C-Part Summary: 2022-01-16, Dragon Quest 8

Summarized from: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dioe5ppxHks

>Has been hearing auditory hallucinations recently(4:54:30)
After battling some ghost looking enemies she asks the question if the nousagi has seen a ghost before and upon receiving the answer of no, she asks them not to be afraid of what she is going to say but lately she has come to a point where she can really feel their presence, the chat suggests it might just be Goro-nyan but she says it isn't him. She gets interrupted by battle and eventually reminded of the conversation which brings her back on track saying that she isn't sure if it is a hallucination or what but she has gotten to a point where she can sort of faintly hear a speaking voice, someone in chat replies that; "You are clearly exhausted" and she laughs and says that might be the case but continues explaining when it happens, like her door is often closed like right now which means she opens her door a lot and when she does that she can sort of hear a speaking voice, and when she goes to the living room to check there is nobody there making her a bit scared until she then goes back to her room and once again hears this faint voice, so sometimes it is quite noticeable for her hence her starting to pay attention to it and it isn't like the TV is turned on either.
So because of this it has gotten a bit scary to sleep alone which has made her tell her mother from time to time that she has come to feel afraid of sleeping alone, like she doesn't really know why but it has gotten slightly scary. She doesn't know if it is a ghost or what it is, a hallucination maybe, but it is limited to her home as she doesn't seem to hear it in other places so that's why she thinks it could be a ghost.

>Post-success backlash and the saving drug Dragon Quest 8(6:43:30)
While talking about cough drops and their taste she gets a superchat from a worried nousagi who asks if she hasn't been building up a lot of stress recently and that he is worried for her health and she pauses for a bit before saying that for sure she has been very stressed but that she has broken from that stress although after the live was over she was feeling very down because of not only physical exhaustion but also considerable mental exhaustion, but once she sat down to play Dragon Quest she instantly recovered, and that negative aura surrounding her was also expelled.
She begins explaining more in depth what she means by saying that her emotions were intensely rising and falling after the live which made her think that this is probably a result of the exhaustion. Since like just after the live she was very happy about it, thinking it was a lot of fun and happy that it became such a success but then the next day, probably because of the exhaustion her emotions were in disarray, one moment continuously downtrodden and negative and the next moment swing back up into a good mood, while realizing this isn't a good thing she kept on going without addressing, so then if things weren't going well for her she'd crash down and be in a bad mood all the way while just thinking; "This sucks...".

The nousagi suggest that it is probably for the best if she takes a break and while she seriously did consider that, since she was in a state where things she wouldn't normally get irritated about was getting to her making her feel like she is at risk of snapping. She brings up the sponsorship stream saying that she felt like she was going to flip out during it, she laughs at going as far to say "flip out" but continues and says that if this was normal then she wouldn't be getting irritated at this but she was which made her really consider a break but she had already said she was going to stream DQ8 for the weekend so she was troubled on what to do.
At first she didn't want to stream DQ8 if she was going to be covered in this negative aura of hers, since there was the risk of her not enjoying herself and she wouldn't want that to happen. But despite that worry she still wanted to play it since she had looked forward too it so much, since she does love Dragon Quest and having had so much fun with 1 beforehand. A nousagi says; "Ah, so this was the reason the waiting room was so late?" and she agrees, her worrying on what to do delayed the preparation. While she usually would play 5 or 6 hours on the weekend, if she felt like she was about to get into a bad mood or otherwise stop enjoying herself then she figured just quickly finishing up and ending the stream early was a valid solution, so with this countermeasure at the ready she decided on streaming and had a ton of fun, causing her mood to improve and now we are here in the present.
She says it is like a drug and laughs at how strange it is to call DQ a drug but her mood has done a complete 180 once again, in a good direction this time, the enjoyment of playing DQ expelled this negative aura surrounding her.

She doesn't know if this negative aura will return or not but right now she is completely fine, feeling refreshed. And should she end up in a rough spot again she'll take a break. She is getting a lot of comments telling her not to overdo it and she responds on that saying that she really doesn't overdo it, if she is really in a bad spot where she herself feels like this won't be doable then she won't whip herself into streaming since she believes that if her mind isn't composed then it won't become a good stream.

>Isn't really a "Going on a trip" person, would rather be at home(6:49:05)
A nousagi suggest that taking a break and going on a trip could be good for her and she says can't go on a trip since she feels like her home is more comfortable and laughs. She beings saying that she isn't good with trips but then changes her mind and says she does like it when she actually goes for it but then switches again to say she is unsure if she actually does like it and thinks for a bit and concludes that; "I want to be in my house" and laughs again, saying it is a feeling of; "It's fine to just be at home". In particular she feels like going on a trip alone is meaningless and while she doesn't hate being outside it is more like she wants a fun objective with the trip like; "I want to try going to the Hokkaido Winter Festival" or something like Osaka's USJ for example. So if she has a goal like that then it is fine but going on a trip without a specific goal is something she is very bad with because in that case, isn't it fine to just stay a home she feels since she is a person who gets troubled without an objective which extends to traveling as well making her bad with it in general.

