reasearch for meds

e2b | gravegods.pw:  what
e2b | gravegods.pw:  shutup
e2b | gravegods.pw:  I dont have time
e2b | gravegods.pw:  for shit
Your college textbooks: Aight man, sorry.
e2b | gravegods.pw:  np
e2b | gravegods.pw:  go do something with your time
e2b | gravegods.pw:  stop playing games so much
Your college textbooks: I don't want you getting the wrong idea about me playing games. I do it because it is fun, and I may play them a bit over excessive, but I can definitely live life without playing them. I am not as bad of an addict as others, and I've been to places like Juvy for 17 days, so I know that I can do without. I just prefer them over some board games such as monopoly, dominos, Uno, and Connect4. I would get a job too, but I have a criminal record until I am 20, so I can't do shit. Plus full-time working at McDonald's for $7.49 an hour is a bit trashy.
e2b | gravegods.pw:  they are 100%
e2b | gravegods.pw:  a waste of time
Your college textbooks: Games, or jobs?
Your college textbooks: I can concur, and I will give a bit of reasoning behind my explanation as well. I agree because all I am doing is lying down here on my laptop doing no physical activity, when this upcoming summer I can maybe even join the school's wrestling team next year if I work out. However, that really isn't my personality. I enjoy playing with friends from school, and having a fun time while I can.
e2b | gravegods.pw:  why are you typing like that
e2b | gravegods.pw:  niga
e2b | gravegods.pw:  zero fucks
Your college textbooks: I honestly have no idea what you mean. I can say something though that might give you an answer. I am quite the skid, and a huge sociopath.
e2b | gravegods.pw: what nigga
e2b | gravegods.pw: My name is Bleach and I like to code in Java , HTML , Lua , PHP , Batch , CSS , Bash , Python , and C-Sharp .
e2b | gravegods.pw: so your a liar?
e2b | gravegods.pw: why lie
Your college textbooks: I am lying?
Your college textbooks: Oh I am, my name isn't Bleach. Sorry.
e2b | gravegods.pw: ok
e2b | gravegods.pw: how about
e2b | gravegods.pw: you actually
e2b | gravegods.pw: learn java
e2b | gravegods.pw: or python
e2b | gravegods.pw: something small
e2b | gravegods.pw: to start with'
Your college textbooks: You don't have to keep calling me a C+P, I get it a lot. I honestly don't C+P though. I know Java, and can answer yo questions if you want proof. I may not know every single thing in the language, as there are many libraries and classes, but I know the syntax.
Your college textbooks: I am making a TF2 map rn, it will be trash, but it will have some fun things for me to do.
e2b | gravegods.pw: I am quite the skid
e2b | gravegods.pw: I am lying? Oh I am
Your college textbooks: What about it?
e2b | gravegods.pw: ou don't have to keep calling me a C+P
e2b | gravegods.pw: I get it a lot
e2b | gravegods.pw: I wonder why you get it alot
e2b | gravegods.pw: but anyways
e2b | gravegods.pw: im done talking with you
e2b | gravegods.pw: got better stuff to do
Your college textbooks: I don't blame you, I am toxic as fuck. A cancer to talk to as well. I sometimes do question why I get it a lot though.
e2b | gravegods.pw: you need help
e2b | gravegods.pw: but you cant help yourself
e2b | gravegods.pw: so there is no point
e2b | gravegods.pw: so how about
e2b | gravegods.pw: you stop being a little depressing fuck
e2b | gravegods.pw: and try to fix yourself
e2b | gravegods.pw: see where it went wrong
e2b | gravegods.pw: anyways
e2b | gravegods.pw: thats what I get from you
Your college textbooks: If I got on your bad side, I truly didn't mean to. I am terribly sorry for that.
e2b | gravegods.pw: no you didnt
e2b | gravegods.pw: wtfd
e2b | gravegods.pw: what makes you think that
Your college textbooks: You called me a depressing little fuck, which gave this depressing little fuck a reason to think I got on your bad side.
