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- (21:14:31) shaymins@hotmail.com Alright, against my better judgement I'm here. Say whatever you must right now.
- (21:14:41) Juna Well fuck, didn't expect that.
- (21:15:10) shaymins@hotmail.com I know you didn't, but I tire of the messages and one-sided conversations.
- (21:15:26) Juna Mm, me too. How've you been?
- (21:16:04) shaymins@hotmail.com I've been fine. Took last week off of school because of sickness.
- (21:17:08) Juna I want to say lucky, but I'm sure it was shit.
- I have 2 assignments due Tuesday and happen to be addicted to a new tv show :/ Doesn't work out so well.
- (21:17:30) Juna I feel like I should be talking about something more important
- (21:17:38) shaymins@hotmail.com Probably.
- (21:17:50) Juna But honestly, I'm a little confused myself
- (21:18:00) Juna I think I will be for a while.
- (21:18:18) Juna I'm not sure why I'm mad
- (21:18:40) Juna I assume you're mad 'cause I'm mad
- (21:19:29) shaymins@hotmail.com I'm not especially mad, I'm just sick of everything and I'd like it all to stop one way or another.
- (21:19:59) Juna If it makes you feel any better, I don't feel anything.
- (21:20:49) Juna I want us to be able to continue on, I want us to look back at this and laugh. I don't see it happening, but it's a nice thought.
- (21:21:11) shaymins@hotmail.com Yes, it seems doubtful at this point.
- (21:21:32) Juna Why is it doubtful, from your point of view?
- (21:21:41) Juna I haven't heard your point of view
- (21:22:14) Juna Have I stepped over the line and nothing I can ever do will make up for it?
- (21:24:34) shaymins@hotmail.com I don't know. I'm confused. But I just don't see us reconciling and our relationship going back to what it was, in the first place because I feel like us being friends again would take everything back to square one and that's no good.
- (21:24:54) Juna Our friendship is so weak, that as soon as anything happens that's beyond our predefined boundaries, it breaks. That's why we never fought, if we fought, it'd have crumbled.
- (21:25:12) shaymins@hotmail.com Also, you being around... kind of puts a strain on my relationship with Marissa. You may or may not be aware but she really hates you.
- (21:25:16) shaymins@hotmail.com That's true.
- (21:26:24) Juna I kind of sensed it. I don't like her either for the record. Too much random capslock, lol.
- Anyways, this sucks.
- (21:27:47) shaymins@hotmail.com It does suck. I came here to reach some kind of resolution, so. What do you think should happen from here?
- (21:28:18) Juna I'm glad you want to reach a resolution. It seems there are only two routes.
- (21:29:02) Juna I don't need to explain them, they're obvious.
- (21:29:26) Juna Just wanted to ask, did it hurt you like it hurt me?
- (21:30:45) shaymins@hotmail.com I'm guessing not. The way you felt about me was very different from how I felt about you. Plus I'm used to moving on quickly.
- (21:32:03) Juna I had it all worked out the other day. I forget what it is now, but it was so simple. Actually, over the past month I've had about 5 explanations, each as plausible as the next.
- (21:33:01) Juna Earlier today it was Distance + 'unreachableness' = obsession.
- (21:33:12) Juna Or rather, I want what I can't have.
- (21:33:21) Juna But that's a shitty explanation.
- (21:34:16) shaymins@hotmail.com I find that plausible.
- (21:35:22) Juna Well yeah, it's probably a mix of them all. I liked the other one 'cause it put me in a favourable light, it made me seem like the victim, but whatever.
- (21:35:31) Juna Point is, whether you believe me or not, it's gone.
- (21:36:06) shaymins@hotmail.com Great. So now what?
- (21:37:15) Juna I dunno man. I want to go back to talking and laughing, but ultimately it's up to you. Essentially, I'm begging for forgiveness, but without seeming pathetic.
- (21:38:34) Juna I fucked up, I'd been fucking it up for a while before the ultimate fuck up. I had no choice though, I couldn't go on any more.
- (21:39:06) Juna And as much as the past month has sucked, I've also had some of the best times of my life
- (21:39:22) shaymins@hotmail.com I see.
- (21:39:37) Juna I was rich, now I'm in debt xD
- (21:39:46) shaymins@hotmail.com Well, I know what I want so I'll stop beating around the bush about it.
- (21:40:02) shaymins@hotmail.com After tonight, I don't want to talk to you again.
- (21:40:34) shaymins@hotmail.com No emails, text messages, or random messages on Tumblr. I want this to be it. You get on with your life. I'll get on with mine.
- (21:41:37) Juna So, the past two and a half years meant nothing? Or you just found something better and feel no guilt about ditching and moving on?
- (21:42:06) Juna Go. Have a nice life. I thought you were better than that.
- (21:43:21) shaymins@hotmail.com Neither. I've felt enough guilt in the past month or so to last me a lifetime. It's not as if I haven't thought about it a lot, and this is what I decided in the end. Of course you don't like it. I didn't expect you to.
- (21:43:39) shaymins@hotmail.com But I need to know you aren't going to contact me any more before I go.
- (21:45:20) Juna I can't promise that. You meant more to me than I ever did to you, that's just how it was. Just know it doesn't have to end like this, but if you want it like that, so be it. I will move on, I was nearly there.
- (21:49:23) shaymins@hotmail.com Just do your best to not talk to me again. You can write huge-ass letters in notepad or whatever you need to do to keep yourself happy, but don't send them to me. My purpose in life is not to act as a receptacle to your feelings, especially given that I'm really not your friend any more.
- (21:50:14) Juna Okay. Seeya. It was fun.
- (21:50:25) shaymins@hotmail.com Adieu, Arjuna.
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