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You ready?

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I'm gonna plug it in.

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- Ready?
- Yup.

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- Good night.
- Good night.

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I appreciate it
very much.

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Oh, you're very,
very welcome.

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Blackie.
Want some food? Come on.

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Good boy.

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Sit. Sit.

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God bless this little guy,
amen. Okay.

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Hello?

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Yeah, next Friday,

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- I gotta go in towards town.
- Yeah.

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I'm having a hard
time rounding up a ride

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with somebody that
has a clean vehicle.

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I was wondering if you wasn't
doin' anything next Friday,

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if you had time,
if you'd be able

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- to give me a ride in there.
- Okay.

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And have you already sort
of cased the parking lot

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and things like that?

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Do you know that you can
get in the building?

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No, I don't know.

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Hi, my name's Susan Malloy,
and I'm taking a friend

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to the doctor's to see
Dr. Peterson on Friday the 12th.

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For what?
Peterson?

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Yes,
do you remember off-hand

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when your pest-control
company comes?

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Uh, our pest control?
No, I have no idea.

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How can I find out?

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About the maintenance schedule
and pest control schedule?

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Uh, hold on.

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He comes the first
of every month.

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Okay, that's good
for our purposes.

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Yup.

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Okay, and that's
the pest-control guy?

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- Yes.
- All right.

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Do you know if he's treating
for ants

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or anything in particular?

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He's just treating
for everything.

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Like some kind
of broad spectrum?

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Okay.
How about carpet shampoo?

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I'm not sure, hold on.

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I don't know how
long it normally takes

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for people to get
significantly better.

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You know, what do
people normally do?

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Get out of the line of fire.

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Figure out what is
triggering her symptoms

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and get it out of the house.

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There are a surprising
number of people here

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who found out once
they get rid of some

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of the chemical exposures.

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What seems to really hurt
is electronic equipment.

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You know, computers
and routers and cellphones

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and things like that.

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Okay, I'll tell her that.

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We're trying
as much as we can.

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Out of where?

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I know, sweetie.

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I don't, um...

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I don't have any miracles.
I wish I did.

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First saved voice message.

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Hi, Susan,
this is Jamal from the STC.

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You can do a Google search
on STC radio frequency safety

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and from reading that,
there does seem to be

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a rule making that might
be currently underway

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so there might be
an opportunity to submit

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feedback in that rule making.

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Their dad's a musician,
and they grew up...

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like, he wasn't around
after the first few years

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but they grew up
around music with me

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and him and just sort of...

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uh, it's just kind of
part of us.

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I really just usually
am feeling melancholy,

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and I pick up the guitar,
and I'm usually...

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I'm mining that vein,
you know?

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That's Nathan
playing his guitar.

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They were more functional,
you know, a while back.

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Ah, let's see, these were
made when we were living

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in San Mateo
and probably about the time

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they moved over, maybe.

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Well, that was Karen.

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Must've been
something funny going on.

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I don't know what.

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This is when they were leaving,
how optimistic they were.

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So are we forgetting anything?

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It's a short one today
so, uh... there's water,

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and then there's
lettuce, banana.

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12 quarts of juice.

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You hang on to the fact that God
has promised to take care of us.

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You know, I've talked
to the pastors

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at different times about this,
you know, and one'll say,

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"Well, some things you
can't fix," you know.

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He said, "Well, you just
gotta draw a line in the sand

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and do nothing."

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And I said,
"That's not an option."

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I think it's a birthday
greetings of some sort.

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Uh-huh.
39, getting up there.

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Did she do
a drawing?

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Uh, somebody did.

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Thank you.

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Karen was only 17
when she really became ill.

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She would react rather
severely to certain things,

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but she couldn't really pinpoint
it, what it was, you know.

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She was ill when she was
carrying Sam and Nathan.

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I guess they just absorbed
the problem from her.

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The doctors said they
should get someplace

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where it would be
healthier to be.

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She should go where it's
cleaner and drier air,

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and they knew about Arizona,
so that's why they came over.

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I sold my place
over in California, you know.

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When I did that, we had
the resource to do the house.

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And now they've had
trouble with neighbors

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and spraying
and stuff like that.

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I guess
it's been 20 years ago

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that they actually got really...

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had to be in bed a lot,
you know.

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And that's
half their life, you know?

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She hasn't allowed
people to go in.

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You wonder
when it's gonna turn around

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and do a little better,
you know?

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Yes, I need to
refill prescriptions.

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I do.

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Okay,
there are three of them,

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and they're all
for Joe Fasciulo.

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F as in Frank,

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A, S as in Sam.

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I don't know
how to tell you to prepare

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for this show
you're gonna see.

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I am so
entertainment deprived.

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It'll be like "The Ed Sullivan
show" right there.

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I don't get to see
my granddaughters very often

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so just to get
to see them is...

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I'm gonna go down
there without my mask

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I just want them
to remember me...

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without the mask.

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Yup.

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They're not
bothered by the mask.

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I'm bothered
that they'd point at me.

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They don't point at you.

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You know they do.

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They point at you?

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They point at the mask.

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Well, okay, they do.

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If something's gonna
hurt me a little bit

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I'm gonna have to
make a sacrifice.

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I'm gonna choose to do
it when they're here.

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You get pretty good when
you're around them.

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I know, 'cause I don't
want them to see this.

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Jojo!

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Hi, Mimi Rue.

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How are you?

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I bet you like my
sister's piggy tails?

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Your sister
has piggy tails?

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You gonna go see Jojo?

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Oh...

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They're just like
"Pick 'em up Joe."

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Look at those pigtails.
I haven't seen that before.

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Say,
"They're gettin' long."

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Here, Joe, sit here.

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- No, I'll stay over here.
- Okay.

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? One little monkey
swingin' from a tree ?

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? Teasin' Mr. Alligator,
can't catch me

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? Oh, came Mr. Alligator,
quiet as can be

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? He snapped that monkey
right out of that tree ?

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Gonna come play
castle with us?

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Oh, right here.

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Oh, here's the fence.

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With this?

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Watching them play is what
I would normally do, you know?

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Okay.
Hm, how does it go?

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I forgot.

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What do you want?
Do you want this?

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Yeah, I do, I'm sorry.

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Oh, this is
a new experience, isn't it?

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I'm sorry, people.

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The girls don't
seem to mind, do you?

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Chloe, is that good?

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? The wheels on
the bus for round and round ?

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? All through the town ?

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? The wipers on the bus
go swish, swish, swish ?

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? Swish, swish, swish,
swish, swish, swish ?

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? The wipers on the bus
go swish, swish, swish ?

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? In our house ?

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? Babies on
the bus go wah, wah, wah ?

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? Wah, wah, wah,
wah, wah, wah ?

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? The babies on
the bus go wah, wah, wah ?

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? All through the town ?

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? The mamas
on the bus go shh, shh, shh ?

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? Shh, shh, shh,
shh, shh, shh ?

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? The mamas on
the bus go shh, shh, shh ?

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? All through the town ?

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- Did Jojo go upstairs?
- Shh.

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Shh, he's sleeping.

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Did he go night night?

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He's not sitting
on the stairs, we can show you.

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Here Remy, look,
he's not right here.

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- He went to bed.
- He went to bed. See?

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Say "night night."

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Good night.

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This radio is an
at-home way to figure out

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if any electrical
appliance is spewing out

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electromagnetic fields.

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You want one
that's real staticky

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and gets between stations.

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There's nothing magic
about it.

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It's usually enough
if I can find out,

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"Hm, that's a really
serious emitter."

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And then unplug it.

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Get it?

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Hi.

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I... I hope you're Delaney.

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- I am, yeah.
- Hi.

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Hi, good to meet you.
Hey, buddy.

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Yeah, this is Blackie.

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I love your shoes!

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Oh, thank you.

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Where would
you like to sit?

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Um, well... let me see.

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You can sit
with Blackie on the bed.

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- Uh-huh.
- You can have a chair...

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I'll just sit here,
and when we talk,

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maybe we can rearrange
a little bit,

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but for now,
this is good.

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Your coat smells
like cigarettes.

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- Does it?
- Yeah.

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- Okay, I'll take it off.
- That'd be nice, thanks.

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Okay, um, where
should I leave it?

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- Outside on that chair.
- Okay.

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Delaney do
you like ginger better

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or coffee better or both?

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- Um, coffee sounds great.
- Okay.

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- I still smell cigarettes.
- Okay.

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Um... what would
you like me to do?

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- I'm not quite sure.
- Okay.

