Ahamkara: Hey, Noa~
Malfeasance: Allo Noa
D3MXN1C: Heyyo :D
D3MXN1C: I know.. I wanted on that dot.. but it sits funny.
D3MXN1C: xD.
D3MXN1C: oof I have an idea..
Ahamkara: Lawl.
D3MXN1C: there
D3MXN1C: xD
Ahamkara: Allo~ -wiggly brows-
D3MXN1C: XD.
Ahamkara: Have you come for the chalupas as well?
D3MXN1C: Indeed. :o
Ahamkara: Would you likea some spicy?
D3MXN1C: -Holds back comment- Mhm. ^^
D3MXN1C: Mal Can I ask you something?
Ahamkara: She
Ahamkara: She's not looking lemme get her attention
Malfeasance: Sure.
D3MXN1C: Okay, was going to whisper but forgot, I don't have vip anymore. But, May I flirt on your fiance? I'm single.. and I make... comments natually, but I do not want to overstep or upset you, because I do have mad respect for you, and you both. And I know where I stand, I'm quite aware, but.. I am a huge flirt, and I'd like for your blessing?
Malfeasance: As long as you understand that our flirting around here is imvu only then sure. Honestly rubs me the wrong way in the first place cause I feel it may have already transpired a bit and that makes me wanna flay your skin and hang it outside someones home - but thats just me. But yeah sure you have my "blessing"
Ahamkara: o-o
Malfeasance: ^ as she makes this face like we aint just converse in rl >_>
D3MXN1C: XD I told you she frightens me.
Ahamkara: -pats his head-
Malfeasance: I should.
Malfeasance: Cause I'll be lookin for ya rl ya fuck up.
Ahamkara: I will protect you -saitama face-
D3MXN1C: XD
D3MXN1C: Nah. I don't want anything beyond freindly flirting. x)
Ahamkara: WHY YOU THREATENING POOR NOA I DON'T SEE YOU THREATEN ANYONE THAT COMES INTO THE ROOM
D3MXN1C: I'm good on that note and I'm against homewreckers. ^^
D3MXN1C: Because no one flirts with u that comes into this room >.>
Ahamkara: Not true.
Ahamkara: xD
Ahamkara: Just no one that comes around anymore
D3MXN1C: Ooof well I been absent a good majority. Dx
Ahamkara: -gasp-
Ahamkara: she already got to them
Malfeasance: You also.
Malfeasance: Dont see.
Malfeasance: me flirting with anyone that is decentlya round us a long period >_>
Ahamkara: Vy
Ahamkara: She's been around every single day for the last... what, month?
Ahamkara: About as much as I've talked to Noa xD
Ahamkara: Over the span of a year
Ahamkara: Since. Ya know. He vanished
Malfeasance: You flirt with her more than I
Malfeasance: Name another
Ahamkara: >->
D3MXN1C: I vanished because the RP kinda like.. died once Xae left. >.>
D3MXN1C: Slowly died*~
Ahamkara: Nah it died.
D3MXN1C: XD.
Ahamkara: Lumi and I were the only ones left.
D3MXN1C: I ran into drama with Jez and Fey.. is what I remember.
Ahamkara: Annnnnnnd Lumi but uh
Ahamkara: You and Jez jumped down her throat.
D3MXN1C: I know. Then me and Jez and Fey got into it.
D3MXN1C: Fey? Fay I don't remember.
D3MXN1C: Lawd.
Ahamkara: They were both very disappointing people.
Malfeasance: My point is being. Ya flirt with someone that no offense Noa, has a habit of emotional attachment.
D3MXN1C: Did they even RP?
Malfeasance: All Im saying is just, be careful.
D3MXN1C: Oi. I do, if I know they are available.
D3MXN1C: Inrl.
D3MXN1C: Otherwise I dont.
Ahamkara: You don't need to tell me to be careful xD
D3MXN1C: Like Phantom.
Ahamkara: Oof
D3MXN1C: I didnt emotionally attach with him.
D3MXN1C: x)
D3MXN1C: He did with me tho...
D3MXN1C: z
Ahamkara: He was stupid too
Ahamkara: You like the dumb ones
D3MXN1C: No, !!!
Ahamkara: All. '
Ahamkara: of them are dumb
Malfeasance: Well, I'll talk to you about why Im telling you too in a bit
D3MXN1C: I like smarties... they just put up a huge show.
Ahamkara: -leans in and whispers-
Ahamkara: ALL
D3MXN1C: >_>
D3MXN1C: Tskkk.
D3MXN1C: Tech.. Xae is an ex.
D3MXN1C: tskkk
Ahamkara: Xae is dumb in some aspects too
Ahamkara: x3
D3MXN1C: z
D3MXN1C: I can never win.
D3MXN1C: Wait..
Ahamkara: Nope.
D3MXN1C: Cli... I dated him!
D3MXN1C: Online only, but still.
Ahamkara: CLI WAS AN IDIOT
D3MXN1C: >.>
D3MXN1C: No he wasnt' :O
D3MXN1C: he seemed very proper.
Ahamkara: He got obsessed with Ele = Idiot
D3MXN1C: What ever happened to Ele?
Ahamkara: Don't know, don't care.
