update

december 25, 2020

i am happy.  i can actually say this and really mean it for probably the first time ever.

if you're reading this then i assume you either don't know what happened to me, or you feared the worst and still worry about me.  to anyone who i made worry, i am sorry.  i wrote my goodbye letter too quickly and it left a very poor message that got me into trouble personally as well.

none of that matters anymore though.  i am okay.  i've had a lot of things happen in the last 8 and a half months.  but i am finally in a position where i can be happy, and i definitely feel like everything is adequate in my life, and i am happy for real.

i'll come back to these accounts when i am ready.  i don't think i am ready yet.  but everything is okay with me and things are much better than they have been in a very long time.

thank you to my best friends, mainly rose, for staying here and allowing me an environment where i can recover, you've helped me so much.

and yes i have read every message i've received and i appreciate all the kind words and people trying to check on me.  i love you all and don't deserve any of you.  i'm sorry again for disappearing but it was definitely the correct decision.

this is getting too long so i'll end it here.  feel free to try and contact me if you want to talk but i'll probably be very infrequent with responses as i don't check my accounts too often.  i'll be back around at some point, so thank you to anyone who still remembers me.  <3

~ Decon (Catgirl)