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Do you know if it might
be on your clothes or hair?

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Well, I don't smoke,
so it would be coming

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from the environment,
I guess.

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If you wanna smell me,
that's fine.

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Maybe you have a social life
and you get to go out

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around people who smoke.

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I'm gonna get close
to you for just a sec, okay?

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Sure.

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Shirt.

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- It's the blouse, maybe.
- Okay.

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Do you mind if I give you
something else to wear?

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- No, not at all.
- Okay.

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Here, this might
be a good start.

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Great, thank you.

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Okay.

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00:23:13,298 --> 00:23:15,801
I really like your shoes.

252
00:23:19,005 --> 00:23:20,803
Could you just
introduce yourself

253
00:23:20,805 --> 00:23:24,207
and talk a little bit
about who you are?

254
00:23:24,209 --> 00:23:28,312
My name's Susan Malloy
and 1992, '94,

255
00:23:28,314 --> 00:23:31,549
was when I first...
moved here,

256
00:23:31,551 --> 00:23:33,751
lock, stock,
and barrel as they'd say.

257
00:23:33,753 --> 00:23:36,820
And I'd been living in
the San Francisco Bay area

258
00:23:36,822 --> 00:23:39,857
for a long time before
that for graduate school

259
00:23:39,859 --> 00:23:41,592
and to work on projects.

260
00:23:41,594 --> 00:23:43,259
Could you
sort of describe the day

261
00:23:43,261 --> 00:23:47,197
or the night
when it all hit you?

262
00:23:47,199 --> 00:23:52,835
Oh, I was with friends,
and I'd had plenty of exposures

263
00:23:52,837 --> 00:23:54,804
to all kinds of things,

264
00:23:54,806 --> 00:23:56,974
but I didn't really think
much of it.

265
00:23:56,976 --> 00:24:01,447
And that night, I felt this
just bizarre feeling in my head.

266
00:24:03,149 --> 00:24:07,554
And my sinuses and the palate
of my mouth and my throat,

267
00:24:08,988 --> 00:24:10,821
all swelled closed.

268
00:24:10,823 --> 00:24:14,691
That was the beginning,
that was the first of many

269
00:24:14,693 --> 00:24:16,960
emergency room visits.

270
00:24:16,962 --> 00:24:20,663
It can be your food,
it can be mold in the bathtub,

271
00:24:20,665 --> 00:24:23,667
it can be anything that
you're sensitive to.

272
00:24:23,669 --> 00:24:26,169
In my case it was chemical.

273
00:24:26,171 --> 00:24:30,006
And soon I found out about
electrical problems, too.

274
00:24:30,008 --> 00:24:31,842
Cleaning products
were impossible.

275
00:24:31,844 --> 00:24:34,078
I learned to use baking soda
for almost everything.

276
00:24:34,080 --> 00:24:38,349
And when I got here,
I didn't have any choice

277
00:24:38,351 --> 00:24:41,251
but to notice I could
walk pretty well.

278
00:24:41,253 --> 00:24:43,019
My gait changed.

279
00:24:43,021 --> 00:24:45,389
My speech cleared up a lot.

280
00:24:45,391 --> 00:24:48,659
I had to admit I felt
a lot better down here

281
00:24:48,661 --> 00:24:51,897
and I had to take
it real seriously.

282
00:25:03,642 --> 00:25:06,877
I got this book.
You know Rush Limbaugh?

283
00:25:06,879 --> 00:25:08,978
He's written this
children's book.

284
00:25:08,980 --> 00:25:10,747
Very interesting.

285
00:25:10,749 --> 00:25:12,649
It's a history
of our country,

286
00:25:12,651 --> 00:25:17,955
and it's... written to children
to show them

287
00:25:17,957 --> 00:25:20,924
how this country's began
and all the pilgrims,

288
00:25:20,926 --> 00:25:23,296
so it's really interesting.

289
00:25:24,830 --> 00:25:26,362
- Hey, Sam!
- Yeah?

290
00:25:26,364 --> 00:25:29,932
- Can you see this?
- Um, yeah.

291
00:25:32,371 --> 00:25:34,007
Isn't that funny?

292
00:25:38,978 --> 00:25:40,246
Wow.

293
00:25:43,415 --> 00:25:46,216
I'm just reading the part
where he's time traveled

294
00:25:46,218 --> 00:25:48,986
back to the Mayflower.

295
00:25:48,988 --> 00:25:51,388
- Huh?
- I'm just reading the part

296
00:25:51,390 --> 00:25:53,424
where they time travel
back to the Mayflower.

297
00:25:53,426 --> 00:25:56,192
Oh, who...
who's traveling?

298
00:25:56,194 --> 00:25:59,263
Well, he's substituting
as a history teacher at school.

299
00:25:59,265 --> 00:26:00,698
Uh-huh.

300
00:26:00,700 --> 00:26:03,434
And so they go on the horse
back in time

301
00:26:03,436 --> 00:26:05,436
to visit all these
different things.

302
00:26:05,438 --> 00:26:06,969
So he's
going back in time?

303
00:26:06,971 --> 00:26:09,305
Yeah.

304
00:26:09,307 --> 00:26:11,074
The horse talks,

305
00:26:11,076 --> 00:26:14,210
and the horse can disappear
if it wants to.

306
00:26:14,212 --> 00:26:15,514
Okay.

307
00:26:18,183 --> 00:26:20,417
It's a good book.

308
00:26:20,419 --> 00:26:23,056
- Did he write it himself?
- Yeah.

309
00:26:28,460 --> 00:26:30,194
That's pretty heavy.

310
00:26:30,196 --> 00:26:32,463
It is heavy,
what happened?

311
00:26:42,807 --> 00:26:46,275
I'm still
doing this at 96.

312
00:26:46,277 --> 00:26:49,979
And there's Sam and Nathan
that their mom is there

313
00:26:49,981 --> 00:26:53,318
to depend on but she won't
always be there, either.

314
00:26:59,491 --> 00:27:02,825
I sometimes feel like I've
helped them to their doom

315
00:27:02,827 --> 00:27:05,496
is how I feel sometimes,
you know.

316
00:27:05,498 --> 00:27:09,067
Which I can't tell
them that, of course.

317
00:27:13,838 --> 00:27:16,340
Cows versus trains, cows.

318
00:27:16,342 --> 00:27:17,507
Oh.

319
00:27:17,509 --> 00:27:19,442
Bartle Hall versus Nelson.

320
00:27:19,444 --> 00:27:21,013
Nelson.

321
00:27:22,782 --> 00:27:23,947
Yeah.

322
00:27:23,949 --> 00:27:26,516
- Do you want company?
- Huh?

323
00:27:26,518 --> 00:27:28,552
Do you want company?

324
00:27:28,554 --> 00:27:30,088
Yeah.

325
00:27:42,267 --> 00:27:45,671
Oh, I'm picking up
some fragrance from you.

326
00:27:49,575 --> 00:27:52,176
Let me see what it is.

327
00:27:52,178 --> 00:27:56,313
I think it's that.
Let me see this.

328
00:27:56,315 --> 00:27:58,881
Just zip it.

329
00:27:58,883 --> 00:28:00,551
I think you're fine like that.

330
00:28:00,553 --> 00:28:02,788
I'm actually gonna
put my hoodie on.

331
00:28:13,966 --> 00:28:16,566
It might not be a bad idea
with the filters kicked down.

332
00:28:16,568 --> 00:28:18,070
Okay.

333
00:28:30,615 --> 00:28:33,550
The easiest way to relate
is that he has

334
00:28:33,552 --> 00:28:36,320
really bizarre food
allergies or, you know,

335
00:28:36,322 --> 00:28:38,589
he's allergic to everything.

336
00:28:38,591 --> 00:28:42,024
But that doesn't
really sum up...

337
00:28:42,026 --> 00:28:43,427
what's going on.

338
00:28:43,429 --> 00:28:45,963
But that's what
people understand.

339
00:28:45,965 --> 00:28:48,497
We weren't ever having
someone's, you know...

340
00:28:48,499 --> 00:28:51,133
the medical community
say it's in his head.

341
00:28:51,135 --> 00:28:53,370
We never had anybody
say that.

342
00:28:53,372 --> 00:28:57,006
However, nobody could
really validate other...

343
00:28:57,008 --> 00:28:59,243
not that it wasn't in his
head or was in his head,

344
00:28:59,245 --> 00:29:01,378
but they couldn't
validate physically

345
00:29:01,380 --> 00:29:04,514
what was going on with him
because the unknown

346
00:29:04,516 --> 00:29:06,617
is just so hard.

