madswin hell!

Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:35 PM
bella: needs more friends and more impulse control
Sasha - Today at 11:35 PM
Mads is 80% of the impulse control she already has
Win is her worst enabler
It's like being stuck between a wall and a typhoon
Except the wall and the typhoon are making out
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:36 PM
bella: i'm cutting all of the sleeves off of my shirts!
win: why are you doing that
bella: because mads is on vacation and he's like 80% of my impulse control
Sasha - Today at 11:36 PM
AS IF MADS WOULD GO ON VACATION AND LEAVE THOSE TWO BEHIND
YOU FOOL
YOU ABSOLUTE BUFFOON
... No, wait
Wait
I thought of something heartbreaking
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:37 PM
don't you dare
Sasha - Today at 11:37 PM
After Mads' dad, the most important person in his life is his grandpa
:)
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:37 PM
OH NO
Sasha - Today at 11:38 PM
Mads quietly packs his things, goes to Bella and Win's on his way to the airport, and tells him he'll be gone for a few days so they need to take care of his kids
"Pop's gone." He doesn't meet either of their eyes and it hurts to see him slumped like something's half kicked him in the grave
Tay, the Boy Mayor of Cherubcord - Today at 11:39 PM
hey i didnt need this kinda pain at midnight
Sasha - Today at 11:40 PM
He leaves his key and it looks like a tornado went through the place when they get there, the dogs are all in a tizzy because their best friend disappeared, and for almost a week there's nothing but radio silence
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:41 PM
@little werewolf knife LOOK WHAT YOUR HUSBAND IS DOING
Sasha - Today at 11:42 PM
He comes back diminished, like he left part of himself behind there, and Win wouldn't have known at this point but for Bella, it's an eerily similar reflection of Mads, standing dry-eyed and broken at his father's funeral
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:44 PM
she probably offered to go with him to the funeral
Sasha - Today at 11:45 PM
There are vanishingly small chances for his famous hugs and easy smiles because he spends so much of his time cooped up in his home, getting into arguments with his mother over the phone as she's begging him to come back home and help The Family through this so he doesn't have to go through everything on his own
His brother and sister don't remember much about their dad, but they were practically raised by their grandpa in his absence and this loss hits them harder than almost anyone, save their mom. That was her dad, after all, and after losing her husband, it's too much sorrow for one woman to handle. Of course she'd want all of her children under one roof. Of course she'd want to keep them close. Of course she wants to protect the only family she's got left.
little werewolf knife - Today at 11:51 PM
wHAT THE FUCK
WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WAS DRIING HOME FORM THE LAUDNROMATA TND THIS IS WHAT I COME BACK TO
dfuCK ME
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:52 PM
EVIL! HE'S EVIL!
little werewolf knife - Today at 11:52 PM
i'm about to add to the pain
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:53 PM
ohh fuck
little werewolf knife - Today at 11:53 PM
win, with his stupid martyr complex and the fact that he was the world's biggest momma's boy until his mom died when he was nine, genty insisting that mads goes to his mom(edited)
Sasha - Today at 11:53 PM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
little werewolf knife - Today at 11:54 PM
(sidebar, i want win and mads' mom to be SO CLOSE)
Sasha - Today at 11:55 PM
SO, SO, SO close
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:55 PM
yesss
Sasha - Today at 11:56 PM
Like, once she got remarried, they moved out of state and Mads was already in college and working, but they got super attached super quickly
She sends Win gifts through the mail every Christmas with the tag "FROM: Your holiday mom <3"
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:56 PM
she and bella's dad are Buddies
Sasha - Today at 11:56 PM
........
Scratch that
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:57 PM
LMFAO
Sasha - Today at 11:57 PM
We gotta Parent Trap Mads' mom and Bella's dad
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:57 PM
we gotta parent trap mads' mom and bella's dad
little werewolf knife - Today at 11:57 PM
O:
Sasha - Today at 11:58 PM
Mads and Bella have known each other since they were Practically Babies so obviously their parents would be pretty close, especially after Mads' dad passes
little werewolf knife - Today at 11:58 PM
(sidebar 2x combo: win hates bella's mom, won't hear any excuses, because he refuses to accept that she can care about bella and just not be around)
Sasha - Today at 11:58 PM
(GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOD GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD)
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 11:58 PM
hey hey hey
mads is gone for a week or so around when his dad dies
so little ten year old bella parades to his house and demands to know whats wrong and kind of ends up hugging the crap out of the poor boy
little werewolf knife - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
oh no
December 28, 2017
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:00 AM
i can't believe win and mads lost a parent at around the same time and weren't even around to comfort each other : (
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:00 AM
i have no idea how old they were when mads dad died
Sasha - Today at 12:01 AM
I usually place it at around 12 for Mads but tbh that fluctuates tons
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:03 AM
o h
well win and riannon were ~9 when their mom died and ~11 when their dad died
Sasha - Today at 12:03 AM
WELP
And Win is a year younger than Mads, right?
