Everything I Didn't Say

This is part 2 of "The things I never sent", and now it's on the guy's POV!


Hi. Yeah, it's me. I still haven't heard from you since we broke up. It's not like it's your fault. I mean, I haven't been the most approachable guy recently. It's not like I don't want to talk to you but... I just can't right now.

It's not because I hate you or I don't like you, but talking to you... not right now. Not when the wound's still fresh. I need some time to think. I need some time to figure out whether or not us breaking up was the right thing to do because I saw how much I was hurting you with all of my mistakes. You're so forgiving and caring and you always took me back after everything I did.

I'm not avoiding you. I just want you to be happy.

I saw your messages on Christmas and New Year's eve but I didn't have the balls to reply to them. I... I just didn't know what to say. I didn't know how to respond to your messages without saying something stupid and hurting you again.

You're probably thinking what went wrong with the relationship and trust me when I tell you that it isn't you. You were nothing but perfect while we were together. The reason I suddenly seemed cold was because I saw how much I was hurting you. Mistake after mistake, we would have a fight.. even if it was just a small, petty thing we would still fight about it and I saw how much it was wearing you out and I didn't want that.

So I did the most asshole-y thing ever. I gave up. And I'm really, really sorry for that. I'm sorry for breaking your heart.

And I really want you to know that you are everything to me. Everything and more. I love you and I still want you in my life but you deserve better. What has always mattered to me is you being happy. I know you'll find someone who deserves you. I mean.. you're a breath of fresh air. You're wonderful. You're beautiful, smart, kind, caring.. the whole package. And I damn wasted your love.

If he breaks your heart, just know I'll be here. And I'll make sure to love you better the second time around I promise I won't waste your love like I did before.

I love you. Bye.