Opinions and Thoughts on The KH Marathon 2 + Drama

Alright so like 2 months later after the KH marathon has ended and AGDQ has been over. I thought it's finally time give my thoughts on everything that happened in Late October and Early November. Take this as drama stirring or being melodramatic. I don't really care. It's just my thoughts and opinions and it doesn't need to change anything that is different from now. I've kept quiet about this stuff since the marathon ended and i don't intend to kick out. Just voice my opinions and apologies. (there will be a TL;DR at the bottom)

So first i will give Opinions on the Marathon.
The Marathon was an idea originally sparked up by Sly as the dude was really hoping to get to AGDQ so he was gonna do a personal marathon to raise himself money for him. Now i will be honest. I knew this was gonna fail in the poor dudes face. He isn't a very popular streamer so i highly doubted he was gonna get any money. So one night i was streaming a run, DJ came into my chat and was talking about how he finalized his stuff for AGDQ and he was gonna have to work his ass off for money since he spent all of it on AGDQ. So i said that it was a real shame that noone had the motivation to do another marathon for AGDQ again. DJ said something along the lines of "come pinga we should just do our own marathon" and i said that would be a pretty cool and said we could get Sly to get in on it too since he needed money and i didn't want him to do a personal marathon and get nothing. B-True perked up on this and said he would be willing to help too. Since i knew how much lashback we would get if we called it the KH Marathon 2, I offered to name it the YaBoyBTeam marathon. A play on the "A Team/B Team" thing that was going on at the time. (i will get to that later dw). It was a pretty shitty idea but everyone laughed and said it was pretty funny but we should name it the KH Marathon 2. It took a bit but i did get convinced. So we gave out some roles, i offered to take care of scheduling because i had a little bit of experience with it. B-True took the role as Host since he was the TS owner at the time so we thought it fit. Sly took over layouts and DJ took care of Social Response and stuff like that. So we threw together what we had and put it on twitter to get some hype going. The rest of the community saw and was pretty hype as hell, we got hype that people were willing to support this and we were really happy for it.

After about 10 minutes, Hobz perked up and said he was sad to be the bitch here but he perked up on how i was apart of the marathon team since the shit that happened last year (yeah i'll get to that too). He tweeted at Biz saying to not really help out with the marathon since i was helping and Biz agreed. I rebutted saying i wasn't getting money from it and i'm simply just helping with scheduling, no donation reading or commentating. Just scheduling. Hobz heard this and calmly suggested to Biz that it was just a misunderstanding and just to be a bit weary of it. (btw i think this is probably the best tweet to come out of that night). Biz ignored this and voiced his view that he'd rather boycott the marathon. Now while we were in TS, i said that maybe this wasn't a great idea and we should just not bother. However B-True said "no fuck that we should do it anyways" and went to bed. More stuff went down but what happened that i still think is the stupidest part of that night was that Loaf went into BBs chat and expressed his view that hates being friends with people with the "A-Team and B-Team". This caused BB to kick off and get mad/sad that people were using A Team and B Team as a term. Obviously fingers pointed to me but I did attempt to tell BB when he joined the discord that we were in that when i rejoined the TS back in August, this was a term that was being thrown around. Which by the way is true. It may or may not have started because of my rejoin or not. But the fact that it was being thrown that i made the term up is wrong. I simply heard it from another community member and thought it was pretty funny. I rarely use the term though, only using it in context for talking about people which i guess is a pretty shitty way of explaining things but it was much easier. Sorry. So we cleared things up with BB (i doubted he thought that) and we all went on to work on the marathon by ourselves.

