t0varisch - Yesterday at 6:19 PM
I just spent the last 2 hours driving around town with the A/C off in hopes that I'd sweat and scream and cry enough to feel like a person living in a body
And not like a fucking floating pair of eyes called Alex
Cause work sends me into a dysphoria spiral and i wanted to shake myself out of it rather than gradually think myself into a better place only to go back the next day and start the cycle again
It half worked
Hollyjollychristmas - Yesterday at 6:22 PM
:frowning:
hugsies
t0varisch - Yesterday at 6:24 PM
I want to quit this job and move on with my fucking life so badly
But my mom won't be making money again until September
So I have to support myself
And it's not worth going through an entire job hunt for a job I'll quit in 4-6 months anyway
Hollyjollychristmas - Yesterday at 6:27 PM
:frowning:
mega hugs
I'm sorry
t0varisch - Yesterday at 6:30 PM
I have to hide myself in this far corner of my brain and treat my body like this man puppet
Every fucking weekend
Then by the time I feel ok again I have to do it again
I want to fucking vomit