You done fucked up, Tae.

Covet: Tae was sitting on the end of her bed spacing off. She hadn't eaten anything all day and the guilt of everything was eating away at her. She could feel the impending tension already building and it was giving her a sinking feeling in her stomach. She had a t-shirt in her hand, having just gotten out of the shower, but was lost in her own thoughts, most of her wet hair covering the scratches down her back.
Alexithymiaa: (SHE DIDNT NEED TO EAT BECAUSE HER GUILT WAS HUNGRY ENOUGH?!?!?)
Covet: [Yeah basically. XD]
Alexithymiaa: -Noah was making his way from the kitchen toward Tae's room with a plate of chocolate cupcakes with strawberrry filling. He'd heard her in the shower and by the time he was done getting them filled and iced, she was already back in her room. Stopping outside her door, he stuck his head through the beads. "Hey. You wanna try my strawberry cream filling?" He asked suggestively, smirking because he laughs at his own jokes.-
Covet: She looked up at him and smiled, turning to see him standing there with cupcakes, she turned her back as she shifted on her bed gave a light chuckle, "Yeah, sure. I'd love one." She held her hand out for one, tucking the shirt over her leg.
Alexithymiaa: -He walked further into the room and held the plate out in her direction so she could take a cupcake. "I'm practicing cream fillings instead of just the berry compotes I usually do. I think I finally got the right consistency. They were too thick before."-
Covet: "Oh, well chocolate and strawberry you really can't go wrong with." she said to him and pulled the wrapper back and took a bite from the cupcake, smiling as she licked her lip. Though as tasty as it was, her stomach still had a rock in the bottom of it.
Alexithymiaa: "I figured I should start with an easy combination until I could get the whole cream thing down." He paused to watch her eat the cupcake. "Do you like it? How does it taste?"-
Covet: "Mmmhhm, It's like the perfect balance of sweet, and creamy." She said smiling as she took another bite. "I think if you added chocolate nibs on the icing on top it would give that nice soft crunch."
Alexithymiaa: "Not a bad idea. I'll remember that for next time." He turned away from her to set the plate of cupcakes down on the bed side table, turning back to sit on the edge of the bed behind her. Catching just a glimpse of the scratch on her shoulder since her hair was covering most of them, he nodded in her direction. "What'd you do to your shoulder?"-
Covet: She shoved more of the cupcake into her mouth, then moved her hair. " Oh. Just... from the rock climbing gy-" She paused and had to get up running to the bathroom because she couldn't keep the delicious cupcake down with how her stomach felt. She barelled down the hallway and dropped to her knees to burry her head in the toilet. , her hair not exactly covering the scratches as she did her best to keep her hair out of her face.
Alexithymiaa: -He didnt follow her right away because he didnt actually want to crowd her while she was getting sick and clearly capable of handling it on her own. Making his way to the door of the bathroom, he stopped in the doorway, wincing. "Are you okay?"-
Covet: "Yeah...totally..." Tae said then just stayed there swallowing hard. "It's not the cupcakes I promise." She said making sure to reasure him.
Alexithymiaa: "Then what is it? Are you sick?" He asked her before stepping into the bathroom, walking over to her side and kneeling down. He ran his hand over her back, gently brushing her hair off to the side in an attempt to soothe her until he noticed the very suspicious scratches. "You did this rock climbing?"-
Covet: "No... it's just.. Nerves...I guess." She sat down on the floor and just shook her head, knowing she couldn't even try to say that lie again, then dropped her hair to cover up the scratches. "I did something stupid. repeatedly." She told him in a small quiet voice.
Alexithymiaa: "Nerves over what?" He asked her, his eyes searching her face. "What did you do?"-
Covet: Tae pulled her knees up and put her head down. " Nerves over telling you what I've done. It started out just... sort of ... out of spite.. because you were mad at me and I got drunk and wasn't thinking...and I let it go to far... and it happened again... " She said trying to keep her tears at bay because nerves and guilt and bad feels man.
Alexithymiaa: -He sat silently trying to figure out exactly what it was she was talking about. He had a sinking feeling as she started to talk, not sure what it was, but knowing he wasn't going to like it. "What did you do?"-
Covet: "I had sex with someone else." She said reluctantly putting her head down, that rock just getting heavier and heavier in her stomach.
Alexithymiaa: -He just stared at her completely motionless, not saying a word as the silence fell over them awkwardly. "...Why?"-
Covet: "Because I'm a selfish idiot." She said. " You were mad at me over something stupid, including kicking me out of your birthday plans. It was impulsive and stupid." She said slamming her eyes shut.
