R11:CO1 11.txt

こころ「えっ……？」%K%P
Huh...?

突然の音に、私はビクリと身を竦ませた。%K%P
My body flinched in surprise at hearing the sudden sound.

私の足下にカップの破片が散らばっている。%K%P
There were fragments of a broken cup at my feet.

なんでカップが……？%K%P
Why were there cups...?

小屋にカップなんてあっただろうか？%K%P
Had there even been any cups like this in the cabin?

いや、そもそも私はカップなんて持っていなかったはず。%K%P
No, I shouldn't have been holding any cups in the first place.

持っていたのは、あの意味不明な新聞――%K%P
What I was holding was that cryptic newspaper――

？？「なにやってるの……！」%K%P
What are you doing...!

声に振り返ると、私はまたドキッとした。%K%P
Surprised again, I turned my head in the direction of the voice.

女「ど、どうしたの？　大丈夫？」%K%P
W, what's wrong? Are you okay?

前に見た夢で、いきなり私にビンタをかましてくれた褐色の肌の女性だ。%K%P
All of a sudden, I saw the brown-skinned woman who had slapped me in my dream.

こころ「ここは……？」%K%P
Where...?

私は混乱する。%K%P
I was confused.

整理……整理しないと……頭の中を、整理……。%K%P
Sort it out... I have to sort it out... The things inside my head, sort them out....

そう努めようとすればするほど、こんがらがってくる。%K%P
The more I tried, the more of a mess it seemed to become.

落ち着いて。%K%P
Calm down.

落ち着いて冬川こころ。%K%P
Calm down, Fuyukawa Kokoro.

と、褐色の肌の女性が駆け寄ってきた。%K%P
Then, the brown-skinned woman rushed over to me.

女「もしかして、身体が痛むの？　鎮静剤はまだ効くはずだけど……」%K%P
Could it be that your body still hurts? But the pain relievers should still be in effect...

こころ「…………」%K%P
......

女「どこか痛む？」%K%P
Where does it hurt?

私の顔を心配そうにのぞき込んでくる。%K%P
She peered worriedly at my face.

痛いところ……？%K%P
Where does it hurt...?

別にない。%K%P
Nowhere, really.

私は反射的に、首を振っていた。%K%P
I shook my head reflexively.

女「そう」%K%P
I see.

女「びっくりしたじゃない」%K%P
You surprised me.

女性は私の前にひざまずき、カップの破片を拾い始める。%K%P
The woman knelt in front of me and started to pick up the fragments of the broken cups.

チラリと私を見上げ、気遣うような表情をした。%K%P
She glanced at me, then looked up at me with a worried expression on her face.

女「怪我しなかった？」%K%P
You aren't injured?

その優しそうな態度に戸惑う。%K%P
Her kind behavior left me bewildered.

前と大違いだ。%K%P
It was totally different than before.

こころ「なんなの……？」%K%P
What is this...?

女性から後ずさりしながら私はうめいた。%K%P
I asked as I shied away from the woman.

ゆに「おっちょこちょいだね」%K%P
How careless.

ゆにがいた。%K%P
Yuni was there.

私を見て、いたずらげに笑っている。%K%P
He looked at me with a teasing smile.

私は周囲を見回した。%K%P
I surveyed my surroundings.

避難小屋ではなかった。%K%P
It wasn't the shelter cabin.

見覚えがある。%K%P
Something came back to me.

この部屋も、前に見た夢の中に出てきた。%K%P
This room, too, had been in the dream I had before.

部屋には、私の他に２人の人物がいる。%K%P
Inside the room, there were two people besides myself.

２人とも見覚えがある。%K%P
I remember seeing these two.

２人とも前の夢と同じ。%K%P
The two people are the same as in the dream from before.

褐色の肌の女性と、ゆに……。%K%P
The brown skinned woman, and Yuni....

さらに、リビングの向こうから、フラフラとひとりの少女が姿を現わした。%K%P
In addition, beyond the living area, a single girl casually appeared.

彼女にも見覚えがある。%K%P
I remember seeing the girl, too.

犬伏景子。%K%P
Inubushi Keiko.

みんな、いぶかしげな目つきで私に注目している。%K%P
Everyone stared at me with suspicion in their eyes.

こころ「ど、どうなってるの？」%K%P
W, what's happening?

ゆに「それはこっちのセリフだよ」%K%P
That's my line.

ゆに「ほんとにどうしちゃったの、悟」%K%P
What happened, Satoru?

こころ「サトル……？」%K%P
Satoru...?

