Lonely Monster and Blind Girl Ch. 7

I cried for the first three days.
Regret for what I had done.
Awareness of my sin,
Repentance.
After my tears had withered,
I strangled myself.
I couldn’t forgive myself.


“What—"
“Exactly have I been doing…”
I cooled my head
“After all…”
“It’s my affection.”
And thought of what I should do from now on.
“Am I really… As bad as people see?”


“Lily won’t talk, but”
“She’s blind, and I’ve put her through countless hardships.”
“I’m the origin of those,”
“So everything up ‘til now has been lies.”
“I’ve been tricking her,”
“But even so, at that time, Lily”
“Seemed to glow when she responded.”


“This time, when we meet…”
“I’ll tell her everything.”
“After that,”
“If she criticizes me, or if she kills me,”
“I don’t have the right to say anything.”
“…Rather, it might be better if she kills me.”


“What path…”
“I can’t be with Lily after this.”




*tap* *tap*
“—Heath?”




“Lily”
*hh*


“Lily,”
“Um,”
“I,”
“Before you can see me,”
“There is something I have to tell you.”
“—Sorry”
“For lying to you up ‘til now.”


“That I traveled the world,”
“That I am a traveler,”
“It was all for my…”
“All lies to feed an ugly monster’s ego,”
“Because I wanted to stay with you,”
“Because I didn’t want to be alone,”
“I…”
“Used your blindness…!”


“Additionally,”
“Lily,”
“The reason why your eyes are like that”
“Is also me.”
“To escape my loneliness”
“To get away from the humans, I released my fire,”
“And stole your light.”
“It’s not something that can be forgiven just by apologizing,”
“You have every right to convict me,”
“My life… Is yours to do with as you please”
“So”


“I know.”


“I knew”
“From the start.”
“…—Lily—…?”