347
00:29:06,619 --> 00:29:08,485
You know, it'd be a
lot easier if you knew

348
00:29:08,487 --> 00:29:10,621
that it was gonna
end and, you know,

349
00:29:10,623 --> 00:29:12,622
just not knowing
"Is this ever gonna end?"

350
00:29:12,624 --> 00:29:15,324
And I think that's
where we all kind of are

351
00:29:15,326 --> 00:29:16,959
right now 'cause it
certainly has changed

352
00:29:16,961 --> 00:29:20,198
the family dynamics a lot.

353
00:29:26,305 --> 00:29:28,639
He had had a lot
of blood in his stool

354
00:29:28,641 --> 00:29:31,541
and went to our
family doctor here

355
00:29:31,543 --> 00:29:35,314
who had a colonoscopy ordered,
and they couldn't find anything.

356
00:29:36,981 --> 00:29:40,217
Then he started
having trouble at work

357
00:29:40,219 --> 00:29:42,285
with his colleagues.

358
00:29:42,287 --> 00:29:44,655
Their personal hygiene,
their shampoos,

359
00:29:44,657 --> 00:29:47,024
things like that.

360
00:29:47,026 --> 00:29:50,326
He would notice more
blood in his stools.

361
00:29:50,328 --> 00:29:52,963
His feet and his hands
tingling,

362
00:29:52,965 --> 00:29:55,902
having a really bad headache,
being nauseated all the time.

363
00:30:00,139 --> 00:30:02,505
And I'm starting
to see the correlation.

364
00:30:02,507 --> 00:30:05,108
Whether it's changing
the oil in the car

365
00:30:05,110 --> 00:30:08,480
or painting a room,
you flare up.

366
00:30:09,981 --> 00:30:12,181
And we've really
protected him

367
00:30:12,183 --> 00:30:15,686
against these
chemical sensitives.

368
00:30:15,688 --> 00:30:19,255
But you can't protect
him against, you know,

369
00:30:19,257 --> 00:30:20,957
all the electronics.

370
00:30:20,959 --> 00:30:22,694
He can feel it.

371
00:30:28,100 --> 00:30:33,102
He's pretty isolated,
pretty solitary in what he does.

372
00:30:33,104 --> 00:30:34,705
He's out there
walking just to get

373
00:30:34,707 --> 00:30:38,608
out of the house so that
we can turn on the furnace,

374
00:30:38,610 --> 00:30:40,343
have the washer
and dryer running,

375
00:30:40,345 --> 00:30:43,313
get caught up on finances
so that I have to pay

376
00:30:43,315 --> 00:30:45,384
bills on the internet.

377
00:30:47,385 --> 00:30:49,721
And does he tell you about
when he walks his loops?

378
00:30:52,290 --> 00:30:57,593
He'll say loop one is for Lanie
'cause she's my one true love.

379
00:30:57,595 --> 00:31:02,733
Then when I'm halfway around,
I go, "What number am I on?"

380
00:31:02,735 --> 00:31:06,839
And then I go two,
two is for Joe and Lanie.

381
00:31:09,007 --> 00:31:10,506
Three.

382
00:31:10,508 --> 00:31:12,409
My son has three kids.

383
00:31:12,411 --> 00:31:14,413
Iso, Lucia, Remy.

384
00:31:18,217 --> 00:31:21,051
10 was Lanie's number
in high school,

385
00:31:21,053 --> 00:31:23,889
whenever she played
sports, she was number 10.

386
00:31:26,124 --> 00:31:28,624
Then I can start with Lanie
and end with Lanie,

387
00:31:28,626 --> 00:31:30,462
so I get the whole family.

388
00:31:37,068 --> 00:31:39,236
We're hoping
we get him down to Texas

389
00:31:39,238 --> 00:31:41,737
in these new little
cottages that are made

390
00:31:41,739 --> 00:31:46,543
specially for people with
chemical sensitivities and EMF.

391
00:31:46,545 --> 00:31:49,015
But I think here
we keep him...

392
00:31:50,481 --> 00:31:55,252
more engaged in life
outside of the illness.

393
00:31:55,254 --> 00:31:56,786
I'm worried that
we're gonna lose

394
00:31:56,788 --> 00:31:59,557
that influence with him
once he's down there.

395
00:32:03,796 --> 00:32:06,563
And that sounds kind of harsh,

396
00:32:06,565 --> 00:32:09,801
but I guess you have to know
what he was like before.

397
00:32:21,846 --> 00:32:23,746
Who is it?
Who do you see?

398
00:32:23,748 --> 00:32:27,052
Jojo.
Jojo.

399
00:32:30,189 --> 00:32:31,990
- Yeah.
- Yeah?

400
00:32:32,825 --> 00:32:34,660
You just see Jojo?

401
00:33:25,376 --> 00:33:28,245
For some people, they just
wanna turn back the clock

402
00:33:28,247 --> 00:33:29,778
and see if they can
get their life back

403
00:33:29,780 --> 00:33:32,882
to what it was before
they got sick, and...

404
00:33:32,884 --> 00:33:34,519
that's not possible.

405
00:33:38,623 --> 00:33:40,459
I thought I was gonna be...

406
00:33:41,459 --> 00:33:43,493
maybe an art-history
librarian,

407
00:33:43,495 --> 00:33:48,832
maybe work at a museum,
maybe get to travel more.

408
00:33:48,834 --> 00:33:51,136
I'm glad I got
to travel when I did.

409
00:33:53,372 --> 00:33:56,438
This is what I slept in
when I was in Indonesia.

410
00:33:56,440 --> 00:33:58,274
This is my blanket.

411
00:33:58,276 --> 00:34:01,012
I just love it because it
reminds of sleeping there.

412
00:34:08,520 --> 00:34:09,789
This is a beauty.

413
00:34:12,723 --> 00:34:14,257
It smells really neat.

414
00:34:14,259 --> 00:34:16,659
Sometimes I put water on it,
you know,

415
00:34:16,661 --> 00:34:19,965
and I swear,
you can still smell camel.

416
00:34:22,734 --> 00:34:27,907
And these are from a different
part of my life... you know?

417
00:34:29,908 --> 00:34:35,444
Maybe what I miss
is I had the ability

418
00:34:35,446 --> 00:34:38,616
to take risks in other
places and learn things.

419
00:34:39,884 --> 00:34:42,252
If I would've got
my wish and been able

420
00:34:42,254 --> 00:34:45,057
to be a librarian, you know
what would've happened?

421
00:34:46,658 --> 00:34:49,525
I do.

422
00:34:49,527 --> 00:34:52,562
The museum would've fumigated,

423
00:34:52,564 --> 00:34:55,464
or used preservation chemicals,

424
00:34:55,466 --> 00:34:58,268
or gotten a new carpet,

425
00:34:58,270 --> 00:35:00,904
or done construction
and built on.

426
00:35:00,906 --> 00:35:02,772
Something like that
would've happened,

427
00:35:02,774 --> 00:35:04,777
I would've got sick anyway.

428
00:35:19,323 --> 00:35:24,594
You asked me if I felt
bad about Sam and Nathan...

429
00:35:24,596 --> 00:35:26,529
but I was thinking
about that last night,

430
00:35:26,531 --> 00:35:30,900
and one of the hardest things
for me has been my mom.

431
00:35:30,902 --> 00:35:34,073
Just the effect
on her of all this.

432
00:35:36,507 --> 00:35:39,711
That's been harder for me.

433
00:35:46,718 --> 00:35:49,088
I'm just gonna say goodbye!

434
00:35:52,790 --> 00:35:54,092
You're welcome.

435
00:35:55,826 --> 00:35:58,527
Alright, love you, too!

436
00:35:58,529 --> 00:36:00,964
So I'll see you later!

437
00:36:00,966 --> 00:36:02,534
Bye.

438
00:36:03,768 --> 00:36:06,170
Give you an imaginary hug.

439
00:36:19,451 --> 00:36:22,652
Maybe you could
just elongate "lose?"

440
00:36:22,654 --> 00:36:24,821
It didn't matter to me,
which...

441
00:36:24,823 --> 00:36:29,725
It don't sound like you
totally have it ironed out.

442
00:36:29,727 --> 00:36:31,027
No, I'm gonna
give it a shot here.

443
00:36:31,029 --> 00:36:33,395
Well, it's
kind of a process.

444
00:36:39,471 --> 00:36:42,341
? Backdoor old man ?

445
00:36:44,875 --> 00:36:50,714
? Is fate
just only circumstance? ?