どこかで聞いたことのある名前だった。%K%P
It was a name I've heard somewhere before.

でもどこで聞いたのか、とっさに思い出せない。%K%P
But where I heard it, I can't remember.

それとも気のせい？%K%P
Or is it just my imagination?

サトルなんて、ありふれた名前だし……。%K%P
The name Satoru is pretty common....

いや、そんなことはどうでもいい。%K%P
No, something like that doesn't matter.

これはいったいどうなっているんだろう。%K%P
Just what does this mean?

たしか、私は新聞の妙な記事を見て……。%K%P
If I remember correctly, I was reading a strange article in the newspaper....

そこには、飛行機が墜落したことと、ゆにが救助されたこと。%K%P
In the article, it had information about the plane crash, as well as information about Yuni being rescued.

そして、私が死んだということが書かれていて……。%K%P
And it was written there that I was going to die....

こころ「…………え～っと」%K%P
......Um～mmm...

その後を思い出せない。%K%P
I don't remember anything after that.

私は頭を抱えた。%K%P
I was at my wits' end.

新聞を見て、私はどうしただろう。なにをしただろう。%K%P
I wondered what happened to me after I saw the newspaper. I wondered what I did then.

女「本当に大丈夫？」%K%P
Are you really okay?

褐色の肌の女性が、私の肩にそっと手を添えてきた。%K%P
The brown-skinned woman softly placed her hand on my shoulder.

こころ「いやっ！」%K%P
No!

思わず振り払ってしまう。%K%P
I shook it off unintentionally.

だが、女性の不安げな表情を見て、申し訳ない思いになる。%K%P
However, I saw the woman's uneasy expression, and what I did became inexcusable.

こころ「あ……ごめんなさい……」%K%P
Ah... I'm sorry...

また、同じ夢を見ているのだろうか。%K%P
I was probably seeing the same dream again.

避難小屋で意識を取り戻す前に見た『夢』……。%K%P
The "dream" I'd had before I regained consciousness in the shelter cabin....

あのとき私はガラスに映った自分の姿を見て……。%K%P
That time I saw my own appearance in the glass....

こころ「まさか！」%K%P
It can't be!

そんなはずはない。%K%P
That shouldn't be.

そう祈りながら、私はリビングの南側にある、大きなガラス窓の前へ駆け寄った。%K%P
Praying that, I ran over to the large window on the south side of the living area.

窓に、鏡のように姿が映りこむはず。%K%P
The window should reflect my appearance like a mirror.

……確かに映っていた。%K%P
...It certainly did reflect it.

私でない、誰か……。%K%P
Not me, but....

見たこともない、男の人の姿が。%K%P
a man I've never seen before appeared there.

前の夢で最後に見た、あの男の姿が。%K%P
In the last dream, the last thing I saw was this man.

こころ「そんな！　嘘！」%K%P
No way! Lies!

嘘ではなかった。%K%P
It wasn't a lie.

窓に映った男は、私とまったく同じ動きをした。%K%P
The man reflected in the window made the exact same movements as myself.

いやいやをするように首を振り、ハッとして口許を手で覆う。%K%P
He shook his head as if saying "no, no," and covered his mouth in shock.

そしてまっすぐ私を見ている。%K%P
And I saw myself right away.

これが……私？%K%P
This is... me?

そんなはずはない。%K%P
That shouldn't be.

そんなこと、あるはずがない。%K%P
Something like that, can't possibly be.

ゆに「悟？　どうしたの？」%K%P
Satoru? What's wrong?

すぐ横に、ゆにが立っていた。%K%P
Yuni stood right beside me.

私を見上げている。%K%P
He looked up at me.

ゆにの背が縮んでいる気がする。%K%P
It felt as if Yuni had grown shorter somehow.

ゆにが小さくなっている。%K%P
Yuni had gotten smaller.

違う、私の背が大きくなっているのだ。%K%P
No, it was me who had gotten bigger.

こころ「ここはどこなの！？」%K%P
Where is this place?!

私はゆにの華奢な両肩をつかんだ。%K%P
I grabbed Yuni by his slender shoulders.

激しく揺さぶり、問い詰める。%K%P
Violently shaking, I questioned him.

ゆにの顔が歪んだ。%K%P
Yuni's face became distorted.

ゆに「痛い！　痛いよ！」%K%P
It hurts! It hurts!

女「やめて！　乱暴しないで！」%K%P
Stop it! Don't use violence!

褐色の肌の女性がすがりつく。%K%P
The brown-skinned woman clung to me.