e2b | gravegods.pw: That dosent mean
e2b | gravegods.pw: your on my bad side
e2b | gravegods.pw: honestly
e2b | gravegods.pw: is that not what I precieve you as
e2b | gravegods.pw: you litterally talk about how your terrible
e2b | gravegods.pw: you have no self esteem
e2b | gravegods.pw: you are young
Your college textbooks: I am pretty naive, and I want you to roast me saying how bad I am for looking what esteem meant even though we went over it almost 5 times in class.
e2b | gravegods.pw: how about you develop a ego
e2b | gravegods.pw: like everyone else in this toxic communtiy
e2b | gravegods.pw: and say you are better than everyone else
Your college textbooks: I would, but then I'd get fucked over by a guy like x0s again, and it would go back to a no self esteem, skid, and shy guy.
e2b | gravegods.pw: I used to be a little autistic fuck
Your college textbooks: And I am not just putting on some act because I got fucked, I would honestly have the biggest ego still even if it were for that.
e2b | gravegods.pw: and never got fucked over
e2b | gravegods.pw: how did he fuck you over?
Your college textbooks: Pretty sure that video got something to do with it. I won't try to get it took down or anything, but even my friends that have no connection to you guys now know about it, and they think I am pretty retarded now. Which I am, but it isn't as bad as they think.
e2b | gravegods.pw: people on the internet
e2b | gravegods.pw: arnt not your friends
Your college textbooks: I won't let a video ruin my whole life though, I will thrive as much as possible.
Your college textbooks: Which is down a lane where I get raped. The end.
e2b | gravegods.pw: how did a video
e2b | gravegods.pw: of you
e2b | gravegods.pw: talking
e2b | gravegods.pw: ruin your life
Your college textbooks: It didn't, I said I wouldn't let it, didn't I?
e2b | gravegods.pw: how would it
Your college textbooks: People from my school even know about it to be honest with you, but my skiddish self makes it hard to get just a little roast.
e2b | gravegods.pw: do they make
Your college textbooks is now playing Team Fortress 2. Click here to join.
e2b | gravegods.pw: fun of you for it
Your college textbooks: They used to, not anymore, so it makes me wonder if they still remember.
e2b | gravegods.pw: how many kids
Your college textbooks: Maybe 3 isn't enough to be concerned about, but it is the fact that these skids can tell other people.
e2b | gravegods.pw: are they your friends
Your college textbooks: Yeah, they're not the best friends to have though, but they're fucking hilarious.
e2b | gravegods.pw: so why do you care
e2b | gravegods.pw: honestly
e2b | gravegods.pw: if they know
Your college textbooks: I don't care, remember? You said I gave no fucks.
e2b | gravegods.pw: what
Your college textbooks: Yeah, I realized I created a loophole, and there is a leak somewhere in my logic.
e2b | gravegods.pw: why do you
e2b | gravegods.pw: do that
e2b | gravegods.pw: why do you try
e2b | gravegods.pw: to 1up people
e2b | gravegods.pw: like that
Your college textbooks: I have not the slightest idea of what you mean by 1up.
e2b | gravegods.pw: Be smarter
e2b | gravegods.pw: or atleast
e2b | gravegods.pw: thats what it is coming off as
Your college textbooks: I'd rather be autistic, it is suiting for me.
Your college textbooks: e2b, this has been a wonderful conversation I've had with you. You gave me a sight for things like this, but this conversation is also spiraling into cancer.
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah its your fault too
e2b | gravegods.pw: I always contain my autism
Your college textbooks: Nah man, it is always my fault.
e2b | gravegods.pw: when I talk to others
Your college textbooks: My profile picture is me btw, just in case you wanted to add it to the dox you've been working on.
e2b | gravegods.pw: i give
e2b | gravegods.pw: zero fucks
e2b | gravegods.pw: about wasting my time
e2b | gravegods.pw: on you
Your college textbooks: I wouldn't blame you for that. My life isn't even worth the time.
e2b | gravegods.pw: how do you except
e2b | gravegods.pw: for anyone to be your friend
Your college textbooks: I always had something to hold onto though. That is how.
e2b | gravegods.pw: when you are like that
Your college textbooks: I continue with my life only because of the single thought that I had, "Maybe I was destined for great things", and you may not believe in predestiny, I don't either, but it was an occurence that I also had a thought of.