So we bring ourselves to around a week later, things had barely calmed down. I remained calm on twitter and didn't say much, only keeping my venting in the TS we were apart of. It was until people were using terms such as "we and our" when talking about the marathon. I cracked and said it was fucking stupid that people were claiming a marathon that had nothing to do with them has their own. I stupidly claimed the marathon as mine and Sly got angry at me for it but i apologised to him and said i was very regretful for that tweet. Which i was, i didn't want to complain that someone was stealing our marathon and then steal the marathon. Then one day while i was streaming 1.5 for like 8 hours (this was the stream i did the epic reading in) and B-True said "Gold do a me a big favour and not check twitter for the next hour or so" but because i was oddly curious i saw people retweeting a pastebin by Biz that was "informing everyone on the marathon". This pastebin caused people to come to my stream and post it the pastebin link and spam it (these people were very clearly Biz's viewers). This pastebin as you are probably aware was full of malice and hatred towards me from Biz. This pastebin contained 5 points regarding things i had done in the year i was in the community. 2 of these points were true, 2 of these points were untrue and 1 of the points was very, how do i put this. Petty? The points that were true were the points on leaving Hobz at the Airport and the VoltEditzz drama. I will get to leaving Hobz at the airport later cause i have alot to say on that. But the Volteditzz drama i have two rebuttals and one apology. The first rebuttal is that this drama isn't very relevant anymore because Volteditzz ended up being a fuckhead regardless and got kicked out of the X-Keepers. The other rebuttal is that i didn't attempt to represent the KH community but more the speedrunning community, this doesn't change that much but it's a very clear difference. Alot of people in the Speedrunning Community (some being KH members) agreed with my views on Volt and that he should off made it clear that he couldn't use a timer due to being on a Mac instead of having "pls donate to me" in big words all over his stream. The apology is any representation of the KH Community i gave off. I wasn't big apart or rarely interacted with anyone around that time since it wasn't that long after i got banned so i didn't really blink an eye about any damage that would do to the KH Community. So i apologise to everyone and to Biz for giving off that representation and sorry to Biz for having to clean up the mess after. (I totally deserved that ban, i agree)

The two untrue points were the "Banning of BigBadCloud and The Drama in the 1st KH Marathon". Now i will start with the BigBadCloud banning. Now for those unaware, Bigbadcloud is a very, how do i put this nicely, challenged? person. He came into a lobby we were in while we were discussing AGDQ and he very loudly breathed into his mic and said "what is AGDQ". He then left the Lobby and Sonic brought up the point that he should banned from TS cause he doesn't run anything and isn't a very smart person. Alot of people agreed (i had a mutual opinion since i didn't really know the dude) and we thinking about ways to tell him he's banned. This discussion went on for about 10 minutes and it got a little bit annoying so i PM the guy on TS and said that we would like to speak to him. Everyone panicked and FFVIILionHeart said "Cloud you're banned" and Sonic banned him (something Sly can back me up on since he witnessed this as well). Everyone got confused to why he came in so suddenly so i told them that i told him to come in so they could sort it out. This caused everyone to point the finger at me and blame me later on when the dude contemplated suicide. Yeah i shouldn't have just told the dude to come in, but to be honest if you were in my position. You would have gotten pretty annoyed that they wouldn't come up with a solution to ban him. I take responsibility for telling him to come into the lobby. Not for telling him he's banned. The other drama is half true and half untrue but i would say its more untrue. The true parts is Yes, i did give misinformed commentary for the 2FM Crit. It was not my intention to take over any commentary and I have my reasons for "helping" with the commentary. The first reason is i saw that other donation readers and restreamers were helping with the commentary. Yeah they were way more informed, but i'm stupid and can't take a hint so i took this as a cool idea. The other reason was because in a previous run i was donation reading for (Whites KH2 Beginner run) he asked me to explain a few strats since he knew that i ran the game and i happily did and there was no groaning or making other commentators mad so i thought i did a pretty good job and thought it would be neat to help with the other commentary i was gonna be in for. The whole "Adam wanted to kick me" is more than likely true, i trust Biz's word on that but saying i was "trolling the chat" and "telling people to not watch" is very misinformed because i either did it in a joking manner or there was a different context. Cause i can tell you with my hand on my heart that I wanted people to watch the marathon, not turn them away, because i mean come on. These are people giving me well over $1000. You think i'm just gonna tell people "fuck off it's pretty shit in here". I can tell you two instances i can remember where i told people from /srg/ to fuck off since they had no reason to be there and troll the chat and when people came into shit on the layout, you know the kind off "don't like what we are doing? don't watch it. simple as".
Those are my rebuttals. My apologies are to Rizz, Adam and BB. Apologies to Rizz because man, it was pretty fucking obvious he was the mad commentator. He had to correct me multiple times and It did get pretty annoying when i watched back, i have to admit. Apologies to Adam for giving him the wrong idea on what i was trying to imply for the marathon. The guy is super chill and already had to do so much shit to put on the marathon so having him put up with that is pretty dumb on my part. Sorry dude. and the last apologies to BB because it was his runs that i was doing the annoying commentary so yeah sorry man, runs were still good though.