ゆに「痛い！　痛いってば！」%K%P
It hurts! It hurts!

ついには、ゆにのつぶらな瞳から涙が溢れてきた。%K%P
Suddenly, tears started flowing from Yuni's round eyes.

私は慌てて手を放す。%K%P
I became panicked and released him.

おかしい。%K%P
Strange.

そんなに強くつかんだ覚えはないんだけど……。%K%P
I don't remember gripping him that tightly....

こころ「ね、ねえ。お願い、誰か答えて。ここはどこ？」%K%P
H, hey. Please, someone answer me! Where is this place?

ゆに「わ、わかんないよ……」%K%P
I, I don't know...

こころ「はぁ～！？」%K%P
Ha～?!

ゆに「怒らないでよぉ。ほんとにわかんないんだもん」%K%P
Don't get mad. I really don't know.

私は褐色の肌の女性に振り返った。目で尋ねる。%K%P
I turned to the brown-skinned woman. I asked with my eyes.

女「施設よ……」%K%P
An institution...

女性の口調には、どこか苦々しい感じが含まれていた。%K%P
There was an unpleasant feeling in the woman's tone.

こころ「施設？」%K%P
Institution?

こころ「施設って何！？」%K%P
What institution?!

女性が私から目をそらした。%K%P
She turned her eyes away from me.

そして、驚くべき名を口にした。%K%P
The next word out of her mouth was a shocking one.

女「スフィア」%K%P
SPHIA.

こころ「…………え？」%K%P
......Huh?

女「スフィア。それだけ言えばわかるでしょう？」%K%P
SPHIA. That's all I need to say, right?

こころ「…………スフィア、ですって？」%K%P
......SPHIA, you say?

当然、私はスフィアという施設を知っている。%K%P
Of course, I know of an institution called SPHIA.

犬伏景子が隔離されている、精神障害者隔離施設。%K%P
The place where Inubushi Keiko was being held, an institution where the mentally unsound were isolated.

私が行こうとしていた場所。%K%P
The place where I was supposed to go.

あの飛行機事故が起こらなければ、私は何事もなくスフィアへと向かっていたはずだ。%K%P
If the airplane accident hadn't occurred, I would have arrived at SPHIA with no problems.

ここが、そのスフィアだというのか。%K%P
Are you saying this is SPHIA?

なぜ私はスフィアにいるんだろう。%K%P
Why am I at SPHIA?

ゆに「さ、悟のほうが、よく知ってるはずでしょ？」%K%P
S, Satoru, you should know that, right?

ゆには、さっきの私の剣幕に怯えているようだった。%K%P
Yuni had become frightened by my violent attitude from a little while ago.

こころ「ねえ、ゆに。さっきからサトルサトルって、誰のこと？」%K%P
Hey, Yuni, you've been saying Satoru, Satoru since before. Who are you talking about?

ゆに「えっ？」%K%P
Huh?

ゆには目をそらした。%K%P
Yuni's eyes widened.

視線をたどると、そこにはさっき、私を男の姿に映したガラス窓。%K%P
Following his gaze, my eyes met the glass window that had reflected the figure of the male me.

今も、ゆにの横にやっぱり男が立っている。%K%P
Even now, there was a man standing beside Yuni after all.

私が、映っていない。%K%P
It wasn't... reflecting me.

ゆにの視線は、窓越しに男を見ていた。%K%P
Yuni's eyes were looking at the man reflected in the window.

つまり、悟とは……私？%K%P
In other words, Satoru is... me?

もう一度、窓に近寄ってみた。%K%P
I approached the window one more time.

見覚えのないキリリとした目が、私を見ている。%K%P
I was being looked at with eyes I've never seen before.

なかなか精悍な顔つきだった。%K%P
It was quite a fearless face.

頬や鼻、口、おでこにペタペタと触れてみる。%K%P
Cheeks and nose, mouth, and forehead; I touched everything I saw.

窓に映った男もまったく同じ動きをする。%K%P
The man reflected in the mirror made the exact same movements.

試しに、あっかんべーをしてみた。%K%P
As a test, I stuck out my tongue.

男も同じことをした。%K%P
The man did the same.

バカにされたみたいで、ちょっとカチンと来た。%K%P
Contemptuous laughter resounded in the air for a moment.

にらめっこしてみた。いろいろな表情を作ってみる。%K%p
We had a staring contest. Various facial expressions were made.

笑ってみる
Try smiling

怒ってみる
Try getting angry

男が、ニコッとかわいく微笑んだ。%K%P
The man beamed, a lovely smile.

