KC (BrushBandit)Today at 01:43
Hi Sib
a lot of your actions in Memestream chat have been a conistent source of discomfort and passive aggression and I rly dont have the spoons to deal with it anymore right now. so. I'm pruning down the server. it may be opened up again at a later time but for now im just. splat. sry.

SibireToday at 08:36
Pardon?

SibireToday at 08:53
And why Gabe?

SibireToday at 13:30
And why were neither of us informed of anything for that matter, this is the only time any of this has come to either of our attentions.

SibireToday at 13:56
And in the interim I would appreciate removing things that mention me.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 13:57
a lot of times ppl and myself have tried to talk about it and u kind of refused to or brushed it off in addressing these issues?
im sorry i dont. have the spoons for this.

SibireToday at 13:58
Nobody ever has

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 13:58
not with the word 'kick' but there has most definitely been some 'seriously, stop's
I can't remove every past instance mentioning you, but I can indeed remove things in the case of the future that would mention you

SibireToday at 14:01
That's something.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:02
ya

SibireToday at 14:02
Why today

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:03
its actually been eating me up for weeks but I've been really worried of the afterward and actual kick
because its happened time and again but i
today I got fed up of worrying about it and avoiding my own server so.
yeah.

SibireToday at 14:04
Some heads up about it would have been understandably nice.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:04
I was going to give you guys a few days heads up but. I felt like that would also just be an escalation till count down

SibireToday at 14:05
Quite frankly I would have just left.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:05
;_; sorry.

SibireToday at 14:06
Now I wake up after an otherwise uneventful night with people I considered at least marginally friendly either out of communication entirely or, presumably proving me wrong in that regard.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:06
not out of communication entirely just
ughhhh
im sorry. its not out of animosity or direct cutoff unless you want it to be
u can always DM anyone its just
im. very tired.

SibireToday at 14:09
Given the events and emotions of the past month, this coming out of nowhere, that it encompasses both gabe and myself, and that we were never told anything of the manner, you can see why we might assume otherwise.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:10
it. really didnt come out of nowhere.

SibireToday at 14:10
To both of us, it has

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:10
it was my descision tho
well.
ok valid
from ur view
but also theres been consistent 'pls stop's and things
or 'drop it'
and also one or two warnings

SibireToday at 14:11
Neither of us ever recieved any PM, and solid pings, or to my memory any hard stops, to the point where prior to this the last interaction we had was you sending me an invite.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:11
I didnt DM you but there have totally been hard stops in server
you know I dont DM much
also if you would have left if asked then what does it matter :U
im sorry i know its sudden
but the buildup has been going on for a really long time and multiple people have asked you guys to stop things and its been a back and forth of ignoring or dropping

SibireToday at 14:13
Because it isn't just me, and it was done out of the blue to the point where for all I know and all I can believe given recent times, nobody would want anything to do with either of us.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:13
its the little things stacking

SibireToday at 14:13
That's why this matters to me.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:14
it was my descision for the kick.
nobody elses.
but there has been a lot of
sfduyhijksdlf
i dont hav ethe spoons
I understand why you'd be upset but also. im upset and very tired and its my server and I've been killing myself over it for a while so I just kind of. decided to do it
I dont have the energy to defend my emotions and if you'd care to be friends in the future I'd be happy to but for now im just. taking a break because theres been a constant on and off of 'pls stop' and then avoidance

SibireToday at 14:17
If for nothing else I'll just give our mindset and we can call it a day and revisit this some other time
But I would like to at least get that much in

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:18
if you want to be upset with me at the kick thats ok but pls dont be upset with the other members because they didnt make me do so or anything. its just me being splat.
yeah sure say what u think

SibireToday at 14:19
Right

SibireToday at 14:26
I appreciate that you say it was your decision an yours alone, but to us it didn't come across like that.

This came to both of us while we were sleeping, without any means of saying our pieces or getting answers in a timely manner, quite frankly on a Friday night too which isn't exactly great for weekend morale but that's a horse of a different color.

To either of us, while there was the one regarding the rwbyrp incident last month when Gabe brought that up and the timing on that ended in a rather poor manner, there wasn't any indication of any of this to us; like I said we had no pings, no PMs, and evidently no clear enough indications to drop certain things, or at the very least if there were and we did there were failures in communication somewhere along the line.

With regards to other circumstances, when I was suggested to take a step back from rwbyrp for a while, and I did, and came back on fair and even terms, or at least without any clear animosity, and should things have gotten to that point here Gabe and myself could've handled that.

We can talk brass tacks and what meant what all day long, but at the end of the day, to us, one way or another, we had "this is building up, can you please just take a while to give it a breather and you can come back later" or "please stop doing x y z before things get to a kick" messages. To us, it came as an out-of-the-blue event to both Gabe and myself, in the wake of an already very uncertain month, which left feelings that were less than confident both in ourselves, our relations with people we call friends, and our futures with various communities.
I didn't mean to hit return yet so bear with me, please

SibireToday at 14:34
But between not hearing anything from anybody else, existing lacks of confidence on our own parts given personal experiences, and the knowledge that there are legitimate personal disagreements which, from my point of view at least, we try not to bring up at all (Planar things, for an instance between Gabe and Leo/Maria), this left the two of us feeling out in the cold on our asses with the perceived understanding that the people we called friends actually wanted nothing to do with us, and never had.

I'm relieved to hear that's not the case, or at least that you say so, how they actually feel on their own is their business, but how it came off to us was less than inspiring. Overnight we go from happy and hanging in a discord with people we know to having no means of contact with most of them, and no idea if they ever want to hear from us in the first place.

I appreciate that you say this is your decision and yours alone, but given the timing, the history, and the uncertainty, neither of us felt that when we got the memo. To us, the first thought was "well, everyone in memestream secretly hates us", which, given how at least I have personally sat down to dinner with three members, Gabe included, is one hell of a punch to the gut first thing Saturday morning.

I get that you don't have the energy right now to go on and on and on about these things, and even if you did it's clearly a bad time to try and argue repatriation or anything of the sort, but I would be doing a massive disservice to myself and moreover Gabe if I didn't bring this up.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:36
ye
gud to say

SibireToday at 14:36
So, one way or another, what's done is done and I appreciate your own admission that it doesn't have to be forever, but it came at a rather shitty time being for everyone as far as I can tell. I hope that somewhere down the line we can get back to this again, since Gabe is going to be down in a month and I would still like to get together for something at that time.
But in future reference, please just let us know first, okay?

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:37
but. yeah. im very tired and im sorry about the gutpunch. but i dont have the energy to deal with things rn. it doesnt have to be forever tho.
ya
part of my radio silence has been just. too tired and scared to bring anything up sdfguhjnkm

SibireToday at 14:37
I get you don't PM much but this is a time you really should, not just in memestream but life in general.

KC (BrushBandit)Today at 14:37
yeah
now i splat and hopefully slep after dying for 12 hours

SibireToday at 14:38
And I know this is yours, but if anyone else has any specific grievances they have, either with gabe or myself, please let them know to deal with us personally and openly so we can actually get the memo and not have it get lost in static.