The "petty" one is my banning from the first TS. The reason i call it petty is because the only person that got annoyed at my controller being loud was Rizz and that was all there was. Saying that was a reason for me getting banned is a lie since Tack never experienced that. Now onto Tack. I don't want disclose everything that went down in that Skype conversation i have with him, but i will say that we had an agreement that the initial reason he banned me wasn't ~really my fault~ but he still agreed that i did play a major part regardless. He actually found this out very quickly after banning me but kept me banned due to a personal thing against me (i once joined his lobby while he was muted and blew a noise thing into my mic, pretty stupid i know, it was a dare. still doesn't justify it i know). I talked to him and he agreed that if i asked people on TS if they wished to have me back then he would agree to unban me. I did a mass messaging and the response was high as hell. Even Tack was surprised. We agreed on the mutual term that i should ask everyone before joining just incase people didn't want me in. I kept up this rule for the first couple days but i asked if it's cool i didn't do that since everyone agreed regardless and everyone agreed. The only 2 people that got pretty mad at this was KHFan and Sonic. KHFan quickly got over it and we became slight friends again and Sonic just stayed silent about it but i know he was complaining about it. (honestly Sonic stop doing that. if i annoy you like that. TELL ME. I do listen to you and I did treat you with respect when you around regardless if i knew you were complaining about me. I have no malice against you.) Before i was unbanned i actually got a brand new mic and it got rid of every problem anyone had about my shitty old one so i guess thats a plus?

So the reason i left the TS one for last is because before i was unbanned i was very low on my speedrunning. I was juggling games and couldn't focus on one. When i joined back to the TS. I got motivated to take on three games and get good times in them. These games are Scooby Doo N100F which i actually got WR in. 2FM CoR RTA which i managed to get 2nd Place and 1.5 Beginner. I was pretty hype to run 1.5 again and i forked out alot of saved up money to get a new SS PS3 and a 1.5 copy to finally run it properly and i grinded out runs and joined the weeklies and got really close to a sub 3 time (3:00:48 with 5 minutes of time save h o l y) but around the time the KH marathon drama started i started to lose a bit of focus and was not really finishing runs. I have no idea what my motivation is like but i guess it has to do with Communities and something i don't know man i'm still trying to figure this out myself. It's really weird but its a thing that's popped up recently because i picked up Super Metroid and got really motivated to race and run with some of the members of the Meme Team. So i'm still trying to figure out my motivation works so eh. Not really important, i'm just rambling.

