Laila Amaris

Appearance:

Appears as a small, childish looking elf girl with long strawberry blonde hair. She wears blue, somewhat regal dress and black armor with gold trims. Carved into her armor is also the symbol of the Triune Goddess Angharradh - an inverted triangle with three interconnected circles within. However, this symbol is not visible at all on her armor until she casts Light on it and causes it to become visible.

Her eyes betray her race as not an elf, but an elf-born Aasimar; they look as if made out of stained glass and glow as if a pair of lanterns were lit behind them. The color and pattern of her eyes tend to change.


Description:

Born as Chosen of the Triune Goddess Angharradh in a large elf settlement, her and her family were immediately lauded by various different members of the elf clergy. Laila grew up very immersed in people who praised her for holy heritage and she devoleped a strong desire to help and please these people as a result. However, due to Angharradh's multiple aspects, who in turn had their own extra aspects, and the many churches and sects of those churches devoted to each of them, Laila felt very torn between many different missions and causes and there was always pressure and mixed messages both from divine messengers of Angharradh herself and the elf citizens and clergy that looked to her for help. The people also began to view her as somewhere between a divine entity and errand girl, expecting not only a high amount of task, but a high amount of ability, and acting as if her inability to accomplish anything they demanded of her was a betrayal of their faith.

Eventually all of it became too much for Laila and she fled from all her responsibilities into a life of seclusion. From there she did a lot of soul-searching and eventually cultivated a greater sense of esteem for herself. She recognized that while others may have been unreasonable with their demands of her at times, ultimately it was her own eager-to-please personality and constant crumbling under any amount of social pressure that led to the majority of her woes and had encouraged the behavior that led to her problems with others. She began to act more of her own accord, choosing to act on her Angharradh's behalf in her own unique way and on her own terms rather than trying to kowtow to every believer or divine messenger who told her what to do.

This change in attitude extended to her perception of her own divine nature as an Aasimar, no longer seeing it as something that had shackled her to the will of Angharradh but rather something that elevated her to, while not equal footing, something somewhat in that area. Rather than serving Angharradh, Laila sees herself as a very very very minor diety within the Seldarine pantheon and thus more of a friend of Angharradh that helps her out. This attitude towards her role in the cosmos was further reinforced upon her eventual discovery of the Seldarine's struggles against the Titans as she set out to help save, rather than serve, Angharradh and the other gods from their foes.

Laila still contains a lot of trepidation towards her old self and her old relationship with her fellow elves and does her best to avoid getting caught into the same situation again. While she does still strongly wish to help people, she can be weary about taking on too many requests and prefers to help on her own accord rather than after being asked or given permission. She strongly shies away from her connection to Angharradh in public, hiding her holy emblem from sight and simply describing herself as a 'holy warrior of justice' rather than a cleric of any deity. She also experiences a lot of discomfort from developing any kind of strong reputation or relationship among people, being both used to her life of seclusion and worried that the recognition will lead back to her life before said seclusion. Laila also is incredibly afraid to return to her hometown.