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+ 12/05/2019
actually i have been having nightmares lately. i dont often remember my dreams but last night (or today... my sleeping schedule is so weird....) i had like 3 separate nightmares that i can remember vaguely.

one of them i had a tiny .25 bouncy ball inside of my ankle and i had to go to the hospital so they could remove it, well they numbed my whole leg and then just clipped my ankle with a pair of scissors and took out the ball and the closed it back up, then i tried to walk but obviously couldnt because my whole leg was numb..... and then another of the nightmares i was taking some big standardized test and everyone was crammed together and i couldnt focus or take my test and i was going to fail....

also the other night i had a nightmare that i was enrolled in a p.e. class and a chemistry class, and the whole semester i had forgotten about them so i never went to them or turned work in for them or anything. so it was almost the end of the semester and i realized this and i was freaking out and crying and begging the professors to give me something i could do to get credit because it was after the withdrawl period so i would definitely fail the classes which would also ruin my gpa and then id lose my tuition scholarships and >.< that was a terrible dream wtf



+ 12/13/2019
so had another nightmare, there was much more than this but this is all i can really remember: i went to some little gathering with people and i needed to bring some type of food, so i went to walmart to get food for it. bought a cake, and for some reason i also was putting extensions in my hair (they were blonde too and like were purple at the bottom lol idk why) but when i was finished there was this kid standing there and this old man cop was pointing his gun at the kid and everyone was like frozen watching and were like is he really gonna shoot this kid? then he stopped because he saw everyone watching and so people were trying to get out of there but this one guy was like "thats fucked up man" at the cop and the cop went over to him and shot him and so the kid was screaming and everyone was freaking out and running and i was trying to find my grandmother because she was in the store somewhere and we had to leave right away and then on my way out i was in the cops way and he was like "get out of my fucking way or ill shoot you in the head" and i was running but for some reason could only run really slowly like slow motion, i got to the car though but then so did the cop and he was chasing after me and my grandmother in our car with his gun and almost shot us through the windshield but luckily we got away and i woke up right after this in the middle of the night and then couldnt sleep for like an hour :stressed:




+ 12/26/2019
i had so many dreams compressed into one last night... i remember i dreamt that i was tranferring universities (even though im so close to graduating??) and i was already moved into the new town with the university because i had went to one event and made lots of friends there so i knew it is what i wanted... and i moved in to a cool little apartment with some friends and some random people and there were 2 beds in my bedroom so i wanted to move one of them into the other room so i grabbed the entire bed and as i was walking i like fell into the street somehow?? (like there was a hole in the side of my room that would just make you fall into a street...weird). but then i met a nice guy that helped me put the bed in his truck and he drove me back to my apartment because i was lost... but THEN my dream morphed and i was living in this apartment alone but all of a sudden 2 people i know from this online game moved in with me, and one of them was a guy i had a crush on in the past and the other was a girl that he was with now and that girl doesnt really like me anymore (in the dream) and so im all annoyed that they moved in because its awkward and im uncomfortable and at one point i remember him telling her how he has always loved her and only her, which made me a bit sad in the dream (which is dumb bc literally IDGAF about this guy now lmaoooo why am i dreaming about this???) but then she ends up going to my school with me so i have to walk with her but then i talk to her more and we both verbally say how neither of us like each other but also we really do like each other at the same time? like i dont even know how to articulate it now but in the dream it seemed to make perfect sense... and thats really all i can remember from last night dreams so far... also i slept for around 13 hours so maybe that has something to do with why my dreams were so crazy and also why it feels like i had so many.. hmm idk but :yeh:
+++++ oh and also for the universities i was making my mom drive me around to the other uni's that i wanted to visit and one was a super religious christian one that said that they had absolutely no clubs whatsoever and they only had 85 students..... LOL what.. oh and they met inside a church :MiyanoHuh:



+ 01/24/2020
two nights ago i had this nightmare (also side note i have been having nightmares very often like multiple times a week, am curious to talk about this with anyone, i am unsure why or what this means, if it means anything at all..)

