- You wanna hear my story? Ok I'll keep it short and simple. The reason my voice sounds stupid is because I have a cleft palate. I was born with it had to get huge ugly scar because I almost died. Ever since I've been born I've had surgeries over, and over, and over again. If I had to count how many surgeries I've had, I would probably say the most is 9. I don't have that much real friends because I'm always moving hence why I came upon Steam and Gmod. So I find friends on here. Of course they leave and go. I'm not very must liked I know that. I just don't want to be alone. I need someone to constantly talk to me or I start losing it. I'm happy that there are some who still manage to stay and talk with me, everything gets to me. The surgeries, the needles, the disease, the meds, the pain, it's too much. Of course there's more surgeries to come. My next surgeries is supposed to be really dangerous because I have the risk of infection due to having fucking Rheumatoid Arthritis. If only there was a cure for it but of course there isn't one. Everyday is a pain awaking up and trying to move your hands, knees, feet, elbows, and hip. Sometimes there are even day where I can't even move. It's pathetic. I cry in bed until someone from outside hears me because I can't move a single fucking thing in my body. And don't get me started on the chemo. I wish this world was nicer. I just want to help my family and friends but I'm just another fucking stone weighing them down.