"How the hell do I talk to girls"/ I guess thats over

Covet: Felix made his way downstairs, holding onto the basketball that was still partially vandalized by Jade, though he'd been taking to getting some serious scratching, getting a good chunk of it off. He had his headphones on and was blasting music loudly mostly because he was perfectly content being in his own little mad/hurt world. He moved to one of the couches and flopped back and started tossing the ball up in the air, giving it a good backspin each time.
Tsaaq: ((Whaaaat what happened?!))
Alexithymiaa: -Adam was sitting at the kitchen table with his laptop open and his headphones looped up over his head, slightly offset so one side covered one ear and the other ear was free for the hearing of the house. He'd tweaked and played with the track Steph was SUPPOSED to pay him for before getting wrapped up in her own shit, and he figured while he still had it he might as well just play around with it. Hearing footsteps coming down the stairs, he twisted in his seat and turned to see Felix flop onto the couch, waving his hand to him. "Hey."-
Alexithymiaa: (There was arguing)
Tsaaq: ((When was that? And damn what did the bitch do?))
Alexithymiaa: (Tuesday)
Alexithymiaa: (Jade paid off the loan Felix took out on his jeep to help steph with money things. And then Steph found out that Felix did that and was mad because the lies. And then Felix was like I love you and she was like WTF IS HAPPENING and she bailed and now everyones sad)
Covet: [Yeah.. That!]
Tsaaq: Thaddeus left his room, the doggos running down the hallway towards the living room like it was a playground. "No. Wrong. Outside is where we're going." He told them firmly. He looked over to Felix and furrowed his eyebrows as he kind of stared in awe. "Hey man." He said, not realizing that he was wearing headphones.
Covet: Clearly Felix couldn't hear Adam as he said hey, over his poor hearing and how he blasted his music anyways. Thought he wasn't much for company right now anyways since he was all moody and shit right now. His thoughts drifted and he missed catching the ball, catching it with his face instead, "Son ova..." He said groaning as he just laid there, the motion reminding him of when Steph had hit him in the face with the very same ball, that's when he realized that Thad's dogs were in the living room, causing him to sit up and realize that there was actually people around. "Uh hey.. sorry didn't realize you guys were around..."
Alexithymiaa: -Adam pulled his headphones down around his neck and draped his arm over the back of his chair, his eyes following the doggies racing into the living room. He happened to catch Felix hitting himself in the face with the ball, wincing fast. "Are you okay?"-
Tsaaq: He flinched once the ball collided with Felix's face. "Yeah..." He trailed off. "Yeah, you alright?" He asked as well, stepping deeper into the living room as the dogs played under the couch.
Covet: "Yeah, I'm fine. Great, even." Felix said flatly. "Don't worry about it." He said shrugging it off, as he looked around. "So uh... What are you guys up to?" He asked between the two of them.
Alexithymiaa: "Well that only sounded a little sarcastic." He said with a laugh, jerking his hand toward his computer to gesture to it as he spoke. "Just tweaking this song. The more I listen to it, the more I want to go back and change things. I can't decide if I need more of an EDM feel, or less. What about you?"-
Tsaaq: Thad tilted his head a bit the pulled the strings of his hoodie tighten it against his stupid head. "Playing with my little boys." He said waving his hand at Charles and Erik. "Thinking of smoking a little pot before bed..." He trailed off, looking a little shameful. "What's up with your ball?"
Covet: "Only a little, damn. I'm failing at that too." Felix said then looked down at his headphones, "Blasting EDM, actually and trying to drown out my mood, nothing big." He shrugged then looked down at his ball glaring, "Jade took it upon herself to completely cover up Steph's artwork. So now I've been trying to get it off."
Alexithymiaa: "EDM?" Adam asked, perking up a bit. "What are you listening to?" His eyes fell on his ball, removing his headphones to set them down on the table so he could stand up and walk over to the living room. "Unfortunately I think anything that makes it easier to get off will also take off the rest of the paint. Is that what's got you so down?"-
Tsaaq: "That's not cool..." Thad muttered. "Want me to like, buy you another basketball and you can have Steph do stuff on it again?" He asked then frowned at himself cause that sounded dumb and weird.
