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- I see the sunlight out the window
- I groan at its bright light
- The white sheets cover my body like a shroud
- And I yawn loudly
- As yet another day begins
- Everything’s fine for a moment
- I feel at ease and satisfied
- Til on the floor I see my boxers tossed there
- I suddenly realize
- Something happened the night before
- I suddenly realize
- I’m stark naked in stark detail
- My thoughts wandered for a moment
- Trying to find what might have happened
- A conclusion dawned on me
- Yet I did not want to believe it
- At that moment
- A headache from hell
- A headache like none other I’d ever had
- Hit me like a raging tsunami
- I fell back onto the bed
- And thought for a moment
- I saw my clothes hanging on a chair
- And I thought back to the night before
- I was blackout drunk then
- But somehow, her image came to my mind
- She was lithe, with eyes of piercing blue
- And hair as golden as the sun
- And a smile warmer than any fireplace in winter
- One thing led to another
- Alcohol-soaked kisses led us to the bed
- What happened next was but a blur
- But we both a-slept together
- And now it’s morning
- And she’s gone from the room
- And here I am alone
- Barren like trees in winter waiting for spring
- I glance around the room
- The headache pounds me from all sides
- I don’t know when she’s coming back
- If ever
- But I know I have to do something
- Reluctantly, I creep from out of bed
- I look at my boxers cast out on the floor
- And grab them in my hands
- I grab my clothes and put them on
- Short and shirt and socks and shoes
- All follow in quick succession
- Now I’m dressed but have nothing to do
- She’s nowhere to be found
- And I have a feeling she won’t be back
- I take one last glance at the messy bed
- The sheets all crinkled
- I open up the window and see the traffic down below
- And wonder why the rush to meaningless work?
- I leave the room and head on out
- A mixture of emotions and questions swell through me:
- What happened?
- What did we do?
- Was it worth it, in the end?
- And I thought to myself what a chump I was
- I got what I’d always wanted
- Yet now I feel even more alone
- The headache is calming down a bit
- And in the light outside
- Where cars whizz on by without a care
- Where pedestrians walk and cyclists ride
- Everything looks so much different
- It’s said that nothing looks the same in the light
- And at that moment, that feeling surrounds me
- Part of me wants to turn back the clock
- Go back to where things were
- But I can’t
- So onwards I walk to this small cafe
- I order a coffee and take a seat outside
- In a corner, I saw this hipster
- He looked at me quizzically
- I saw him light a cigarette
- And even though I don’t usually smoke
- At that moment, having one felt right
- I asked him for a cigarette
- He lit it for me
- And before long, smoke flew into the air
- The smorgasbord of emotions I’d had
- Flew up into the heavens much as the smoke
- I smoked the cigarette a while and drank the coffee
- A moment passed by, and I felt as though a weight had been lifted
- I kept on smoking, seeing the cigarette smolder
- And remembered all this time that I had the girl’s number saved
- I grabbed my phone and tried to call her
- Only for it to turn out the number didn’t work
- Clearly, something had changed
- But at that moment, I was distracted again
- I turned back to that night
- Before we lay together
- And thought of just how much I’d drunk
- Bottles upon bottles of beer and liquor
- And countless shots
- They all went through me in quick succession
- And they ravished me inside
- This wasn’t my first time at a party
- This definitely wasn’t my first time drinking
- Hell, this wasn’t even the first time this had happened
- But something about this night
- Just felt different
- I finished the cigarette
- I went to ask the hipster for another one
- But before I could
- He’d already left
- I drank the last bits of the coffee
- Leaving the cafe, I walked on back
- At my apartment door, I stared once again
- I entered my apartment
- Closing the door, I thought of what happened
- I’d had another one night stand
- Another one night stand that I knew I’d regret
- And here I was regretting it
- I put a record on to play
- Its music reverberating across the room
- And I thought to myself
- What a day this had been
- I’d ravished a girl the night before
- For it to end as little more than sheer regret
- And I felt played like a fiddle
- The music kept on playing
- And I thought back to that morning
- Thinking of how low things had gotten
- That I was naked in a stranger’s room
- Thinking of how low things had gotten
- That I let myself be used for a night of pleasure
- Surely, this was not a good thing
- And yet, I let myself be taken in for the ride of a lifetime
- Clearly, I’d done one too many a one-night stands
- Clearly, something was wrong with me
- I told myself right then and there
- This will be the last time this ever happens
- And yet, as I said those words
- I knew full well that it would indeed happen again
- The music finished playing
- I went on to my room
- Despite the fact that it was day
- A weird tiredness overwhelmed me
- I turned on the TV
- But I wasn’t really watching anything
- It was little more than some background noise
- While my thoughts raged on in the background
- I decided to call a friend of mine
- And tell him what I felt
- And after that was said and done
- I felt a bit better
- I was still dealing with the hangover
- So I closed the curtains
- And brought darkness upon the room
- I fell asleep, the TV still on
- When I awoke
- It was late in the night
- I knew I had work the next day
- I couldn’t stay up too late
- And yet, a burst of energy sprung out of me
- I went on walking down the streets
- The streetlights illuminating my way
- As I walked a while
- Some time passed and while I walked
- I kept on thinking of what had happened
- Surely, Sam,
- I said to myself
- Don’t beat yourself up over it
- Surely, Sam
- Just let it go
- And on that thought went into my mind
- But the thought of it lingered
- And a silencer was needed
- I headed back home
- And poured some wine
- For whatever reason
- The thought of work went away
- Her charms were much too strong
- Then I fell asleep
- Awakening the morning after
- I found my clothes strewn on the floor
- My phone was buzzing loudly
- And I looked at my clock
- And at that moment I realized
- Everything old was new again
- I realized I’d just started over
- Ain’t it funny how life works sometimes?
- Well, it sure won’t be funny when my boss will come a-knockin’
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