446
00:36:50,716 --> 00:36:55,119
? Can we find a way
to save our souls? ?

447
00:36:59,591 --> 00:37:02,661
? And save our souls ?

448
00:37:09,433 --> 00:37:12,971
? Now we're third in line ?

449
00:37:14,538 --> 00:37:17,842
? We got a little time ?

450
00:37:19,611 --> 00:37:24,983
? Cars ahead
are movin' slow ?

451
00:37:28,120 --> 00:37:31,289
? And we both know ?

452
00:37:36,527 --> 00:37:38,627
For some reason,
I had the idea that it was,

453
00:37:38,629 --> 00:37:41,630
"Is it fate
or only circumstance?"

454
00:37:41,632 --> 00:37:45,402
Yeah, we had... we didn't...
we had a couple ideas.

455
00:37:45,404 --> 00:37:47,103
Yeah I think you were saying,

456
00:37:47,105 --> 00:37:48,705
"Is fate
just only circumstance,"

457
00:37:48,707 --> 00:37:52,007
or can we, like,
do something about it?

458
00:37:52,009 --> 00:37:54,246
Can we make it a choice?

459
00:37:55,814 --> 00:37:59,716
I don't find illness that
interesting to write about

460
00:37:59,718 --> 00:38:02,484
because usually when
I'm writing, I'm writing

461
00:38:02,486 --> 00:38:05,855
from emotion and it's kind
of just the human experience.

462
00:38:05,857 --> 00:38:10,426
And so, I...
I guess I don't find

463
00:38:10,428 --> 00:38:16,199
the illness is as interesting
as I find... the...

464
00:38:16,201 --> 00:38:19,601
just the human...
the... the...

465
00:38:19,603 --> 00:38:24,140
the way it affects my soul,
I guess, or spirit or...

466
00:38:24,142 --> 00:38:27,143
and what's more interesting,
the cage or the prisoner?

467
00:38:44,196 --> 00:38:45,862
I don't see it.

468
00:38:45,864 --> 00:38:47,897
Okay, I'm gonna have
to ask him where it is

469
00:38:47,899 --> 00:38:50,632
'cause I don't see it.

470
00:38:50,634 --> 00:38:51,936
That's it.

471
00:39:29,540 --> 00:39:30,842
Yes?

472
00:39:39,750 --> 00:39:40,985
The closet?

473
00:39:42,120 --> 00:39:43,719
Yes, was it on?

474
00:39:43,721 --> 00:39:44,989
Yes.

475
00:40:10,781 --> 00:40:15,784
All he can think about now
is somebody's got a cellphone,

476
00:40:15,786 --> 00:40:18,187
how it's gonna hurt him.

477
00:40:18,189 --> 00:40:20,188
I think part of it is
he just doesn't know

478
00:40:20,190 --> 00:40:21,790
what's gonna happen.

479
00:40:21,792 --> 00:40:24,861
A lot of is that
he's really scared.

480
00:40:24,863 --> 00:40:27,062
And so it's tough
when this has never

481
00:40:27,064 --> 00:40:29,998
been our relationship before.

482
00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:33,636
It's kinda like, you know...
I said to him last weekend,

483
00:40:33,638 --> 00:40:36,605
"You have me,
but who do I have?"

484
00:40:36,607 --> 00:40:40,278
You know, 'cause he's not an
emotional support to me anymore.

485
00:40:49,053 --> 00:40:53,323
He was my rock and,
I mean, even to say

486
00:40:53,325 --> 00:40:56,692
"How was work today?"
or "What fun things went on?"

487
00:40:56,694 --> 00:41:00,129
I mean, we... those aren't even
conversations we have anymore.

488
00:41:03,667 --> 00:41:07,036
I just feel like I'm
less some mornings...

489
00:41:07,038 --> 00:41:08,507
when I talk like this.

490
00:41:12,643 --> 00:41:16,379
I just always thought if
I'm gonna say these things,

491
00:41:16,381 --> 00:41:18,246
I'm need to say 'em
to him and I can't say

492
00:41:18,248 --> 00:41:20,085
them to him anymore.

493
00:41:44,308 --> 00:41:46,875
Will anybody
give me a kiss goodbye?

494
00:41:46,877 --> 00:41:48,179
Bye-bye.

495
00:41:49,346 --> 00:41:51,115
- Bye.
- Bye.

496
00:41:54,785 --> 00:41:56,254
I love you girls.

497
00:41:57,221 --> 00:41:58,657
We love you, Jojo!

498
00:42:00,725 --> 00:42:02,125
- Love you, Jojo.
- I love you too, Joycey,

499
00:42:02,127 --> 00:42:03,260
Thank you so much.

500
00:42:06,196 --> 00:42:07,996
Do you wanna put
those supplements in here?

501
00:42:07,998 --> 00:42:09,434
That's what I was gonna do.

502
00:44:42,520 --> 00:44:44,853
You going to D.C.?

503
00:44:44,855 --> 00:44:47,422
You going to D.C. right?

504
00:44:47,424 --> 00:44:49,158
You gonna take the long train?
Just one-way?

505
00:44:49,160 --> 00:44:52,197
All right, she needs to...

506
00:48:20,171 --> 00:48:21,770
This is
our daughter, Meg.

507
00:48:21,772 --> 00:48:24,739
- You haven't met Meg.
- Hi.

508
00:48:24,741 --> 00:48:29,111
All of the Internet and TV
comes into the mechanical room

509
00:48:29,113 --> 00:48:32,480
and I can shut it off there
for people who don't want it.

510
00:48:32,482 --> 00:48:35,451
I have TV and Internet
in there right now.

511
00:48:35,453 --> 00:48:37,585
So if you want that one,
I need to shut it off

512
00:48:37,587 --> 00:48:42,190
in the mechanical room so it
doesn't come into the building.

513
00:48:42,192 --> 00:48:44,092
And this one doesn't
have it right now because

514
00:48:44,094 --> 00:48:47,129
- a person didn't want it, so...
- Okay.

515
00:48:51,768 --> 00:48:54,972
- Do you want the lights off?
- Yeah.

516
00:48:57,207 --> 00:48:58,540
You shut this off,
there's no power

517
00:48:58,542 --> 00:49:01,176
going to that
over there in the bedroom.

518
00:49:01,178 --> 00:49:03,645
Same thing with this,
you shut this off,

519
00:49:03,647 --> 00:49:05,346
there's no power
going to that.

520
00:49:05,348 --> 00:49:07,315
And there are no
other plugs in here

521
00:49:07,317 --> 00:49:11,755
so you're plugless
and outlet-less in here.

522
00:49:13,390 --> 00:49:17,326
All the walls have double foil
and copper wiring,

523
00:49:17,328 --> 00:49:19,594
and the windows
are all grounded.

524
00:49:19,596 --> 00:49:23,332
EMF people get those EMF mats
that they put on their beds.

525
00:49:23,334 --> 00:49:26,801
You're supposed to ground 'em,
so we just put

526
00:49:26,803 --> 00:49:30,839
a grounding rod in before
we pour the foundation.

527
00:49:30,841 --> 00:49:34,176
EMF mats
that you just sleep on?

528
00:49:34,178 --> 00:49:37,645
Mm-hmm.
It's supposed to ground you.

529
00:49:37,647 --> 00:49:39,748
Well,
with the double magnesium,

530
00:49:39,750 --> 00:49:42,183
you can't get
a cellphone signal in here,

531
00:49:42,185 --> 00:49:45,788
and you're not gonna get
anything from the outside.

532
00:49:45,790 --> 00:49:49,827
And all of the wirings
underground's in-conduit.

533
00:49:50,861 --> 00:49:53,597
There's no wires in the walls.

534
00:49:55,366 --> 00:49:57,399
I'm picking a little bit
of fragrance up in here.

535
00:49:57,401 --> 00:50:00,301
I don't know what...
what it is.

536
00:50:00,303 --> 00:50:04,406
I think it's
the potassium silicate paint.

537
00:50:04,408 --> 00:50:06,510
It's basically clay.

538
00:50:08,879 --> 00:50:10,379
You know,
I suppose something...

539
00:50:10,381 --> 00:50:12,449
it could have an odor
or not.

540
00:50:27,598 --> 00:50:30,866
"Dear Mike and Bonnie,

541
00:50:30,868 --> 00:50:34,703
"For months, I've been
wanting to write or call

542
00:50:34,705 --> 00:50:38,274
but days keep being too short
and too tiring

543
00:50:38,276 --> 00:50:40,542
and going by in a fog.