Covet: "Monstercat." Felix said then nodded, "I had already talked to her about doing it up again, once I get all this shit off of it." He said, "But.. I don't even know if that will happen or not."
Alexithymiaa: "Monstercat is awesome." He said with a smile as he walked over to take a seat down on the couch. His amusement slowly faded as he listened to Felix, nodding to Thad's comment. "Yeah, why not? I'm sure she'd fix it for you."-
Tsaaq: His thick eyebrows furrowed and he shrugged. "Hey man, basketballs aren't that expensive. If you really don't want to spare it right now you can just pay me back later or something?" He offered, completely missing the possibility that the basketball wasn't the problem
Alexithymiaa: (This jackass)
Covet: "Nah, money's not the issue. Sorry...It has more to do with the fact that Steph hasn't talked to me since Jade tried to do something nice that ended up causing this whole other issue with Steph, and she hasn't talked to me since it went down. So. Yeah. Shit sucks."
Alexithymiaa: "Oh..." Adam fell into silence a little awkwardly, shifting in his seat. "Well.... girls are kind of complicated, I guess. You could try flowers? I don't know, that's always worked for me."-
Tsaaq: He frowned and lowered his head as he went to sit on the other couch. "Oh..." He chimed in. "That Jade huh?" He muttered, not really able to offer anything better than Adam which said a lot. "Whenever Dori is sad I just sort of... Do whatever she wants. Is that an option?"
Alexithymiaa: (Is there worse advice at this point?)
Covet: Felix reached up and scratched his head, "I mean.. I felt like I already did a pretty ultimate gesture.. and all that seemed to do was scare her off, so maybe it's just better if I give her some space about it."
Covet: [They both suck XD]
Covet: [Along with Bryan's "get her a cat"]
Alexithymiaa: (Thats always Bryans advice. This person is sad? Get them a new pet.)
Alexithymiaa: (NEVER TAKE BRYANS ADVICE. GOD DAMMIT BRYAN STOP GETTING PEOPLE PETS.)
Alexithymiaa: "You scared her off with an ultimate gesture? But I thought girls liked that kind of stuff. And usually the bigger the gesture, the more girls like it. So if that didn't work... I don't really know..." He thought for a moment, shrugging his shoulders. "I always thought anything that comes cliche with Valentines day is a safe bet. Flowers, candy, jewelry, teddy bears... but that might just be bribing her... I don't think I'm very good at this."-
Tsaaq: Thaddeus stared over at Adam. "I'm pretty sure that's bribing." He muttered with a skeptical look because, so many questions. "I don't know... Maybe you should like..." Thaddeus paused and went silent. "Damn." he whispered.
Covet: "Yeah, You're guess is as good as mine. I thought telling a girl you loved her was kind of a good thing, but all the same she bailed. Her Brother recomended I get her a cat." Felix muttered. "My mom is the one who said just give her some time to think about it. I think she forgets how impatient I can be."
Alexithymiaa: "I dont think getting someone a live pet as a gift is ever really a good idea. I love my dog, but I wasn't exactly prepared to take care of her when I got her for my birthday." He leaned forward and rested his elbows on his knees, looking at Felix. "That sounds like pretty good advice, especially coming from a mom. But did she say how much time you're supposed to give her?"-
Tsaaq: "Oh god, thats a no." Thaddeus said. "Maybe like a stuffed one, or those things that hatch now that kids like?" He said with a shrug. He rose an eyebrow, waiting for Felix to speak again.
Covet: "You know I asked that same question... And I was told, just give her time. So.. It could be a few days, a week, a month.. who knows." He said throwing his arms up. "Women are complicated." Felix grumbled as he leaned forward putting his head into his hands.
Alexithymiaa: "Well..." He started, not really coming up with any good advice. "When did this happen? Because I think more than a week and you might be walking a dangerous line. And when you do break radio silence... what are you supposed to say?"-
Tsaaq: "Isn't there like... Anything on youtube that explains any of this stuff?" Thaddeus asked, taking out his cellphone.