e2b | gravegods.pw: listen autist
e2b | gravegods.pw: if you were destine
e2b | gravegods.pw: for great things
e2b | gravegods.pw: you would stop
e2b | gravegods.pw: playing your stupid fucking sandbox
e2b | gravegods.pw: games right now
e2b | gravegods.pw: and go learn something
e2b | gravegods.pw: and no
e2b | gravegods.pw: playing in hammer
e2b | gravegods.pw: isnt gonna get you anywhere
Your college textbooks: What about cooking food for my siblings who are selfish fucks in this foster home? Or mowing the lawn every week? Or busting my ass helping people around the house? Huh? Maybe that did strike something, but I assure you it wasn't ego, it just slightly made me tense that you said I am going nowhere. I might be a lost cause already, but that is for me to decide.
e2b | gravegods.pw: how old are you
Your college textbooks: I am almost 15.
e2b | gravegods.pw: what do you want to do with your life
Your college textbooks: I want to accomplish 4 years to get a bachelors in Computer Programming, the join the U.S. Marines afterwards. So when I discharge, I don't end up on the streets.
e2b | gravegods.pw: 4 years to get a bachelors in Computer Programming
e2b | gravegods.pw: what is this gonna do for you
Your college textbooks: I don't know what it would do for me, I still have 3 years though to make a final decision.
e2b | gravegods.pw: why is that your plan if you have not a thought of what it will do for you?
Your college textbooks: e2b, I honestly don't care if I die on the streets, or to a bomb blowing up in my face. Why would you think it would have the occurred thought in my retarded ass mind that I could starve without a job? Or that I am going nowhere in life? Because all this world is a living hell that I wish to be freed from.
e2b | gravegods.pw: you know
e2b | gravegods.pw: when you said
e2b | gravegods.pw: you were 14
e2b | gravegods.pw: and were working on tf2 map really got to me
e2b | gravegods.pw: cause when I was 14
e2b | gravegods.pw: the summer before highschool
e2b | gravegods.pw: I made a tf2 server
e2b | gravegods.pw: and it was really autistic
e2b | gravegods.pw: and I dealt with the worst of autism
e2b | gravegods.pw: and I made a tf2 map
e2b | gravegods.pw: with hammer
e2b | gravegods.pw: and cancer minecraft map
e2b | gravegods.pw: for my cancer server
e2b | gravegods.pw: so that really got to me
e2b | gravegods.pw: so for the next years
e2b | gravegods.pw: i always thought
e2b | gravegods.pw: wow im going to grow up
e2b | gravegods.pw: get a college degree
e2b | gravegods.pw: in computer shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: and im gonna have a nice life
e2b | gravegods.pw: over the last two year
e2b | gravegods.pw: I stayed developing for these shitty source games
e2b | gravegods.pw: back in 2014
e2b | gravegods.pw: I used to be a skid
e2b | gravegods.pw: on mpgh
e2b | gravegods.pw: downloading gmod hacks
e2b | gravegods.pw: in 2015
e2b | gravegods.pw: I made some more servers
e2b | gravegods.pw: and worked on my coding
e2b | gravegods.pw: did that all for free
e2b | gravegods.pw: nows its 2016
e2b | gravegods.pw: and all I make is 500$ every couple months from this shitty hobby and relised I wasted all my time on playing games
e2b | gravegods.pw: while all these faggots like kittix and the rest of them are above me
e2b | gravegods.pw: so thats the only reason why i am telling you to stop playing games and actually go learn shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: and if you are trolling me
e2b | gravegods.pw: thanks for wasting my time
Your college textbooks: Sounds similar to my life so far besides making money, even though it may be hard to believe. You opened up my eyes though on having to make a decision, time does fly by fast I know, bbut now that you've stated that, I feel like I need to start doing some good planning.
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah
e2b | gravegods.pw: if you arnt
e2b | gravegods.pw: qutting playing stupid shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: now
e2b | gravegods.pw: and learning and planning
e2b | gravegods.pw: for your future
e2b | gravegods.pw: you are gonna fall behind
e2b | gravegods.pw: im behind right now
e2b | gravegods.pw: and it takes alot to catch up
Your college textbooks: I've been having to catch up after missing 49 days the first semester. I am doing two semesters in one, a few months ago I finished the first half, and I am almost finished with the second now. I just have the semester tests to do.