So that's, like,
Tay, the Boy Mayor of Cherubcord - Today at 12:04 AM
:cry:
Sasha - Today at 12:04 AM
EXACTLY the right time
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:04 AM
oh noooo
Sasha - Today at 12:07 AM
Remember when I said I was going to bed
GUESS NOT
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:07 AM
YEAH
GO THE FUCK TO BED
Sasha - Today at 12:07 AM
BUT SAPPH
PAIN
SORROW
HEARTACHE
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:07 AM
THE PAIN, SORROW, AND HEARTACHE WILL BE HERE IN THE MORNING
Sasha - Today at 12:08 AM
I leave you with this:
Mads and Win getting in their goodbyes ("just one more hug" x10000)
Mads keeps dropping hints that if Win so much as hinted he needed him here, he would stay
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:10 AM
GOD
mads definitely wants win to say he needs him, but win's too stubborn and sELF SACRIFICING to do so
Sasha - Today at 12:10 AM
So, there they are
He has to go
Knows he has to go
But he can't make himself move
His feet are locked into place
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:11 AM
(doesn't help that win's got one hand lingering on his wrist)
Sasha - Today at 12:11 AM
He searches Win's face for the dozenth time, hands clutched in the folds of his jacket (one of Mads' spares, he doesn't mind)
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:12 AM
win can't quite meet his eyes, has his jaw clenched just slightly
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:12 AM
hey, quick question
why are they both idiots
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:13 AM
the only thing he can think to say, the closest he can bring himself to admitting he doesn't want mads to go, is "i don't remember where i left my inhaler"
Sasha - Today at 12:13 AM
Because having them be smart would make for a piss-poor story, next question
Mads just chuckles and he looks so sad when he goes, "I've got spares in my kitchen drawer. Go get them and keep an eye on the place, okay? For me?"
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:14 AM
gOD
god!!!!
for once in his life, win doesn't try to pass the moment off with a goof. finally makes himself look mads dead in the eye all, "for you? anything."
they"RE SO GOOD BUT SO BAD AND I HATE THEM
Sasha - Today at 12:16 AM
The smile there, ragged around the edges and bone-tired, is worth it
"That's my Win. Thank you."
He's been stalling all this time, but if he doesn't move soon, he's seriously going to miss his flight and nobody wants to deal with the headache of having to pay for another because he's too much of a crybaby to suck it up and make it there in time, so he makes himself drop his grip
He turns
Takes one step
Then whirls around, grabs Win by the collar, gives him a kiss square on the lips, and goes, "Bye." Right before sprinting away as fast as his legs can take him
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:19 AM
FUCK
Sasha - Today at 12:19 AM
Thank you for coming to my TEDtalk, I hate my own OC and now I'm going to bed
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:19 AM
GO TO BED
LET ME REGAIN MY HEART PLS AND TY
Sasha - Today at 12:19 AM
Not just yet
I need to see Jude's reaction
THEN I go
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:20 AM
Gd o FUCK
win is so shocked he can't do anything
doesn't do anything
and when he finally manages to turn to bella (who i can only imagine is GLARING DAGGERS AT WIN FOR HIS IDIOCY) he just goes
weakly
"what, did you think you were about to watch the airport scene from literally every romantic flick ever unfold before your eyes? this is real life." and stalks off because he's FURIOUS with himself for letting mads just walk away
and because win is an impulsive fuck, he walks right to the nearest customer service counter and gets himself the next flight to wherever mads just went off to(edited)
Sasha - Today at 12:22 AM
I LITERALLY WANT TO DIE
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:23 AM
HE LEAVES BELLA ALONE TO TAKE CARE OF THE DOGS
THAT ASSHOLE
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:23 AM
HE DOESNT EVEN WARN HER PRIOR TO BUYING THE TICKET
Kitten - Today at 12:24 AM
It's probably a super expensive flight too, at this late notice
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:24 AM
she punches him the next time she sees him, i swear to god
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:24 AM
win used the credit card he stole from riannon
old habits die hard
Sasha - Today at 12:27 AM
They get to fucking... Montana or somewhere, and Mads is still at the airport because Teddy (Mads' little brother, bless his heart) just got his driver's permit and already managed to get into an accident, but they're insisting he just sit tight because Teddy wants to be the first one to see him and he's too whipped for his baby brother to get an Uber and he's just milling around with his fourth cup of coffee and second cinnabun and he sees Win and just
Literally drops everything to run to him like a FUCKING ASSHOLE, probably slips on the puddle of his own creation, and learns the fury of some poor service worker he inconvenienced
But, hey
Such is love
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:29 AM
they hug for a very very long time
$10 mads cheers up a lil
not cheers
tears
i meant to say tears
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:29 AM
win, trying to be angry and failing miserably especially since his face is buried in mads' chest, "you're lucky i like your ass too much to kick it"
Sasha - Today at 12:31 AM
"Oh, yeah? Really, is that what you're sticking with? That should be MY line, what are you DOING here, you need to get back to Seattle or Bella's gonna be pissed," but that's undercut by the way he buries his fingers into Win's hair and almost crushes him, he's holding so tight
"I can't believe you actually came after me when all you had to do was say you didn't want me to go. Stupid, awful idiot."