D3MXN1C: Ooof
D3MXN1C: xD.
D3MXN1C: Yanno... out of the entire group... I though her and I would be the ones that didn't get along.
D3MXN1C: Idk.. Never got close to her.. or really spoke to her much.
Ahamkara: I didn't get close to her for a reason.
D3MXN1C: I really should sleep soon.. I have four hours before I gotta get up..
D3MXN1C: But.. Insomnia for the win.
Ahamkara: i feel that
VincentLamori: o. o
D3MXN1C: Heyyo.
VincentLamori: I half finished my bio for Elena -_- still got the back story to go. -is refering to her rp-  Hey Noa.  Dx but visually I like it.
D3MXN1C: Vince.. if she asks, I'm afk.
VincentLamori: Alright.
D3MXN1C: I se she just entered the room again.
D3MXN1C: see*
VincentLamori: wait
VincentLamori: who are you talking about? WAIT YOU'RE SINGLE?
D3MXN1C: omfg.
D3MXN1C: Yes.
VincentLamori: WHat.. what happend to Luna...
D3MXN1C: I been single.
D3MXN1C: >.>
VincentLamori: -confused as fuck-
D3MXN1C: bruh.
Ahamkara: They were never official
VincentLamori: last night you guys were .. so happy!
D3MXN1C: UNLIKE PPL I ACTUALLY TALK TO THEM FIRST
D3MXN1C: I dont jump into relationships...
D3MXN1C: Its dumb.
D3MXN1C: I get to know them first.
Ahamkara: -facepalms-
VincentLamori: o. o I thought you guys were dating my bad lol or so i that was teh impression i got-ish.
VincentLamori: I thought* -fp  can't type.
D3MXN1C: We were talking.
D3MXN1C: Getting close first.
D3MXN1C: She wanted a future with me.
VincentLamori: Ah, that's why she said that one night " he hasn't asked me to be his gf " because I thought she was your gf. lol Well pardon me hun! Wait so are you guys still getting to know each other or did something happened?
D3MXN1C: Eh..
D3MXN1C: I rather focus on my career and child.
VincentLamori: Yikes, was she moving too fast?
D3MXN1C: Nah.
VincentLamori: Well hey nothing wrong with that.
D3MXN1C: I just dont see.. a real life happening. And she was leading me on to think it was possible. So I rather remove myself from the equation before feelings start to happen.
VincentLamori: Ah, was she wanting more then imvu?
D3MXN1C: Mhm.
VincentLamori: I see, and you arn't about passing those lines. I totally understand. I'm on those principals myself.
D3MXN1C: Well...
D3MXN1C: It's more complicating. ^^ I rather not share.
VincentLamori: You're not obligated. I just hope she understands that or that you told her at least so she's not hoping, you know?
D3MXN1C: Heh... same though.
Ahamkara: Noa
D3MXN1C: Yes?
Ahamkara: -laughs hysterically-
D3MXN1C: Dx
D3MXN1C: What.
D3MXN1C: My name was called... now I'm being laughed at..
D3MXN1C: /me flails-
D3MXN1C: Xara!
D3MXN1C: >.>
VincentLamori: Kara.
Ahamkara: Yes
D3MXN1C: Oof. Kara*
Ahamkara: You can still call me Xara, Noa.
Ahamkara: Whichever you feel like calling me
D3MXN1C: Oki.
Ahamkara: Did you need something Vince or were you correcting someone for a name they've called me for a year now? xD
VincentLamori: XD What
VincentLamori: Omg wait am I not suppose to call you Kara..
VincentLamori: -fp- I'm sorry!
Ahamkara: -sighs-
VincentLamori: I thought you told to call you Kara -frowns-  Mal told to call her Jodie or maybe you did tell me and I forgot. I'm sorry dear.
Ahamkara: Kara. Is fine.
Ahamkara: But you said Kara to correct Noa.
Ahamkara: I've known him for a year. He's free to call me Xara still if he wants.
VincentLamori: Oh! No I was calling you to ask you if you wanted to play league. Lol
Ahamkara: I only told you to call me Kara because you said you have issues remembering names.
Ahamkara: But I told you I can't play league on this laptop >->
VincentLamori: I thought you were able to because you said I can add you. -flails-  Alright damn v.v I wanted to nami bubble your enemies and slap them with a wave Dx
Ahamkara: Nah I said you could add me but I wouldn't be able to play until I got a new laptop
D3MXN1C: What were you laughing at >.>
D3MXN1C: Earlier.
VincentLamori: Gotcha Dx, alright.
Ahamkara: Something that was said
D3MXN1C: -He'd rub his temples and sighs-
D3MXN1C: Disc Froze on me, so ima say it here V. Just because I'm Poly does not mean its okay for the other to sleep around with anyone. And just because she was 'lowkey' talking to me behind his back, does not make her Poly, it makes her a cyber hoe.
VincentLamori: Well the fact she wasn't honest to you from the beginning or the fact she wasn't honest to him, yes I can see how that's fucked.
VincentLamori: and that isn't right.
D3MXN1C: If you're in a inrl relationship, and you're not honest about it, and you are telling the other you wana see them inrl.. it is called catfishing.
D3MXN1C: Yee.