basically i was stuck in what i can only describe as a parallel, alternate universe. i was essentially kidnapped and stuck there. also, i was being forced to draw and paint (im unsure why) and there was nobody there that i knew or anything, just a bunch of strangers and mostly older men. well, a lot of this is kinda blurry since its been 2 nights since i had this nightmare but after being stuck in the alternate universe for a while, i finally figured out a way to escape. i entered our universe and i managed to find my friends but the thing is that they didn't recognize me. i remember begging them to listen to me and i was trying to tell them my name and who i was and what happened, but none of them believed me or wanted to help and they all kept running from me. while all this was happening, i was still running from the people who had kidnapped me.. in the dream i knew that i wouldn't be able to truly cross back over into the main universe as myself until someone believed that it really was me, and remembered who i was... and that never happened. then i woke up in a panic with tears running down my face because none of my friends knew who i was in my dream and i was all alone. :stressed:



+ 03/07/2020
last night i dreamed that i went on a road trip with one of my best friends to see gf.. so we drove and drove and drove and it was supposed to be a surprise for her.. but i actually don’t remember meeting up with gf in the dream. idk if it did happen and i just don’t remember or if it cut off by that point..

then my dream twisted and we had a party at our apartment and lots of people came by that we didn’t know and the entire apartment was filled with people getting fucked up. there was one point when the cops came so i ran to my brothers room (because apparently in the dream my brother lived here??) and i had to kick people out of his room. also someone had broke the lock off of his mini fridge and was trying to steal all of his snacks and drinks and i got pissed and threw the people out. i told them all how my brother is only 17 and goes to school and has 2 jobs and buys all this shit himself and how dare them try to take it.. then the dream kinda ended with the cops leaving somehow and everyone went back to chilling and i smoked a lot in the dream also..

then my dream twisted again & this one girl had a really cute plushy that i really wanted and she was auctioning off another one that was similar and i really wanted it and so i was trying to persuade them to like me and give it to me. once i did this, somehow there was a big graduating afterparty thing so then i walked over from there into this big ballroom and my brother and his dad was standing there. (for some background knowledge, i thought his dad was my dad until i was like 8 years old and they got a divorce, told me the truth, & then we never really talked again). his dad had like a card for me with a poem written inside about how he was sad he missed all these years of my life and how he really wanted to be there for me.. in the dream i just remember feeling uncomfortable and crying a lot.. and then i woke up. ehhh rip.



+ 03/21/2020
i was in this big parking lot with my mom, and we had been shopping for a while. i bought a bunch of stuff i really didn't need and didn't have the money for but oh well. then, as we were headed into the next store, this guy who was on hella drugs and possibly homeless tried to steal something from me. i casually walked up to him and tried to make a joke to get him to stop, and i took back what he stole. but that made him really angry and he chased me into the next store. so then i was running around in the store and nobody would help me. eventually he got ahold of me and i had to try and be really nice so that he wouldnt hurt me or something. there was like a string that was pierced through my nose and it connected me to him at one point and he like dragged me around with it and i couldn't do anything about it. thats all i really remember but fuck that was a fucked up dream..

then in the same night i also dreamed about being an orphan and having to go to this boarding school. the head mistress was extremely mean and strict, and at the end of the night she separated all the girls and boys, and us girls went to this big, gothic looking creepy old church. she had us walk single file down all the steps to get to the building, and once we got there she told us to all go inside. it was dark inside and nobody could see anything, then she shut the door behind us and made us spend the night in there.. there was more to my dream but this was the parts i most remember right now

i know at some point i was back in a room that i knew was my bedroom, but it was much bigger and emptier than my actual bedroom (with just a bed and a vanity). everything was pink and white and looked like i either was just moving in or had just moved out. i was just sitting on the floor looking out of the big windows in this part. nothing super crazy happened but i just vividly remember this like it was a scene in a movie..



