7:04 PM
- i think a break might be good for you..good to clear your mind with,
- im here for you
- you can always come to me for this shit dude
- i know it might not be the same
- but i know its good to let it out in general
- jake - Today at 7:04 PM
- and I was about to let myself out to them man
- i was about to expose my deepest shit just for them to feel sympathy towards me
- tib - Today at 7:05 PM
- i know man..
- jake - Today at 7:05 PM
- i left the group for now
- im not going to respond to them but you can tell them what’s going on if you want to
- hell you can even send them this conversation
- i just can’t talk to them right now I feel so empty
- tib - Today at 7:08 PM
- ill let them know
- i understand
- jake - Today at 7:08 PM
- you think we can like private call in a bit
- with Sam too if you want
- tib - Today at 7:09 PM
- yeah we can do that
- jake - Today at 7:09 PM
- just anyone it doesn’t matter
- tib - Today at 7:09 PM
- do you wanna do anything when we call or nah
- jake - Today at 7:12 PM
- if you want it doesn’t matter
- ow maybe
- im home now so whenever you want just call me
- i just hope this doesn’t hurt my friendship with them
- if they choose to let it i don’t mind
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