Your college textbooks: e2b, I am sorry if I wasted your time for there to get to a point of climax in the conversation, but I thank you a lot.
Your college textbooks: No, not if I did, because I know I did*
e2b | gravegods.pw: and you said you live in a fosterhome
Your college textbooks: Yeah, I did.
e2b | gravegods.pw: do you live in a real home now
Your college textbooks: Yes, I did live in a foster home for a while though. My grandmother got really sick with lupis, and for the first semester of a course of 49 days, I had to help her by skipping school n' shit. So I was put intoa  foster home since my grandma couldn't take care of me.
Your college textbooks: At the foster home though, life was even harder.
Your college textbooks: The only way I got out was going to a mental hospital for suicidal thoughts
Your college textbooks: Now I live with my mom.
e2b | gravegods.pw: what was the mental hospital like?
Your college textbooks: It was like juvy, but I learn quickly what to do and what not. I stayed there for 9 days, and got out early. The second time I went though, I stayed for 8 days. So a total of 15.
Your college textbooks: Tbh with you, not even juvy is as bad as you think.
e2b | gravegods.pw: I dont know what juvy is like
e2b | gravegods.pw: was it a real mental hospital
e2b | gravegods.pw: or one for kids?
Your college textbooks: A real one. People who cut even went there.
Your college textbooks: People who were even crazy
e2b | gravegods.pw: did people who saw things go there?
Your college textbooks: The doctor asks you if you've been seeing or hearing things lately, so I assume so. I didn't just make this evidence as my claim though, people were trying to kick down doors at 3 AM all the time as well.
Your college textbooks: Behind every piece of drywall was solid steel, every window was bullet proof, beds were as hard as stone, doors were 2 inch think titanium.
Your college textbooks: Everything on the walls and shit were mounted very well.
e2b | gravegods.pw: did they shoot you up
e2b | gravegods.pw: with meds?
Your college textbooks: Doors had 1500 pounds of magnetic force on them.
e2b | gravegods.pw: or was it optional
e2b | gravegods.pw: or did he do that to others?
Your college textbooks: If you have violet outbreaks, you'd get a shot full of sleeping shit idk what it is called, but in yo ass too.
Your college textbooks: Blood tests every week, and drug tests every morning at 6 AM
Your college textbooks: The whole damn place like clockwork, always on schedule.
e2b | gravegods.pw: were there schizo's there?
Your college textbooks: Pretty depressing.
Your college textbooks: Psychos? Not that I've seen, they keep people like that on the 4th floor.
e2b | gravegods.pw: you ever were in contact with them?
Your college textbooks: No, because I lied to the doc about not seeing and hearing shit for a while because I didn't want to go there for long term which lasts 3-6 months.
e2b | gravegods.pw: those people are no joke
Your college textbooks: Going to sound like a lie, but my second time there, I remembered the search protocol in full, and was able to sneek in shanks, razor blades, and a cell phone.
Your college textbooks: I hid the shanks under the glued in part of the insole of my shoe, razor blades on the other foot in the shoe, and the cell phone in my jacket that they let you keep if you have cuts. The cell phone was in the media pocket on the inside that fairly blends in which they always fail to check.
e2b | gravegods.pw: when you said
e2b | gravegods.pw: you lied about
e2b | gravegods.pw: seeing a hearing stuff
e2b | gravegods.pw: what did you see and hear
e2b | gravegods.pw: do you remember?
Your college textbooks: Sorry, had to take my meds. I don't remember exactly what I saw, because my medicine fucks with my memory really badly, but I can say think of dreaming, except with your eyes open.
e2b | gravegods.pw: what meds are you on?
e2b | gravegods.pw: what meds did they give you
e2b | gravegods.pw: while there?
e2b | gravegods.pw: thats the important part
Your college textbooks: Abilify for depression and seeing shit, and melatonin to help me sleep.
e2b | gravegods.pw: was it forced on you
Your college textbooks: Yes
e2b | gravegods.pw: what if you failed to comply
Your college textbooks: Because I was with DHS, it was forced since I had no parents to say no.