+ 04/10/2020
it was about corona and it was almost like a vision.. i was stuck with my roommates and we werent able to get into our apartment because they locked it off and said nobody inside could leave and nobody could enter, they told us to just get a hotel.... the streets were empty and everything was dead. it was dark and cold and we were walking down this path towards this other girl's house and then there was a bar inside of it and i was playing music in the bar... it was like i worked there or something.. and i got upset because something happened but i cant remember what it was that happened...hmm



+ 04/20/2020
i was at school with some ppl and we had a gym class and the class was so annoying bc the teacher was rude, but it was my last class and then i was out for good for the rest of the year. so i left it and met up with some people and then we started talking for a bit and got distracted so we missed the buses leaving the school. luckily this girl Rosemary was there with her huge ass car (i mean this thing was HUGE). we all piled in and then rosemary got out of the front seat and got in the back with us and all of a sudden her car starts rolling down the hill and nobody is driving and so we are all freaking out. the car keeps going and going until we end up super far from the school and she finally manages to get back in the drivers seat. she starts driving and there are tons of accidents and we literally run over people’s cars at certain points. eventually we end up at this like huge zoo (but it wasn’t a normal zoo it was like a wild zoo in the middle of nowhere) but there is a curse and u aren’t allowed to leave until u find all the pieces to lift the curse. at one point my phone fell into the river running and then it didn’t work anymore so i couldn’t find anyone and i was looking everywhere. then i finally found my friend and she figured out one of the parts to lifting the curse and everyone in the area was so shocked because nobody had figured that one out before. that’s all i really remember but it was so detailed, i can’t describe it well enough but it was like a movie in my head i swear.



+ 04/26/2020
i keep having repeating dreams that im not going to some math class or doing any of my math homework for the class anymore and bc of it i know im going to probably fail the class. also the class is on mondays and wednesdays in my dreams. why do i keep having this in my dream i swear its happened like 5-6 times maybe and wtf i dont even have any math classes at uni anymore >.<



+ 5/8/20
i dreamed that i was at my nanas still and it had been storming really terribly.. i had posted online that ppl could come and cut my internet off if they wanted and so i sat outside in the little room and took pictures of all the people coming and going, turning my wifi off and on. it was a lot of my internet friends and then for some reason also random people from my highschool? then my dream kinda morphed and i was talking with my grandparents about what we would cook for dinner and they finally decided they wanted chickfila. so we all literally sat around and were just giving our chickfila orders... i knew i wanted chiky sandwich and fries... i was gonna go help my papa pick up the food nom nom.... and finally what i remember is my 17 year old brother was here but he was maybe like 12 or 13 in the dream and he had some friends over.... they started fighting outside and his friend shoved him and i saw him fall back outside from where his friend pushed him and then he like got up really fast and punched his friend right in the face.. then i had to run over and break it up and he had one other friend there and his other friend was kinda just watching.. i made them all go inside and then i talked to the friend watching bc his dad came over to pick him up and he honked his horn outside for him to just come out and so i opened the gate on the front porch and walked him to his dads truck. before he left i remember telling him "its okay i know you are one of the good ones" and then i came back to the house and i specifically remember locking the front gate and then going inside and locking and bolting our front door because apparently we were nervous about his dad being there.... weird dream i feel like other things happened but i cant remember exactly but if i do ill add on later



+ 05/10/2020
i had the fucking scariest dream... i was on a little vacation with my family and we were driving to this cabin on the mountain and on the way to the cabin my papa was driving... he was not driving very well and changed lanes at the very last minute with a car going super fast behind us.. i could see the girls face behind us through her windshield and she was holding down on her horn and going to swerve around us but when she did that she drove right off the mountain, tumbling down... we kept driving and i remember being completely horrified that this girl was dead. i saw her face and she was dead...

but then i got some hope because i heard a faint voice yelling for help.. she wasnt dead but she was stuck down inside the pit of the mountain.. nobody could hear her but me and if i wouldn't do anything she probably would have died down there, so i decided to call the anonymous tip line and tell them that i heard her screaming.... i was so selfish in the dream and almost didn't call out of fear that my family would get in trouble.... this was so scary...

i also dreamed about other stuff like eating watermelon and snacks with my cousins and also this reminded me of a dream i had a few nights ago that i had forgotten about. i was with my mom and we went into this little house and i was supposed to be hanging out with some people there but they didn't really hang out with me so i just kinda did my own thing... then we left to go in this uber even though coronachan was happening and i remember being nervous that we were all going to get it but we got in the uber anyways and our driver was just chillin in the drivers seat talking to us... thats all that i really remember from the dream...



