The truth is..

A sad script I wrote for someone.. :)



Hello. How are you? I know you told me to stay away and I understand why you would want that. If someone had broken my heart the way I broke yours, I would want them to stay away too.. but the problem is, that's too hard. No matter how much I try, I can't let you go.

I might say I'm okay, I might say I'm fine, but the truth is, I'm not any of those at all. The truth is, every fiber of my being is aching for you. The truth is.. every morning when I wake up, I have this empty feeling in my chest whenever I check my phone and realize that it isn't your name on the notifications screen. No more, "good morning, beautiful." or a "how'd you sleep?"

The truth is, every morning, I feel more alone than ever because I know you're not mine anymore.

And I get it if you're gonna say that it's all my fault we fell apart. And you're right. It is my fault. I kept telling myself that it's not love, it was all just for fun. It was nothing more than a fling..

But the truth is, it was much more than that. So much more. And I'm sorry I couldn't handle those emotions very well and I acted the way I did. And.. and now that you're gone, I've finally admitted to myself that I do love you. Now that it's too late to tell you how much I actually want to just kiss you and hug you and tell you how much I love you. I do love you, even from the day that we first met. I constantly denied myself of the feeling of love by brushing it off as mere flirtation.

Now I denied myself of that feeling in the worst way possible. By hurting you.

The truth is, I don't know how else to tell you how much I want you back. Pathetic, yes, but I've swallowed all my pride in writing this letter. Nothing matters anymore except me telling you that I'm sorry.

The truth is, you mean to me more than you will ever know. And I'm so sorry it's only through this that I gathered up my courage to tell you.

I love you.