Alexithymiaa: (BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA)
Covet: Felix groaned and rubed his hands down his face, "Tuesday... I have no idea. I appologized... I said I love you.. what more can I say? If she wants out, I don't think there's anything I can do or say. Maybe? Maybe there's a channel where girls are talking about this."
Alexithymiaa: "Don't you think if she wanted to break up, that she would have done it already?" He asked, perking up when Thad mentioned Youtube. "Yeah, look it up. Something has to be out there. It's the internet. Everything is on the internet."-
Tsaaq: He quickly went to his youtube app. "I dont know-" He began to mutter. "I don't know! There's a lot of videos here. I'm not sure which to pick!" Thad answered as if in a panic. "Do we just make a playlist and watch them all?"
Covet: "Maybe? I mean, she was quick to jump to that before we made everything official when she assumed I was going on a date with Jade. So it's gotta be just the time thing." Felix said then looked over to Thad, "Yeah, sure.. I think by how this conversation's gone we could all use the info."
Alexithymiaa: "Yeah, we're not good at this...." Adam spoke in a small voice, his eyes focusing on Thad's phone. "I know bribery is the wrong answer, but honestly it still feels like the right answer..."-
Tsaaq: He shook his head. "Stop. Bribing is always bad." He said with firm nod. "Okay... I made a playlist called the 'I'm sorry I'm bad at talking to you honey' playlist. I can send it to everybody and we can deliberate on how we can make situations better." He said. "Right?" He furrowed his eyebrows. "Hey wait just tell her you don't want to go on a date with Jade?"
Covet: "Dude, I already went on the date with Jade without knowing she thought it was a date. But then she posted on Squawks that it was a date and Steph got mad. But I already made that up to her, so we're good there. But yeah, send me that playlist and I'll watch it before I crash out, see if it helps me come up with a better idea of what to do."  He said getting up, picking up his ball as well. "Thanks for the company and shit tonight." He said to them before he pulled his headphones back on and made his way upstairs.
Alexithymiaa: "Yeah, send that to me." He said with a nod as he pushed up to his feet and walked back over into the kitchen to collect his laptop and headphones, tucking them under his arm and turning back to Thad. "Have a good night." He turned and headed up the stairs behind Felix, making his way to his bedroom to watch this fucking Youtube playlist. I hate them.-
Tsaaq: Thad frowned and nodded with understanding. "Night man." He said to Adam as he stared at his screen. "Yeah I'm sending it to all you guys." He called out, Erik jumped into his lap as he began to watch the videos.
Smokeless: [any of oyu staying up longer?]
Tsaaq: ((Yes for little.))
Smokeless: [ok]
Smokeless: Dori pulled up to the house and she sighed cutting the negine to her car. Her mind was swirling with thoughts. She grabbed her bag with ehr uniform slightly sticking out. she made her way up the driveway and fumbled with her keys. She unlocked the door and walked in to the house,-
Tsaaq: Thad was still on the couch when she came in. He immediately turned off the video and put his phone in his hoodie pocket as he looked over to her. "Hey bae, welcome home." He greeted hurried. "Sooooo, are you in?" He asked, waiting on her answer with a smile.
Smokeless: Dori jumped when she heard Thad speak ad placed her hand on her chest and took a deep breath."jesus..." she closed the door and she nodded her head."umm yeah..I made the team..."She looked at him and forced a smile on her face.
Tsaaq: "Okay. Good. I'm glad." He nodded at her before shrugging as he turned away from her, going to pet Erik softly as he rolled around in Thad's lap.
Smokeless: Dori looked down at Erik and she nodded her head."Yeah..."she then looked up at Thad and swallowed hard."What have you been up to today?" she leaned against the back of one of the couches
Tsaaq: "Nothing really. Just a down day before I work for the rest of the weekend." He answered and gave her an easy smile. "Just hanging out with the guys, doing guy stuff." Thad added awkwardly.