Now we come to the KH Marathon 2 itself. Now before we get to everything i would to give an overall opinion. I do not regret putting this marathon on. I do not regret not dropping out to allow the people who dislike me to join and i do believe that it was a success all because we reached our goal. Now to start this, i would like to say that i did not plan to take over at all and to keep in the dark and just do my run and help where i could. So when BTrue's PC copped out on him? He threw hostership (thats not a word gold) on to me and Jamille. I nicknamed myself the vice host and Jamille took the "main host for himself". Before i get into this i would like to personally applaud Jamille. The dude juggled class, lack of sleep, restreaming and hosting of the marathon. He is a fucking trooper and defintley one of my most respected members of the community. (now when's 1.5, i need comfy Jamille streams). So we start with the dropping of TS. The TS we had used at the time went down during the weekend and we couldn't get it back up because BTrue was gone. So Sally very very VERY kindly offered up his Discord to use. I cannot thank him enough for coming to us very quickly at our time of need. He gave Me, Jamille, Sly and DJ Host roles and left us up to it. We got it all sorted and got the respective runners the invite and we finally got to the show. Since there was no BTrue to do the intro (the poor dude had a script and everything :( ). I took over to open up the Marathon with thanks to the guys that helped (+ Sephi. That guy was also a huge trooper during the marathon) and then we gave it over to Gog. Now note this, i did not submit myself to donation reading or commentary. Only for a run. I learnt my lesson. However Salad had gotten very ill during the weekend and couldn't donation read for Gog's run and we were trying to get people to take over for donation reading. Noone would take up the offer (there was like 9 of us) and i ended up giving in and taking over. Now because there was no donations at all (it was the start, what do i expect). I had nothing to read and nothing to do, i started commentating (oh no gold why) and this time i was informed because i actually had a good time and knew everything about the run. But i annoyed Pain and Gog. (Pain accepted my apology after, Gog not so much). So that was a disaster and i told everyone that if there was another donation reader that needed to step out to stop me if i say i can do it. The rest of the marathon went a bit smoother. There were some issues on restreaming and runners internets shitting on them. So i come to the next major point. The CoR RTA race. Now, i would like to say my side before i explain how wrong i was and how you should ALWAYS LISTEN TO ACE. So the CoR RTA race was in my head, "the showdown". Ace is a much more skilled player than me and we had never raced before. So i wanted to see who was the better player. The filthy glitch user or the more stable consistent runner. Ace of course didn't like the idea and said he would rather do it alone and was open to me doing commentary. I said that it would be fun and be a cool show and BTrue agreed with me (also we did have like no races so i wanted to have atleast one). But after the marathon is over and done, i can now say without a doubt.

I
SHOULD
HAVE
LISTENED
TO
ACE

Like holy shit so much went wrong. Jamille (who was restreaming) couldn't get a two player layout working and it took us 30+ minutes to get another restreamer to do said layout. The run was shit for both of us (we couldn't focus on commentary and play. something Ace warned me about) and we both went over estimate. It was a piece of shit run that me and Ace aren't proud of and it put us behind schedule and fucked up alot of scheduling. This is an awful mistake i made and i fucked up hard. Ace dude. I'm so fucking sorry if you are reading this. You are fucking amazing runner of CoR and i fucked a chance you had to show off the category. I hope one day we can actually have a proper race where we don't have to worry about the marathon setting. Again i'm super sorry dude. I will make this up to you one day. I promise that much.

The rest of the marathon was a little bit shaky after that. Because there was no BTrue we had no one to fill in on Cheat%. I had no working PS2 Controller so i couldn't run 2FM Beginner anymore and Salad became worse after staying up 11 hours for the JJ run. We came up with workarounds (I spent like 6 hours learning Cheat%, KHFan luckily asked if he could take over for 2FM which I quickly gave it to him which he respects me for and BB actually took time out of his life to learn KH2 All Worlds to take over for Salad which is very very kind of the dude and i'm glad he took over. I'm not mad he still didn't support the marathon but i'm glad he did something that nice for Salad, dude has a heart of gold sometimes).

Then came the end of the marathon. I prepped an outro after Sally's run that would pretty much explain that i was regretful for things that went wrong but glad people still had alot of fun. However Sally also fell ill during his run and instead restreamed his PB with Mist doing amazing commentary. Szinogre however fell asleep (he was restreaming) so when the run finished we couldn't do anything about it. So someone suggested hosting another person since it would cut the stream. I was a little miffed about this but looking back, what else could they do. I was like an hour away from getting home and they couldn't just stream a black screen for an hour. I got over it and instead was gonna compile my thoughts into a pastebin kinda like this one but decided not to when i found that the TS and Discord we were apart of were empty but people were still talking to each other. I quickly found that Ace had indeed made a new TS and kept me out of it. He confronted me in Twitter DMs not long after i found out and said his problems and that the marathon failed in everyones eyes. I see why they say this and things but i'll just recite what i told Ace. I believe the marathon succeeded regardless. Call me blind or foggy eyed but i believe this and one reason only. Sly got to AGDQ in the end which was our goal, we managed to get him money that he would have not gotten if he had done his own marathon. That was our only real goal because not alot of other people asked to have money to go (kinda like the year before). So thats why i believed it to be a success. I don't disagree with other's opinions that it failed because i see it but honestly the same people that disagreed. Enjoyed the marathon while it happened and that makes me happy.