She reiterates that a trip with a goal is something she likes but at the same time she likes just being at home, might be because if she is at a place without her computer she can't calm down, it's simply just that she likes her computer, or rather it is this connection she has with the nousagi via the Internet that she likes. Even if she were to go on a trip she thinks she'd likely be watching Youtube on her phone anyways and a nousagi says that this is already a sickness to which she laughs.
She does say, with a lot of trouble finding the correct words to phrase herself, that sometimes she does imagine throwing anything and everything away and live free, even if she interjects saying she is living free right now as well, but something like living a life doing whatever she pleases does come to mind here and there, but after all in some way or another she is reminded of that this is the place for her.

>Nervousity causing her to suddenly talk about space with her manager and PekoMari the problem child combo(6:52:06)
She is about to talk about how amazing she finds the Internet to be by talking about something currently when she suddenly blurts out that she might be going crazy and starts talking about before the live in the morning her manager was there with her, and during a rest period while Pekora was worrying about how the live was going to go and feeling considerable nervousity, she suddenly started talking about space with her manager who was working away at her computer, she laughs and says that she thought the tension at the time was pretty rough.
When she suddenly realized that usually when she talks about space it is during the nighttime mood, and now at this moment it is morning/noon and she is talking about space making it different from how it has always been, she decided to end the conversation tell her manager; "I'm sorry, forget I talked about space". Maybe it was the nervousness making her strange and perhaps it was when all that nervousity suddenly disappeared after the live that her heart was thrown in disarray although right now she feels fine.

The nousagi are curious how her manager reacted and she explains that it was a reaction she understands herself, like she reacted in a way that made it obvious it wasn't a topic she was interested in and since Pekora wasn't exactly speaking with enthusiasm she wasn't bothered by her manager not caring about it. But her initial reaction was that of a simple, uninterested agreement and that made Pekora realize that it doesn't seem like she has any interest in this topic and while she did think that it probably isn't fun for normal people to be suddenly dragged into a conversation about space it wasn't like her manager's reaction made her think the topic is something to never be brought up, just that this is the obvious reaction when suddenly pulled into a conversation like this. But after that she asked her manager to see a healing video of her baby sliding down a slide, it was cute, her manager will always let her see the latest video she has of her child.

The chat is a bit confused since they thought she had already switched manager but she says that the new manager doesn't have full control yet and that they are in the process of transferring. She sings a bit from a graduation song and says that personally she would rather have her stay as her manager, but perhaps there is a need for changing managers since she says that a lot of Holos got new managers at that moment. The chat suggests it might be a case of rotating managers and she says it didn't feel like that since there were new managers coming in as well which she thinks are there to reduce the burden on the current managers since she doesn't think there is any manager who is fixed on only one Holo, rather they have multiple they watch, so these new recruits are there to mitigate the burden she thinks.

A nousagi says that her and Marine are a problem child combo* and she laughs and scolds him for that saying that she isn't a problem child, in fact she is easy to deal with she says, all she needs are game permissions and she is fine. Another nousagi says that he wouldn't want to be in charge of those two and she asks the nousagi exactly what kind of attitude do they think she has towards her manager, since she isn't the type to apply pressure on someone.
Someone responds with her having an attitude of; "Go buy me some milk" and Pekora says she definitely doesn't say stuff like that since the manager is not an errand boy. Now if the manager was offering to go buy some drinks then Pekora would request something but she wouldn't say it without a prompt.

A bit earlier she brought up that usually when she arrives at some work related post where drinks have been prepared then she'll often be given milk since the fact that she likes it has been exposed, to which she finds rather scary and a nousagi says that it is because she is scary that they are careful around her like this. And she laughs and says it isn't like that, she is very mellow and in fact doesn't talk much at all.
Someone suggests to do an "Image investigation" regarding Pekora and she understands that as asking management what their image of Pekora is and she doesn't want to know what people think of her and if something demeaning was written there she'd stop being able to trust people. The chat says that sounds like fun and she doesn't agree at all, and furthermore if she were to present this on stream then nothing but good stuff would be written since they'd be careful not to write anything negative. The chat says it would be written truthfully and unsigned and Pekora says that if that were the case and some insult towards her was written then she'd make sure to identify whoever that was and since she can speak with people if it is a 1-on-1 situation she'd request to be able to talk alone with that staff so she can ask them why they wrote what they did. The nousagi finds this to be very scary.

*Once the transfer is complete, Pekora and Marine will have the same manager