Your college textbooks: If I failed to comply, it would be given in a shot.
e2b | gravegods.pw: https://www.google.com/search?q=Abilify&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
e2b | gravegods.pw: this shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: right here
e2b | gravegods.pw: is what fucks with you
e2b | gravegods.pw: you never
e2b | gravegods.pw: want to take this
e2b | gravegods.pw: what are you on right now?
Your college textbooks: I used to take ceriquil, idk how you spell it, and it didn't fuck with my head, but it made my really drousy all the time.
Your college textbooks: Still on Abilify.
e2b | gravegods.pw: research it
e2b | gravegods.pw: I know
e2b | gravegods.pw: you shouldnt be on that shit
Your college textbooks: Do I have to research shit I will probably never remember? xD
e2b | gravegods.pw: why take
e2b | gravegods.pw: abilify
e2b | gravegods.pw: what were you like off it?
e2b | gravegods.pw: do you remember
e2b | gravegods.pw: how long were you on this for?
Your college textbooks: I can remember everything before I took it, but not after in detail. I have to take abilify, I've been on it for months.
e2b | gravegods.pw: when did you start taking it
Your college textbooks: Like in March
e2b | gravegods.pw: what happens if you stop taking it
Your college textbooks: March 29th
Your college textbooks: If I stop, I start seeing and hearing shit. it doesn't help with depression though at all.
e2b | gravegods.pw: why are you taking it
e2b | gravegods.pw: what are you seeing and hearing?
Your college textbooks: I am taking it because my therapist tells my mom it is a must.
e2b | gravegods.pw: is that the only reason
e2b | gravegods.pw: or do you believe you need it
Your college textbooks: Mate, I haven't been seeing or hearing things lately, and I couldn't tell you what I saw or heard before I did take it, because I honestly don't remember.
e2b | gravegods.pw: cause shit like this
e2b | gravegods.pw: really fucks shit up
Your college textbooks: I believe I don't need it. But apparently I do.
e2b | gravegods.pw: then dont take it
e2b | gravegods.pw: replace with sugar pills
e2b | gravegods.pw: write down what you see and hear
e2b | gravegods.pw: keep it in a log
Your college textbooks: Just refuse? What if I start seeing shit again?
Your college textbooks: Aight man.
e2b | gravegods.pw: replace some with sugar pills
e2b | gravegods.pw: or something
e2b | gravegods.pw: what were you seeing you
e2b | gravegods.pw: tho
e2b | gravegods.pw: you have to remember
e2b | gravegods.pw: some of it
Your college textbooks: I'll try it, is this for research for you though?
e2b | gravegods.pw: I would like to see it yes
e2b | gravegods.pw: but it is for you also
e2b | gravegods.pw: I guess
e2b | gravegods.pw: just dont harm anyone
e2b | gravegods.pw: or yourself
e2b | gravegods.pw: when you are off it
Your college textbooks: I remember it slightly. A helicopter falling from the sky, and I started playing with the tail fin after it crashes.
Your college textbooks: Was weird af
e2b | gravegods.pw: when did seeing things happen?
e2b | gravegods.pw: before all this
Your college textbooks: After my first time I went to the mental hospital. I snapped in the 7th day there.
Your college textbooks: The day before I discharged
e2b | gravegods.pw: did they give you
e2b | gravegods.pw: anything before that
e2b | gravegods.pw: did you touch metal
e2b | gravegods.pw: did you touch any liquids and shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: anything toxic
Your college textbooks: What do you mean?
Your college textbooks: No, no.
e2b | gravegods.pw: metal can contain shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: from other patients]
e2b | gravegods.pw: etc
e2b | gravegods.pw: that can go into yu
e2b | gravegods.pw: it happens with steroids at the gym
Your college textbooks: I did take Repidal, concerta, idk how to spell it though, before ceraquel and abilify.
e2b | gravegods.pw: etc
Your college textbooks: Nah man.
Your college textbooks: I didn't.
e2b | gravegods.pw: Risperdal
Your college textbooks: I'd never cheat for personal gain.
e2b | gravegods.pw: is an antipsychotic medicine
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: tell me when you first
Your college textbooks: I have really bad anger issues, well, used to, and I also have autism, and asperger syndrome, so at the time it was necessary as well.
e2b | gravegods.pw: started on this pill shit
Your college textbooks: When I was I think 6
e2b | gravegods.pw: you are high functioning autist atleast
Your college textbooks: Yes, I am.
e2b | gravegods.pw: anger issues
e2b | gravegods.pw: were uncontrolable?