Now lets get down and dirty. Lets start with the whole cause of this shit. My involvement with AGDQ last year. To put it straight. Fuck you Gold. You aren't redeeming at all. I was a cunt. I acted like a cunt. I was a complete cunt. Do i regret everything? Fuck yes. I did on the day but i obviously regret it more now. Now for those who don't know the story that has been recited over 1000 times. I got told by my parents on the 27th of December that i was not allowed to go to AGDQ because they had not trusted anyone that i was staying over no matter how much i told them that these were "great people" and one of them was the ones i met at ESA. So i had to refund my plane ticket and my AGDQ pass (which a whole year later i never got that $50 back but i think it went to the charity anyways so w/e) and i didn't get the money back till New Years Eve. A whole 2 days before i was supposed to leave for the airport. So that gives me enough time to alert Hobz and Biz and deal with the money right? WRONG. Because Gold is fucking stupid and he is a scared little child. I decided to stay quiet because i felt like the community was gonna hate me for playing them for a month (oh how wrong i was) and i got super anxious about breaking the news. It took me two whole day's and a scolding from Hobz for making him stay in an airport for an hour (it was an hour from looking at the difference between the DMs he sent) to actually fucking admit it which is way worse than just telling them but no i had to be an idiot and just wait until the stupidest moment. After a scolding from Hobz he said that i should send him half of the donations because he was gonna donate the other $3k we got from the marathon and also buy a dinner for the community with some. So we got that sorted out and then he told me it was a bummer and that it was no skin off his back, and that i should probably notify the community. Which i did after the KH run was over at AGDQ since they were all there and i could tell them i'm sorry. I said sorry to Hobz multiple times that day but i still say now that i'm super sorry to Hobz because i did a stupid thing to one of the people i held high respect for. Like this guy offers his house, his electricity and his internet to me and i throw it in his face like an asshole. Which is not right. I don't ever expect him to forgive me. But it was cool talking to him, he was the first 1.5 runner i watched after i joined the community in 2014 so it was heartbreaking to see him act like he did in Rizz's chat during the Marathon Drama. (I understand why he acted like that again and i do believe his words were very justified. although it did hurt when he said that the runs i submitted to ESA were shitty :( ).

I wanna take a short time to talk about the Donation Money since people like GoronGuy and other Mumble Crewers like to make jokes that i stole the marathon money. What happened with the donation money was that i was given $1300 through Paypal since flights to America is FUCKING EXPENSIVE. I was also given an extra $50 to pay for the AGDQ pass. So thats $1350 in total. Lets do some math shall we? I could never get the refund on the $50 so thats back to $1300. Hobz and I came to the agreement that i gave him half to donate and use to buy Dinner for the Community and i would donate the rest. So i sent Hobz $700 and kept the remaining $600 for the donation. Due to my stupidity we lost $20 to Paypal fees and so Hobz only ended up getting $680. I was told to donate and put it towards TojiSux. There were no other requests other than those two. My donation comment was yes stupid but the apology part was more towards the runners than anyone else. I should have worded it better. But that clears up what happened with the donation money. I didn't buy anything with it, i didn't keep it for later use. It all got donated along with the rest of $5k we raised from the marathon.

Paypal Logs for proof: (sorry for Biz and Hobz's real names)
http://puu.sh/mMvNN/342fd11b68.png
http://puu.sh/mMvOK/69f71437b9.png

Now i would like to take this last bit of time to mention my friends. BTrue, Jamille, Pain, Syn, Liquid, Sally, Mist, KHFan, Salad and Rebeldragon. Why the mention of these guys? Because these guys who are consider my true friends from the community. I haven't had a single bit of malice towards any of them (except that one little bit of Drama with Liquid but hey we both got over it and he accepts me as a person). These guy's are why i still speedrun KH. Why i accepted it when Ace told me "you aint allowed on the TS, sorry bud". I didn't kick off because these guys would have to deal with it like they dealt with my shit for the marathon. I let BTrue down for being too shallow during the drama. I let Jamille down for forcing a bunch of host stuff on him. I let Pain down by interrupting him during commentary. I let Syn down cause i said that i wouldn't do any major drama again. I let Liquid and Sally down because the Marathon was a failure. I let Mist down because i caused drama that he didn't want to be apart of again. I let KHFan down because i was the only other runner of 2FM and i had a bit of respect from him. I let Salad down because Rebel and I were his inspiration to get back into KH2 Beginner and get the WR and I let Rebel down because he's like the nicest guy on the TS and had to put up with Marathon Drama.

