Dylan,

Over the last few days, I've been thinking about a lot of things. Life, people, all that -- and, most importantly, our relationship.

You're an amazing guy, and I care a lot about you. However, I don't think things are working out between us, and I don't see things being any better in the long term. I'm afraid there's just too much about us that's incompatible for this type of relationship.

I often worry about your own wellbeing and relationships. Every day, you say that you're dreaming about me. Often, you'll step away from your friends just to text or call me. If anything is important in life, it is the moment, the now. I'm afraid of getting in the way of your time with your friends, and I don't want to be given this level of priority. I'm just a person, and one you've known for only some months. You should cherish your time with the rest of your friends, those you've bonded with over years, and enjoy spending your time with them instead of spending energy thinking about somebody who's not even there. You have wonderful friends who love you dearly, and I sometimes feel like I get in the way of that. There's times you'll tell me you miss me, even when we're already talking, or worse. Recently, you deliberately put space between us, even admitting that you were hesitant on whether or not you wanted to call me... Only to tell me that you missed me. It was a scene of your own creation, and throwing in words that usually leave me feeling a little bad for you after pushing me away like that seriously hurt.
I also understand that everybody has their needs. You've been asking to get more intimate, but I simply can't. I've tried my best to make this clear throughout our relationship, but the fact that I've had to answer it numerous times makes me feel unheard. I fell in love with you because you're a sweet person who is usually a great listener. Unfortunately, the latter part seemed to falter here, where it was the most important to me. My intimacy was opening up on a level that I wouldn't tell anyone else -- I've told you things I've never even revealed to my mother or psychiatrist. Being told that it wasn't enough seriously hurt, and I decided it was better just to stand down.

I don't want to get in the way, and I don't want to hold you back from having your needs taken care of. In relationships, we are truly the opposite. I'm not a sexual person, and I don't hold my love life much higher than I do my relationships with my friends. This is now only bringing me stress and insecurity, and I can't even imagine what you must be feeling right now. I'm sorry to do things this way, I know it's not the most graceful approach, but it allows me to express my thoughts and feelings one last time with less anxiety. Otherwise, I'd risk being vague and anxious, leaving questions and concerns in my wake.

I love and care about you, Dylan, but our relationship isn't working out.

You deserve someone who can help fulfill all of your needs.

Chris.