It’s Never Easy to Say Goodbye

It’s never easy to say goodbye
You’re left hanging, standing there
Not knowing where to go or where to be

Goodbyes are a fickle thing
At best, your farewell can be done in person
But that’s not always gonna be the case

I know this all too well
And I know it, most unfortunately
The hard way

In August, my grandfather’s brother left this world
My family gathered to head to his funeral
So they could say their goodbyes

I begged and pleaded and longed to go
God knows I would have given anything to be able to go
But alas, despite my spirited pleas
It wasn’t meant to be

I cried and cried and cried
I may not have lived near him
But we visited him countless times

And though the last time I saw him
I said my goodbyes
I could not go to the funeral
To offer my tribute, my last respects, and give my final goodbye

Even though it wasn’t my fault
Even though I did bid him farewell
This sense of a guilty duty lingers on in me

I know that I must visit his grave
To bid him goodbye one last time
And assuage my guilty mind

He loved me in life
And I loved him as well

And in death
I must express my tribute
To show my love for him
And fulfill my obligation

I know I must say goodbye
And I am determined to do so
For the guilt is strong in me

And so long as that duty is left hanging
Left incomplete
I will always have a burden in my mind and heart

It’s hard to say goodbye
Left hanging there, whether in life or death
Not knowing where to go or what to do
The heavy, leaden heart gently weeping restlessly wanders
While farewells are left to be blown by the wind