気持ち悪い……。%K%P
I feel sick....

男が、ムッとして私を睨みつけた。%K%P
The man got angry and glared at me.

ちょっと怖い……。%K%P
It's a little scary....

こころ「嘘……こんなの……」%K%P
This... can't be...

泣きたくなった。%K%P
I wanted to cry.

窓に映る男も、半ベソをかいている。%K%P
The man reflected in the mirror gave a smile that looked almost tearful as well.

情けない顔。%K%P
A pathetic face.

こころ「男に……なっちゃった……」%K%P
I... became a guy...

そう呟いてから、ギクリとした。%K%P
Muttering that, something suddenly hit me.

こころ「ねえ！？　洗面所は！？　どこ！？」%K%P
Hey! Where's the bathroom?!

女「みんなの部屋にあるでしょう？」%K%P
There's one in each of our rooms, right?

こころ「みんなの部屋じゃわからないわ！」%K%P
I won't understand if you say "each of our rooms"!

女性は呆れたように首を振った。%K%P
The woman shook her head as though shocked.

女「みんなの部屋は、みんなの部屋よ」%K%P
Each of our rooms means each of our rooms.

こころ「どこにあるの！？」%K%P
Where are they?!

女「どこって……あなた、知ってるでしょう？」%K%P
Where... You already know that, don't you?

だめだ。これでは話にならない。%K%P
It's no good. Our conversation's going nowhere.

私は駆け出した。%K%P
I started running.

この建物が前に見た夢と同じなら、なんとなく見当はつく。%K%P
If this building is the same as the one in the dream I had before, I have at least a general idea of where it is.

走りながら、『ちょっと走りにくいな』と思った。%K%P
While running, I thought "it's a little hard to run, isn't it～?"

バスルームを探し当て、中に駆け込む。%K%P
I found the bathroom and rushed inside.

どうも身体の感覚がいつもと違う。%K%P
It seems my body's sensations are different than usual.

肩を思いきりドア枠にぶつけた。%K%P
My shoulder slams into the door frame at full speed.

痛い……。%K%P
It hurts....

でも痛がっている場合じゃない。%K%P
But now's not the time for that.

バスルームのドアを閉める。%K%P
I opened the bathroom door.

こころ「…………」%K%P
......

おそるおそる、服の上から身体を撫でてみる。%K%P
Timidly, I brushed my body over my clothes.

がっちりしていた。%K%P
It was solidly built.

でも、それほど身体が大きいというわけでもないみたいだ。%K%P
But, it seems my body didn't get that much bigger.

中肉中背、というところだろう。%K%P
Medium build, average height, somewhere around there.

女の私の感覚では、それでもじゅうぶんがっちりしているんだけど。%K%P
For a woman like me, that was plenty built, however.

胸には、あるべき膨らみがない。%K%P
My chest... doesn't stick out the way it should.

ちょっとショック……。%K%P
It's a little bit of a shock....

下半身に違和感があった。%K%P
There was a sense of incompatibility with my lower half.

正確には……股間のあたり……。%K%P
To be precise... the area between the legs....

自分の頬が、カーッと熱くなるのを感じた。%K%P
My cheeks grew hot with embarrassment.

いやいや、こんなことで恥らっている場合じゃない！%K%P
No no, this isn't the time to feel embarrassed by this!

少しドキドキしながら、ズボンのベルトをはずした。%K%P
With my heart beating a little fast, I took off the belt on my trousers.

ファスナーをおろして……。%K%P
I pulled down the zipper....

ズボンをずり下げて……。%K%P
I lowered the trousers....

こころ「…………むぅ～」%K%P
......Muu～

嫌だなぁ……。%K%P
This is unpleasant....

ううん、今は非常事態だ！　非常事態！%K%P
Yeah, this is an emergency situation! An emergency situation!

必死で自分に言い聞かせてから……。%K%P
While I desperately persuade myself....

パンツのゴムをつかんで引っ張った。%K%P
I gripped the elastic of the waistband and pulled it back.

そ～っと。%K%P
U～mm.

そ～っと。%K%P
U～mm.

横目で、チラリとパンツの奥をのぞき込むと……。%K%P
I stole a glance downward to the interior of my pants, and....

こころ「キャーーーーァァァ……」%K%P
Kyaaaaaaaaaa...

世界が反転する。%K%P
The world spins.

意識が遠のく。%K%P
My consciousness fades.

もう、なにも信じたくない……。%K%P
Geez, I don't want to believe anything anymore....