Your college textbooks: Yeah
Your college textbooks: Mate, wtf are you trying to do anyways? I am confused o-O
Your college textbooks: Why all the questions, and research?
e2b | gravegods.pw: while first
e2b | gravegods.pw: ive known people that had to go to a mental hospital
e2b | gravegods.pw: and later killed themselves
e2b | gravegods.pw: and I suspect things like the medicine and shit had to do it
e2b | gravegods.pw: so I reasearched alot on it
e2b | gravegods.pw: and it has alot of shit
Your college textbooks: I appreciate you looking out for me if you are, but even if I killed myself, no need for you to worry.
e2b | gravegods.pw: While then please help me for my own gain atleast
e2b | gravegods.pw: so I can figure out
e2b | gravegods.pw: better what happened to my buddy
Your college textbooks: In the mean time? I wouldn't mind lying to my mom.
e2b | gravegods.pw: what
Your college textbooks: Idk what the first question was, something in my head just went blank.
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah me either
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: give me a run down of your pill history real quick
e2b | gravegods.pw: it started with the anger
e2b | gravegods.pw: and it went into
e2b | gravegods.pw: Risperdal
e2b | gravegods.pw: correct?
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah you gotta get off this shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: it is what is fucking you up
e2b | gravegods.pw: I believe
e2b | gravegods.pw: http://www.drugs.com/sfx/risperdal-side-effects.html
Your college textbooks: Rispadal, concerta, and melatonin at ages 6-14; Ceraquel and benedryl at ages 14- december 12th then after a few months it went to abilify and melatonin.
e2b | gravegods.pw: read some of this shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: Concerta (methylphenidate) is a central nervous system stimulant. It affects chemicals in the brain and nerves that contribute to hyperactivity and impulse control. Concerta extended-release tablets are used to treat attention deficit disorder (ADD), attention deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), and...
e2b | gravegods.pw: did you read about these
e2b | gravegods.pw: already?
Your college textbooks: No wonder my fucking back huts so damn bad?
Your college textbooks: hurts*
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah
e2b | gravegods.pw: http://www.drugs.com/sfx/concerta-side-effects.html
e2b | gravegods.pw: Okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: stop for a second
e2b | gravegods.pw: now remember how hard
Your college textbooks: And no wonder my fucking vision just goes black when I wake up and get out of bed, or walk through a door.
Your college textbooks: Lol, wtf were they thinking when they made this shit?
e2b | gravegods.pw: to put people down
e2b | gravegods.pw: and kill them
e2b | gravegods.pw: your guardians
e2b | gravegods.pw: reasearch this shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: this is so fucked
e2b | gravegods.pw: Melatonin is a manmade form of a hormone produced in the brain that helps regulate your sleep and wake cycle.
e2b | gravegods.pw: your brain is gone
e2b | gravegods.pw: litterally
e2b | gravegods.pw: this is not healthy
e2b | gravegods.pw: at all
e2b | gravegods.pw: what one of your parents
e2b | gravegods.pw: / guardians
e2b | gravegods.pw: allowed this to happen to you
Your college textbooks: Bro, if you are trying to like, use this info to get my taken away from my mom or something, I'd be pissed off. But yeah, it was my mom. She is an RN.
e2b | gravegods.pw: again I could give zero fucks about your life this is just for my gain also
e2b | gravegods.pw: what is a RN?