544
00:50:40,544 --> 00:50:43,511
That is the hardest
part of this illness.

545
00:50:43,513 --> 00:50:45,714
It affects the brain so much

546
00:50:45,716 --> 00:50:48,420
and imprisons us
inside ourselves.

547
00:50:50,421 --> 00:50:52,187
When you're that impaired,
it can really

548
00:50:52,189 --> 00:50:54,957
make you feel like dirt.

549
00:50:54,959 --> 00:50:56,859
For instance,
going to the store each day,

550
00:50:56,861 --> 00:50:59,694
"people usually notice
that you're not acting

551
00:50:59,696 --> 00:51:01,429
like everyone else,

552
00:51:01,431 --> 00:51:03,431
but they don't really know
what's going on.

553
00:51:03,433 --> 00:51:04,866
Things like wandering
around the store

554
00:51:04,868 --> 00:51:07,203
and not being able
to make a decision.

555
00:51:07,205 --> 00:51:08,904
Not being able to talk
straight and generally

556
00:51:08,906 --> 00:51:10,973
looking and feeling
like something

557
00:51:10,975 --> 00:51:12,908
that the cat dragged in.

558
00:51:12,910 --> 00:51:16,312
People can be very impatient
and unkind at these times,

559
00:51:16,314 --> 00:51:18,446
and when you're
already not feeling well

560
00:51:18,448 --> 00:51:21,716
you begin to feel like
the scum of the earth."

561
00:51:21,718 --> 00:51:24,221
? Woman in an old t-shirt ?

562
00:51:25,689 --> 00:51:28,759
? Woman in a dress ?

563
00:51:29,960 --> 00:51:32,896
? Woman in some old jeans ?

564
00:51:33,964 --> 00:51:37,433
? Woman in a vest ?

565
00:51:37,435 --> 00:51:40,572
? That's the kind
that I like the best ?

566
00:51:41,906 --> 00:51:43,638
? Woman in a... ?

567
00:51:43,640 --> 00:51:46,808
"We don't have good days
or good times of the day.

568
00:51:46,810 --> 00:51:48,645
"We have moments.

569
00:51:49,779 --> 00:51:52,115
We have good times
in moments."

570
00:51:54,819 --> 00:51:58,920
? A woman in distress ?

571
00:51:58,922 --> 00:52:00,556
"We laugh and pray

572
00:52:00,558 --> 00:52:02,424
and sing
and talk in moments.

573
00:52:02,426 --> 00:52:06,694
The rest is grueling
and hard and marathon.

574
00:52:06,696 --> 00:52:09,266
But thank God
for the moments."

575
00:53:38,823 --> 00:53:41,522
You'll find
the Policy Priority Movement.

576
00:53:41,524 --> 00:53:44,426
There's a lot
of issues in there.

577
00:53:44,428 --> 00:53:46,761
Find the ones
you're passionate about.

578
00:53:46,763 --> 00:53:48,763
That's what you want
to talk about

579
00:53:48,765 --> 00:53:51,667
as an individual advocate
if you get an opportunity

580
00:53:51,669 --> 00:53:54,002
to talk to your legislator.

581
00:53:54,004 --> 00:53:56,138
If you all have questions
on the things

582
00:53:56,140 --> 00:53:58,574
that the subcommittees
have been talking about,

583
00:53:58,576 --> 00:54:00,408
catch up with 'em.

584
00:54:00,410 --> 00:54:02,511
You see their faces.
They're gonna be around today.

585
00:54:02,513 --> 00:54:05,614
We're gonna have caucus sessions
this afternoon.

586
00:54:05,616 --> 00:54:07,683
It's a perfect time
to grab one of 'em

587
00:54:07,685 --> 00:54:12,721
if you have a question
and delve into things deeper.

588
00:54:12,723 --> 00:54:15,056
I definitely will be
using you as a consultant.

589
00:54:15,058 --> 00:54:18,527
See, a lot of these
Mexican kids that grew up

590
00:54:18,529 --> 00:54:20,895
- in migrant farm camps?
- Yeah.

591
00:54:20,897 --> 00:54:22,531
- I'm one of them.
- They're sprayed.

592
00:54:22,533 --> 00:54:24,866
I used to work in California,
in Del Nuevas,

593
00:54:24,868 --> 00:54:28,036
Sultana, in the grapes
and the orchards

594
00:54:28,038 --> 00:54:29,837
and they used to spray those.

595
00:54:29,839 --> 00:54:31,873
See, I was eight to 12 years
old when I work on that

596
00:54:31,875 --> 00:54:35,978
As a result I only have
40% of my lung capacity.

597
00:54:35,980 --> 00:54:37,879
- See?
- Oh, no.

598
00:54:37,881 --> 00:54:40,748
But we... we were all
in there earning a living.

599
00:54:40,750 --> 00:54:43,185
Farmers in the state,
they never bothered

600
00:54:43,187 --> 00:54:46,721
to put out these signs
saying "Environmental hazard"

601
00:54:46,723 --> 00:54:49,824
or never held the ranchers
to any... any standards.

602
00:54:49,826 --> 00:54:52,828
- Yeah.
- So I definitely will support

603
00:54:52,830 --> 00:54:54,996
what you're doing
and get involved with it.

604
00:54:54,998 --> 00:54:57,732
Are you familiar with
the Willamette Valley in Oregon?

605
00:54:57,734 --> 00:54:59,500
- Yes, absolutely.
- I used to work there

606
00:54:59,502 --> 00:55:01,437
in the summers
when I was a kid

607
00:55:01,439 --> 00:55:04,205
picking string beans
and strawberries.

608
00:55:04,207 --> 00:55:06,141
- Strawberries, I did, too.
- All the stuff.

609
00:55:06,143 --> 00:55:08,109
- We'll talk some more.
- Good to meet you, yeah.

610
00:55:08,111 --> 00:55:09,978
- Good to meet you.
- Okay, see ya.

611
00:55:09,980 --> 00:55:11,215
See ya.

612
00:55:45,716 --> 00:55:47,716
Yeah, you may be
the first person

613
00:55:47,718 --> 00:55:51,853
in the last two years
that has said that...

614
00:55:51,855 --> 00:55:55,790
I'm chem...
that I am fragrant.

615
00:55:55,792 --> 00:55:58,962
It's unbelievable that you're
telling us we're fragrant.

616
00:56:13,777 --> 00:56:15,544
It's bullshit.

617
00:56:15,546 --> 00:56:18,779
She's basically saying
"stay away from my unit."

618
00:56:18,781 --> 00:56:21,750
And I'm saying,
if I don't have the right

619
00:56:21,752 --> 00:56:27,492
to move around anywhere
on these premises, fuck you.

620
00:56:34,031 --> 00:56:38,065
Especially if the reason
is I'm fragrant.

621
00:56:38,067 --> 00:56:39,935
I'm already pissed
that I don't have...

622
00:56:39,937 --> 00:56:42,170
that I know she doesn't want me
near that unit.

623
00:56:42,172 --> 00:56:45,109
I just cann... you c...
you just know it.

624
00:56:47,844 --> 00:56:50,212
Well, yeah, she was waitin'
for us when we came out.

625
00:56:50,214 --> 00:56:53,147
She was lookin' out the...
out the...

626
00:56:53,149 --> 00:56:55,650
From this side... yeah,
outside of...

627
00:56:55,652 --> 00:56:57,118
from the sidewalk,

628
00:56:57,120 --> 00:56:59,587
it's basically
community property.

629
00:56:59,589 --> 00:57:03,190
But you... you know,
when you violate their space,

630
00:57:03,192 --> 00:57:05,928
then you run the risk of them
doing something

631
00:57:05,930 --> 00:57:09,163
that you can't deal with.

632
00:57:09,165 --> 00:57:11,199
She had her cellphone
in a plastic bag.

633
00:57:11,201 --> 00:57:13,403
Yeah, she probably
doesn't like the smell.

634
00:57:16,674 --> 00:57:18,806
So she probably doesn't
have the electric problem.

635
00:57:18,808 --> 00:57:21,310
She probably
doesn't like the smell.

636
00:57:21,312 --> 00:57:24,045
So she probably
is more sensitive.

637
00:57:24,047 --> 00:57:25,714
And maybe we have...

638
00:57:25,716 --> 00:57:27,683
you guys have all been
in Whole Foods.

639
00:57:27,685 --> 00:57:30,085
We probably are fragrant,
truth be told.

640
00:57:30,087 --> 00:57:32,754
I should understand that
better than I do,

641
00:57:32,756 --> 00:57:35,056
but it's a what of crazies.