Smokeless: She nodded her head and looked around a little. She drew in a deep."So umm i'm thinking bout getting a cat...How do you feel about cats?" she was testing the waters a little. She felt her stomach knot up abit-
Tsaaq: Thaddeus furrowed his thick eyebrows then shrugged his shoulders again. "Eh, I'm not a huge fan of them but they're okay." He answered quietly. "Erik and Charles like to play with cats... Or to." He said. "Hayley has a cat so... I guess make sure you don't get a guy cat so it doesn't get knocked up?" He suggested.
Smokeless: She nodded her head and cleared her throat some. She set her bag down and  sat on the other end of the couch and she looked at him."Thad...I think we need to talk..." she rubbed her sweaty palms on her sweats and drew in a deep breath
Tsaaq: "Yeah sure. What's up?" He asked looking over at her as he put Erik down onto the floor to play with Charles. He peered carefully at her. "You okay?"
Smokeless: "Yeah I'm fine." she shook her head and she was thinking for a moment."Thad I think I deserve to know everything...no one wants to tell me what happen with you in the past....I think I deserve to know. I'm tired of being the only person left in the dark here. I want the truth and all of it....and if you can't tell me the truth right now then I don't think our relationship is going to work..I need to be able to trust you and have no secrets between us."
Tsaaq: He furrowed his eyebrows at her as she spoke. "Wow, I feel like I've told you a whole bunch already though..." He trailed off awkwardly. "Well um... Okay. But I mean... The problem with me telling you things I've done in detail is if you don't go to the cops about it you kind of become an accessory to my crimes it kind of seems kind of like... A lot of trouble." He said with a small frown. "So if you don't that I'm not giving my criminal resume... I thought I was doing you a favor."
Smokeless: She looked at him."You don't have to tell me detials. I know you shot someones fucking cat which is really really fucked up." She looked at him and she didn't know why but her heart sunk down to her stomach and she felt like she was going to be sick. She liked Thad alot."I know you raped Hayley...but steph told me today that is nothing compared to what you did...It scares me to be honest..."she felt tears wanting to escape her eyes.
Tsaaq: "I told you I've done bad shit. I was very clear about that." He said. "I've done a lot of stuff. I've raped a lot of girls but you knew that too. I told you. And yeah I killed that guy's cat but to be fair he had like... Eight cats. It didn't really make a difference. And it was this other guy's fault who was with me- cause he didn't know how to work his gun cause he was an idiot-" He explained in a exasperated but casual tone. "That's not to say it isn't completely horrible though" He said, raising a tattooed hand to her. "You know what? You have every right to be scared and if you don't want to talk to me anymore? That's fine." He shrugged again, settling into silence.
Smokeless: She looked at him and a few tears escaped her eyes and she wiped them away quickly."You don't care do you...I'm just another girl to you. I knew about one girl Thad. One. I figured maybe it was a I was drunk didn't know what I was doing kind of thing. bit alot of girls is not ok." She stood up and took a deep breath."If I'm that easy to let go for you then why even ask me to be your girlfriend in the first place." she picked up her bag outting it on her shoulder."I don't think we should be together Thad I'm sorry for wasting your time...." She didn't know why but it hurt to break up with him. She felt like everything in her screamed to run run far away but she actually enjoyed their time together when ever they got it but things jsut seemed like small talk to her lately and she tried not to let him see her cry to much.
Tsaaq: "Cause if I didn't ask you to be my girlfriend it would've been fucked up.
Tsaaq: ((NOOO ENTER BUTTON.))
Smokeless: [lol]
Tsaaq: "Cause if I didn't ask you to be my girlfriend it would've been fucked up?" He answered with a slow blink. "You're not just another girl... I'm not gonna say that. That isn't true... But what I did wasn't a drunken decision, it was calculated, conscientous thing I did because I knew it would hurt her. Do I regret it? Yeah. Can I sit here and act like I didn't do it? No." He shrugged again. "I thought when I told you that you understood but I guess not." Thaddeus's voice got lower. "I mean... You didn't waste my time. And no, it's only easy because this is the reaction I deserve. To be honest I don't really know how you went this long without feeling like this but I was expecting it." Thaddeus stood up. "Don't cry, why are you crying? You want to break up with me."
