State of me

State of me, 6/17/2017

Some people have probably noticed I haven't streamed much, or been myself, or whatever. I guess I'm fine.

There are a certain few who have been shitty to me or annoying to me, and it's been annoying me more than usual.
I really haven't wanted to do much lately, speedrunning and streaming-wise, since it's getting harder and harder to care. There are games I want to learn, but just don't feel like putting forth the effort to do so. I'm getting more excited to go look for garage sales and flea markets than anything, so that's getting in the way. There's also Forbidden Memories.

I'm doing the FM tournament, even though the game sucks and I get runs that should be fast that don't finish, 'cause seeds. And certain people in the community are being shitters and it's frustrating me even being on the server. I like talking in the discord call for races, but other than that, fucking hate it. And sadly, it's the only game I've been doing anything with lately. There's Destruction Derby Raw stuff I could do, but I haven't felt like it. I got Dark Duel Stories for Game Boy Color, which I'm going to learn, but I just need to do it. And, I have no intentions of going back to Gran Turismo until there's more interest from people learning it and doing runs. Pac-Man: Joe still needs to bop me, which he will.

This has nothing to do with the state of me, but my brother moved out last week and my cats have been kinda sad, I think. Him moving out didn't really do much for me, but thought I might as well say that.

My PS2 has been being shitty, as seen on the last FM race, where I attempt to fix it. My shell is cracked in the middle where the right peg meets the case to tell the disc tray it's closed, then the notch where the power button is won't stay down, and has been being loose when I play it. That means, the tray "opens" when it's not, 'cause the case is shit. I kinda fixed it for now, but gonna have to either buy a new PS2 or a new case, eventually. I'm doing Summerbash on the 24th (Crash Bash 200% race), and hoping the console will stay together the whole time, until I quit the run.

I still don't have a job also. I'm a worthless piece of shit. So, nothing new there.

If I offended anyone in the past whatever the fuck, that sucks. I'm not someone who takes back what I say, so it is what it is.