642
00:57:35,058 --> 00:57:38,960
- Concentration.
- Concentration of crazies.

643
00:57:38,962 --> 00:57:40,761
That... that's not fair,
though, I think...

644
00:57:40,763 --> 00:57:42,330
I mean, that's not fair.

645
00:57:42,332 --> 00:57:43,998
- It's not all fair.
- No.

646
00:57:44,000 --> 00:57:46,134
But there's truth to it.

647
00:57:46,136 --> 00:57:50,371
No, it... I think it's
just everybody's issues

648
00:57:50,373 --> 00:57:53,107
- are so... so...
- Concentration of very ill people

649
00:57:53,109 --> 00:57:56,243
who all have to protect
themselves in different ways.

650
00:57:56,245 --> 00:57:58,381
I don't know.

651
00:58:02,319 --> 00:58:03,887
I don't know.

652
00:58:11,761 --> 00:58:14,929
I don't know,
I think about being here

653
00:58:14,931 --> 00:58:16,797
and tolerating it
by yourself,

654
00:58:16,799 --> 00:58:18,933
or being at home
and tolerating it

655
00:58:18,935 --> 00:58:22,004
and knowing that you have
family and granddaughters

656
00:58:22,006 --> 00:58:24,641
and all of this
swarming around...

657
00:58:26,377 --> 00:58:30,178
I don't know... why you would
make that choice.

658
00:58:30,180 --> 00:58:34,915
I agree but I think
that if he would stay here

659
00:58:34,917 --> 00:58:38,185
for a little bit,
he would regain

660
00:58:38,187 --> 00:58:41,123
some of his independence,
and it would be easier on you.

661
00:58:41,125 --> 00:58:44,359
Like, if he were here
by himself even for a month,

662
00:58:44,361 --> 00:58:46,661
he would be forced to cook
for himself

663
00:58:46,663 --> 00:58:48,632
and realize
that he can do it.

664
00:58:51,134 --> 00:58:53,637
But... I don't know.

665
00:58:55,138 --> 00:58:59,440
Well... everything,
for the last two years

666
00:58:59,442 --> 00:59:02,210
has been about him,

667
00:59:02,212 --> 00:59:07,848
and I just do
whatever I can to...

668
00:59:07,850 --> 00:59:10,451
for him, that I...
that...

669
00:59:10,453 --> 00:59:13,688
what I need or want or...
doesn't really

670
00:59:13,690 --> 00:59:16,257
play into the picture
right now.

671
00:59:16,259 --> 00:59:20,261
I guess that waits until after
he's healed if he's gonna heal.

672
00:59:20,263 --> 00:59:21,598
I don't...
I don't know.

673
00:59:29,138 --> 00:59:32,940
I don't think
that's healthy, though, mom.

674
00:59:32,942 --> 00:59:37,179
Because... I don't know
that he's ever gonna be

675
00:59:37,181 --> 00:59:40,748
exactly how he was before.

676
00:59:40,750 --> 00:59:42,686
And I don't think
it's fair for you...

677
00:59:44,855 --> 00:59:46,390
to just...

678
00:59:48,292 --> 00:59:50,458
like, you guys have to find
a new normal together,

679
00:59:50,460 --> 00:59:53,428
and it shouldn't be
just you doing everything

680
00:59:53,430 --> 00:59:56,132
at his beck and call.

681
01:00:13,049 --> 01:00:14,882
You know,
from the inside of my head,

682
01:00:14,884 --> 01:00:18,722
it feels very hard
and not working very well.

683
01:00:21,457 --> 01:00:26,262
We have a few places
that are the possibility areas.

684
01:00:27,263 --> 01:00:29,330
We need to be somewhat rural,

685
01:00:29,332 --> 01:00:31,399
but there are places
like in the Verde Valley

686
01:00:31,401 --> 01:00:35,036
where you're kind of rural
even though you're near, like...

687
01:00:35,038 --> 01:00:38,205
even though you're maybe
less than five miles away from...

688
01:00:38,207 --> 01:00:41,109
Yeah, and there's a lot
of forest lands around

689
01:00:41,111 --> 01:00:42,444
so that it...
there's open spaces a lot.

690
01:00:42,446 --> 01:00:44,212
Yeah,
there's more spread out.

691
01:00:44,214 --> 01:00:46,047
It's not the suburbs,
you know.

692
01:00:46,049 --> 01:00:48,783
We know a couple people
that live there already.

693
01:00:48,785 --> 01:00:50,518
One lady in particular.

694
01:00:53,422 --> 01:00:57,695
We're trying to find somewhere
that would work for us.

695
01:01:06,569 --> 01:01:09,373
? There's a big marquee ?

696
01:01:10,439 --> 01:01:13,209
? With some glowin' lights ?

697
01:01:14,877 --> 01:01:18,413
? Sayin' hey to everyone ?

698
01:01:18,415 --> 01:01:20,751
? Who needs
to sleep tonight ?

699
01:01:22,553 --> 01:01:26,054
? You can bring
your credit card ?

700
01:01:26,056 --> 01:01:28,426
? And we'll get it done ?

701
01:01:30,227 --> 01:01:34,094
? You may
have already won ?

702
01:01:34,096 --> 01:01:36,065
? Down at
the Slots of Fun

703
01:01:39,837 --> 01:01:42,273
? You can raise your kids ?

704
01:01:43,506 --> 01:01:45,708
? And kiss your wife ?

705
01:01:47,310 --> 01:01:51,078
? Or you can bring
it all right down ?

706
01:01:51,080 --> 01:01:53,416
? And bet your life ?

707
01:01:54,984 --> 01:01:58,587
? Everyone
gets a winning hand ?

708
01:01:58,589 --> 01:02:00,791
? Buddy, you've had none ?

709
01:02:02,926 --> 01:02:06,127
? You may have
already won ?

710
01:02:06,129 --> 01:02:09,263
? Down at the Slots of Fun ?

711
01:02:09,265 --> 01:02:13,868
? Now you may turn out
to be someone ?

712
01:02:13,870 --> 01:02:16,306
? Down at the Slots of Fun ?

713
01:02:20,176 --> 01:02:24,612
akumenang.com
and go there and check it out.

714
01:02:24,614 --> 01:02:28,149
Beginner's course
on the law, on the ADA.

715
01:02:28,151 --> 01:02:30,351
Now, just a second, Susan.

716
01:02:30,353 --> 01:02:32,620
This is beyond beginning ADA.

717
01:02:32,622 --> 01:02:35,056
This is surveying
for accessibility

718
01:02:35,058 --> 01:02:36,625
and how to do assessments

719
01:02:36,627 --> 01:02:39,527
and protect all of our
credibility in the community.

720
01:02:39,529 --> 01:02:41,062
Susan?

721
01:02:41,064 --> 01:02:43,964
Okay, I think one
thing that would help us

722
01:02:43,966 --> 01:02:46,234
would be when you make
a sta...

723
01:02:46,236 --> 01:02:50,471
when someone makes
a statement like...

724
01:02:50,473 --> 01:02:53,141
that the... you know,
the lighting in the walls

725
01:02:53,143 --> 01:02:56,011
and the type of carpet
and so forth

726
01:02:56,013 --> 01:02:58,679
doesn't impact accessibility.

727
01:02:58,681 --> 01:03:00,582
I think it's helpful to say,

728
01:03:00,584 --> 01:03:04,219
"except for certain people,
for whom those are barriers,"

729
01:03:04,221 --> 01:03:07,554
and then go ahead
and explain it to a degree.

730
01:03:07,556 --> 01:03:09,658
And I appreciate
your comment.

731
01:03:09,660 --> 01:03:13,127
Susan and I
go back a few years

732
01:03:13,129 --> 01:03:18,033
in working on multiple
chemical sensitivity,

733
01:03:18,035 --> 01:03:22,170
electromagnetic
sensitivity, MCS, CS issues,

734
01:03:22,172 --> 01:03:24,105
and she has taught me so much.

735
01:03:24,107 --> 01:03:26,942
I appreciate your input,
and what I may do

736
01:03:26,944 --> 01:03:29,643
is reach out to you
later on this year

737
01:03:29,645 --> 01:03:32,179
as I'm finalizing
the agendas

738
01:03:32,181 --> 01:03:34,649
and run it by you
as far as your input.

739
01:03:34,651 --> 01:03:36,384
Thanks for your question.