Smokeless: She screamed at him and threw a pillow at him."NO! IT is fucked up to make me fall for you! To make me feel special! T-t-to make me love you! That is fucked up! The nto sit ehre and jsut act like it's fucking nothing!"Her lower lip quivered and the tears just strolled down her cheeks. She was lsot for words and she did feel that way."I'm crying because you scare the shit out of me but I do Love you. at least that's how I feel. it's obvious now that's not how you feel about me."She felt like she was loosing her mind."It's more then just your past Thad. We can't do anything together without something getting in the way. Hell I can't even remember the last time we had sex or even did anything remotely sexual. You are ocnstantly looking over your shoulder a paraniod mess. I don't know what is fucking wrong with me."
Smokeless: [i got lazy with my typign im sorry XD]
Tsaaq: Thaddeus flinched a little before frowning while she shouted. "I'm not acting like its nothing." He said before he put his hand on the back of his head as he looked around. "I never said I don't feel that way..." He trailed off. "I wasn't trying to make you love me or anything! I don't see how that's my fault!" He began to yell back at her. He sighed loudly and threw his hands down. "Ugh, what the fuck am I supposed to say to that?" He groaned. "Well sorry if me raping a bunch of girls lowered my libido significantly!" He yelled. "Okay, well. What do you want me to do. It's either I live like this, move away, go back to being a psychopathic shitbag or go to prison. But none of those options would make you happy so honestly what are you suggestions cause I'm out of ideas."
Smokeless: Her voice went higher as she got angry with him."DON"T FUCKING YELL AT ME! You don't get to fucking yell puta!"she groaned andbit her fist at him."So just sititng ther efucking casucally is nothing! Oh I expected this" she ocked him and picked up pillow after pillow throwing it at him.She ran out of pillows and so she just shoved at him. her duffle bag was long gone now."Stop eing a prick! and for once act like my boyfriend! Don't date me because it's the right thing to do! do it because you actually have fucking feelings for me! Do nice things for me! Treat me the way I fuckingdeserved to be treated! because no fucking woman would put up with the shit I have been putitng up with!"she pointed her finger up at him and went to push it agianst his temple."GEt it through your fucking head! MAKE SHIT BETTER!"
Tsaaq: He moved away from her pillows a few of them hitting him and the rest flying past him. He sighed and went quiet, just letting her yell at him. "I'm sorry I've been treating you so horribly then." He shrugged his shoulders. "I uh, don't have a gauge for how a good relationship is supposed to go, so I assumed since I wasn't being an asshole to your or whatever that it was going good but it sounds more like you're not satisfied with me than the other way around." He said. "I like you and all. But maybe I'm not what you want. Maybe you made some type of imaginary Thad that you want but he doesn't exist. Because who's standing in front of you is what you're getting and like everything else in like I'm still a work in progress." Thad said softly. He inhaled deeply, gently swatting your hand away. "I'm not gonna talk to you when you're like this." He said calmly as he went to walk around her..
Tsaaq: ((in life***))
Smokeless: "Fine" she moved from him and grabbed her bag shoving past him."Good night Thad. I'll get the stuff I left in your room tomorrow or something." she made ehr way into her own room and slammed the door shut. She went to her bed plopping down and burring her face into it
Tsaaq: "I'll save you the trouble and just put it in a box or something so you don't have to come in my room. I'll do it right now." He said, rolling her as she stormed away and went into her room. He went towards his bedroom and grabbed an empty shoe box and began to gather Dori's things into it.
Tsaaq: ((rolling his eyes at her**))
Smokeless: She huffed as she had heard him about her stuff and just ignored him. dori's eyes widen abit and she sat up in her bed. She left her room and rushed to the bathroom"shit shit shit shit shit." she slamemd the bathroom door shut and puleld her pants down seeing the red in ehr favorite panties"OH COME ON!" she stripped down ran cold water over them as she got everythign she needed did her business
Tsaaq: The doggies followed him as he moved back and forth in his room. He looked around the bed before shrugging. He heard more shouting from Dori and sighed. "Guys, come on." He said, looking down at them as they trailed him. "Just get on the bed." Thad said calmly, grabbing the lid to the box and putting it outside his bedroom door before softly closing it.