+ 05/18/2020
so i had a dream abt this girl from discord (someone that i was never very close to either)... weird stuff....

she was in my class in highschool and she didn't really care about what we were doing and i was trying to impress her.. i remember people were being rude to her at one point so i told them off (as if i would ever be capable of doing something so chad-like lel).. then we were around her friends in the dream and it got to be lunchtime but they were all like "oh yeah we dont eat in the lunchroom we come back to the classroom" and i dont really know why they did that but i just sort of followed whatever they were doing... gosh idek but all i remember is how much i liked this girl.... why r girls so soft n cute even when they are all edgy and mean?? and why do they get in our heads and make us dream abt them?? and how come we remember and even like the mean ones soo much more than the nice ones??? ?



+ 5/19/2020
i had a dream that ive had a few times in my life, but essentially i am bend my own magic in my hands (its like air magic i guess i would say). i say a certain phrase and this air-like ball starts to grow in between my hands and i can craft it to be as large or as small as i want..  well i was practicing in the dream for a while, saying the phrase but I kept messing up and if I messed up it wouldn’t work. eventually there was this big like cathedral that we were all in and evil villains kept showing up through the entrance and i was trying to kill them but I couldn’t seem to summon up enough energy when I went to make the balls of air… so then it kinda turned into a nightmare and i had to have older, more experienced people come and help me defeat these people… then at the end of the dream i escaped with one of my friends and we were in the woods. the woods were extremely tall and there was this blonde boy hanging by a noose from one of the power line poles next to the street, thats all i really remember seeing before i woke up.. i don’t think he was dead though in my dream even though he was hanging up there… i wish to have this dream again so i can find out more about this young boy and also improve my magic skills so that i may defeat the evil villains in the next round.




+ 6/18/2020
i haven’t written about my dreams lately since i have been sick and stuff, but i dreamed this last night and wow it was insane…

so firstly, i was going on some type of vacation with my family. then when we got there i immediately had to start teaching this classroom (i thought i was going to have a chance to eat my bagel i brought for breakfast but i didn’t). so i went to the classroom with all the kids and was there for pretty much an entire school day. then, afterwards i was upset bc was so tired and still had not ate. then i end up back with my family and im telling them all about it but they are trying to head back home, but in order to do that they have to go through this little door. but the door looks like it shouldn’t fit people in it because its so tiny. well, they end up leaving me behind by accident and so then I had to go through it on my own. you had to do this like kinda "spell" to get through it, and i needed pita bread and something else that i cant remember.. but i didnt have it so i was freaking out. but luckily there was this guy there that told me it was okay id just have to go through the door and tell them that i needed to see the food pantry loool. when i did go through, they fed me the pita bread and some pb&j sandwich like so fast.
then my dream completely changed and this is where it really got interesting.. i was going downtown to the bars when i met this girl, she was really cool looking and had lots of friends. they all were like e-girl types and she wanted me to tag along with her wherever they were going, and i was alone and they seemed so cool and fun so i agreed. they changed my outfit and gave me these really thick platform shoes and thigh highs and stuff. then we headed to the place we were going, which was pretty far away. but on the way there i heard some of her friends making fun of me, saying i was cute but weird and they didn’t think id make them seem cool at the place they were going. but she was like “no trust me she has potential” so they let me keep going with them… then we finally get to the place and its this like huge room with neon flashing lights and smoke and stuff. everyone is raving and everything and having fun but then it was like everything changed…. they made everyone sit down on the floor and they threw out these little things that looked like weights (but they werent heavy). apparently if u had a weight it meant u were safe, but if not then u had to have your entire back waxed with extremely hot wax (amongst other torture things apparently?). there were only a few of the weights but i managed to grab one and then i tried to sneak out, but when i did multiple people came up to me and were trying to kill me, stab me, etc. even the girl that i originally came with turned like evil almost and so i was scared and all alone trying to get out…. ya that was my dream