(His voice is too wobbly to intimidate the whiskers of a kitten)
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:34 AM
can't believe mads managed to call win both awful and an idiot in the same breath and not immediately kick himself
Sasha - Today at 12:34 AM
He's Very Vexed
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:34 AM
"you talking about how hard bella is going to kill us really doesn't put me in the mood for kissing you"
win is........a little wheezy from either the stress or the fact that mads is kIND OF CRUSHING HIM
but he's not complaining
it's the best sort of crushing
Sasha - Today at 12:36 AM
Even Mads can be a little rude when pressed, but as soon as Win mentions kissing, he just goes beet red
He lets go and remembers his manners and the fact that they're in :b:ublic
"... I shouldn't have done that, I'm sorry."
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:37 AM
oh no
oh no mads honey
you have to know win is going to take that the wrong way
oh no
Sasha - Today at 12:37 AM
I know that
As we've previously established, Mads is a fucking dumbass and will spend years making that misstep up
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:38 AM
thanks! i hate it!
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:38 AM
win, all casual as he pulls back and shoves his hands in his pockets and assumes a respectable distance from mads
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:39 AM
informs him, casually, that he's not here because he didn't want mads to go, but because he wants to be a good friend and support him through the funeral etc
Sasha - Today at 12:41 AM
(Even continuing that thought with, "-- I should have at least asked you first, but there was no time and I was scared it would be months before I saw you again, so I panicked and here we are," probably wouldn't make a dent in that initial shock of rejection issues, but he doesn't even get the chance to say that and the rest dies on his tongue.)
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:42 AM
gOD AND THEN
mads and win sharing mads' childhood room when they get to his house because there's not really?? a guest room??
Sasha - Today at 12:43 AM
And they obviously weren't expecting him to bring a plus one
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:43 AM
which should be fine, they crash literally sprawled on top of one another all the time except
suddenly it's like their years of friendship and all the work mads probaby put into warming win up to casual physical contact has?? vanished?
rather than thoughtlessly orienting towards mads, win seems to be making a point of keeping a friendly distance
Sasha - Today at 12:45 AM
Which is, lbr, the absolute LAST thing he needs because the sudden distance during an already difficult-enough time hurts way more than it should
Usually, he'd be able to corner Win and talk their issues out, sort through problems together, and come out of it with a reconciliation hug, but there's so much to do and the house is so full that they can never find the right time on their own and it's like dealing with a stranger
A thoughtful, friendly, "sorry for your loss" condolence-giving stranger with his best friend's face
He hates it
He should be helping to prepare for the funeral, picking out flowers and caskets and food, but he can't concentrate on anything and his notoriously long fuse shortens to the size of a matchstick
Everybody can see it
Everybody's smart enough to get the root cause
He's deathly afraid that he's fractured their friendship beyond repair because this has never happened before, in all their years of knowing each other, and he can't
He can't handle losing Win, too
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:50 AM
mMMMmmmmMMMMM
and it's not like win's being an ass to him
not directly, anyway.
Sasha - Today at 12:51 AM
Somehow, that's worse, it's worse because on the surface, he's doing all the right things
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:51 AM
it's still win, which means he's going out of his way to do whatever he can for this grieving family, even though he's never met the man they've lost
so it's really only when he and mads are in each other's orbit that it's clear something is wrong
Sasha - Today at 12:52 AM
Dealing with an angry Win is familiar enough, it's manageable, but this? How does he grapple with this and make it right?
How does he fix it?(edited)
What did he do wrong?