VincentLamori: Yea. Well that's a whole different ball game.
VincentLamori: I thought it was in the open.
VincentLamori: I'm sorry she was being honest or the fact she did that.. hun. ;/
VincentLamori: wasn't*
D3MXN1C: I am Poly. I am okay with my other seeing other people, depending on who it is. My love, is universal. I can love multiple people. And I can respect if she is poly, if she was open about being in a relationship inrl, and saying he knows about her wanting a real with me also. Being poly, is not an excuse for someone to 'cheat' around. I do not tolerate people assuming or using it as an exuse for that reason.
VincentLamori: Reasonable.
D3MXN1C: And no, she said she was only talking to me. I told her I wasn't ready for a relationship, because I've only known her for not so long. But she did tell me a bunch of shit. I'm not hurt, I'm just rather insulted.
VincentLamori: Well, she done fucked up.
D3MXN1C: And my rl brother wants me to confront her, but I'm not sure how.
VincentLamori: You refering to Xae or actual brother.
VincentLamori: you call Xae your rl bro lol so I wasn't sure.
D3MXN1C: She strikes me as once, I do confront her, she will disapear from everything and block with out giving me a reasoning behind it.
D3MXN1C: No. I don't call him my real life brother o-o
D3MXN1C: I call him my ooc brother.
VincentLamori: Or maybe he did.
Malfeasance: Noa lemme ask you something?
VincentLamori: o. o
D3MXN1C: Whats up?
Malfeasance: How long you been Poly?
D3MXN1C: Umm. When I was 16 was my first poly relationship. My last one, was about a few months ago, Xae met them, but it was a disaster.
D3MXN1C: I've only been in about 8 Poly relationships.
Malfeasance: Were you Poly when you came to us as Tiger?
D3MXN1C: Yes.
Malfeasance: Officially poly?
D3MXN1C: Mhm.
Malfeasance: I didnt get that impression when you were seeing Xae around that time.
D3MXN1C: Xae isn't poly.
Malfeasance: So lemme level with ya and get this out on the table so I dont have to worry about it.
Malfeasance: Cause I have too many things to worry about as is.
Malfeasance: I want to eat you.
Malfeasance: Literally.
Malfeasance: I want to chew your face.
Malfeasance: We got into that shit when we first met before.
Malfeasance: And you took shots at me with no information to base of support the shots you took.
Malfeasance: Shots taken STRICTLY to attack and attempt to hurt.
Malfeasance: And there was no reconciliation.
Malfeasance: I give you the benefit of a doubt. Cause not many people think about or remember things and keep it in mind the way I do. So maybe ya forgot.
Malfeasance: But I hadnt.
Malfeasance: So in order for this to be okay - and you be able to flirt with and enjoy my goddess.
Malfeasance: Two things must happen.
Malfeasance: One - we have to establish if there is a legitimate sense of apology in what happened between us then and if there is not a legitimate one. If we can not get passed that and not just cause "im the one worried about it and its easy for you to apologize cause you arent worried about it in teh first place so its just some words spoken." but because either its legit something desired to get passed. Or its legit something that doesnt wanna get buried.
Malfeasance: Cause being honest - I dont feel like you respect me at all. I feel like its something you do in order to co-exist. Maybe im wrong. Im defensive so I can tend to be.
Malfeasance: But thats the first thing.
Malfeasance: The second thing - is for you to understand that this makes you a part of her and my universe beyond just a face I rp with.
Malfeasance: You would be flirting, and if things got any further - possibly fucking my goddess and myself if it ever came to that.
Malfeasance: But it is absolutely.
Malfeasance: ABSOLUTELY
Malfeasance: required.
Malfeasance: That you understand that is ONLY.
Malfeasance: Because it is willed and consented by myself.
VincentLamori: Perhaps I should give you all privacy.
Malfeasance: If it was required I'd have asked V.
Malfeasance: Im not the type that hides my issues. Thats unrealistic.
VincentLamori: Fair enough.
D3MXN1C: I know.. And I understand that you're upset and I do not blame you for being upset. As I told her, I honestly.. did forget.. not because it didnt mean anything to me, it did. Just a lot has been going on and I've fucked up on a lot... not going to lie. I caused drama not only with you, but I had with Xara at one point, if I'm not mistaken.. or at least there were subtle shade throwing, on my end. I was childish. Jez and Fey formed a small posse and I got wrapped up in hearing the gossip, that I uninentionally took sides, Being completly honest with you. I allowed it to happen, not intentionally, but because I was also Jealous...  and foolish. I did have a thing for you, as you mentioned. Before I crushed on Xae.. you knew it, he even knew it... I admired you so much that I didnt know it was eating me inside. And then when something happened, it only fueled my rage. I am sorry. I truly am. And you do not have to forgive me, I'm not asking for forgiveness... because if we are being real... I.. I hold grudges and what I did... I wouldn't be able to forgive if another did something similiar.. but I do want to thank you.. for giving me this chance to appologiez.. because I am. absalutly sorry.. for the cruel words I said, and the harsh way that I've treated you.. and how I went about it also, not just what I said, but doing it in public, was fucked up just as bad as the going off like that. I am ashamed for what I've done, but I am man enough to admit, that I was completly in the wrong. And I shouldn't of acted that way. It was pathetic, and ignorant, and completly foolish of me. And to add to the last of what you've said,  I understand you two are engaged inrl, and I completly respect it. I do not want to get involved or in the way of that. The flirty will be strickly online. I can control my feelings a lot better then I had in the past.. took a few heart breaks to understand how vulnerable I was if I let myself be opened to an opertunity for someone to crush me. But, for real... I am sorry.. about what I've done.. to me.. the flirting request.. isn't nearly as important to me as to atoning for what I've done. If you allow me to make it up, I'd love to.