+ 7/2/2020
i dreamt that i was with my mom and both of my brothers.. we were going into this town and for some reason our car didnt have windows and when we were pulling in there were vampire people everywhere trying to take us and kill us.... once they got us they sent us to this house and locked us up and we all had to stay in our own rooms... there were a few people that i met there and i remember that they felt sorry for me and wanted to let me go but they knew that they weren't supposed to... then i remember the people coming and telling me that my mom left me and my brothers behind in exchange for them keeping us and cutting off like half of her hair. i remember screaming and crying for my mom for hours and hours and thats when i woke up and i was crying in my sleep this morning.



+ 7/03/2020
last nights dream was really sad and also involved someone kidnapping my brother... honestly it was terrifying and i dont really want to type it all out. i am going to call my brother and check on him.



+ 7/05/2020
so last night my first part of my dream that i remember had me at a school and everyone was trying to figure out how to wear their masks or if they should use them at all. i got a couple from my school and so i was putting mine on but i was like one of the only people doing it and i was really scared i was going to get sick.... then i remember there was one part where i was going through the lunch line with some people and when i grabbed my meal as i was leaving i accidentally spilled it all down this teacher's leg and he got extremely mad at me. then i remember running out of the school and some monster thing was trying to attack me and chase after me but i don't really remember what happened after that... and then the dream twists and im with some person and they are trying to marry me but they don't know me, although apparently we knew each other in a past life or something. it was like a weird magical simulation that was trying to recreate all of our experiences with each other and it ended in us both just running away.... and finally last night i dreamed i was on an airplane at one point and i was trying to drink water even though i was thirsty but it was like i was drinking it but i couldnt actually taste any water (ive had this dream before). so i kept trying to drink different waters and they were emptying but for some reason it was like i wasnt actually tasting the water and my mouth still felt really dry.



+ 7/19/2020
had a dream i was drinking hand sanitizer and i was like oh shit ur not supposed to drink this its supposed to go on ur hands i forgot!! and then i thought i might die bc the bottle said u could die from dat but then i woke up immediately and waas like oh good it was all a dream



+ 7/22/2020
last night i had multiple dreams but the one i remember the most was where i essentially i was laying on my couch home alone and i noticed my legs were like “coming apart at the seams” as if there were actual seams where pants usually are.. and my skin was like peeling off almost like a sticker would and there was just blood everywhere.. leaking all over the place and just my skin was like starting to slide apart.... so i decided i would call 911 because i tried to google stuff about it but i wasn't getting any answers at all... well then on the phone the guy was pretty confused and i was like wait if i actually go to the hospital ill have another medicial bill to pay.. so i decided that i wouldnt go and that i would just stay home and hope that it would stop. it was very terrible and then i remember asking the guy on the phone if he got paid per phone call and he said yes so then i felt bad and i said i was going to hang up and id call back if it got worse and he said thank you to me for that....

this dream felt so real i swear to god. when i woke up i have never been in such relief.



+ 8/4/2020
i had a nightmare last night where me and my mom and one of my brothers were passing through this like arabic wedding and my mom tried to take some of their food when we weren't wedding guests and it was super weird and uncomfortable and i told her to stop because they would notice and it was rude but she did it anyways. then it was like everything kinda twisted and we all turned into like fairy creatures with wings. they were chasing after me trying to kill me and so i was trying to fly away from them but they kept grabbing onto my leg etc and i eventually killed one of them by grabbing his wing and crumbling it up in my hand and i watched as he fell into the ground farther and farther... it was a known thing to not ever do that to someone but i didn't want to die. then i ended up in a house and i was trying to run from another of the people and he ended up getting me trapped in the bathroom and he was trying to open the door and he had a knife in his hand but i managed to grab it and then he also had a pair of scissors in his hand and i took those as well... then i endedup stabbing him to death so that i could escape through the window. once i did, more of his friends found out and they all surrounded me and killed me.




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