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:53 AM
they're so!!!!
one of the first things win does when they get there is arrange a flight back for the day after the funeral
since he can't leave bella alone to tend to their dogs, and he's got other responsibilities to get back to
so there's, once again, a time limit on the amount of time they have left together before.....however long mads is gone, helping his mother out
Sasha - Today at 12:54 AM
This is bad for my heart
Madswin is going to put me in the grave
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:55 AM
that is why! you need to go to bed
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:55 AM
and
and
because win is an asshole, we can't forget that no matter how good he is sometimes
he tries to slip out without saying goodbye
Sasha - Today at 12:55 AM
I am literally incapable of leaving before this gets resolved, it's just not happening
YEAH
NOPE
ABSO-FUCKING-LUTELY NOT
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:56 AM
i mean, good point, i need to stay through and watch my stupid idiot children make up
just so my daughter can punch them when they get home
little werewolf knife - Today at 12:56 AM
if alex plays along
which i know he will because we're soulbonded
shit's about to get even harder before it gets better
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:56 AM
why are you like this as humans, jw
Sasha - Today at 12:57 AM
I had a deeply troubling childhood, if that helps
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 12:57 AM
understandable, have a nice night
Sasha - Today at 12:57 AM
God, but no, I really do have to go because I've got Adult Shit To Do tomorrow so AS MUCH AS I WANT TO KEEP THIS GOING, I'm going to have to tap out for the night
Jude, please, for all the love you bear me,
Make it hurt worse
I love you all
Goodnight
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:02 AM
ok so
this is going to be short, bc i work best with my soulmate slash partner in crime BUT
win does have chronic asthma, as those who know him will remember
his lungs are not great under stress, and apparently they're not great when exposed to midwestern air, which is very different than seattle air
he's been fine for the past week, but he hasn't had an inhaler to keep the wheezes at bay and they've just been
building up
and building up
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:04 AM
jude, no
i have a bad feeling about where this leads and i don't like it
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:04 AM
and so when mads confronts him as he's trying to slip off to the airport without saying his goodbyes
win has an asthma attack
and instead of going to the airport in an uber
he goes to the hospital in an ambulance
: )
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:05 AM
GOD FUCKING DAMN IT THOUGH
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:05 AM
tbc when my wonderful husband awakens and returns from adult business

Sasha - Today at 1:06 AM
HEY
SO
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:07 AM
oh my god
Sasha - Today at 1:07 AM
I CAME BACK TO TELL YOU THAT YOU'RE THE WORST AND I HATE YOU AND HOW DARE YOU AND
Kitten - Today at 1:07 AM
OMFG
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:07 AM
can we like
take his phone away
Sasha - Today at 1:07 AM
NO
ABSOLUTELY NOT
I'M FINISHING WHAT I STARTED
So. Confrontation. Mads is no stranger to having to corner Win because getting him to open up about his feelings is a bitch and a half but catching him trying to leave? Without a goodbye? Without anything? Like less than a stranger? That cuts, and it cuts deep
He needs answers and he's not moving until Win gives them up, everything about how he thinks he can just walk out, because he's afraid that if he lets Win go, things are finished between them
And then comes an attack (he didn't even think about inhalers, was so preoccupied with being hurt and grieving that he didn't even consider something so important, how could he have just let it slip by him like that?)and all that anger and fear immediately turns to panic
He just about busts a door off its hinges running to get somebody to call 911 and he's not allowed in the ambulance because he isn't family and the entire time, he's a complete wreck
The only thing worse than knowing that he's responsible for this is having to be the one to call Riannon and explain his involvement over the phone
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:17 AM
thankfully riannon knows win well enough that after a VERY TENSE MOMENT OF ANGRY SILENCE she calls him an idiot instead of mads
and then demands that mads go look after their stupid idiot, even if he can only hang out in the hospital waiting room
Sasha - Today at 1:18 AM
Double thankfully is that it's not a long wait before he can go back and see him
As soon as he sees Win (who's looking frightfully exhausted but not too badly dented) he's tripping all over himself to get out a dozen different apologies at once
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:19 AM
[raises hand] i have a question for the good of the cause also
does the l word slip out in the middle of the apologies
Sasha - Today at 1:21 AM
Mm, I don't think right from the get-go, no, but after a little back and forth in the heat of the moment, who knows?
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:21 AM
thank you!
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:21 AM
god!!!!
win has to raise his voice in order to get mads to stop trying to apologize long enough for him to tell him that he's an idiot, and not to blame himself for win's shitty lungs and inability to remember his own damn inhaler
and then
much more quietly
"i'm sorry"
Sasha - Today at 1:25 AM
He's about to vehemently insist that Win has nothing to apologize for before he stops himself and his brain catches up with the fact that, oh yeah, this literally happened because Mads thought he had something to apologize for
But it's not about him, not right now
So he takes a breath, deep and slow, and says with palpable relief, "I'm just glad that you're safe."