Malfeasance: Oh I'm not upset. I'm beyond those kind of correlations to events. But the fact that it did happen despite me not having specific pains towards it - was still enough to spur me due to the fact that it was an attempt at me regardless. I mean you didnt even hit the nail on the head on anything, it was honestly kind of cute/funny in a way cause - knowing how you are physically rl, and how I am. At the time you threatened me and called me little girl like it was intimidating, and back then I was benching max of 530LBs and am trans myself if you didnt know already. Cant remember if I ever confided that before. But still.
Malfeasance: I do forgive you, and would like to give you the chance to do things different and put this behind us.
VincentLamori: May I ask a question?
Ahamkara: Depends what it is
D3MXN1C: I know, it was very pathetic and childish. And extremly embarrasing looking back at it now. I have no excuse for my behaviors. But I do appriciate your forgiveness and the chance.
Malfeasance: No worries. Consider it behind us.
D3MXN1C: I also, knew about you being trans. I was told.
D3MXN1C: it is what helped me.. come out.
Malfeasance: But please, please, please. I have faith that as far as you have been acting lately. That you wont do anything that will irk me. But please try not to. I dont want to be the person that I used to.
Malfeasance: Was it now? Hm.
VincentLamori: I guess I wont ask then since I am not sure or would know if I can ask if I can't ask. Its regarding Noa and Xae.
Malfeasance: Idk how to feel about that. Never thought it was something that could help someone.
Ahamkara: Ah, not my business then. Up to Noa xD
VincentLamori: lol.
D3MXN1C: Ask.
VincentLamori: Did you and Xae date before? I ask because this was said.  " I didnt get that impression when you were seeing Xae around that time." Butthat can be meant both ways.  You also mention that you once crushed on Xae.
Ahamkara: -scratches at her nose-
Ahamkara: ho boy
D3MXN1C: I dated him for a day. ish.
D3MXN1C: I did crush on Xae, for a very long time.
VincentLamori: I'm not fuss. I was curious. If you expect me to suddenly go all kray over that. You wont. Curious question.  -shrugs-  I'm not that type. lol.
VincentLamori: I see. ^^
Ahamkara: No one expected that
Malfeasance: ^
D3MXN1C: ^
VincentLamori: LOl you're reaction made me think that sorry lol.
D3MXN1C: Nope. Just being honest.
D3MXN1C: c:
VincentLamori: kinda like a "Oh hell na, did she just ask him that " lol is what I got form Oh boy lol.  I'm just a curious person XD -throws her hands up in the air- I p romise.
D3MXN1C: But I do not have feelings for him like that anymore. I do see him as a brother. And I do pledge my loyalty with him because he's helped me through a lot inrl... that I dont even share to love ones.
VincentLamori: Even if you did, lol it wouldn't have bothered me. ;p LEGIT was curious I'm just fasincating by the way the world goes around. I even like knowing how gummy bears are made or how paper is made and im fasinated.. -.- don't judge me.
Ahamkara: Over-explaining xD
D3MXN1C: There is not Even.
D3MXN1C: >.>
D3MXN1C: No*
D3MXN1C: I'm not trying to over explain, I'm trying to put him at ease cus he's overly explaining himself x.x
Ahamkara: I was talking about vince
VincentLamori: o. o huh?
D3MXN1C: Oh. I'm sorry.
VincentLamori: How am I overexplaning.
D3MXN1C: Chill your nuggets V. I know you're not mad.
VincentLamori: I am chill... lol
VincentLamori: -is heavily baffled-
Malfeasance: ^
D3MXN1C: And if you were, that would be silly. Because, again, I do not see him as such a way.
Malfeasance: This is what was meant.
Malfeasance: Heavily baffled.
D3MXN1C: Oh.
Malfeasance: Why?
Malfeasance: Explaining ya not upset
Malfeasance: But why?
D3MXN1C: I'm so lost.
D3MXN1C: Ima just hush.
Malfeasance: You're good, no one here is gonna think negative off the start xD
Ahamkara: You're over-explaining because you don't need to elaborate continuously that you were just curious
VincentLamori: Because my question could of led to the insinuation that maybe i might of been asking because " I was upset " but I added to reassure I wasn't because a generic question like that one would assume it. So i wanted to clarify.
Ahamkara: You did clarify.
Ahamkara: Three times.
Ahamkara: Was all I was saying.
D3MXN1C: Nope. It's reasonable to be curious, considering, it was stated and well.. him and I do see each other as brothers.
VincentLamori: Very well.
VincentLamori: I get it ^^
D3MXN1C: YOu were worried about us insinuating about you when you insinuated about us. xD
D3MXN1C: The irony is beautiful.
