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  1. Hey Guys. It's been a long time since I did a pastebin and a very long time since I gave you an update. Most of the times I feel really shitty when doing this, even now. Cause I always announce very big that I will be coming back to regular streaming and speedrunning but I always end up drowning in my hole of agony and lazyness. But I do wanna tell you why and what's going to happen. This will be probably a long story. If you take the time to read through everything I really appreciate it. In case you only want a short summary here it is "I will be back soon". I dont know how much weight these words have but the people who know me, know that I usually at least try to fulfill my words. Anyway here comes the whole and entire story of how and what happend.
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  3. Some of you might know that I started a fulltime-job back in Summer 2015 after being unemployed for a very long time. It all went pretty well. It was a great job, very close by and the payment wasn't that great but enough to keep me very much alive. I moved out of my parents house and started becoming my own boss so to speak. It wasn't the perfect job of course and I was never expecting to work until my pension but for the time being it was good. Then about a year ago the company I worked moved further away from my town. They combined three branches into one big branch. I was forced to go with them especially since I didn't found a new job at that time and I thought let's take a look and see what happens. Rumors about us moving back to the old place and the fear to become unemployed again kept me there for much longer than I would have liked. The work itself and the people were still good. But many, many things around that just bugged me. Vacation planning was completly crap (I go the permission for my RPGLB Vacation for may almost in march). I didn't got more money even though I had a longer drive and almost only had later shift, meaning working from 1pm until 11pm (if you include the time I had to drive to work). The old place was a 6km drive one way (so 12km every day). So not that bad. Now I have to drive a little bit over 90km every day. Since I don't got more money (cause apperantly I already got way more money than someone in my position is supposed to) you can do the math yourself. More costs for me besides the very little freetime. I could only see my parents on the weekends and wasnt even able to clean my appartment when I had do. Call me lazy but being lonely and exhausted after work does those things to you. I had no energy or motivation to stream. Yes i still did play games but basically braindead. When I'm streaming I wanna be at a level where I can at least properly interacte my with viewers. Which was just not possible. I was trying to get out there. Trying to find a new job. Even quitting without having a new job but that would have been my financialy death probably.
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  5. For those of you not living in germany let me explain how work and money things work here around. If you work you get money from your company. If you are unemployed you get money from the employement agency (its only about 60% of your average net salary but still something). Here is the problem. If you quit yourself without having a new job you don't get money for like 3 months. Not something I would have been able to handle myself even though I was thinking about that option at some point. If you get fired there is no problem and you get unemployment benefits for 12 months (or until you find a new job).
  6. Here is another problem. If you are unemployed. The people at the agency try to get you back into work. Sometimes even into jobs you would have never applied for and if you don't at least apply for the jobs or miss the appointments they lock your unemployment benefits for a few weeks. After 12 months you get even less money if you haven't found a new job. That to explain the background. Back to the actual story.
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  8. I was considering all the things. I was (and still am trying - not very succesfull though) applying for new jobs that would fit me better or at least are a lot closer. But I almost never even got invited to an interview. I was just super unhappy. But my boss actually noticed it. She invited me last monday to a meeting and told me that she noticed I was unhappy and that she heard I wanted to leave the company. She was very kind and sensible and said: "If you don't wanna work here then you shouldn't. I can understand why. There is probably not much I can do for you in that case but if you like I offer you that we fire you." That means even without a new job I still get the full profit of the unemployment benefits. I wanted to talk about that already but I never knew how to approach in a situation like this. Therefore I was extemly happy when she offered me. Still that would give me the stress with the employement agency. She said I should think about this maybe talk it through with my parents and see whats the best for me. I talked with a lot of people. People that I trust and people that have opinions I care about. Most of them suggested to stay there until I find a new job. Probably a good idea but if I don't even have the time/energy to apply for a new job this is not working out. Someone said I should go into parttime until I find a new job. But that would have been less money and still the mental issues. I thought about this very carefully and after one of my carwheel exploded on tuesday on the way to work (here is a picture for reference https://puu.sh/BS3qE/d259732607.jpg )my mind was said, cause this was the opinion from god. He said get out of there. On Friday I had another meeting with my boss and accepted here offer. This means I will continue working there until the end of November. Either I find a new job starting December or I will be unemployed at that point. It will be a stressfull time. But I also have some time for myself. Restore energy and do the things I love and enjoy. Streaming and Speedrunning and hopefully find a good job that makes me happy again. I wanna work to live and not live to work!
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  10. If you watch me because you like me suffering from fast videogames you dont need to be afraid. it might take a while until I'm fully back but there will be some appearances of me in a few different speedrun marathons that I will have to practice for. So I can at least give you something. Some of them are also very close so you don't have to wait that long :)
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  12. - First of will be on the weekend of the 9th until 11th of November. I'm running both Chocobo Racing and Digimon Adventure (Devimon%) on the Movember Speedrunning Mo-ments Charity Marathon organized by Team TIA. I'm also still planning on routing and running Digimon Adventure any% which will be one of my coming goals alongside with Final Fantasy 2.
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  14. - The next big thins I also have to prepare is this year Final Fantasy Relay Race (23rd till 25th). I got chosen to represent Team Mog by running Final Fantasy 1 All Dungeons and my opponent is none other then my mentor a good friend Crrool. We were supposed to race this at BSG Annual already but my cable borked so we turned it into a Co-op run. But it seems we get our race afterall. Crrool you better practice ;)
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  16. - Even though those things still fall into the "woking time" a few things are already scheduled for december. One of them being the UKSG Anniversay Online Marathon. An Event I also organize but besides that I will obviously run something aslong as the Head of Schedule keeps my runs in Kappa (thats me btw). Not sure what I wanna run but submission are still open so if you want feel free to take a look https://www.speedrun.com/uksg01/thread/anwn2
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  18. - Last but not least. This isnt 100% confirmed but since I will be most likely unemployed by december I will have time for this. Between Christmas and New Years Crrool the Madman himself is organizign and hosting another Pokémon Event. The 484 Diamond/Pearl/Platin/Heartgold/Soulsilver Cath 'em all Glitchless Coop run. Even though I'm currently a backup runner for this Diamond its very likely that I will be in this. Preparation will be done offline most likely though.
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  20. Besides those things I will do what ever I feel like. and we see what happens. Depending on how fast I find a new job I might not be able to attend RPGLB or ESA next year. As much as it makes me sad I rather have found a great job but cant go the events next year than still being depressive and working at my old place and go to the events I can barely afford.
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  22. I'm so sorry this became longer than I expected but I do hope you all know whats happening in my life currently and why I was so silent most of the times. I may not say much but I will always be watching ;)
  23. Thanks you if you took the time to read this. Its not much but maybe this lovely picture of my dog retrieves the time you spent :)
  24. https://puu.sh/BS4k2/385fd374f6.jpg
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  26. Thank you all and as always if you need me or wanna know more you know where to find me :)
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  28. Greetings Indi <3
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