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:29 AM
"you don't want to try and kiss it better anyway?"
and a week ago, this would have been the sort of thoughtless, goofy flirtation win's been throwing mads' way for years. but it's taken on a whole new context now, not to mention win is looking at mads very intently(edited)
Sasha - Today at 1:31 AM
There's a long, long pause wherein Mads is suddenly FASCINATED with a miscolored tile on the floor before he just goes, "I kind of thought it was kissing that got us into this whole mess." And then, quieter, "I tried not to hope you'd offer."
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:35 AM
OKAY IM ABOUT TO WRAP THIS UP BC  YOU  NEED SLEEP
here we go
Sasha - Today at 1:35 AM
BUT WHAT IF I DON'T WANNA, HUH
WHAT IF I JUST WANT TO DO THIS FOREVER
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:36 AM
ALEXANDER LASTNAME
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:39 AM
win looks at him for a long moment of silence, which is obviously unusual for win because he doesn't spend a lot of time, or any time, stopping to think about what he says before he says it. when he speaks, it's very to the point "Right now is the worst time we could be trying to figure this out. Us out. Whatever. You know that, I know that, so we're not going to do it. We're going to hang out here until I'm cleared to fly home. You're going to help your mom, for as long as she needs you and as long as you need to be here for yourself. You're going to text me every day, and we're still not going to talk about this. And then eventually, you're going to come home, and we're going to be in a better place to have this talk." a pause, and then a little grin, "Literally, no airports or hospitals. You hear me?"
and that's that
and months later, when mads does come home, win forgets everything he said about talking and finding a better place to have that talk, and kisses him right there in front of the gate
Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:40 AM
that's very mature of him and i'm so pr-- OH MY GOD
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:40 AM
The End
rug binch (ง •̀ゝ•́)ง - Today at 1:41 AM
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Sapphy New Year! - Today at 1:41 AM
I SHOULDN'T BE SURPRISED BUT I AM ANYWAY
CAREWYN OCHOA IS A DISASTER AND A MENACE
Sasha - Today at 1:41 AM
JUDE I WILL COME TO ALASKA AND I WILL GRAB YOU BY THE SHOULDERS AND I WILL start crying into your bosom because you wreck me every single time and even when I open myself up to it I am still never prepared and I love you so much and why are you like this what did I ever do to deserve you
Sasha - Today at 1:44 AM
One more tiny addition before I go off to sleep: The night that Win goes back to Seattle, Mads is texting him as promised and he's about to drift off to sleep before his dastardly hands work one last sinister magic and type out, "Goodnight, love you."
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:45 AM
when it gets really rough being apart from mads, or he's having a bad day and he doesn't want to burden mads with it because he's got enough on his plate, win stares at that particular text like a lovesick teen
THATS THE LAST
now go sleep, i love you :kiss:
Sasha - Today at 1:47 AM
NO HANG ON I HAVE TO KNOW HOW WIN RESPONDS, DOES MADS GET INSECURE BECAUSE WIN SAID NOT TO TALK ABOUT IT, IS HE BREAKING THE RULES, DID HE DO A BAD THING, HE JUST WANTED TO EXPRESS HIMSELF
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:48 AM
HMMM
hmMMMmmm
Sasha - Today at 1:48 AM
(He comes to this crushing realization half-asleep and jolts awake while too afraid to check his messages)
(He sits there for an hour working up the gumption to look)
(Eventually, Teddy just rips the phone out of his hands and reads it to him)
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:48 AM
it's
Sasha - Today at 1:48 AM
(... Or reports there was nothing there????? Win, you heartless boy.)
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:49 AM
:dog:
+
go to sleep, maddox
which
aS WE DISCUSSED THE OTHER DAY
i imagine mads can hear the slow, precise ~adoring~ way win says his full name(edited)
Sasha - Today at 1:50 AM
Mads melts and Teddy Doesn't Get It
Why is that your reaction
Doesn't it mean he's upset with you
"You'll understand when you're older."
little werewolf knife - Today at 1:52 AM
also, several hours later, while mads is asleep and win's flight has just landed, at a totally unreasonable hour
"seattle feels different without you here"
and then several minutes after that, when win realizes the weight of his words, he goofs it off with a ":'("
Sasha - Today at 1:53 AM
Thanks, this ruined my life
And Mads responds with a wholly serious, 100% heartfelt, "I miss you already."