VincentLamori: I suppose o. o.
Ahamkara: -elbows him-
D3MXN1C: Hm?
D3MXN1C: Oh and Mal...
VincentLamori: -leans back-
Malfeasance: Yuh?
Ahamkara: Vince. I get that you want to get to know Xae's "family" and everything, but you don't have to hang out here all day every day when he's not even around. He hasn't been on for like a week.
VincentLamori: Alright...  If there is a slim chance of that, I've annoyed you guys, I apologise. I'm also aware he hasn't been around for a week, I talk to him on kik but like I mention I come here to get to know you guys and hang. Though I get this impression I might be a needle pricking at your skins. Maybe something I said or how I say it. It isn't intentional. My apologise and for the over explaning. All in all, I guess you're right. Have a beautiful night ladies. ^^ and gents.
Ahamkara: It would help if we even cared to get to know you -.-
D3MXN1C: Inrl, sense I was younger my mother knew about me being trans, I was more accepting of myself, as you can see in childhood pictures... but when I got put into fostercare I got forced... to be the gender that I am not. I even had a rebellious streek for a year that I was in fostercare, I refused.. but after a while.. you learn that there is always that one person that gets shit on... and well.. that person was me.. so I learned.. to blend in.. to do as I was told... I became obidient. But it gave me so much... issues.. I developed anxiety, depression.. ppd,  and extreme dysphoria. I played the part I thought I was suposed to.. go to school. dress the way they wanted me to. Act a certain way. And aging out of the system.. it stuck with me. I tried to come out on my 18th birthday. But when I told my grandmother about me being straight, that I liked girls not just boys, she flipped... and then it got to the rest of the family... and I was scared... so I crawled back into the hole. Younger, I was stealth, I didnt have to explain to people, they kinda just knew I was a boy. But when I got older... things got.. apperant and it was harder for me to hide. I came out to Xae as being Trans, but I didnt fully come out to everyone till I knew.. I wasnt the only one.. in a sense it made me feel like I wasn't alone. Idk.. it's odd.. ig.. Even writing this now it's hard to explain. My mother knew I was a boy when I was 5. She even wanted to name me Shawn -Cringes at the name- but she unfortunatly is the only one in my catholic family that accepts me.. even my sister claims i've always been "Tom boy" Not trans. There is a major difference.. its not that I want to be a boy.. it's that I am a boy. If anything i wished i felt like a girl so I could fit in this stupid ass body that was given to me. I can't even ... "Fap" because I'm discugusted. I feel like I'm being violated when I'm touched wrongly. I prefer to do the touching. Idk.. this is too much that I'm sharing I'm sorry.. I guess I feel a bit open to it.. I'm sorry..
D3MXN1C: ooof
D3MXN1C: z.z I write too much.
D3MXN1C: I'm terribly sorry.
Malfeasance: Invite em back if ya can
D3MXN1C: Hes offline.
D3MXN1C: VincentLamori : I'm gonna head to bed..
Ahamkara: Salty bitcch
Malfeasance: Figures. She keeps making it as if its all about not pissing us off and we're annoyed with her. Was trying to make sure its clear that the only things thats annoying - is that she keeps acting like we're annoyed when its obvious shes the one insecure.
D3MXN1C: Yee.
D3MXN1C: And she's been trying to get extremly close to me.. I swear to fuck if she turns into another Mora or Creep thinking she can get to Xae by using me... Ima flip my shit.
Ahamkara: Either that or she's trying to keep tabs on how close people are to Xae
D3MXN1C: ^
D3MXN1C: Like Mora, and Creep.
D3MXN1C: Lol.
Malfeasance: Probably both.
Ahamkara: I should go through with my Adalae seducing Adtoris plan
Ahamkara: huehuehue
Malfeasance: You have a good heart Noa. people try and take advantage of that.
Ahamkara: Just to piss her off
Malfeasance: Especially if not always - people weaker than you.
Malfeasance: And Im glad that knowing you arent alone could have helped you.
D3MXN1C: I lost a lot of family and friends. ^^ But I also gained a family.
Malfeasance: Although someone else telling you without my permission about me is absolutely unforgiveable. But still. Im happy that its helped you along in getting to that place and that you are learning to love you and hold your happiness sacred.
Malfeasance: Yeah sadly I dont think I can ever come out to family except maybe my sister. My dad literally tried to kill one of my sisters for being lesbian - couldnt imagine if I said I was trans.
D3MXN1C: It's dangerous. And absalutly scary. So I can understand that. I ran into some trouble that involved police due to a judgmental, religous asshole.
D3MXN1C: But yea. AFter I fully came out, though.. it hurt so much losing so many... and it was extremly hard. But afterwards.. I felt more happier.. like more motivated to push myself with my career and such.
D3MXN1C: I became more comfortable. And self respecting.
D3MXN1C: And my attitude has changed. ^^
D3MXN1C: Still a perv though. xD
Malfeasance: Its one of those things sadly that ya have to remember, have to secure your own happiness. Cause most the time "family" arent gonna secure it for you.
D3MXN1C: ^
D3MXN1C: Agreed.
Malfeasance: Which - by the by. Who told you about me? Xae I take it?
D3MXN1C: No. Jez did.