So i'm sorry to my friends. I know i didn't include alot of people that were on my side during the drama but that's because I had the feeling that once it was over they would turn to the other side. So i'm sorry if i didn't include you. (also people that are in the community but barely run/don't run anymore like Silver, Yulf, Kara etc). Know that i have respect for you just because you didn't partake in the drama either cause you weren't around are better than that.

I'm not gonna write a final paragraph about how i'm a changed person. Cause i'm not. I'm a drama whore till the end of time and I won't be able to shake that name even i tried. So i will say this. I don't want things to be different from how they are now. I don't want people to moan and groan on twitter cause i'm a starting drama again. I don't want to beg to be let on the TS because everyone is happy without me there and i can accept that like a mature person. I have friends like The Meme Team and I have Sally's/Liquids discord to talk to my remaining friends in the community. I'm not saying i don't need the TS. But rather, it's not required for me anymore. I can accept that people don't want me around because it makes them happier. I want my friends to be happy where they are and not to ruin it for them again. I'm sure Ace is a really good host and who knows, maybe in a couple years or so i will have redeemed myself a little to warrant an invite on. Maybe or maybe not. I just want people to be happy and i'm okay with not being there if it makes them happy with it.

and now lastly i would like to write personal things about people from the community. These are probably my final thoughts because this pastebin is fucking huge but i need to get this out otherwise i just end up looking like a sham forever.

BB- I understand how you feel about me, you can loathe me all you want. Just keep smiling is what i say. I know 1.5 is rough on you and you get sick to death of it. But keep smiling. It's how i got through these last 2 months without kicking out against the community. If you keep smiling and not take things with a grain of salt that you can be better than you already are. Regardless of the ban in your chat, i still watch you because god damn, your FM streams are comfy and i actually fall asleep watching them sometimes. So dude. Keep being you and just keep smiling. (P.S your Singing voice is fucking amazing and i'm jealous cause i was shit at Choir) (P.P.S. Try not to get into anymore shit with the X-Keepers, having a target on your back is not fun)

Biz- Same as above. I know how you feel about me and you can stay that way about me. I'm not gonna change your mind but please, don't blame others for my actions. BTrue and the others weren't defending me because they think i deserved a second chance, because they were around when most of the Me drama went down. They defended me cause i am their friend. I'm again sorry for the mess you had to clean up after the Volteditzz thing. I don't watch you as much but that tournament race we did was one of my favourite moments in speedrunning if you take away some of the salt. Keep being a trooper for harder categories and for you chat. :)

Rizz- Like above. You can hate me like you have done since i started running KH. But i just wanted to say i still watch you regardless because i mean you are the WR holder for 2FM Beginner and your stream can get super comfy sometimes. Sometimes i wish that i could actually get good at 2FM just be as great as you but i guess i got another couple years of experience ahead of me. Keep going for those goals nerd.

Hobz- I've already stated in my apologies above how much i feel bad for fucking you over big time. I'm not gonna recite the apologies again cause i've said them too many times. But i just want to let you know regardless. I still respect you and you will go down as one of the people that got me into running 1.5 when i said i would never run it. Thanks for the help you gave me when you still liked me and GL with the Zetris Bopping and also i'm looking forward to the day you tackle 2FM.

Zetris- Your AGDQ run was amazing and it makes me sad to think that you don't like me but I don't blame you or others. I did try to use your mentality of "just speedrun and don't care about the drama" but that didn't work all that well for me so *shrug*

Kiwi- I apologise to you for calling you a hoe and other such names but I really didn't like you attacking how I look and how I sound. I know i'm a big baby and i throw tantrums and throw my toy's out of the pram when i don't get my way, but getting constantly belittled about it got a little nerve wracking. The only thing else i can say to you is don't go heavy into KH and Smash drama. It has pissed off a few other's that i've talked to that aren't even in the KH community. I really respect you as a Smash player though and you are quite talented with a pen and pixel art. Sorry i have nothing else to say.