740
01:03:36,386 --> 01:03:38,719
Let's keep moving,
so I can cover everything

741
01:03:38,721 --> 01:03:41,323
on this, and then if I've
got a couple minutes at the end,

742
01:03:41,325 --> 01:03:43,561
we're gonna
for Q and A...

743
01:03:47,163 --> 01:03:48,596
I want them to come to you.

744
01:03:48,598 --> 01:03:50,297
I don't want them to come to me

745
01:03:50,299 --> 01:03:53,201
'cause I'm not the end-all
expert on this,

746
01:03:53,203 --> 01:03:58,339
but you guys are,
and by referring them to you,

747
01:03:58,341 --> 01:04:01,375
it gives you an opportunity
to not only share the message,

748
01:04:01,377 --> 01:04:03,611
but to grow the network

749
01:04:03,613 --> 01:04:07,181
and add credibility
to the network.

750
01:04:07,183 --> 01:04:10,150
If I can turn 'em on
to somebody who's a real expert

751
01:04:10,152 --> 01:04:12,152
on the issue,
I wanna be able to do that

752
01:04:12,154 --> 01:04:14,022
'cause then I can go work
on something else

753
01:04:14,024 --> 01:04:16,458
where I don't have somebody
to refer them to.

754
01:04:16,460 --> 01:04:19,560
But you know what, it helps
when it comes out of your mouth.

755
01:04:19,562 --> 01:04:22,663
- But the referral will help.
- Really a lot.

756
01:04:22,665 --> 01:04:25,466
If I'm... if I'm able to...
if they're coming to me

757
01:04:25,468 --> 01:04:30,205
because they think I'm the...
the all-wise Mark

758
01:04:30,207 --> 01:04:32,440
and I say,
"Here's a resource for you

759
01:04:32,442 --> 01:04:36,544
that you've been looking for,
and she's a buddy of mine."

760
01:04:36,546 --> 01:04:40,714
Start right away sending me
the stuff you're talking about

761
01:04:40,716 --> 01:04:43,653
that you think is appropriate
for me to look at.

762
01:04:45,522 --> 01:04:47,721
Molding
into the curriculum,

763
01:04:47,723 --> 01:04:50,058
and then once
I start to mold it,

764
01:04:50,060 --> 01:04:54,129
I'm gonna send an outline
to you to say,

765
01:04:54,131 --> 01:04:56,563
"Susan, what do you think
of this?"

766
01:04:56,565 --> 01:04:59,199
- Love ya.
- Wanna give you a high one?

767
01:04:59,201 --> 01:05:01,069
- What's this?
- High one.

768
01:05:01,071 --> 01:05:03,404
High one?
Excellent.

769
01:05:03,406 --> 01:05:05,473
I've learned a new one today.
Thank you.

770
01:05:05,475 --> 01:05:08,243
That's when you
have low expectations.

771
01:05:08,245 --> 01:05:10,347
Oh, really?

772
01:05:34,171 --> 01:05:37,772
I feel like I'm
in this all by myself.

773
01:05:37,774 --> 01:05:40,778
I feel like
I'm doing this all by myself.

774
01:05:45,415 --> 01:05:50,652
So I...
and... and I know... I'm not.

775
01:05:50,654 --> 01:05:55,255
I mean, everyone
tells me how lucky I am

776
01:05:55,257 --> 01:05:58,625
to have the support
system I have.

777
01:05:58,627 --> 01:06:01,161
And I know... I know I have
a support system.

778
01:06:01,163 --> 01:06:03,263
And I can tell people
that I have

779
01:06:03,265 --> 01:06:07,669
a fantastic support system,
but when I go to bed at night,

780
01:06:07,671 --> 01:06:13,641
I still feel like it's
me that is in this room.

781
01:06:13,643 --> 01:06:16,411
It's me
who is stuck like this.

782
01:06:16,413 --> 01:06:19,214
You're not
the only one that's lonely.

783
01:06:19,216 --> 01:06:20,884
So don't...
you can't play that card.

784
01:06:22,852 --> 01:06:24,451
You're not
gonna be happy until...

785
01:06:24,453 --> 01:06:26,453
or unless we're all sick,
too.

786
01:06:26,455 --> 01:06:27,754
- No.
- Yes.

787
01:06:27,756 --> 01:06:29,492
No.

788
01:06:41,471 --> 01:06:43,140
This is kind of how I feel.

789
01:06:44,440 --> 01:06:45,806
And I can't say it.

790
01:06:45,808 --> 01:06:47,443
No, go ahead.

791
01:06:48,344 --> 01:06:49,913
It's all right.

792
01:06:57,821 --> 01:06:59,856
T-tell me.

793
01:07:11,567 --> 01:07:13,801
You might as well tell me,
this is gonna...

794
01:07:13,803 --> 01:07:16,538
It's just
gonna open up a whole...

795
01:07:16,540 --> 01:07:18,041
I don't know.

796
01:07:33,290 --> 01:07:34,688
Tell me.

797
01:07:34,690 --> 01:07:38,225
No, I... I'm just... it...
it doesn't matter.

798
01:07:38,227 --> 01:07:39,960
It's like it doesn't matter
how much we suffer,

799
01:07:39,962 --> 01:07:41,929
you're just never
gonna give us credit

800
01:07:41,931 --> 01:07:45,168
for anything that we've done
to help you along the way.

801
01:07:50,272 --> 01:07:53,574
You've turned this into
something that's all about you,

802
01:07:53,576 --> 01:07:55,542
and you don't even think
about

803
01:07:55,544 --> 01:07:57,578
how it's impacted
everybody else.

804
01:07:57,580 --> 01:08:00,515
You don't care
how it's impacted anybody else

805
01:08:00,517 --> 01:08:04,021
because all you care about
is how it's impacted you.

806
01:08:14,830 --> 01:08:17,664
If you ever get better,

807
01:08:17,666 --> 01:08:20,871
it's all gonna be something
you did all by yourself.

808
01:08:30,880 --> 01:08:35,249
You don't hear me
when I say...

809
01:08:35,251 --> 01:08:38,285
my wife has stood by me
so unbelievably,

810
01:08:38,287 --> 01:08:40,588
- my wife takes showers...
- You say that, but you don't...

811
01:08:40,590 --> 01:08:43,624
I mean, you say that
to people in passing but it's...

812
01:08:43,626 --> 01:08:46,460
you never, ever...

813
01:08:46,462 --> 01:08:48,996
I mean. it's just like
one of those things you say

814
01:08:48,998 --> 01:08:51,031
because we're all standing here
and they have no one.

815
01:08:51,033 --> 01:08:54,369
So it's kind of like
a feather in your cap,

816
01:08:54,371 --> 01:08:57,708
but you don't make us feel
like that day to day to day.

817
01:10:43,846 --> 01:10:46,149
I'm a self-centered bastard.

818
01:11:15,111 --> 01:11:17,677
Something else that you're
gonna have to tell Earl

819
01:11:17,679 --> 01:11:20,080
is that the reception
is so bad out here

820
01:11:20,082 --> 01:11:24,451
and people have to go outside
to use their cellphones.

821
01:11:24,453 --> 01:11:27,588
Well, it's true,
that's what it is.

822
01:11:27,590 --> 01:11:29,826
Not people
trying to be mean.

823
01:11:32,060 --> 01:11:35,429
I'm sorry, Lanie.
I do appreciate...

824
01:11:35,431 --> 01:11:38,001
I know how hard you work for me,
and I appreciate it.

825
01:11:41,170 --> 01:11:42,838
I'm sorry.

826
01:11:45,974 --> 01:11:47,411
Are you crying?

827
01:11:56,719 --> 01:11:59,052
Hey, Nick, this is your dad.

828
01:11:59,054 --> 01:12:03,758
We're gonna get up early
in the morning and head back.

829
01:12:03,760 --> 01:12:05,395
Okay, bye-bye.

830
01:13:42,825 --> 01:13:44,659
I'm 63 years old,

831
01:13:44,661 --> 01:13:48,596
and I've finally learned
to take a hint.

832
01:13:48,598 --> 01:13:51,832
I just wanna work
with people

833
01:13:51,834 --> 01:13:55,602
who are listening
or who ask for help,

834
01:13:55,604 --> 01:13:58,271
not... not try to...

835
01:13:58,273 --> 01:14:00,908
push my values on society.

836
01:14:00,910 --> 01:14:02,209
That hasn't worked.

837
01:14:02,211 --> 01:14:04,981
I just had illusions
about it working.

838
01:14:13,221 --> 01:14:15,890
We might as well
get out of town

839
01:14:15,892 --> 01:14:19,429
and sort of make lives
for ourselves that don't hurt.