Malfeasance: Sounds about right. And she knew because of Jer. Whom I told she was a liability - yet of course when you're boning someone it tends to make ya blind.
D3MXN1C: I didnt want to say anything or even ask Xae about it. Because I'm extremly against outting others.. considering I know exactly how it feels to come out on my own.. its hard enough.. now to think of someone doing it for me when I wasnt ready.... that could of broke me.
Malfeasance: Definetly. Its the main reason I typically keep that kind of thing to myself.
Malfeasance: I mean its not a big hit to me otherwise anyway cause end of the day given my histroy.
Malfeasance: history*
D3MXN1C: I don't tell ppl on here much either.. only because once ppl know.. ppl tend to unintentionally misgender me x.x
Malfeasance: Fuck is anybody gonna do? I'll fuck them up.
Malfeasance: But still - its a matter of respect to me.
D3MXN1C: ^
D3MXN1C: Jez honestly told us a lot about people in the group.
Ahamkara: She ever say anything bout me?
Malfeasance: Yeah Jez was kind of a gossiping cunt. I already knew that. Had warned Jer about her too when they were dating cause I could tell something was up about that but he figured that out later anyway
D3MXN1C: Only salty stuff, about you being a 'princess' and stuff. Nothing personal, though I never really pushed on for info.. I don't like knowing about peoples agenda's or personal shit unless they tell me themselves.. I can't even go through my sisters purse when she tells me to grab something x.x
Ahamkara: "princess"
Ahamkara: Yes, yes I was bitch.
Ahamkara: xD
D3MXN1C: heh. Funny. I think every female can be a bitch when they want to.. they get so mean Q.Q I'm shocked I've not turned gay yet.
Ahamkara: I can be a cunt sometimes too
Ahamkara: I feel I was still humble at least.
Ahamkara: Sometimes. I never threw being Xae's daughter around
D3MXN1C: She talked a lot of crap on Jer though. Even told us what he looked like and stuff. And how he acted after they met.
D3MXN1C: Fey ended up hating me.
Malfeasance: Im honestly kinda curious as to how he acted after that. Cause he started acting like a bitch.
Malfeasance: Did they meet rl or just generally on here you mean?
D3MXN1C: They met inrl.
D3MXN1C: Apperently.
D3MXN1C: To my knowledge.
D3MXN1C: She said that he was really obsessive.
D3MXN1C: He met her rl friends.
D3MXN1C: Got upset over something.
D3MXN1C: Heyya.
Ahamkara: Heyo
Malfeasance: Sounds about right.
Malfeasance: Allo
IParadoxedI: Hello there.
Ahamkara: Haven't seen you in a few days
D3MXN1C: Two hours.. I've got two hours..
D3MXN1C: x.x
D3MXN1C: Ima die.
Ahamkara: Try to get some sleep, dear
IParadoxedI: Aye, I stumbled on a bit of trouble irl, and had to take a few days off.
Ahamkara: Well, hope it's all cleared up or at least manageable now
IParadoxedI: It is, thank you for the concern.
D3MXN1C: I don't think we got to officially meet.
D3MXN1C: I was a bit drunk.. .when I met you.
D3MXN1C: But I'm Noa, it's a pleasure ^^
Ahamkara: Ya drunkard
D3MXN1C: XD
IParadoxedI: Para, the pleasure's all yours.
Ahamkara: Oh rip
D3MXN1C: Should I confront her or.. just distance myself and let it be?
Ahamkara: I'd say it'd be better to confront her than to get distant and her not understand why
D3MXN1C: I mean, ether way I've completly lost interest. Dishonest is a major turn off for me.
Ahamkara: Be honest.
Malfeasance: Honestly its gonna come up inevitably either way.
Ahamkara: That's what you wanted from her, no ?
IParadoxedI: I don't know the issue, but 97% of the time, it only gets worse by distancing yourself mate.
D3MXN1C: Yea.
Malfeasance: Shes insecure and weak in the chest. If it doesnt pop up direct then she will boil over and it will seap out.
Malfeasance: And when that happens I'll be stepping in.
Malfeasance: You confronting her would probably be a mercy.
D3MXN1C: Mind if I invite her in here? I ... kinda don't wana face it alone? I don't want her to bullshit her way out of it.. and I look like the fool.. again.
Ahamkara: Sure, hub
Malfeasance: Oh you mean Essie thought you meant Vince.
Ahamkara: hun
Ahamkara: We've got your back
Malfeasance: Funny enough. Still stands. xD
Malfeasance: But yeah feel free.
Ahamkara: Or maybe the ooc room
Malfeasance: Nah not the ooc room at all.
Malfeasance: Aint meant for that
D3MXN1C: Inviting
Ahamkara: -grumbles and rolls her eyes-
Malfeasance: Roll em on these nuts
D3MXN1C: Heyya Luna.
Ahamkara: Do something
Essie0812: Uwu
Essie0812: Hi love
Malfeasance: You the one getting called out. I aint gotta
Essie0812: What’s going on?
D3MXN1C: I um.
Ahamkara: Yeah, you're also the one that ain't gonna get her dick sucked
D3MXN1C: Can I ask you something?
Essie0812: >_<
Essie0812: Yeah hun
Malfeasance: And you wont get your ass eaten or pussy.