Your college textbooks: Registered Nurse
Your college textbooks: Does any of these medications speed metabolism? Because I have a high ass metabolism and can eat like a mofo without gaining weight.
e2b | gravegods.pw: after this conversation ask her why she let this happen to you
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah
e2b | gravegods.pw: wieght gain/wieght loss
e2b | gravegods.pw: is frequent
e2b | gravegods.pw: cause
e2b | gravegods.pw: some of the stimulents
e2b | gravegods.pw: open up your nervous system
e2b | gravegods.pw: kinda acts liek ephedrine
e2b | gravegods.pw: like*
Your college textbooks: If anything, my nervous system has not opened up, and got worse. xD
Your college textbooks: I don't feel pain like I used to.
e2b | gravegods.pw: http://www.drugs.com/sfx/melatonin-side-effects.html
e2b | gravegods.pw: is pain worse
e2b | gravegods.pw: or easyer?
e2b | gravegods.pw: this shit
Your college textbooks: Easier
e2b | gravegods.pw: is ruining your body
e2b | gravegods.pw: this is so sad
Your college textbooks: A scary thought tbh, but idgaf about my body.
e2b | gravegods.pw: jeez
Your college textbooks: Just as long as it looks good in death, that is all.
e2b | gravegods.pw: yeah of course you dont
e2b | gravegods.pw: all this shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: fucks with your brain
e2b | gravegods.pw: so much
e2b | gravegods.pw: I wouldnt expect
e2b | gravegods.pw: much less
e2b | gravegods.pw: http://www.drugs.com/benadryl.html
e2b | gravegods.pw: why this
Your college textbooks: So wait. Abilify to stop depression, but melatonin to increase it? Wonderful logic my psychiatrist has.
e2b | gravegods.pw: gimmie a second
e2b | gravegods.pw: It is not certain whether melatonin is effective in treating any medical condition. Medicinal use of this product has not been approved by the FDA.
e2b | gravegods.pw: It is not certain whether melatonin is effective in treating any medical condition. Medicinal use of this product has not been approved by the FDA.
e2b | gravegods.pw: It is not certain whether melatonin is effective in treating any medical condition. Medicinal use of this product has not been approved by the FDA.
e2b | gravegods.pw: It is not certain whether melatonin is effective in treating any medical condition. Medicinal use of this product has not been approved by the FDA.
e2b | gravegods.pw: It is not certain whether melatonin is effective in treating any medical condition. Medicinal use of this product has not been approved by the FDA.
e2b | gravegods.pw: It is not certain whether melatonin is effective in treating any medical condition. Medicinal use of this product has not been approved by the FDA.
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: your best bet is
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: we are gonna go through all this shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: and see
e2b | gravegods.pw: why you are taking it at the least
e2b | gravegods.pw: Melatonin is often sold as a dietary supplement. There are no regulated manufacturing standards in place for many herbal compounds and some marketed supplements have been found to be contaminated with toxic metals or other drugs. Herbal/health supplements should be purchased from a reliable source to minimize the risk of contamination.
e2b | gravegods.pw: this explains weight loss
e2b | gravegods.pw: if you are still on it
Your college textbooks: I am not a psychiatrist, and don't know what half of the shit is. I use Melatonin for sleeping well.
e2b | gravegods.pw: Before using melatonin, talk to your healthcare provider. You may not be able to use this medicine if you have certain medical conditions, especially:

    diabetes;

    depression;

    a bleeding or blood clotting disorder such as hemophilia;

    high or low blood pressure;

    epilepsy or other seizure disorder; or

    if you are using any medicine to prevent organ transplant rejection.
e2b | gravegods.pw: You may not be able to use this medicine if you have certain medical conditions, especially:
e2b | gravegods.pw: depression;
e2b | gravegods.pw: this is so fucking sick
e2b | gravegods.pw: so are you sill
e2b | gravegods.pw: still on abilify
e2b | gravegods.pw: and melatonin right now
Your college textbooks: Yes, in fact, I took it right before you said not to.
e2b | gravegods.pw: which one
Your college textbooks: Both
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay you said you cant remember shit
e2b | gravegods.pw: right
e2b | gravegods.pw: after you take it?
Your college textbooks: I can remember shit, just not after I sleep, or after a while, and definitely not well if it has been 5 minutes.
e2b | gravegods.pw: okay
e2b | gravegods.pw: copy and paste
e2b | gravegods.pw: this whole conversation
e2b | gravegods.pw: into pastebinm
e2b | gravegods.pw: and sticky note it to your desktop
e2b | gravegods.pw: very important
e2b | gravegods.pw: I havent closed out of the window yet so i can
e2b | gravegods.pw: so do you want me too?
Your college textbooks: Yeah.
Your college textbooks: Lol