840
01:14:21,163 --> 01:14:23,533
Look after our own.

841
01:14:47,724 --> 01:14:51,959
All I know
is people who are EMF...

842
01:14:51,961 --> 01:14:55,795
use this and swear by it.

843
01:14:55,797 --> 01:14:58,065
That's about
all I can tell you.

844
01:14:58,067 --> 01:15:00,834
Yeah, I mean
this is pretty typical.

845
01:15:00,836 --> 01:15:03,303
So turning all
the breakers off

846
01:15:03,305 --> 01:15:05,640
and then pulling one
neutral at a time

847
01:15:05,642 --> 01:15:08,209
and testing, that's...
that does... that sounds...

848
01:15:08,211 --> 01:15:10,910
Oh, yeah,
that's real easy to do.

849
01:15:10,912 --> 01:15:13,313
- Okay.
- We absolutely can do that.

850
01:15:13,315 --> 01:15:18,018
My wife has to do
all the cooking for me.

851
01:15:18,020 --> 01:15:21,388
And if I could start
doing some of my own cooking,

852
01:15:21,390 --> 01:15:24,325
she would be so happy.

853
01:15:24,327 --> 01:15:26,761
Well, I do realize
in your situations,

854
01:15:26,763 --> 01:15:29,829
little things
do affect you.

855
01:15:29,831 --> 01:15:34,067
I mean,
I can't understand... how.

856
01:15:34,069 --> 01:15:37,340
But, I mean, I'm aware,
little things do affect you.

857
01:15:47,082 --> 01:15:49,784
"Effects
of electromagnetic fields

858
01:15:49,786 --> 01:15:52,085
on the immune system."

859
01:15:52,087 --> 01:15:55,955
"Department of Neuroscience,
Karolinska Institute,

860
01:15:55,957 --> 01:15:57,493
Stockholm, Sweden."

861
01:15:59,961 --> 01:16:02,762
"In summary, it is evident
from our preliminary

862
01:16:02,764 --> 01:16:05,999
experimental data that
various biological alternations

863
01:16:06,001 --> 01:16:09,169
are present in EHS persons

864
01:16:09,171 --> 01:16:11,771
claiming to suffer
from exposure to EMF.

865
01:16:11,773 --> 01:16:15,875
The alternations are themselves
enough to fully explain

866
01:16:15,877 --> 01:16:18,378
the electrical
hyper-sensitivity symptoms,

867
01:16:18,380 --> 01:16:21,417
and the involvement of
the immune system is evident."

868
01:16:24,487 --> 01:16:29,423
I want a paper from
someone talking about

869
01:16:29,425 --> 01:16:31,424
what to do about it.

870
01:16:31,426 --> 01:16:33,460
It doesn't exist.

871
01:16:33,462 --> 01:16:36,699
What the... what you can do
to help yourself.

872
01:16:38,367 --> 01:16:40,403
It doesn't exist.

873
01:16:47,109 --> 01:16:50,410
The fact that there's a paper
that doesn't say

874
01:16:50,412 --> 01:16:51,878
it's all in your head...

875
01:16:51,880 --> 01:16:54,183
you should be happy with.

876
01:17:17,239 --> 01:17:19,205
Please enter your PIN

877
01:17:19,207 --> 01:17:20,710
followed by the pound key.

878
01:17:22,478 --> 01:17:25,178
You have no messages.
Main menu.

879
01:17:25,180 --> 01:17:26,813
To send a message...

880
01:17:26,815 --> 01:17:30,351
Nothing.
This could be good.

881
01:17:30,353 --> 01:17:33,553
Maybe everybody's okay!

882
01:17:42,165 --> 01:17:44,999
The people I know
who have impeccable houses

883
01:17:45,001 --> 01:17:47,433
with no chemicals in them
and the electricity's perfect

884
01:17:47,435 --> 01:17:51,173
and so forth,
I don't see them getting well.

885
01:17:54,977 --> 01:17:58,044
Goblin! Goblin!

886
01:17:58,046 --> 01:17:59,581
Goblin!

887
01:18:01,149 --> 01:18:03,883
The people I know
who've gotten better

888
01:18:03,885 --> 01:18:07,855
or at least stabilize
have a lot of love

889
01:18:07,857 --> 01:18:10,891
and sharing and...
and maybe prayer

890
01:18:10,893 --> 01:18:13,927
or whatever you wanna call it
in their lives,

891
01:18:13,929 --> 01:18:16,331
seem to come out quite well.

892
01:18:21,237 --> 01:18:24,204
In at least the last two
or three months,

893
01:18:24,206 --> 01:18:25,905
he's held pretty steady,

894
01:18:25,907 --> 01:18:29,843
and his chemical sensitives
have gotten better.

895
01:18:29,845 --> 01:18:32,847
He has maybe not healed,
but he's been able

896
01:18:32,849 --> 01:18:35,685
to participate in life a little
bit more than in the past.

897
01:18:37,486 --> 01:18:39,887
We're able to take
a breath and say,

898
01:18:39,889 --> 01:18:43,393
"Okay, now we're ready for
the next part of this journey."

899
01:18:47,496 --> 01:18:50,530
I remember telling him,
you know,

900
01:18:50,532 --> 01:18:52,399
you're gonna get well
from all this,

901
01:18:52,401 --> 01:18:54,334
and I'm gonna have all
this emotional baggage

902
01:18:54,336 --> 01:18:56,605
that I'm not gonna know
what to do with.

903
01:18:59,975 --> 01:19:02,444
What do I do
with how I'm feeling?

904
01:19:03,912 --> 01:19:06,512
I don't know
what to do with it.

905
01:19:33,341 --> 01:19:36,142
It seems like
you're supposed to care

906
01:19:36,144 --> 01:19:41,884
for your own people regardless
of what people think.

907
01:19:43,519 --> 01:19:48,224
That's...
you know, that's all.

908
01:19:53,328 --> 01:19:58,333
? There ain't no
alibi for leavin' ?

909
01:20:00,702 --> 01:20:03,639
? Still you try
to think of some ?

910
01:20:06,142 --> 01:20:08,344
? Mm, come up with none ?

911
01:20:12,982 --> 01:20:17,587
? There ain't no
alibi for leavin' ?

912
01:20:20,022 --> 01:20:22,692
? Still you to try
to think of some ?

913
01:20:25,461 --> 01:20:27,931
? Mm, come up with none ?

914
01:20:32,167 --> 01:20:36,939
? Just spent the last day
or two at his sister's house ?

915
01:20:39,274 --> 01:20:41,877
? Time for you
to clear it out ?

916
01:20:44,179 --> 01:20:47,416
? Now there ain't no room
for doubt ?

917
01:20:47,417 --> 01:20:51,017
Subtitles by explosiveskull

918
01:20:51,019 --> 01:20:55,692
? And there ain't
no alibi for leavin' ?

919
01:20:58,059 --> 01:21:02,396
? Still you try to
think of some ?

920
01:21:02,398 --> 01:21:05,401
? Mm, but there's none ?

921
01:21:09,438 --> 01:21:11,739
? The note
that you left said ?

922
01:21:11,741 --> 01:21:14,409
? It's just the way
it's gotta be ?

923
01:21:17,313 --> 01:21:19,315
? Don't try to follow me ?

924
01:21:21,183 --> 01:21:23,653
? I guess we will
eventually ?

925
01:21:28,023 --> 01:21:32,728
? But there ain't
no alibi for leavin' ?

926
01:21:35,264 --> 01:21:37,600
? Still you try
to think of some ?

927
01:21:39,667 --> 01:21:42,738
? Mm, come up with none ?

928
01:21:46,809 --> 01:21:51,581
? There ain't
no alibi for leavin' ?

929
01:21:53,815 --> 01:21:56,452
? Still you try
to think of some ?

930
01:21:59,087 --> 01:22:01,024
? Mm, come up with none ?

931
01:22:05,493 --> 01:22:08,328
? It's just that the one
that you wake with ?

932
01:22:08,330 --> 01:22:10,432
? In the morning light ?

933
01:22:11,834 --> 01:22:15,069
? Ain't the one
you're holdin' tight ?

934
01:22:15,071 --> 01:22:19,042
? Mm, dreamin' of ?

935
01:22:23,245 --> 01:22:27,884
? Yeah, there ain't
no alibi for leavin' ?

936
01:22:30,452 --> 01:22:33,055
? Still you try
to think of some ?

937
01:22:34,523 --> 01:22:37,527
? Mm, come up with none ?