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- -Liv 2008
- Inside my head there is an artist, and She is slowly driving me insane.
- At first, I would only see her from time to time, year to year.
- But now βSheβ refuses to leave, She is there all the time every day.
- However, I cannot reach her through the thick impasse that is my mind.
- All the same, I can see her clear as day, and She taunts me with what I could be,
- What I could do, what I could create. I then try and fail to make thought real,
- and the more I try the worse I feel. I fail, then flop, then fail some more. Its becoming
- more then I can endure. I can see what I want to make, hear what I want to play, and feel
- what I want the piece to convey. Nothing. Nothing happens, or rather what is
- produced is like a cheap imitation and in some cases even less then that.
- Its like trying to talk with 10 words or draw using erasers on a blank page.
- And all the while She is there taunting me. Encouraging me with false promises, and
- empty praise. What I would do to just once bring Her creations to this plane.
- Instead I am here. Me. That's all there is, is this disconnected person, parading about like
- artist. While all the while she is suffering because She knows that she is capable of more.
- Why must the gap between my mind and my hand be so great. I feel as though I
- am on stage and doing nothing. But all the people clap when I want them to cry.
- They scream when I want them to laugh, And I cry regardless. I cry for reality, for vision
- for talent. Perhaps She is only a figment of my imagination.
- Maybe figment and reality really are incompatible.
- Maybe I should just stop?
- Maybe she should just live in my head, and be quiet about it.
- Maybe I should tell myself a little white lie, to make it easier.
- Or maybe, just maybe, this will all pay off someday.
- All the struggle, failure, and pain will build up and fill the gap that separates me from Her.
- Or maybe I am already on the other side, and this is all there is.
- I am.
- She is.
- We are,
- Separate...
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