D3MXN1C: Be completly honest with me?
Ahamkara: THAT'S FINE
Essie0812: Always
Malfeasance: My oral subtracts two.
D3MXN1C: Are you seeing someone inrl?
Essie0812: No why?
Essie0812: We talked about this already
D3MXN1C: You sure you don't have a facebook?
Essie0812: I’m positive
Essie0812: Why
D3MXN1C: I ask.. because you lied to me.. I've traced your phone number, and got your real name.. then I searched you on facebook...
D3MXN1C: The pictures you sent me... match the ones in the profile.
D3MXN1C: YOu lied to me the first time. I gave you a chance to be honest the second, but you lied once more.
Essie0812: Ok? I said I don’t have Facebook because I don’t I gave it to my friend Olivia
D3MXN1C: Then why are you photo's under the featured photos.
D3MXN1C: Regardless if you gave it to her, your photos wouldnt be there.
Essie0812: Because it was mine and yes they would be
D3MXN1C: YOu said you never had one...
Essie0812: Because I don’t use it I don’t have the password for it anymore she changed it
D3MXN1C: But her pics would be on it.. not yours.
Malfeasance: Dont you think it would be important to tell him that along the course of the question "Do you have a facebook?" that seems at least -somewhat- relevant.
Ahamkara: Who gives away their facebook anyway? They could just make their own
Essie0812: No it wouldn’t she only goes on it to lurk around and post about her dogs
Essie0812: Cuz she’s trying to get rid of the black dog that she has because he’s to much
D3MXN1C: You were last active, on a post from your baby daddy a year ago.
Essie0812: Yeah a fucking year ago
D3MXN1C: That I can see, because it's set to private.
Malfeasance: Noa's not the type thats gonna completely out and alienate you for this - he is giving you a chance to come clean. If you have one and lied about it and care about Noa; then just suck up the fact that ya did it and be honest. Its an opportunity to not lie about some stuff.
D3MXN1C: ^
Ahamkara: Ya know, maybe you should relax. Anger just makes it seem like you're guilty and trying desparately to hide it. In my opinion.
Malfeasance: Cause honestly - this looks incriminating as hell and your reasoning for this where as has a possibility of being true - a miniscule one at thaht; do seem pretty lame as far as credibility from a logical stand point.
Essie0812: Noa I told you me and him weren’t together and whether you really don’t want to believe me then don’t he cheated on me and broke my heart and we were only together for 4 months and in the last month I found out I was pregnant
D3MXN1C: Here is what I believe.
D3MXN1C: 1.
D3MXN1C: That you lied originally about never having a facebook.
Essie0812: And I’m sorry about that ok I really truly am
IParadoxedI: Hey, she didn't deny it this time.
IParadoxedI: Improvement.
Malfeasance: But would she admit that it indeed is hers and not a given away profile is my thing. Cause that - honestly is insulting to Noa's intelligence. A facebook isent hard to make. Theres zero reason to "give one" away
Essie0812: But what do you want from me we just met and are still getting to know each other why would I give you it when I don’t even use it and my best friend does
Malfeasance: Why would you build a starting relationship on a foundation of lies? Is that a better option?
Malfeasance: Do you care about Noa - or do you care about //The attention/affection//???
Essie0812: No it’s not but I don’t use it I still have a damn MySpace because I do not like Facebook
Malfeasance: Myspace is a music networking site now not a social media transit.
Essie0812: I care about him
Essie0812: Shit I just put stuff in my fucking amazon cart to send him a few things for his birthday
Essie0812: I was gonna ask him where I should send it too when he got back on
Essie0812: I know
Essie0812: It is
Malfeasance: You are building a less and less trust worthy rapport with that. So lets restart with just honesty this time eh? And material things mean nothing to me and do not equate to the legitimacy of affection.
Malfeasance: Thats called bribery. I was a cop - that doesnt fly for two cents with me.
Malfeasance: But I will give you benefit of a doubt.
D3MXN1C: This sounds pathetic of me to say this, but I'd rather you cheating on me with someone when drunk, then lieing to me. Honesty.. means a lot to me.... Trust.. is the foundation to a relationship. It's like breaking a mirror, once the pieces are shattered, you can put them together but you can still see the cracks in the reflection.
Malfeasance: Maybe you have been hurt and its made you defensive. Evasive.
Essie0812: It’s not I wasn’t trying to bribe him with it
Malfeasance: But Noa isent gonna do that to you. So you need to start - with honesty.
Essie0812: But noa I have hard time trusting that’s why it took me a bit to even tell you anything about my daughter
D3MXN1C: I know this.
D3MXN1C: And you didn't have to give me your facebook.
Essie0812: And I’m breaking right now because I really do like you
Ahamkara: Okay can I jjust say
D3MXN1C: You just had to give me your honesty.
Ahamkara: xD you tell him about your daughter
Malfeasance: If you hadnt before then ya need to come clean about the things you havent and start on a pure note cause thats what he wants with you. noa isent in these kind of things anymore to build something that is not gonna prosper. All he wants from you - is honesty. thats it. And it isent gonna be productive to either of you to not do that. NOT being honest? Is exactly what is gonna lead to the downfall you fear so much.