Liquid- Thank you. Thank you alot for accepting me as a impromtu friend. Even if you still have a little bit of malice towards me. You hide it very well and you have grown so much and gotten so good at your games that i am really proud of you for it. Your stream will always be a great one for me and even when your chat gets pretty shit, it's still a great environment to be around. Don't change you nerd.

Sephiroth- You are so encouraging it hurts when things fail. You encouraged the Marathon so hard and tried to change some peoples minds on it and you try so hard at JJ 100% and now you are working on a relay and trying balance looking for jobs and a relationship AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HOW THE FUCK DO YOU STAY SO POSITIVE. I DON'T GET IT. I gave you credit during the marathon intro for being super encouraging and you are still encouraging now. I really do hope the KH Relay goes well. I already signed up for a run so we'll see how it goes.

Pain- You are my nigga. Excuse the language. You are always nice to me no matter how many times we insult each other. You are always super chill about stuff and you are always accepting of me joining things. I wish i could speak to you more (which we probably can now that Sally's Discord is public) and i really look forward to getting better at 1.5 and racing you.

BTrue- The best for last. You are like a big teddy bear, that swears alot, and used to have a beard......where am i going with this? Oh yeah. You are super encouraging. You are always my friend no matter what. You commit to alot of things and you always tell hilarious stories. I wish i could speak to you more but your heart is where the community is and i respect that alot. I'm sorry for letting you down because of the marathon homie.

That is all i have to say for now. Have a great 2016 :)



TL;DR Version.
The marathon was a group idea to help Sly get to AGDQ
I originally named it the YaBoyBTeam Marathon to show that it was supposed to just us "B Teamers"
I got convinced to allow others to join and call it the KH Marathon 2
There was a poor reaction
BB kicked off about the A Team/B Team shit
I didn't come up with the A Team/B Team and admit to using it on very rare occasions
Biz made a pastebin regarding the drama
Biz's fans raided my stream that was on for 8 hours beforehand with the pastebin link
Biz's Pastebin was partially wrong
I don't regret the Volteditzz drama because he was giving speedrunning a bad name
I do regret however giving off that i was representing the KH community rather than the speedrunning community.
I apologised for acting like a dumbass during the marathon and that i was unaware Adam wanted me off.
I apologise to BB and Rizz for giving uninformed commentary and i don't expect forgiveness
The Bigbadcloud drama was only partially me.
Getting back on TS was a decision made by Tack due to a couple reasons
When i got unbanned from TS i gained alot of speedrunning motivation and got good times in some games
BTrues PC blew up and TS went down before the Marathon went up
The marathon started out rocky and Me and Jamille were given host and vice host.
I should have listened to Ace about the CoR RTA race being a bad idea and i regret all of it.
The rest of the marathon after that was shaky
The end of the marathon was out of control due to two ill runners and a sleeping restreamer
I got mad when i couldn't do an outro but got over when i realised there was nothing they could have done
I'm glad people enjoyed the marathon even if they label it a failure
I believe the marathon was a success since we got Sly to AGDQ to have fun with everyone
In the end i should have just stopped letting my Ego get in the way and dropped out so good people could have joined
Not telling Hobz when i had 2 whole days to tell him is one of my biggest regrets in my life ever and i apologise greatly for it
I understand why Hobz acted so shittly during the Marathon Drama.
I did not steal the donation money regardless of who say's i did.
I'd like to thank my friends who have remained my friends regardless of the shit.
I'm sorry for letting said friends down.
I don't want to change things how they are because everyone is happier this way plus i have my own place to talk to people now.
I don't need or require to be on TS. I accepted that i'm not welcome. Which is a mature thing to do.
It's better if i just speedrun like i have been and not bother people and maybe in a couple years i will be mature enough to be let on.
Personal Apologies and Thoughts on Runners.
Enjoy 2016 everyone :)