I am suffering from a chronic negative feedback loop that happened when I changed countries and went to live in the UK.

I started with a new girl and I was really nervous I guess? Even though I had 4 partners before her.

Then we went to have sex again and it was up. Then it went down. So it was leaving my mind filled with mystery if I would get it up next time or not. This has been ongoing for a whole year now, getting into the second. Sometimes I want to have sex but I feel my heart beat. It is not super fast, its just that I can feel it. Anxiety? But why?

I have great sex. The girls love it. So why then?

On a night where I would get into a bed with a girl and it would get up, everything would be fine and my confidence would be off the charts. I would even be able to parallel park my long ass sedan in a difficult to park place surrounded by other cars.

On a night where It wont, I just lay there with the girl and ask myself why the hell is this happening now? I want to have sex, I really want it.

So okay, I will cool off. Then I would start touching her and we would start kissing again and boom, a fucking erection.

Why? What is going on with my body?

I am a healthy not even 21 year old male with regular exercise habits who has never smoked a cigarette in his life. And for those almost two years I have been battling stress before performance. But why on earth???? What am I stressed about?

If a girl is let down by me, she would still want to see me again and have sex. And we would eventually have sex.

SO why am I anxious? If I have shown MYSELF that a number of women have been let down and would still want me later.. why is the problem still there?