Alexithymiaa: "It was impulsive and stupid... so you did it again?" He asked, trying to keep his voice steady even though his brain was doing backflips.-
Covet: "Yeah... because I'm a selfish idiot... did you miss the first part. I'm an awful girlfriend... I'm sorry Noah..." She said not sure what to expect as he just kept asking questions.
Alexithymiaa: -He lowered his eyes to the floor, not wanting to look her directly in the face anymore. "Did I do something wrong?"-
Covet: "No... It wasn't you... It's all me... I'm the fuck up. An asshole. Even if you did do something wrong, what I did is not the right way to handle it." Tae said looking up at him.
Alexithymiaa: -He took a deep breath, letting it out very slowly before finally lifting his gaze to look at her. "So you have no explanation why you decided to sleep with someone else.. multiple times... Who?"-
Covet: "My explanation is that Im a terrible girlfriend who doesn't think before she does something stupid. I was mad... But I don't have any excuses. I'm an idiot. It's like part of me intentionally destroys myself... It was... Gabe..." She told him, curling more in on herself.
Alexithymiaa: -The fact that it was Gabe hit him so much harder because he'd been so friendly with him. Pursing his lips, he nodded his head. "When did this start?"-
Covet: "The day before your birthday party? Maybe the day before that? I can't remember for sure. But it was when you were mad at me for the whole earring thing." She said to him. Unsure of what he was feeling right now.
Alexithymiaa: "So you've been lying to me for two weeks?" He asked, his face clearly hurt. "You've been sleeping with me... and pretending everything has been fine for two weeks... while behind my back you for fucking Gabe?"-
Covet: She nodded her head. closing her eyes as she started crying. "I'm so sorry Noah. I don't know why I did it... it was compusive. I shouldn't have... I couldn't help myself."
Alexithymiaa: "It's not compulsive if you do it repeatedly and go out of your way to keep it a secret. That's planned." He pushed up from the bathroom floor, unable to look at her anymore as he turned away and walked toward the door, lingering with his back to her. "It doesn't have to be compulsive anymore... you can just go... do whatever you want."-
Covet: "Noah... please... I'm sorry..." Tae said getting up. " I'll stop... It's done between him and I, I won't even talk to him.." She said begging him.
Alexithymiaa: "I don't really care what you do any more. If you don't want to talk to him, that's your business. It doesn't change anything." He stepped forward and out of the bathroom, turning left to head in the direction of his room.-
Covet: "But... what about us.. what if I want to do things with you?" Tae said following after him.
Alexithymiaa: "There is no us." He turned into his closet and grabbed his dufflebag, tossing it across the room onto the floor before moving to his dresser to start pulling out some clothes to toss inside. "Honestly Tae.. I couldn't give a flying fuck what you want."-
Covet: Tae crossed her arms over her chest, and bit her lip. "Yeah... I know... you really never have... something sure.. but not what matters. That's still no excuse for my actions though... so I get it..." She said turning from him and making her way back down the hall starting to cry.
Alexithymiaa: "What are you talking about?" He shot back at her, his irritation with the situation rising and sort of squashing the hurt temporarily.-
Covet: "I'm talking about the fact that you can't actually say how much I mean to you... you push me away over something as stupid as me hitting you with a pillow and blanket, sure you do a lot of other stuff, but it's too much to ask you to verbalize it.
Alexithymiaa: "You want to hear what you mean to me?" He yelled, waving a t-shirt over his head. "Absolutely nothing. You mean NOTHING to me. Just the same way that I mean nothing to you." He stormed over to his bag, shoving the shirt insize and hastily zipping it up.-
Covet: "I fucking love you... and I've told you that... but clearly it was never reciprocated..." She said, his yelling making her cringe a little the angrier he got the more nervous she got.
Alexithymiaa: "Yeah... loved me so much you went and fucked someone else. A friend no less." He snickered, shaking his head as he picked up his bag and started for the door. "Move."-
Covet: "You wanted nothing to do with me...you got mad at me over a stupid fight and told me not to do anything with your birthday, that I'd make it all about me. that fucking hurt especially when I do a lot for you. So yeah.. I did something stupid and I'm paying for it... but I'm not the only one to blame here." She said then flinched as he started to storm towards her, her breath hitching in her throat, then she felt ashamed, and slinked out of the way, " Where are you going?"
Alexithymiaa: "And despite how mad I was at you, I still had no intentions of fucking someone else to celebrate my birthday. Instead I got drunk so I wouldn't have to remember what it felt like." He brushed by her, hitching his bag up onto his shoulder as he walked down the hall toward the front door. "Anywhere, but here." He called back to her, opening the door to step outside and slamming it closed behind him.-
Covet: Tae dropped to her knees and started bawling with nobody but herself to blame for her poor life choices.