Essie0812: Because he told me about his son
Ahamkara: but your argument for not giving him your facebook is that you just met
Malfeasance: Essie. You dont know me.
Malfeasance: But I have watched criminals do this whole breaking shit in court. And that breaking shit usually only happens cause they got caught.
Essie0812: And noa the fact that you couldn’t come to me personally about this hurts even more
IParadoxedI: I'm having a hard time determining an age here. The things she's saying makes her sound 16, but some the information makes her sound in her late twenties.
Malfeasance: That stuff is irrelevant. what IS relevant. Is that here
Malfeasance: Right now.
Malfeasance: You be real with Noa
Malfeasance: That doesnt mean letting him in to everything.
Malfeasance: Like if you dont wanna give your facebook. Just say that. He will respect that.
Ahamkara: We might lose power
Ahamkara: Just a heads up
Malfeasance: ^
Malfeasance: Storm kicking up heavy
D3MXN1C: I've known Xara and Mal for a good bit, and honestly... I been sitting here for the last hour debating on how to confront you about this... I didn't know how to.
Malfeasance: And im sorry but.
Malfeasance: You say it hurts you.
Essie0812: No first off you don’t know me either and you dont know who I am as a person or anything at all the reason I’m breaking is because you guys are telling me that I pretty much don’t care about him and having you all jump down my throat. It may not be like that but that’s how it feels
Malfeasance: But you have lied to him thus far and he is vulnerable cause he feels things for you.
Malfeasance: Okay let me put this in perspective for you before you step into something you will regret cause Im not the one.
Malfeasance: Calm it down. Cause I havent assumed anything about you.
Malfeasance: I have gone based off the actions /you/ have given.
Malfeasance: And the image you have painted from that.
Malfeasance: Could I be wrong? Of course I could. I dont know you.
Malfeasance: But there is evidence and patterns in action. So if there is a pattern. Its cause you - have given the action.
Essie0812: I really do care about him the only thing i didn’t tell him was about Facebook and Luna is my name my mother’s been calling me that since I was little so I just stick with it instead of my own
Malfeasance: So lets just stay reasonable with this.
D3MXN1C: The name is irrelavant.
Essie0812: I know it is
Malfeasance: I'm just saying this - and I do not speak for Noa. So its on him at the end of the day. But.
Malfeasance: This is an attempt to get the truth out there. An attempt at a chance. At something that could be something great - or could be another relationship. Who knows?
Malfeasance: But for that to work. Not saying you did lie about anything else.
Malfeasance: BUT if you did.
Malfeasance: You need to come clean now - this is the chance.
D3MXN1C: Now is the chance to redeem yourself.
Malfeasance: Or otherwise im sure any further illuminations to truths about you would result in this being a done deal.
D3MXN1C: ^
D3MXN1C: I will find out the truth.
D3MXN1C: Regardless.
Malfeasance: And if you cant handle that kind of thing or being that honest and straight forward. Not  belittling you.
D3MXN1C: Just up to you on how.
Malfeasance: But some people just honestly arent ready for that.
Malfeasance: Then you need to let him know that.
D3MXN1C: ^
Malfeasance: And if he wants to work with ya through that then cool - he's a good guy. Im sure he would.
Malfeasance: If not? Then resign it with your dignity intact and dont waste /either/ of your time.
D3MXN1C: You have to be honest with me Luna. I do like you. But I dislike dishonesty. So please, if you've lied about anything or feel the need to come clean about anything, I'd appriciate it. ^^
Essie0812: He is a great guy
Essie0812: Noa
D3MXN1C: Yes
D3MXN1C: I'm still here.
D3MXN1C: Luna
D3MXN1C: My disc frozed up
D3MXN1C: Oi.
D3MXN1C: Anddd it crashed. I'm running too many programs at once right now.
Malfeasance: Well fuck.
D3MXN1C: But to carry on, not sure if you said anything after what I last saw..
D3MXN1C: It's just fishy.. and off that he had you as his cover picture.
Malfeasance: No. I have been thinking she has been typing this whole time.
IParadoxedI: Wouldn't there typically be a bubble if she were typing?
D3MXN1C: Luna.
Malfeasance: Sometimes theres an input glitch and it doesnt show one.
IParadoxedI: True.
D3MXN1C: Omfg.. Pay attention to here and not Disc .. I gotta restart Disc...
D3MXN1C: x.x
D3MXN1C: LUNA
Ahamkara: She's on mobile so nah we wouldn't see the bubble anyway
IParadoxedI: Would also explain it taking a while IF she's typing.
Malfeasance: //She clapped her hands together// SOOOOOO
Malfeasance: How're you tonight Para?
IParadoxedI: I'm alright. Just trying to figure out how to beat the current stage of a game.
Malfeasance: What game?
IParadoxedI: Lords of the Fallen.
Malfeasance: I thought to get into that cause I heard it was kinda dark souls like and I love souls but never did. Looks like for once I wouldnt have any advice on a game. xD
IParadoxedI: Hm. You can consider it Dark Souls' younger brother who offers worse character control.
Malfeasance: Lawl. I may give it a try some day then
IParadoxedI: I started playing it because I dislike Dark Souls' demonic difficulty.