Smokeless: Dori finished up in the bathroom and walked out seeing the shoe box.It had really hit her then it was actually over between them. She picked the box up and she spoke in a more calm manner."Thank you.." she sighed and headed to her own room and laid on the bed setting the box on the shelf. she puleld her phone out looking at the screen. she slid it open and flipped through her pictres knowing she would probably have to delte them now but she didnt think she was ready for that yet and just stared at it
Tsaaq: Thaddeus pulled off his hoodie as he turned off his bedroom light. "No problem." He answered once he heard her voice. He looked over to the bed and pursed his lips a moment before just taking off his shorts and climbing into bed and just laying there in the dark with the dogs not really going to sleep just yet.
Smokeless: Dori sighed and she went to her messages texting him."I'm sorry..."she hit send and placed the phone under her pillow as she got comfortable. She was thinking hard about what had just happen.
Tsaaq: He heard his phone vibrate and sighed, reaching his long arm out to grab his phone and glanced at the message and stared at it a moment. He sat up on the edge of his bed. He got up and went to his door and stepped out the bedroom, knocking on her door softly and crossing his arms as he waited to see if she'd answer.
Smokeless: Dori heard the tap on the door and she sat up in her bed for a moment. She got up and sighed and made her way over to the door and cracked it open looking up at him. She looked like a sad little puppy.
Tsaaq: "Are you ready to actually talk?" He asked her quiet, stepping back so she could come out of the room.
Smokeless: she closed the door behind her and she nodded her head"yes..."
Tsaaq: "Do you want to break up or not?" He asked her firmly. "I made it clear, if you feel like I'm not what you want then it's fine. I'm not like other guys. I had no concept of caring about other people until like a year ago. I still don't really know what I'm doing. And I'm still working through shit. If you feel like it's too much to be with somebody like me then that's fine. Okay?" He told her gently.
Smokeless: She looked down and rubbed her arm."I want to do couple stuff...I want to go out on dates and be able to dance at dances....I want to wake up to little good morning texts and stuff like that." she took a deep  and finally looked up at him."I enjoy your company nad I do have feelings for you. I want to still be around you but our relationship doesnt feel like a relationship to me..."
Tsaaq: He shrugged his shoulders. "I don't know if you'd be able to do that kind of stuff with me to be perfectly honestly with you..." He trailed off. "I can't really promise that if you stay with me it would be a normal relationship. When you're with me you're kind of also agreeing that you're okay with not really being around people, getting weird looks and if you can't handle that then maybe this  isn't enough for you."
Smokeless: She swallowed hard listening to him and she wiped her eyes before the tears could even escape."Maybe it isn't....but it hurts still..." she leaned against her door and crossed her arms over her chest. she sucked her lower lip in and bit it to keep it from quivering.she looked away from him and down the hall-
Tsaaq: "I mean... I don't know what to tell you. I'm not going to say we can do all those things because I know for a fact we can't. And I know for a fact that I'm trying but at the same time I don't really know what I'm doing. If you feel like you deserve better then... I guess you should find somebody who would treat you the way you want." He said frowning a bit, he awkwardly put his hand on her shoulder and patted her.
Smokeless: "I know..." she looked at his hand as it patted her shoulder."I'm sorry for yelling at you and I am sorry for expecting more out of you especially while knowing everything I know."she lookeddown at her feet and her foot scuffed at the floor."I hope we can still be friends though..."
Tsaaq: He shrugged his shoulders once more. "It's okay. Don't worry about it." He gave her a half hug before stepping away. "Yeah, I don't see any reason why not." He replied. "Now... I'm gonna head to bed I think." He said.
Smokeless: She just stood there and didn't even bother to hug him back."Okay..Goodnight" she turned and opened the door to her room and just closed it heading to bed putting her night time clothes on.
Tsaaq: "Sleep tight." He called out and turned to go back into the darkness of his room and went back to bed.
Smokeless: [nini mani :)]
Tsaaq: ((Niiiight.))